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Stum Casia Aug 2015
Bilang na ang aking maliligayang araw.
dalawa na lang. Kung isasama yung pangakong panlilibre ng lomi
ng mga kasamahan sa pabrika sa unang restday matapos ang endo-
tatlo. At ganito pala ang feeling ng may taning.
Para kang nasa nilulumot na aquarium na walang oxygen
at goldfish kang kasama ng dalawang golden arowana.
Hindi ka makahinga.
Sa a kinse, matuloy man o hindi ang balitang super-bagyo
Tapos na ang limang buwang kontrata.

Matatapos na rin ba ang hindi naumpisahang pagsinta?
Tulad ng paghahanap ng mga skater sa kanilang skate park,
matatagpuan ko rin ba ang lakas loob at habambuhay na hindi na?

Kaya naman kaninang tanghalian, wala akong kwentong maihain sa iyo.
Parang habambuhay ko ngang uubusin yung inorder kong BBQ
kanin at RC.
Paano ko ba sasabihing baka isa na ito sa huling dalawang tanghalian na sabay tayong kakain?
Paano ko ba sasabihin na sa maraming pagkakataon na sabay tayong kumakain,
nagtitipid ako at hindi naman talaga ako nagugutom.
Gusto lang kita makasama kasi parang gusto na kita.
Pero tulad ng inililihim kong pagtatapos ng aking kontrata

Hindi mo alam.

Hindi mo alam na ikaw ang dahilan kung bakit masarap ang simoy ng hangin sa loob ng pabrika
kahit wala naman talagang bintana at inuubong industrial fan lang ang meron tayo.
Hindi mo alam kung anong kapanatagang nararamdaman ko
tuwing sinasabihan mo akong mag-iingat ako
tuwing uwian kahit ang totoo, hindi natin kakilala ang kaligtasan
at kapanatagan sa pabrikang walang fire exit
at benefits.

Yun talaga yun, hindi mo alam.
Pero alam mo naman sigurong salot talaga ang kontraktwalisasyon?

At maramot talaga sa mga lovestory nating mga below-minimum-wage-earners
at contractual workers ang sistema ng paggawa sa Pilipinas.
Sa mga susunod na bukas, ikaw naman ang mag-e-endo.
Baka mapunta ka sa Savemore na tadtad din ng kontraktwal.
At masnatch ang numero mo at hindi na kita matatawagan.
At ako, baka sa hirap humanap ng trabaho maisangla ko ang aking telepono.
At isang monumentong singlaki ng Mall of Asia ang itatayo sa pagitan nating dalawa.

Kasalanan ito ni Ernesto Hererra.
andydaly Jan 2023
SAD
Sparkling, silvery, shades of grey.
Skin, shivering, brain of dismay.

Trees, trancing, bare naked sky.
Patiently, pondering, preparing to fly.

Wind, whistling, a dancing swoon.
Sounds, serenading a sparkling moon.  

Secret , system of the seasons.
The rhythm of winter needs no reasons.

Seasonal affective disorder,
Justify this infective inorder.
The empty beer cans that you used to defy gravity
They empty shampoo canisters that washed away your wrath and loss
The empty notebooks not filled with the poetry you weren’t inspired enough to write
The pages of books you couldn’t finish but pretend you did
The lost shoes and who you where with you feet deep in grass and not cardboard
The bed you don’t sleep in because you have found a warmth the don’t sterilize
The roommate who things didn’t fill up your cupboards now designated for other objects
The roads you don’t drive because you have nowhere to go

Life is in the muffled noises you hear between rooms
The nights you didn’t take pictures
The ones you don’t remember even though they shaped your exact being
The times you felt boring
Or when you didn’t realize how many substances you were on
Or the papers you could have made genius  
The empty boxes of hairdye that washed out in a week and didn’t cure your suburban binality
The dumb tattoos you want to get but now would be a shameful laser treatment
Your daydreams that never came true
Your daydreams that always came true and somehow didn’t lead up to there power of inception

Life is in other peoples good nights
Other people dark pasts of drug abuse and  civil unrest in the **** of an earthquake
Life is in the drug you where afraid to do
In the lies that you tell to become a different person
Its in the people you treated like **** for your own guilty needs
Its in the people whose gritty *** you walked in on

Life is in your lack of passions or skills or drive or organization
Its in the stupid ironic thift store choices you don’t throw away but never wear for 99 cents
Its in all the time you didn’t sing in a crowd
And you let someone convince you of facts you knew where wrong
It in every liar, and ****** human being you defined inorder to not believe they were ****
Its in every used ****** of the one night stands that made miserable times but good stories
Its in *** length hair
In tongue scars
In the people who know too much about you and you have know idea

Life is in your love of things you hate
In empty coffee cups that once saved you in a moment of weakness
In all the tears you shed drunk
Its in all you temporary obsessions and forgotten hobbies
The greeting cards you didn’t read and the thank you you never gave

Life is in the person you thought you would be right now
The empty packs of stubbed cigarettes
The forgotten names and anonymous snuggles
The empty guns and unfolded knives
The unmailed letters that help you reach redemption by telling them you would never forget

Life is in the times you didn’t run to the wild
The people who weren’t who you thought
The soul mates that became frat brothers
Or those people who drifted because you didn’t no what to say anymore

Life is in our unbrushed teeth
Or the void you cant find
Or the puzzle piece hid under the radiator
Life is in the wine bottles we stack

Life is in what we treat as forgotten streaming unconscious waste
Because we always looked ahead, and to empty more that will never fill
Joshua Feb 2019
Naalala ko pa yung araw na napagdesisyunan kong kumain sa McDo.
Kasi wala lang, trip ko lang.
Hindi naman ako gutom, hindi rin pagod.
Pero nag-McDo ako.

Noong panahong yun,
Saka ko lang narealize yung sinasabi nilang "Self Worth."
Pahalagahan ang sarili, mahalin.
Bagay na hindi ko nagawa sa nakaraan.
Kaya ayun, nagwakas, natuldukan.
Paano naman nga ba kasi magpapahalaga sa iba
Kung sarili ko nga di ko mapahalagahan.

Umorder na ko ng fries at Big Mac
Syempre kasama ang paborito kong McFloat.
Nasa kalagitnaan na ko ng pagnguya
Nung nagtanong ka
"May nakaupo na po ba?"
Hindi ko na tiningnan ang kanyang mukha
Umiling nalang ako.
Nagtataka rin kasi ako bat sa harap ko pa naisipan **** umupo.
Yun pala, wala na talagang pwesto sa McDo.

Binasag mo ang katahimikan sa pagpapakilala mo sa akin.
Bigla atang lumamig ng hangin
Lalo na nung nakita kong nakangiti ka sakin.

Nagkakilala tayo. Naging magkaibigan.

Ikaw ang nagsilbi kong Happy Meal
sa araw-araw na paggising ko.
Hindi ko na kailangan ng Happy Meal toy
Kasi makasama ka lang enjoy na ako.
Ikaw yung chicken fillet na
sa sobrang lambot ng pisngi mo nanggigigil ako.
Ikaw yung Hot Fudge na mas matamis pa
sa Dairy Milk kasi sobrang sweet mo.
At para kang gravy ng McDo
na hanggat di ubos yung ulam magrerefill ako.

Hanggang isang araw, inaya mo ko mag-McDo.
Masaya akong sumama kasi minsan lang yun.
Ako naman ililibre ng taong madalas ilibre ko.
Feeling ko tuloy sasagutin mo na ako.
Nagpresenta kang ikaw na o-order
At ako nang bahala sa uupuan.
Hindi ko alam bakit pagkaupo ko palang
Nakaramdam na ko ng kalungkutan.
Natakot ako bigla sa di malamang dahilan.

Buti dumating ka na, at
Buti nakangiti ka.
Ngunit ako ay nagtaka na
Ang pagkaing binili mo ay hindi para sa dalawa.
Agad **** sinabi saken na saglit lang,
May pupuntahan ka lang.

Pagkaalis mo, kinain ko na ang binili mo.
Pero nagulat ako
Matapos kong i-angat ang burger na inorder mo.
"Hindi pa pala ako handa."
Nakasulat sa sticky note na nilagay mo.
Di ko alam ano ibig **** sabihin
Kaya nagdecide akong ikaw ay hintayin.
Mahal, sabi mo saglit.
Pero bakit hindi ka na bumalik?
Iniwan mo na ako.
Iniwan mo gamit ang isang sticky note,
Kasama ang favorite kong McFloat.
Queen Aug 2014
She is the exception to the rule
Does not conform to the ways of others
She sets her own path and lives by her rules.

She is unique
A light of inspiration to those who know her not and pillar of strength to those who do.
They call her weird, crazy, different
Inorder to display their lack of understanding.

She is beautiful
A beauty that goes beyond the physical
The beauty that many a lady strive for but never attain
The beauty that radiates from within
And is seen through her eyes and breathtaking smile.

Exceptional, unique, beautiful
Three words to describe my amazing friend,
Whom I will love and cherish till the very end.
ZT Oct 2017
My mind isn't a one way track
The weak train who is now almost giving up
From the back and forth ride
Decisions are made only after
Thinking about it a 100 times
After my actions are done
I think about it a 100 times more

The weak train who is now almost giving up
The train wants to stop
The train wants to rest

The train doesn't know itself
The train asks if he is indeed a train
The train thinks he is no longer a train
but a pendulum
from those thoughts always swinging back and forth

The doctor says thinking hardly is a good thing
Inorder to come up with a good decision
But doctor
what you dont know is
the train still hasnt made a decision
it's mind is still full of question
running back and forth
till now, it still hasn't reached its destination
A walk...
Trying not to remember...
But dimensions of brain
Dancing with persistence of vision..
Reflecting again and again...
Even the cigarettes n wine... fail ...
That's the beauty of cactuses...
....
Samtoy Nov 2019
Its been so long since I left
But now I'm quite sure
I am feeling so well
Cause I found a cure

Messed up with my words
Run out of paper and pen
Now I've got these swords
Inorder to rise again
Its been a long time since I lasted posted here so I am back again guys
Amber Sep 2017
I am not what you think I am.
Colourful, joyful, laughter and excitement.
I am dull, gloomy, serious and calm.
I do not find joy in loudness but in stillness I do.
I do not find pleasure in pleasing anyone because i cannot even please myself.
I am not picture perfect like you see me on pictures but i am raw, a mastering hideous perfectly formed flaw.
I do not have the perfect smile because real smiles do not exist in my real world.
My body is not what you imagined it to be because it is a skeleton out of it's closet.
I am not free as i may seem because i am trapped.  
I am trapped in the flamerous and distructive thoughts of mine that are beckering at what i have become.
I am so afraid of what i have become, i have become so poisenious to myself.
I have become so out of value , i was once a diamond and now i am gravel.
I am used as a road for growth for some and a road of example of an expired female to the rest.

I am done, i am a dead body with a soul trying to live but soon will be ready to take it's life.
There is really no other way to describe myself other than expired, disasterious and into ashes.
I am trying so hard to cleanse all my past, my wounds , my flaws but the more i cleanse them the bigger they fluster.
Maybe the scars of all the heartbreak i have been through has marked the outside of me.
Im fighting a  war with my inner self and outer self.
What is outside of me is building the monster in me.
The last time i checked what is in the inside brings what is from the outside but in my case it is the total opposite.


I feel like my past is haunting me and i see it in my reflection on the mirror.
Maybe this is a way of God's punishment to me.
For breaking all the laws he breaks my outer self inorder to break my inner self.
Day by day i destroy myself by impeckering at what i only succeed in which is my imperfections.
The burning gaze i receive from the monster that i see infront of my mirror lurching and mocking at my past written all over my imperfect body.
I am haunted, haunted by my thoughts, haunted by my feelings, haunted by my imperfection that is lingered by my haunting past that haunts my future.


Maybe this is what i was born for , i was born to be flawless in imperfection.
Maybe i was born to be seen as glorious but as soon as they get to know me they realise how into ashes i am.
I died, I died the day i lost my morals and i died the day i realised how i will never be good enough.
Not good enough for myself and most definetly not good enough for anyone.

I am alone once again.
I am alone yet i have so many people in my life.
But that's the thing, i have many in my "perfect" life that is a living lie and i have myself and only that in the real world of my nakedness and loneliness.
Maybe this is it, this is the hell that i was warned about when i was once innocent.
I died the day i lost my innocence and i was born again in the life of hell in a cell.
My life is a hell in a cell because i am imprisoned.
My whole body is marked and outlined by my past.
My thoughts of my past mistakes are locked in my brain and not willing to rest until i have no dignity left in me.

See what i mean?
I am not what you think i am.
I am not over my past.
I haven't overcome my flaws.
I have not found my confidence.
And i am not perfect at all and never will be.
But with time I will maybe be what i wish i could be and that is perfect in my eyes, unhaunted by my past and set  free by my thoughts.
I know its too long but jus read maybe you'll find a line that you can relate to.
Traveler Feb 2017
I should change?

Change to fit
Your pleasure
Your passions
Your thrills?

Change my
Conversation
Design it
To fit
Your will??

Change my perception
Inorder to accept
Your draconian ways
Your attitudes
And instincts?
Your ideologies
Are a paradoxical maze

How about
In this
Rational mind state
I remain
Unchanged!
Traveler Tim
uzzi obinna Oct 2015
There are friends who i miss so much,
it's hard to go on in life without thinking of them;
there were days in which we had fun,
so much that these days do not feel the same.

There was a world which i had to let go of,
inorder to really enjoy this new one;
and paths that i left far behind,
in order to make a vital turn.

Although, i don't alway get the company i want,
but i often get the company i need;
even though i get a little bit confused attimes,
i still allow my spirit to take the lead.

If you learn to be alone,
you won't feel too lonely when your friends are gone;
and when they leave-not based on a fight,
be sure that one day they will return.

It could be that they were to busy in search of a better life,
therefore, it is expected that you do the same;
so that when you all come back together to re-unite,
it will be celebration of success without shame.

Be happy if you are still moving on;
Let the pace not be in your feet but your heart,
so that when conditions are good or bad,
you can alway choose to be slow or fast.

Be ready for a change everytime,
for this is exactly what life is about.
and don't remain for too long where you are,
it is best you take a trip from north to south.

We could loose a loved one along the way,
but when they are gone, they ar gone;
And even though we hurt or smile behind them,
come on guys, life will still go on.

Therefore, when a man gets older,
his dependency becomes thinner,
his responsibilities increases further,
while it's expected of him to think better.
Written on my 26th birthday
Jeremy Jan 2015
Why do you insist to be visionless, claiming that your eyes have expired pass their youth, when you yourself have witness the contortion of the cosmos, and why do you declare yourself a mute, when your words carry the power to sway nations, and why do you block out the sounds of the earth, when you are able to hear the most infinitesimal of vibrations. You tell me inorder to obtain euphoria you must disregard all pleasures of the world, but how are you to  neglect what is not there? You make it appear as if this is a grand burden to bare, saying numbing yourself is a sacrifice, but I think other wise, because to be oblivious to ways of the world is a genuine paradise.
Sanna Tirkey Feb 2016
Who said, one needs to be contact always to be together forever;
for friendship is beyond closeness its still there.
Who said, one should be of similar kind, inorder to understand better;
for you know opposites always attract each other.
Who said, the two knowns only fall in love;
for it is at first sight brings near strangers.
Who said, love causes sleepless nights to all lovers;
for I try my best to dream about us together.
Who said, dreams are different but wishes don't come true;
for it is us who decide to change this view.
Who said, words are only to be said;
for see it yourself, there are many ways of it to be expressed.
Past
Trajectory of life
Tracing
Subjectively and objectively
Yet remains of past
Like an artifacts explanation varies from
Person to person...
Based on the time and space...
Situation to situation
Cultural and geographical location
Many factors...involved

Rather than going to
Subjectively viewing a framework...
And clouds of theories...and probability of viewing
Clustors of Truth is relative in nature...I hope so
Indeed!

Though both objective and subjective
Framework should be taken into care

Inorder to understand
Probability of probable life in past
Cheers!!!!
Simbarashe1 May 2017
Once,  tomorrow met yesterday,
And the two discussed,
Of the individual failures,
And errors of humanity
Tomorrow was told of all the sorrows,
Grievances, tortures and sufferings,
That occured in the struggles of freedom,
Of Political arenas and religious catastrophes;
The world wars,  black deaths and holocausts;
As the visions of all these events floated in his mind;
Tomorrow realized how bad mankind lived yesterday
His heart was stabbed,  tears flooded his yet to be born face

Tomorrow then met today;
The story of Today was not very different,
Only a transformation has occurred, but no solution
Seemingly more devastating wars were hanging in the atmosphere
Cyber attacks, terrorism and human trafficking haunted the Today vocabulary,
Closely alienated to a host of diseases without cures;
All official meetings being based on global warming worries
Morals and customs has long fled from all youngsters;
Conspiracy theories pilling on each other and religious segregation rising like noone's business!

Tomorrow knew from his deepest instincts;
He was the last hope for mankind; the last line of faith;
All these sufferings has to wait with today,  
What is only needed is a choice;
A good choice from all humanity;
A choice to be good from all inhabitants of the earth;
Being good to everyone and everything is all mankind is left with,
Inorder to help tomorrow deliver a better life
Failure is part of life
But not a guarantee,
just like a mistake
is a design in art.

you can't choose to chase
what is high in the air
because your landing
maynot be guaranteed ,
Or use street lights to
give light to a day.

you don't need a thousand
falls inorder to learn
much as they offer experience
Or a cold drink to chase
a bad dream.
Katli Oct 2016
There are only so many things words can express
There are only so many things actions can show
But there are an infinite amount of times two souls  can dance without  being tainted by the mind and earth
Even amoungst my pain you make me smile
which is dangerous because I know I cause u pain
Inorder for me not to cause u pain I need to go through  this pain alone...
Samtoy Sep 2019
Inorder for someone to live
Someone needs to die
For life it can achieve
It needs to sacrifice
But even though gradually
They both fade away
Slow as it takes
This life of a candle
Nothing is permanent in this world
TheWitheredSoul May 2019
From promising to fight for each other,
To sarificing each other inorder to safeguard each other from ourselves
we both understood what's love ,
the hard way.
I loved her and she loved me maybe that's why she kept me away and loved me from afar to save me from destroying myself. I stayed away because I wanted her to be happy no matter even if I am not the one for her.
One who cares not to count
How much is spent
The care comes for the
Present day. Yesterday
Vanishes like water
Poured onto the soil.
Anything pleasant to the
Eyes will be attempted
Better to sacrifice a soul
Inorder to purchase
Declining glory.
Feasting on a daily
Like the future exists not.

Nothing matters but only
What they have at hand
Ready to sale human kindness
And grind the bones
For the daily pleasure.
Matters of the flesh
Their question is
Why care for a soul that
You have never seen or touched.
What I have now is for this time
What comes after
Will matter while am there
To spend, rob, **** for satisfaction.
NGANGO HONORÉ Dec 2022
They are not perfect, I know;
But they are on the way to be.
-created to be real and not to pretend-,
They are authentic versions of themselves.
-They don't want to be seen because of thier sake .
They want  HIM to be elevated .
-They have thier faults , of all sort if you want ,
But everyday, I know they work with Jesus inorder to bring in more order in thier chaos.
And I'm sure that one day, they will shine brighter than stars ; when He comes back with them .
Colossians 3:4
They are children of God first .
And all those aiming to be better versions of themselves .inorder to make this world a better place
Bongani G-kay Feb 2020
Tick tock  minute goes
Who knows….
What will happen when lights are low
As I creep to your light darkness follow
Carrying sadness, depression
With no expression can express….
If I had a setting I was going to reset
The time so it won’t be my last
But a beginning for a first start
To do it all again
Without causing any pain
Or sorrow to contain
Forgive my last
Inorder to be forgiven and given…
A last time that will be different from….
My last…
Everyone deserves a second chance in life.
Ally Feb 2019
You're no stranger to the fangs of the cat
His marks slowly heal over time but by then more have appeared
You need to escape this little corner you call home
But you must outsmart him inorder to be free
Every now and then you feel a burst of adrenaline surge through your body
You can taste the courage on the tip of your tounge
But then your wounds begin to sting and all you can think of is the possible pain
And you can't even begin fathom the possible glory
So you retreat to fight another day
Your body becoming weaker and weaker every passing second
Maybe tomorrow you think
But what if tomorrow is too late
Samtoy Jun 28
I still can't believe what happened
We were fine but something suddenly changed
She left me for her self
I didn't do anything wrong
I understand her reason
Inorder for her to grow
We don't need to be separated
But that's how it goes
I just want her to feel that I care
By letting her go
For her to experience being outside her comfort zone
I am in grief ,pain and agony
She suddenly left me
But Im happy for her
I hope she gets better
Not for me but for herself

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