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"harshly" poems
when people are in love they often say they simply fell tripped over their own two feet face forward and into the arms of their beloved i did more than simply fall onto the ground of your love you, for me were an ocean and i dived headfirst roughly harshly almost painfully into the waters of “you” i knew i could not swim but i did so anyway i was drowning entangled in you surrounded by this being of “you” engulfed in this feeling of “you” and i did not know what came over me but i let myself drown i did not try to swim back up because if i went back to land, releasing myself from your grasp that would mean losing the feeling of “you” and after submerging into the depth the love the passion of “you” how could i ever leave?
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Feb 18, 2018
Feb 18, 2018 at 2:10 AM UTC
i let myself drown
Don't speak harshly, Your words will form swords in me Touch my cheek; speak gently, And they will form worlds in me
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Apr 20, 2019
Apr 20, 2019 at 3:51 PM UTC
your words; your worlds
Biology has no conscience It doesn't care about love It cares about reproduction Biology does not care if someone gets hurt in the process Biology does not care if he was your boyfriend Fiance Husband Biology has no sympathy Lust is not the same as love But often it is mistaken as such 4 letters 3 out of the 4 make all the difference You are part of an on going experiment Observed by a classroom of billions Constantly watching Constantly scrutinizing Harshly graded by a force that you couldn't comprehend Don't try to change this People have tried to change this for longer than you could imagine Embrace it
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Apr 26, 2014
Apr 26, 2014 at 1:20 AM UTC
Biology
A girl, a woman, lover, friend, liking me more than she should. I want to love someone again, I know she wishes I would. I love the joy and pain of her, our hearts are an open book. My wounds are fresh from this mad world, when life was harshly shook. Portrait eyes are such a treat, looking up at this new man. Simply, silly, kind and sweet, She reminds me who I am. Her witness down inside of me, exposure to all my tools. Teaching each other honesty, we're reinventing the rules. She has a look she can't disguise, whenever I look her way. Optimistic hopelessness in her eyes, bittersweet each day.
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Nov 14, 2018
Nov 14, 2018 at 7:01 PM UTC
Optimistic Hopelessness...
Dear Kailey, Polyamory was not our downfall I changed as a person Much quicker than I anticipated So I can imagine it felt Catastrophic to you Polyamory was not our problem But it did highlight the ones we had The reason I left you Primarily was due to codependency But more than that It was your inability to compromise I told you I needed space You said you needed me And that was the end of that conversation When we tried to create boundaries To help our adjustment to poly What you gave me were rules And when I tried to alter them slightly You told me I was not compromising I made my own mistakes too Neither of us are perfect And I'm not writing this to hurt you This is for me alone Because I've been blaming only myself Since that night your parents took you home Because you were blaming me Or too harshly blaming yourself It's not as black-and-white as that This is not an attempt at Relinquishing myself of blame This is a bare acknowledgement For me That I am not bad Even if I've done bad things And I am not responsible Solely For your pain I am sorry for my part in it But I cannot And will not Let this responsibility weigh me down alone Because I matter too And it wasn't easy for me either But it's OK To love and care for someone Without being in relationship with them
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Aug 3, 2018
Aug 3, 2018 at 4:11 PM UTC
Letters to My Exes #1
"QUIT." "QUIT." "QUIT!" Is all that I can think! Quit stomping! You're creating unwanted anxiety. Why are you walking so harshly!? Are you, maybe, angry? I don't want to know.
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Feb 12, 2015
Feb 12, 2015 at 2:29 PM UTC
My Mothers Footsteps.
What you could not tell me; as distinct as a infant's cry, was why? Had the torture within you rattled the bars and forced you to plead sweet ignorance? Would you have understood an alibi, had I delivered it to you in homonyms? Were we a pair, had we pared? Or did one of us bite too harshly on the pear? Or would you continue with me, the way you knew how... artfully coy, and full of deception? and then, I realized I knew... had always known and therein is the rub that has left me bare, a bear, a grizzly discovery.
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Mar 3, 2011
Mar 3, 2011 at 9:43 AM UTC
and then, I realized
thus by prosecutor charg-ed, with this crime so heinous~ed, the judge insisted on a super speedy trial, this, a special case-d "can't wait to hang this ***** be~deviler, got me a jail, second only to hell, if he thinks his hifalutin lawyers will get him de-roped!" I plead guilty to save the state some moola, avoid the expense of all the attendant hoopla, but in my tired defense, I said little but this, it was god who cursed me with this word-ly power! now I ain't saying I was naturally bad, but who are you to judge me so harshly , when all I did, with a tool god~given, was, tell people how beautiful they are, so close. never far, from bringing them forth to their fruition so my intentions were good, tho my goose is cooked, loonily, this I truthfully willingly confess, though just as bad, I was lazy, I was negligent, I am now hell-bent for many infractions, the greatest, chiefest of them all, was all the times, !!!!! ***read a poem much beloved by other's on this blue earth, weak from jealousy jealous, I never...reposted it! for their way much better than mine, and I was too selfish to praise them, so I expect I won't be too lonely in perdition, just another poet***                                                             !!!!!!!!                                                       addition *so children, teach your children well a poet's hell will slowly go by, if they fail to repost them hundreds of poems that mak'em gasp~laugh-just plain weep, for that will really **** (sorry lord) the one true judge wh gave us this wordy blessing, and is eagerly awaiting us special* sinners and that just might be my one true name… (Oh sinner~man! where are you gonna run too) [{(]})] p.s. this poem readily available to be reposted ('jes a 'gestion) even plagiarized elsewhere, but remember, when you, who stole it, somebody's a~watching whose vision is unimpaired. plus, I got new software invented by Ai trained teachers, so so, easy to find ya...
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Sep 28, 2025
Sep 28, 2025 at 5:14 PM UTC
My True Name: "A way with words (and sentiments)"
thus by prosecutor charg-ed, with this crime so heinous~ed, the judge insisted on a super speedy trial, this, a special case-d "can't wait to hang this ***** be~deviler, got me a jail, second only to hell, if he thinks his hifalutin lawyers will get him de-roped!" I plead guilty to save the state some moola, avoid the expense of all the attendant hoopla, but in my tired defense, I said little but this, it was god who cursed me with this word-ly power! now I ain't saying I was naturally bad, but who are you to judge me so harshly , when all I did, with a tool god~given, was, tell people how beautiful they are, so close. never far, from bringing them forth to their fruition so my intentions were good, tho my goose is cooked, loonily, this I truthfully willingly confess, though just as bad, I was lazy, I was negligent, I am now hell-bent for many infractions, the greatest, chiefest of them all, was all the times, !!!!! ***read a poem much beloved by other's on this blue earth, weak from jealousy jealous, I never...reposted it! for their way much better than mine, and I was too selfish to praise them, so I expect I won't be too lonely in perdition, just another poet***                                                             !!!!!!!!                                                       addition *so children, teach your children well a poet's hell will slowly go by, if they fail to repost them hundreds of poems that mak'em gasp~laugh-just plain weep, for that will really **** (sorry lord) the one true judge wh gave us this wordy blessing, and is eagerly awaiting us special* sinners and that just might be my one true name… (Oh sinner~man! where are you gonna run too) [{(]})] p.s. this poem readily available to be reposted ('jes a 'gestion) even plagiarized elsewhere, but remember, when you, who stole it, somebody's a~watching whose vision is unimpaired. plus, I got new software invented by Ai trained teachers, so so, easy to find ya...
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Lemons- in fanfictions, a gritty or ****** scene. I watched your Adam's apple bob As you swallowed your arousal. My head was swirling with the scent of lemons, And I couldn't help myself As I tottered towards you on my intoxication, Inebriation. My hands hit your chest, And in our unsteadiness, My extra push sent us tumbling... Down onto the Citrus yellow sheets of your bed My mouth on your neck, Wanting only to taste your Lemon sweat. Your eyes wandered freely, And your hands soon followed. Touching my ******* The perky ******* You put your mouth on one, Extracting from it some sour mix of sweetness, The lemon in my veins. We mashed together, Your member against my cavity, Pictures of lemons in my mind. Your hand round my throat, You began to speak harshly, Lemon tainting your soul. The acid in your words, Acid on your fingernails as they tore my skin... It hurt, But it hurt like the beautiful Lemons that brought me here. You put yourself in me, Again and again You forced my body into submission. My tears burned with the citrus, My eyes now yellow, Like the lemons. In this lighting, Your skin looked yellow too, I could almost say your head was a lemon... Pain resurfaces, Blood, The sensation that something was flowing into me, I knew your lemon juice had filled my pitcher, Now it was available for drinking. And you did, You drank your lemon juice with my sugar, Lemonade of us two. Pleasure rocked my body, And I felt your lemon invading me. But you yourself, You were drawing it out of me. My walls pulled in, They clenched, I let out a shrill. The smell of our lemon sweat Once again, Pervading the room. You collapsed beside me, The drug wearing off, Lemons exiting your mind already. I wasn't done though. I'm still obsessed. Still obsessed with lemons.
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Nov 15, 2013
Nov 15, 2013 at 6:26 AM UTC
Lemony (Warning: Contains Lemons)
Lemons- in fanfictions, a gritty or ****** scene. I watched your Adam's apple bob As you swallowed your arousal. My head was swirling with the scent of lemons, And I couldn't help myself As I tottered towards you on my intoxication, Inebriation. My hands hit your chest, And in our unsteadiness, My extra push sent us tumbling... Down onto the Citrus yellow sheets of your bed My mouth on your neck, Wanting only to taste your Lemon sweat. Your eyes wandered freely, And your hands soon followed. Touching my ******* The perky ******* You put your mouth on one, Extracting from it some sour mix of sweetness, The lemon in my veins. We mashed together, Your member against my cavity, Pictures of lemons in my mind. Your hand round my throat, You began to speak harshly, Lemon tainting your soul. The acid in your words, Acid on your fingernails as they tore my skin... It hurt, But it hurt like the beautiful Lemons that brought me here. You put yourself in me, Again and again You forced my body into submission. My tears burned with the citrus, My eyes now yellow, Like the lemons. In this lighting, Your skin looked yellow too, I could almost say your head was a lemon... Pain resurfaces, Blood, The sensation that something was flowing into me, I knew your lemon juice had filled my pitcher, Now it was available for drinking. And you did, You drank your lemon juice with my sugar, Lemonade of us two. Pleasure rocked my body, And I felt your lemon invading me. But you yourself, You were drawing it out of me. My walls pulled in, They clenched, I let out a shrill. The smell of our lemon sweat Once again, Pervading the room. You collapsed beside me, The drug wearing off, Lemons exiting your mind already. I wasn't done though. I'm still obsessed. Still obsessed with lemons.
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(Inspired by the song Blood Sweat & Tears by BTS) I indulge in the sweet chocolate That is none other than The Devil's wings on your back Knowing that it will poison me harshly Please **** me softly So that the worry Of losing you Is taken along with my breath As I follow you further I get drunk on you Allowing your whiskey Deep into my throat You've stripped me of my existence Spilling all of my blood And pouring my sweat and tears Into small broken mason jars Why do I bother to run When I can't escape this prison Being hunted like an animal Just to be tied up again Promise me that I will keep being poisoned As long as before I go I get one last chance One last dance with you Before I am Stripped of my existence Again.
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Oct 27, 2017
Oct 27, 2017 at 1:14 PM UTC
Last Dance, Last Breath
one Be gentle, because they don’t know any better. I know that you’re the child, and I know that you’re scared, and I know that it isn’t your job to be gentile or kind but I also know that being gentile is easier than being angry. two Make sure to give up your heart and soul first. Take your feeling and put them into a box, and shove that box far away because God knows that they’ll only heart them anyways. three Read well and often. Send your mind into a new, completely different world for a little while. You need it. We all need it. four Learn how to be distant. Learn how to love from afar. Being close will only hurt more in the long run. five The most important part of loving an alcoholic is loving you first. You are not your parent’s mistakes. You are not what caused them to break so harshly that they turned to a bottle rather than a book, a drink rather than their daughter. I learned how to love an alcoholic before I learned to love myself. And to this day, I’m still learning.
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Oct 22, 2017
Oct 22, 2017 at 9:36 PM UTC
how to love an alcoholic
The days are going by The birds still fly high I'm getting pretty nervous I'm not gonna lie And all the birds cry, "Don't take me away" I promise I'll stay I'll be a better person Than I was yesterday I promise to do my best Maybe more but never less With this pencil in hand It's time to confess, For you to know the rest Of the life that I've been livin' Your word has been given That you won't harshly judge The words I have written With life I am currently smitten And all the birds cry, "Don't send me away" I promise I'll stay I'll be a better person Than I was yesterday At a faraway boarding school I'll be confined to new rules It's not something I want But something you choose Myself I won't lose And all the birds cry, "Don't send me away" I promise I'll stay I'll be a better person Than I was yesterday I promise to do my best Maybe more but never less With this pencil in hand The time to confess Is now.
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Jan 24, 2013
Jan 24, 2013 at 2:04 AM UTC
Boarding School Poem
i bought a pack of cigarettes tonight, even though my lungs don't work quite right. i sat on the stairs in the yard of the old house with its walls crumbling, with its facade turned to dust. the air was so cold it stung my fingers, frost licking my face, turning my cheeks blood-red but nothing hurt as much as you do. i smoked a cigarette tonight, even though my lungs don't work quite right. the smoke filled me up and i feared it would leak out of all the holes you punched in me. it didn't. i choked and i coughed and it felt a little like drowning. like your mouth on my mouth, like your teeth on my neck. i choked and i coughed and it felt a little like you so i liked it. who cares i almost died. i smoked a second cigarette tonight, even though my lungs don't work quite right. nicotine ran in my veins, blue rivers along my pale skin and it felt, it really felt a lot like love. a lot like you. a lot like us. galaxies scattered across my skin, poison running in my blood, yes, it felt a lot like us. i didn't choke this time, but i think you would have laughed at the way i ****** on the cigarette **** i smoked a third cigarette tonight, even though my lungs don't work quite right. i swallowed cancer like a drug and it stung at the back of my throat, and it burned and it burned and it burned as ash gathered at the burning end and fell to the ground like snowflakes, little flakes of ash on my sneakers and it reminded me of your kisses a little, i didn't choke this time. i laughed. a bitter laugh. you hurt at the back of my mind as i put the cigarette out and i thought about the way you'd look at me, boldness in your eyes, hair a little all over the place and your mouth shaped in a little "o" as you blew circles of smoke out. i smoked a fourth cigarette tonight, even though my lungs don't work quite right. the cold stung but not as much as my lungs burnt and my brain burned and you hurt. i blew smoke out but never quite like you did, and i thought it looked and was a little ridiculous maybe to burn the leaves of a plant wrapped in paper and fill our fragile bodies with the exhausts we breathe out smoke like broken steam engines, ain't it funny, haha. you'd laugh, harshly, you'd bite me, you were always a little rough. i smoked a fifth cigarette tonight, even though my lungs don't work quite right. it's not half as venomous as you were, i decided. i put it out. cigarettes are so not worth the hype. you were. you are.
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Dec 7, 2014
Dec 7, 2014 at 12:39 PM UTC
i bought a pack of cigarettes tonight
i bought a pack of cigarettes tonight, even though my lungs don't work quite right. i sat on the stairs in the yard of the old house with its walls crumbling, with its facade turned to dust. the air was so cold it stung my fingers, frost licking my face, turning my cheeks blood-red but nothing hurt as much as you do. i smoked a cigarette tonight, even though my lungs don't work quite right. the smoke filled me up and i feared it would leak out of all the holes you punched in me. it didn't. i choked and i coughed and it felt a little like drowning. like your mouth on my mouth, like your teeth on my neck. i choked and i coughed and it felt a little like you so i liked it. who cares i almost died. i smoked a second cigarette tonight, even though my lungs don't work quite right. nicotine ran in my veins, blue rivers along my pale skin and it felt, it really felt a lot like love. a lot like you. a lot like us. galaxies scattered across my skin, poison running in my blood, yes, it felt a lot like us. i didn't choke this time, but i think you would have laughed at the way i ****** on the cigarette **** i smoked a third cigarette tonight, even though my lungs don't work quite right. i swallowed cancer like a drug and it stung at the back of my throat, and it burned and it burned and it burned as ash gathered at the burning end and fell to the ground like snowflakes, little flakes of ash on my sneakers and it reminded me of your kisses a little, i didn't choke this time. i laughed. a bitter laugh. you hurt at the back of my mind as i put the cigarette out and i thought about the way you'd look at me, boldness in your eyes, hair a little all over the place and your mouth shaped in a little "o" as you blew circles of smoke out. i smoked a fourth cigarette tonight, even though my lungs don't work quite right. the cold stung but not as much as my lungs burnt and my brain burned and you hurt. i blew smoke out but never quite like you did, and i thought it looked and was a little ridiculous maybe to burn the leaves of a plant wrapped in paper and fill our fragile bodies with the exhausts we breathe out smoke like broken steam engines, ain't it funny, haha. you'd laugh, harshly, you'd bite me, you were always a little rough. i smoked a fifth cigarette tonight, even though my lungs don't work quite right. it's not half as venomous as you were, i decided. i put it out. cigarettes are so not worth the hype. you were. you are.
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this swifter's grift - lifting loosely fitted accoutrement lourden fruit carelessly held silkened, gimlet lit shamelessly rivened to a paler shade of need. solitude's enchanting seed may confer a grander banquet’s call but, this tug of grandiloquent oblige and politesse . . . master and slave consort black and scarlet swift of tongue and fingertip unbound so neatly and leather blind tell me muse of the anger flesh on fire is there really dignity in defeat that eludes the victor tell me muse of the truth in nature ill-graced tail-lamp broken is destiny all ways ordained in contradiction tell me muse do hearts all times submit to the beacon call shyness long forgotten narrative so harshly written as ne'er before with an insistence ageless yearnings bellow   as but glazened shadow if reason sleeps there will be no learning no refuge only to each for their crimes a four-chambered riddle All Rights Reserved James R. Morse, NYC  2013.
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Sep 12, 2013
Sep 12, 2013 at 7:05 PM UTC
Treatise on Craving
if words are food for the mind, then here is a glimpse of mine if words are drugs for the brain, then here is why i'm so pained. abandoned, abhorrent abnormal, absent abstract, abuse addicted, anxious betray, bitterly blank, blasphemy bloodless, breakdown breathless, brutal captive, casually catastrophe, cautiously change, cigarettes crucial, clueless damaged, dangerous deadly, disastrous disheartened, disconcerting dramatic, dreading eager, eccentric ecstasy, eerie effete, effortless embittered, excess faded, failure faintly, fallacy faltering, fatally fearfully, finally garbage, gawky gibberish, gloomy gone, goodbye graphic, gratify hallucinate, harshly hazy, heartless hectic, helpless hesitant, hit-and-miss idiotic, idly ignorant, intimacy illogical, imaginative infatuated, intoxicated jealousy, jittery journey, journal joylessly, judicial junk, juvenile keen, killing knavish, knocking knockout, knotty knowingly, knowledge laborious, lacking lame, languishing lifeless, literature lovelorn, lugubrious madness, maintenance make-believe, malaise mean, melancholic mellow, melodramatic naff, naivety nameless, naturally nauseous, nebulous neglected, nervous oasis, objectionable obliged, obliterate oblivion, obscurity obsolete, one-and-only pacifist, pained pale, panicky paradise, paralyze passionately, passively raging, ranting rationalize, raving realistic, reasonable rebellious, reckless saboteur, sadness sake, sameness sanity, satisfactory scar, steady taint, tangled tasteless, tearful telling, temperamental terror, theoretical unaffected, uncanny uncommon, unconsciously undesirable, uneasy unfortunate, untidy vaguely, vanish vanity, vanquish versatile, vicious violence, voracious waiting, waking walkout, wanting wasteful, weary withering, wrecking if words are food for the mind, then you've seen a glimpse of mine if words are drugs for the brain, then no wonder i'm so pained. -djs
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Aug 5, 2013
Aug 5, 2013 at 11:21 PM UTC
a glimpse of my mind
if words are food for the mind, then here is a glimpse of mine if words are drugs for the brain, then here is why i'm so pained. abandoned, abhorrent abnormal, absent abstract, abuse addicted, anxious betray, bitterly blank, blasphemy bloodless, breakdown breathless, brutal captive, casually catastrophe, cautiously change, cigarettes crucial, clueless damaged, dangerous deadly, disastrous disheartened, disconcerting dramatic, dreading eager, eccentric ecstasy, eerie effete, effortless embittered, excess faded, failure faintly, fallacy faltering, fatally fearfully, finally garbage, gawky gibberish, gloomy gone, goodbye graphic, gratify hallucinate, harshly hazy, heartless hectic, helpless hesitant, hit-and-miss idiotic, idly ignorant, intimacy illogical, imaginative infatuated, intoxicated jealousy, jittery journey, journal joylessly, judicial junk, juvenile keen, killing knavish, knocking knockout, knotty knowingly, knowledge laborious, lacking lame, languishing lifeless, literature lovelorn, lugubrious madness, maintenance make-believe, malaise mean, melancholic mellow, melodramatic naff, naivety nameless, naturally nauseous, nebulous neglected, nervous oasis, objectionable obliged, obliterate oblivion, obscurity obsolete, one-and-only pacifist, pained pale, panicky paradise, paralyze passionately, passively raging, ranting rationalize, raving realistic, reasonable rebellious, reckless saboteur, sadness sake, sameness sanity, satisfactory scar, steady taint, tangled tasteless, tearful telling, temperamental terror, theoretical unaffected, uncanny uncommon, unconsciously undesirable, uneasy unfortunate, untidy vaguely, vanish vanity, vanquish versatile, vicious violence, voracious waiting, waking walkout, wanting wasteful, weary withering, wrecking if words are food for the mind, then you've seen a glimpse of mine if words are drugs for the brain, then no wonder i'm so pained. -djs
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My dad was the greatest of men I wish I would of gotten more time with him Time has sure done it's shading I hate to say his face is fading His voice has long ago slipped from my memory The sadness of that is sheer agony I miss you as much today As that sorrowful day you where taken away You left this world way to soon I still remeber that hospital waiting room I was to late, death had already greeted you I was only fourteen I didn't know what to do I stood there crying in my sisters arms I knew I would forever miss your fatherly charms As I stood beside your open coffin Tears spilling onto my dress, I felt like an orphan Knowing I would never again see you smiling face Your death was so hard to embrace It was a gray rainy day you where placed in the ground Setting under the cemetery tent no comfort to be found Thinking even the angels on high Could do no more than cry You had been my hero, I was a daddy's girl And my life from this point would do nothing but unfurl I was, and still am so lost without your presence I missed you at so many of my lifes great events At all of my children's births I thought of you first And how you would of beamed with pride At the thought I just cried But as my memory, with time harshly shades My love for you will never fade I carry you forever in my heart Like I was in yours from the start
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Jan 30, 2016
Jan 30, 2016 at 9:28 PM UTC
The Greatest Man I Ever Knew
There are some people, Who will always do the right thing. These are the people, though, That seem to judge others, so harshly. good people, you see things so clearly, Too clearly. Surely, one mistake, however monumental Doesn't warrant condemnation, evermore? I want to be with the baddies, right now, because I am one. I feel like a pantomime villain. I want to hang out with Snow White's evil stepmother, or the Ugly Sisters, Down tequila with the Wicked Witch of the West. Fit company, for me. Not really, I don't believe that, but in my darkest moments, I do feel like a monster. Whose moral code did I defy? And does it matter? What does it matter, I don't care what matters, any more. Just call me Cruella, and **** me to Hell, It's nothing I'm not doing to myself, already. Drop a house on me, (The ***** is dead) Ding ****
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Sep 24, 2013
Sep 24, 2013 at 4:39 PM UTC
Pantomime villain
Maybe my writing Will improve When strewn over Blue lined graph paper, Tiny boxes, Coaxing out order, Perhaps even Clarifying boundaries Between crazed truth, And detrimental lies. The grid putting Poem in context, Poem like graph, Displaying Levels of THC Depression Number of Kisses Tears Cried Outliers of secrets uttered. Box and whisker plot Displaying anxiety, Skewed data toward extremes. No. Linear writing would Reveal the chaos inside. I can't fit the poems To the squares. A graph can't really cry The way a person can. There's a losing feeling Etched in pen On a harshly graded Parcel of mathematical quizzing That a poem has no place to Instill in me. And no one would Be able to read my work The way they tell you to show it. My poems have no color coding. Definition between data Becomes hazy as Layers of black are added In empty, All encompassing anger. And I smoke while I write tonight, Haze growing, Lines wobbled, And I may have put a poem On a piece of graph paper But it's nothing like the math homework That stays in my backpack.
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Sep 18, 2014
Sep 18, 2014 at 12:10 PM UTC
On Graph Paper
I cried for two years. every day, all day. Cara wanted to marry me. I was hesitant. At that time, I didn't know why. Much later, when I was in therapy, I came to realize that, in the past, I unconsciously feared that if I married, most likely we would have children, and quite probably, we would have a boy, and unconsciously I feared I would treat my son the same way my father had treated me. My father had treated me harshly. He never told me he loved me. I will spare you the details. Cara grew increasingly angry toward me for another year. She used jealousy to try to get me to marry her. She swam in her swimming pool, but when she dried off, I saw her bruised ***** which I knew I had not caused. When I saw it, I went into shock and suffered involuntary kundalini, which lasted six years. After all those years of excruciating pain, I finally recovered. All this happened 45 years ago, but some days I feel as though it happened yesterday. TOD HOWARD HAWKS
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Jun 9, 2025
Jun 9, 2025 at 5:18 PM UTC
CARA
How do you know who I am Or what I stand for I look ordinary No dreadlocks No paintings on my body No rings piercing my ear My eyes aren’t weary yet My skin is white I am educated I have a piece of paper I wear cotton clothes Black pants A clean shirt I look like I am comfortable That suffering is foreign to me So what is it that I can say When my identity is so plain? But who must declare themselves openly? Is it the man who has decided he has become all there is to be? Is it the man who is unsure of the facts of life that he reads? Is it the man who gives up his ambition to be what does not pay? Is it the man who tells everyone the streets are where there are real men? It is him who suffers most who becomes the angry man It is him who becomes angry that is liberated It is him who is liberated who can tell the truth And so what do I tell you? I am not him I have no right to be angry I have no right to be liberated I have no right to tell the truth Is that my identity? No right to speak harshly of oppression No right to speak harshly of poverty No right to speak harshly of hunger And it is true I am not oppressed I am not poor I am not hungry So I cannot pretend to be any of these things I cannot pretend to have that connection Who do I have the nerve to be? So I spin a tale that I imagine of a life that I know exists I think about what it would be like to watch an angry man I think about what it would be like to watch a poor woman I think about what it would be like to watch a migration I think about what it would be like if I lost everything I think about what it would be like to give everything away Then I know And I am ashamed I know I would not survive And so it is not because I am not poor It is because I wouldn’t know how to live Like they are able to live Without hope But with life Without respect But with pride Without relevance But with identity Because they know who they are The chosen ones Who have the right To smirk at those of us who visit the poor on a field trip And then go home and forget Forget them While they remember us The soulless ones Without the knowing of anything Without the knowing of how to live Without the knowing of survival Without the knowing of will Without the knowing of who we are
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Aug 24, 2015
Aug 24, 2015 at 9:48 PM UTC
Identity
How do you know who I am Or what I stand for I look ordinary No dreadlocks No paintings on my body No rings piercing my ear My eyes aren’t weary yet My skin is white I am educated I have a piece of paper I wear cotton clothes Black pants A clean shirt I look like I am comfortable That suffering is foreign to me So what is it that I can say When my identity is so plain? But who must declare themselves openly? Is it the man who has decided he has become all there is to be? Is it the man who is unsure of the facts of life that he reads? Is it the man who gives up his ambition to be what does not pay? Is it the man who tells everyone the streets are where there are real men? It is him who suffers most who becomes the angry man It is him who becomes angry that is liberated It is him who is liberated who can tell the truth And so what do I tell you? I am not him I have no right to be angry I have no right to be liberated I have no right to tell the truth Is that my identity? No right to speak harshly of oppression No right to speak harshly of poverty No right to speak harshly of hunger And it is true I am not oppressed I am not poor I am not hungry So I cannot pretend to be any of these things I cannot pretend to have that connection Who do I have the nerve to be? So I spin a tale that I imagine of a life that I know exists I think about what it would be like to watch an angry man I think about what it would be like to watch a poor woman I think about what it would be like to watch a migration I think about what it would be like if I lost everything I think about what it would be like to give everything away Then I know And I am ashamed I know I would not survive And so it is not because I am not poor It is because I wouldn’t know how to live Like they are able to live Without hope But with life Without respect But with pride Without relevance But with identity Because they know who they are The chosen ones Who have the right To smirk at those of us who visit the poor on a field trip And then go home and forget Forget them While they remember us The soulless ones Without the knowing of anything Without the knowing of how to live Without the knowing of survival Without the knowing of will Without the knowing of who we are
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I see the sunrise over sin, Repress what I did once again. Shadows me like its prey, Lurching out of me eagerly. I see the sunrise over sin, It’s boiled over once again. Scolding from white hot shame, My guilt has the power to lame. I see the sunrise over sin. Push it down before it begin. The moon rise over blame, She brings clarity and aim. I see the sunrise over sin, Connects us all a kin. Judge others harshly without perceptivity, Ignorant of the hypocrisy. I see the sunrise over sin, Should **** someone but who’s in? Let’s all perish together again, Cleanse this place of our contagion. I see the sunrise over sin. Let’s live samsara again. Improve from the last time. Not just a rhyme.
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Nov 13, 2019
Nov 13, 2019 at 11:26 AM UTC
Sunrise Over Sin
. Father, I have seen you haunting my footsteps,      judging harshly my own actions, and I fear that      I will follow the way you have chosen for me.      But that path, however narrow, is not where my      heart lies, and so on I go, my own way. Will      you forgive me? Or, perhaps, when all is said      and done, the question to be answered is,      can I forgive you?
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Feb 13, 2011
Feb 13, 2011 at 5:12 PM UTC
Divergence
Oh Selfie Selfie Selfie! You're taken here and taken there Anywhere and everywhere In random poses we prefer. From wide smile and duck face To looking cute and being fierce Searching for the right angle In order to catch the likers. Some say you show too much vanity But who are they to judge so harshly? When all you want is for them to be happy And express themselves perfectly. Krystal Marcelo 01/18/2016
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Jan 18, 2016
Jan 18, 2016 at 9:37 AM UTC
SELFIE !!!
he was walking very fast pace as if he was scared to lose in a race but this wasn't a race, what was missing? maybe someone he desires to be kissing? i took steps forward, my eyes met a kind face but how come when he turned around i saw a black rag in his mouths place? liquid hues poured out of my head in deep confusion is this the man in front of me only a delusion? i tugged at it, and discovered his lips were sown together by purple thread worried for his soul, his eyes and lips bled he clench my wrists, chained them and injected my hips i didn't know where i was going but i entered a lunar eclipse i woke up as a light flickered and then focused on me they stripped me of comfort, and placed lingerie on my intoxicated body "four thousand?" " five thousand?" that's what i heard from a deep voice "Sold for 5,000!" i was enslaved by a man, I didn't have a choice blind folded, i counted the seconds it took to reach this location i heard screams, moans, and violence. it was a workstation he threw me in a tiny room and locked me out, no where to run and hide i lie on a ****** bed, exhausted, and being tied i saw a blur? a man, he stormed in and locked the door behind him i tried my best to get him off me but i was too weak and the light was dim tied down, no escape only submission to a man who doesn't have a name numb and barely living, he slid harshly in between my legs, i couldn't scream, i couldn't cry, then he came ~a.h.
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May 10, 2016
May 10, 2016 at 4:31 PM UTC
Stranger Caught My Eye