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i give them my executables and ask them to reverse engineer me to look into my code for reasons reasons that i'm not just broken not just slow not just bad if these letters on this line mean that i am programmed to worry then it is not my fault not my fault that i have wasted years years of my life in fear it's just a bug looping too many times using too many clock cycles my code may be broken, but if it is broken then i am not maybe, just maybe i am a good processor given bad code. not my fault. no one could blame me. it would mean i do what i am told to perfectly quickly efficiently. but what i am told to do is buggy unoptimized inefficient my programmers are lazy - not me. when i find a function in my code that never works and they say "that code is fine" then why? why does it never run? something must be wrong with me after all me, myself, the processor i don't do what i am told but no, no, no i don't want that i can't be broken, overheating, dusty segfaulting bluescreening panicking no! the code must be wrong it must be so i look again and again and again i lose myself in my code i click and click and click 2x more and 2x more and 2x more COMT and DRD4 and ANKK1 rs53576 and rs7794745 and rs1858830 lower risk and normal risk and higher risk of the same thing in me at once conflicting overwriting each other there is no code to add risk objects and no one knows whether they make a group or a ring or a field or just something useless. like dividing by zero. you can... but it's useless in the real world. just like me. i look for more code for more functions for more comments more more more give me more take my rights make me open source as long as i can see me too. 602,000 lines are not enough not when i run millions stick your wires in my veins take the code from my blood decompile it untangle it i need to see it all i need to know that i am a good little processor even if i am doomed to forever run BASIC and a million GOTO statements and ugly ugly spaghetti code i am still good.
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Dec 27, 2017
Dec 27, 2017 at 5:43 PM UTC
good little processor
i give them my executables and ask them to reverse engineer me to look into my code for reasons reasons that i'm not just broken not just slow not just bad if these letters on this line mean that i am programmed to worry then it is not my fault not my fault that i have wasted years years of my life in fear it's just a bug looping too many times using too many clock cycles my code may be broken, but if it is broken then i am not maybe, just maybe i am a good processor given bad code. not my fault. no one could blame me. it would mean i do what i am told to perfectly quickly efficiently. but what i am told to do is buggy unoptimized inefficient my programmers are lazy - not me. when i find a function in my code that never works and they say "that code is fine" then why? why does it never run? something must be wrong with me after all me, myself, the processor i don't do what i am told but no, no, no i don't want that i can't be broken, overheating, dusty segfaulting bluescreening panicking no! the code must be wrong it must be so i look again and again and again i lose myself in my code i click and click and click 2x more and 2x more and 2x more COMT and DRD4 and ANKK1 rs53576 and rs7794745 and rs1858830 lower risk and normal risk and higher risk of the same thing in me at once conflicting overwriting each other there is no code to add risk objects and no one knows whether they make a group or a ring or a field or just something useless. like dividing by zero. you can... but it's useless in the real world. just like me. i look for more code for more functions for more comments more more more give me more take my rights make me open source as long as i can see me too. 602,000 lines are not enough not when i run millions stick your wires in my veins take the code from my blood decompile it untangle it i need to see it all i need to know that i am a good little processor even if i am doomed to forever run BASIC and a million GOTO statements and ugly ugly spaghetti code i am still good.
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Sorrow and sadness reign for all who were involved the cast a run-a-way train no problems new or old, were solved She left of her own accord I would have counseled no no poet's loss afford silence of doves and crows No villains and no heroes when three year olds goto war for intellect's opposed as egos bruised and sore
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Aug 16, 2018
Aug 16, 2018 at 4:10 PM UTC
Enough!
I self-indulged— For me a rare Lapse, an unexpected Slide to materialism. Repenting already, My selfishness. I bought myself Internet Radio. How could I resist? E-Tail has made it so easy. GOTO Amazon Electronics. •Amazon.com: Electronicswww.amazon.com/electronics-store/b?ie=UTF8... Amazon.com, Inc. Online shopping from a great selection at Electronics Store. ... Electronics. Shop for TV & Video, ... Featured Offers in Electronics ... Electronics Categories • ($“Ka-Ching! Ka-Ching!$ Ads in the middle of the freaking poem!”) The omnipresent marketplace: Shop at home in your pajamas, Pay for it with keystrokes, Go back to sleep. FOR SALE:  Hail to thee, Oh bittersweet Credo of Capitalism! I finally broke down, Accepting the fact that RADIO: once a wireless marvel; Now, a fading media option, Its broadcast range Not only shrunk, but Signal reception, downright poor. So, I finally broke down Bought a radio that actually works. So what I want to know Is NPR so full of itself that They go so far to find some British-accent guy to read Sports summaries? I am listening to some Pompous Pommy poofter, At KBOS, Boston, Massachusetts, Nigel Longshanks, himself, Recapping “The Run for the Roses,” Kentucky Derby homestretch, Missed NBA semi-final foul shot & The freakish mojo comeback of Yankee Baseball Bad Boy: A-ROD.
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May 11, 2015
May 11, 2015 at 1:19 PM UTC
“RADIO DAYS”
poor soul of this world. ''to the men of this world''' 10,000 scorpions bring to abyss hell , if you harm a women. said the prophet. as then  lord said to the  world it end here  right now!! never miss treat god seed bearer in life no have the right to control women. as his slave in life. to gain money for sale of a women. no have right hurt or harm women no have right to **** a women no have right to **** anyone in this world. any man harming a women. will goto abyss of hell. for harming a women in any way. these  are  god  laws so never miss treat a women in very bad way. said the lord to prophet. if any man should harm a women, very badly. 10,000 scorpions will harm you in your  sleep that god  law now!!
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Dec 9, 2010
Dec 9, 2010 at 7:31 AM UTC
the prophet speak to the sinner 06
By Arcassin B & wolfspirit & pea WSQF: placing my heart on a platter only for you letting you see the insides, like that clear plastic anatomy figure from science class at university downtown from uptown ..crosstown this is the expressway to you finding you wherever you may be waiting with that smile, the one etched into my soul nothing is wasted when it is tasted we are all eternal in our guilty indulgences but in living, there is no shame no one is to blame exchanging those knowing smiles our mission here.....is clear AB: I'll put my name in a book for you, Making my way down town, Crossing esponola bridge, Just to see that insecure smile, But all the while, I'm futile, Of all the imaginations that you carried When you were a child, Don't let that smile go to waste, Don't let that smile go, As it came, I use to have and felt shame, So please don't let that smile goto waste. SP: The memory of you never goes to waste around here I miss your kisses the most eerie sweet ,clad moist tongue I taste the mist off your lips I miss your mystic touch and pleasant need of desire... your heart restless in the unspoken comfort of being alive, your words echo deep in my mind...like great audacious tolling bells. Love is forever...and so are you in my heart.
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Oct 25, 2015
Oct 25, 2015 at 12:44 AM UTC
Wolf Spirit & Arcassin B - "Platter" (ft. Sweet Pea)
How do I love thee?........first four words of one of your favorite sonnets. I could never stop counting the ways or comparing thee to a summer's day. Te amo bebe....Je t'aime nebe.....Ich liebe dich, baby.....all languages = same. No duress here.....I choose to live life on a maybe you will or wont love again. No duress.......I choose to love you and that would be nobody's business. Goto Nordies, Sharper Images, etc.......any of your favorites to shop.....my treat.   Time for annual meeting Mr. Frustration......Pls accept what I'm happy to buy. Any other lady would be chomping at the bit, thrilled, I'm using no limits cards. Big surprise for you my Pet.........hope you like and there's no need to ship it. It's a little something I bought just for me and you with thoughts of our future. Bought matching wheel chairs so we can ride off into the sunset to Gray land.   Ms. Betty Ponder, I adore and give you my heart.....I love you and always will. If you choose to cast me aside.....history will most definitely repeat.......I go    alone to same place I went the last time you walked out of my life.....    I'll take our happy memories......scent of your body and your perfume..... sound of your laughter and **** voice forever recorded....visions of eyes...   gazing up at me in deep passion.......and abundant qualities that make you my only unforgettable shorty and gorgeous Ms. Betty Ponder.
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Dec 9, 2013
Dec 9, 2013 at 10:18 AM UTC
Bought something just for us
A Not No Logos, Klein. What about anti-logo Using the figure as the foci But leaving the message in the medium Both in the back and foreground Then we yell fore and the foreground becomes the background 2 Always remembering hierarchy but always forgetting Plutarch Is this is a disambiguation? Did I confuse Parallel Lives with Plutarchy? 3 So we grid it out. GOTO Vitruvio ... 4 Trying hard to balance can create imbalance this we rationalize through irrationality. 3.14159265359 ... 5 Symmetry ... .. . ~ . .. ... assymetrY Stressing the *** in asymmetry And what about the meeting of Apollo and Dionysus and the Apollonian/Dionysian duality? 6 Rhythm: 3:3 ; 4:4 ; 7:4 ; salt peanuts . .. ... windtalkers 7 White space is an access point for flow, Tao, source .... this is where my batteries recharge 8 Every element is mindfully placed; an element of gestalt ism "shape form", is this analogous to timespace? Is the whole other than the sum of its parts? GOTO Miller-Urey II nested inside Babylon Falling Both are self organizing, none the less. Such wholesome folk we are. 9 The patterns found in isolation parallel both linear and crossing elements and the instructions always coming from a double helix. GOTO The Dance of the Double Helix ... and always adding depth and motion ... kinematic to the statics. GOTO Introducing Happiness 10 Type faces are interfaces so be consistent ... you Paranoid Android! J Always K.I.S.S.ing Q And in motion means modularity is a must K Peaks and valleys can be better understood at the Red Onion or maybe just by peeling back the layers (of life)
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Sep 28, 2014
Sep 28, 2014 at 8:11 PM UTC
Spades
A Not No Logos, Klein. What about anti-logo Using the figure as the foci But leaving the message in the medium Both in the back and foreground Then we yell fore and the foreground becomes the background 2 Always remembering hierarchy but always forgetting Plutarch Is this is a disambiguation? Did I confuse Parallel Lives with Plutarchy? 3 So we grid it out. GOTO Vitruvio ... 4 Trying hard to balance can create imbalance this we rationalize through irrationality. 3.14159265359 ... 5 Symmetry ... .. . ~ . .. ... assymetrY Stressing the *** in asymmetry And what about the meeting of Apollo and Dionysus and the Apollonian/Dionysian duality? 6 Rhythm: 3:3 ; 4:4 ; 7:4 ; salt peanuts . .. ... windtalkers 7 White space is an access point for flow, Tao, source .... this is where my batteries recharge 8 Every element is mindfully placed; an element of gestalt ism "shape form", is this analogous to timespace? Is the whole other than the sum of its parts? GOTO Miller-Urey II nested inside Babylon Falling Both are self organizing, none the less. Such wholesome folk we are. 9 The patterns found in isolation parallel both linear and crossing elements and the instructions always coming from a double helix. GOTO The Dance of the Double Helix ... and always adding depth and motion ... kinematic to the statics. GOTO Introducing Happiness 10 Type faces are interfaces so be consistent ... you Paranoid Android! J Always K.I.S.S.ing Q And in motion means modularity is a must K Peaks and valleys can be better understood at the Red Onion or maybe just by peeling back the layers (of life)
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i'm guilty. i have the world expecting so much of me but all i want to do is run. i'd never claim status as a full blown addict, but i have an overwhelming urge to go numb. i know, it's dumb. silly me, i lost a brother not a son so it shouldn't be as hard for me. at least that's what is implied, what the world makes it seem. I am supposed to endure my pain while being strong for dad and mommy. **** it, fine. I'll be strong this time. So when you're all feeling fantastic I'll just destress alone in the backseat of a car filling discreetly with carbon monoxide, i'll goto sleep as it creeps into my lungs slowly. maybe I'll run off to the carolina's, with a recently seperated married man. commit myself to a tragic relationship. See what ******** drama comes out of it. Or I could participate in the norm and go use my insurence cards. meet a good doctor to Explain my anxiety's and get a script written up, .50 Xanex and self adjust my dosages. float myself into bliss. It'd be just like old times... Slow me down enough to see the beauty in it all, until i run out and have to come back up.
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May 17, 2011
May 17, 2011 at 9:23 AM UTC
on a scale of 1-10 tell me how you feel:
Faking religion in America Confused now and need to sit and think about what I think about religion. Reading something posted by a dude writing about being a good religious person then turns around and says amen to trash talking somebody. Can you say hypocrite or is that the way of religious in America? I've got a few Christmas traditions and they cost me more than I can afford. I'm paying off credit cards long after Jolly old St. Nick's season is over. I accept that I over spend and admit to not being frugal with my money. I accept others who do the same at Christmas when man expects you to spend on credit to save face so you don't look like a no gifting **** to all. What I can't accept are Americans faking being religious and lying. How can you call yourself a Christian when you get angry over stupid **** How can you goto church on Sunday but hate your neighbor? Kings James version of the bible lists the seven deadly sins of mankind. I know religious people who commit sins of pride, covetousness, lust, anger, gluttony, envy, sloth and know many more who have broken commandments. I'm not religious and don't know how I can be with abundance of fake in religion. We got fake religious people posting poetry about being Christians but they turn around and say mean *** **** in poems about other poets. Can you say hypocrite? Religious people writing poems hurting feelings? What is fake and what is real when it comes to religion? Watching all the messed up things religious people do in America has me confused and hating fake religious claiming to believe in God.
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Dec 9, 2013
Dec 9, 2013 at 4:33 PM UTC
Untitled
Faking religion in America Confused now and need to sit and think about what I think about religion. Reading something posted by a dude writing about being a good religious person then turns around and says amen to trash talking somebody. Can you say hypocrite or is that the way of religious in America? I've got a few Christmas traditions and they cost me more than I can afford. I'm paying off credit cards long after Jolly old St. Nick's season is over. I accept that I over spend and admit to not being frugal with my money. I accept others who do the same at Christmas when man expects you to spend on credit to save face so you don't look like a no gifting **** to all. What I can't accept are Americans faking being religious and lying. How can you call yourself a Christian when you get angry over stupid **** How can you goto church on Sunday but hate your neighbor? Kings James version of the bible lists the seven deadly sins of mankind. I know religious people who commit sins of pride, covetousness, lust, anger, gluttony, envy, sloth and know many more who have broken commandments. I'm not religious and don't know how I can be with abundance of fake in religion. We got fake religious people posting poetry about being Christians but they turn around and say mean *** **** in poems about other poets. Can you say hypocrite? Religious people writing poems hurting feelings? What is fake and what is real when it comes to religion? Watching all the messed up things religious people do in America has me confused and hating fake religious claiming to believe in God.
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Confused now and need to sit and think about what I think about religion. Reading something posted by a dude writing about being a good religious person then turns around and says amen to trash talking somebody. Can you say hypocrite or is that the way of religious in America? I've got a few Christmas traditions and they cost me more than I can afford. I'm paying off credit cards long after Jolly old St. Nick's season is over. I accept that I over spend and admit to not being frugal with my money. I accept others who do the same at Christmas when man expects you to spend on credit to save face so you don't look like a no gifting **** to all. What I can't accept are Americans faking being religious and lying. How can you call yourself a Christian when you get angry over stupid **** How can you goto church on Sunday but hate your neighbor? Kings James version of the bible lists the seven deadly sins of mankind. I know religious people who commit sins of pride, covetousness, lust, anger, gluttony, envy, sloth and know many more who have broken commandments. I'm not religious and don't know how I can be with abundance of fake in religion. We got fake religious people posting poetry about being Christians but they turn around and say mean *** **** in poems about other poets. Can you say hypocrite? Religious people writing poems hurting feelings? What is fake and what is real when it comes to religion? Watching all the messed up things religious people do in America has me confused and hating fake religious claiming to believe in God.
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Dec 5, 2013
Dec 5, 2013 at 3:39 PM UTC
Faking religion in America
Confused now and need to sit and think about what I think about religion. Reading something posted by a dude writing about being a good religious person then turns around and says amen to trash talking somebody. Can you say hypocrite or is that the way of religious in America? I've got a few Christmas traditions and they cost me more than I can afford. I'm paying off credit cards long after Jolly old St. Nick's season is over. I accept that I over spend and admit to not being frugal with my money. I accept others who do the same at Christmas when man expects you to spend on credit to save face so you don't look like a no gifting **** to all. What I can't accept are Americans faking being religious and lying. How can you call yourself a Christian when you get angry over stupid **** How can you goto church on Sunday but hate your neighbor? Kings James version of the bible lists the seven deadly sins of mankind. I know religious people who commit sins of pride, covetousness, lust, anger, gluttony, envy, sloth and know many more who have broken commandments. I'm not religious and don't know how I can be with abundance of fake in religion. We got fake religious people posting poetry about being Christians but they turn around and say mean *** **** in poems about other poets. Can you say hypocrite? Religious people writing poems hurting feelings? What is fake and what is real when it comes to religion? Watching all the messed up things religious people do in America has me confused and hating fake religious claiming to believe in God.
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Drink wine to clear my head Smoke something; Goto bed.
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Sep 12, 2014
Sep 12, 2014 at 5:51 PM UTC
Bed.
By Arcassin Burnham Alright..... Most of you so-called poets make me sick, And some of y'all I'd rather sit and fire up another spiff, And for the people that a though had my back, I won't turn or shift, Running all of you over with a car, In a line, Only if, Satisfying my helish thrills, I swear fakeness can **** **** I'll be in the grave, With the devil doing deals, Just to make everyone I hate pay, Ruthless like my dad, You know the one I never seen, I bet he living the life of a bespoked dream, Cover my body with gasoline, So the fire could block my eye sight, Of remembering and seeing, The days of being bullied, Like I didn't have any means, And when I knew some things were not right, I didn't really matter, My days will be involved in **** ******* **** you stealthy and pregnate your girl, Like American horror story, You won the victory, But you just never had the glory, In and out that's why they worry, Skin turned white like mc Donald Flurry, 9/11 chased the poorly, God bless the world in secret orderly, Reaking havok in the janitors closet, She told me to wear ****** instead I didn't listen, Now look what I created, A little ******* name ******** So I live to take care of it, Unlucky and ghost printed it, On a birth certificate, Full of lies and betrayal, When I die, **** it I wanna goto hell, In reality I hate everyone, Come up with my own plans, And rain down on everyone, And for the finals, I hope you enjoyed the hate crime, Worry about you and I'll worry about mine.
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Nov 22, 2014
Nov 22, 2014 at 10:12 PM UTC
"DC 1 (Decision Creating #1 - The Finals)"
By Arcassin Burnham Alright..... Most of you so-called poets make me sick, And some of y'all I'd rather sit and fire up another spiff, And for the people that a though had my back, I won't turn or shift, Running all of you over with a car, In a line, Only if, Satisfying my helish thrills, I swear fakeness can **** **** I'll be in the grave, With the devil doing deals, Just to make everyone I hate pay, Ruthless like my dad, You know the one I never seen, I bet he living the life of a bespoked dream, Cover my body with gasoline, So the fire could block my eye sight, Of remembering and seeing, The days of being bullied, Like I didn't have any means, And when I knew some things were not right, I didn't really matter, My days will be involved in **** ******* **** you stealthy and pregnate your girl, Like American horror story, You won the victory, But you just never had the glory, In and out that's why they worry, Skin turned white like mc Donald Flurry, 9/11 chased the poorly, God bless the world in secret orderly, Reaking havok in the janitors closet, She told me to wear ****** instead I didn't listen, Now look what I created, A little ******* name ******** So I live to take care of it, Unlucky and ghost printed it, On a birth certificate, Full of lies and betrayal, When I die, **** it I wanna goto hell, In reality I hate everyone, Come up with my own plans, And rain down on everyone, And for the finals, I hope you enjoyed the hate crime, Worry about you and I'll worry about mine.
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Finding seed in fibers needed for the humming bird robe. Thread twisted so, fine fine fine, sof-ein my point in the twisting tale The book my culture arose from knowing any rose is a rose. thank you, Gert, this book, the book, our culture- global post the elec'ric link to steam and steel and cotton picking through assembly line guns, before automobiles, by Ford. Yes, as an aside, who saw - pause the prosody, break the lines - goto .7 speed - or bullet speed if you know the idea As handspinners, we indulge our senses with each new yarn that is spun. From <https://spinoffmagazine.com/a-practical-guide-to-ginning-cotton-by-hand/> As handspinners, we indulge our senses with each new yarn that is spun. We are entranced and soothed as our eyes watch the twist travel through the fiber. We fluff, stretch, and tug it into every possible yarn configuration and enjoy that therapeutic zen that comes with it. Ginning your own cotton by hand adds another layer of bliss to the spinning experience. At a glance, we just pluck seeds from a nest of fiber. You’ll want to work methodically in order to save time and leave your fiber as lofty as possible after ginning. Understanding how the seeds are organized within a cotton boll and using the best technique for the variety of cotton that you have makes the handginning process go much easier.
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Oct 9, 2021
Oct 9, 2021 at 2:22 PM UTC
List'ningmmissed-tic at 1.5, finding seed
I blame it on my period, but it's my own lack of self control I'm trying to get better, so it should start getting easier, shouldn't it? But that's not how it works, no, not at all. You still spend every single day consuming calories and wanting to explode. You may not explode as often any more, but you still loosen your cannons daily. You try to get buy with just one meal, but that turns into a full fledged feast. You eat and you eat until you can't anymore, then goto the toilet and let some bombs explode. But since you're getting better, you don't use up all of your ammo You leave it hidden away, adding on some extra armor. Then you wake up, see what all the violence caused you to gain And you just feel like **** because you no longer come out on top every day. You're losing battles left and right; and the saddest thing is, you're losing to your own mind.
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Jul 13, 2015
Jul 13, 2015 at 9:20 PM UTC
Recovery
Lonely silence is the loudest silence of all You always notice it It's in the air around you And inside of you too And when you get home After locking the door The silence is louder You set your keys down on the table Goto a fridge full of food, but there's nothing to eat to make this lonely silence go away You go up stairs to your bedroom To a neatly made bed and books scattered among the floor You take off your jacket and clothes Then leap into the shower You can still feel the silence And it's weighing you down You slide down to your knees wearing a frown You want to cry but sit there till the water runs cold Then slip out and put on a night gown You lie in bed thinking this boring life never gets better and will I ever get better? Will I still be lonely forever? Then you close your eyes as billions of the same questions run around your mind just like every night Then you fall asleep After drinking your bottle of solution and downing all the gin you could take before finally dying And now you've woken up from a dream you were hoping was real Just like every night It's full of lonely silence
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Mar 4, 2014
Mar 4, 2014 at 9:42 AM UTC
Lonely silence
Let it be known from far and wide you dont **** with me No matter what I keep my mouth closed to save you from all this Spray So first of all **** all of you Goto hell **** a **** and well just ******* die Im not going to sit here and let you think you know me Im here to live my life get in my way find out why nobody ****** with me Takes a lot to **** me off now buttons dusty with out pushing but now your slamming it trying to get a rise youll regret it This is a warning to you yea you You know who you are, you know what you did now you released something something that was sleeping something that shouldnt have woken You wanted this, Never thinking, Now I've been thinking, Its time for Duncan to rise again No more pushing me around **** you No more letting myself get hurt by slimeballs and ****** like you **** you Here I am, take your shot **** you Here this Spray ends all for you to criticize to talk about behind my back well heres a message for all you Dont **** with me And dont let my silence make me seem small, Nothings more dangerous than a man in a corner Ive told you time and time again **** You
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Sep 26, 2010
Sep 26, 2010 at 2:23 PM UTC
Spraying This Anger
What the heck am I going to do this summer? I've always had something planned out, But when I was told I had mono, My summer plans changed. I cannot do lifeguarding now, And I've called several places, I'm supposed to be studying for two tests tomorrow, So I didn't goto track today. I'm dealing with acne on my face, I'm extremely tired, I'm always under stress. If I'm not under stress, I feel as if I have nothing to do, And I'll get depressed. I still have the regents, And finals, And tests, And homework. I recently got my license, But I have yet to drive. I'm tired, I'm tired... I constantly worry. When I try to take a day off, And let myself relax, I feel like nothing, Like I have absolutely nothing to do. Why am I writing a poem, When I'm supposed to be studying? I had an idea of where I'd like to go to college, But now I'm clueless. I need someone to tell me everything will be fine, That I'll have plently to do, That I'm a sweet, special girl. I hope I play tennis again in the summer. I hope I get the volunteer job. But I haven't handed the form in yet... Could it be too late? How can I calm down? Can can I ever calm down? Life is too hard for me, I wish I cold do more than I can, And I push myself more than I can. I sometimes feel dead, Brainfired, Tired. Just tired. Why am I itching my face? Because it's all red, From the sun beating down on it each day at track. I have it all, But I feel as if I have nothing. I'm not depressed, I'm not suicidal, I'm not even sad... I feel empty suddenly, And constantly tired.
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May 8, 2013
May 8, 2013 at 3:44 PM UTC
"Horrors of Anxiety"
What the heck am I going to do this summer? I've always had something planned out, But when I was told I had mono, My summer plans changed. I cannot do lifeguarding now, And I've called several places, I'm supposed to be studying for two tests tomorrow, So I didn't goto track today. I'm dealing with acne on my face, I'm extremely tired, I'm always under stress. If I'm not under stress, I feel as if I have nothing to do, And I'll get depressed. I still have the regents, And finals, And tests, And homework. I recently got my license, But I have yet to drive. I'm tired, I'm tired... I constantly worry. When I try to take a day off, And let myself relax, I feel like nothing, Like I have absolutely nothing to do. Why am I writing a poem, When I'm supposed to be studying? I had an idea of where I'd like to go to college, But now I'm clueless. I need someone to tell me everything will be fine, That I'll have plently to do, That I'm a sweet, special girl. I hope I play tennis again in the summer. I hope I get the volunteer job. But I haven't handed the form in yet... Could it be too late? How can I calm down? Can can I ever calm down? Life is too hard for me, I wish I cold do more than I can, And I push myself more than I can. I sometimes feel dead, Brainfired, Tired. Just tired. Why am I itching my face? Because it's all red, From the sun beating down on it each day at track. I have it all, But I feel as if I have nothing. I'm not depressed, I'm not suicidal, I'm not even sad... I feel empty suddenly, And constantly tired.
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take your index finger, wait. stop, rewind ( yes I do this, and yes it is funny, you have no idea.) goto a quite room, with little light, so your natural body will turn up the microphones in your head... now, touch your index finger to your thumb, on off, on off, now your middle finger, on off on off, now your ring finger ( do it with both hands cause then you will feel the tone flow interruptions or focus of. that is) now your highest tone your little piggy went to the market, this little piggy stayed home, this little piggy said *** is he on? well, did you hear the difference in your resonate tones? do it, you will, and when you do, you will, then realize a few things and why I do what it is I so freakishly do, and sorry I imitate not 12 monkeys, for it is the normal switcheroo, I understand it, now, do you? Oh yes my *** can Writ like no ones business, funny how I have removed all, long ago, but hum, I keep being told........... to Writ ... any way. have a loving full flow and full spectrum day, um, everyone says High vibs.... this and that.. um full spectrum son, but place your will in the correct ways and places on the correct things, and then you will see the point, yes we are going higher in tone, but um, who the hell said forget what you have already known to be functional, isnt that what happened last times we forgot.......?
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Jul 16, 2015
Jul 16, 2015 at 11:43 PM UTC
the tone of the tips of mine and yours thin and pudgy, long fat fingers. loljust had too.
Always: try { your best and; do { what you need to do; } while (you still have the time); for (opportunity; comes; only ones) { so grab the chance; } if (you fail) throw "all your worries"; } catch (yourself) { everytime you fall; and you know to Whom you should goto always;
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Oct 3, 2016
Oct 3, 2016 at 6:59 PM UTC
language of love
Days like this, where sorrow exist, I want to goto space Sit upon the moon admire bright stars and erase my swolen remains Maybe then, in a place of darkness, and hope, I won't feel so alone I'd drift in space passing motionless objects, hoping to find someone of the same sadness Maybe then, in conversation and story telling, I won't feel so abandoned
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Nov 27, 2013
Nov 27, 2013 at 11:06 AM UTC
Days Like This (in Space)
10 A IS FOR ANGER NEXT 20 20 START STEP TWO ANGER KUBLER-ROSS INFINITE LOOP 30 GOTO 10 10 A IS FOR ANGER NEXT 20 20 START STEP TWO ANGER KUBLER-ROSS INFINITE LOOP 30 GOTO 10 10 A IS FOR ANGER NEXT 20 20 START STEP TWO ANGER KUBLER-ROSS INFINITE LOOP 30 A IS FOR ANGER NEXT 30 30 GOTO 10 Ad infinitum
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Apr 6, 2015
Apr 6, 2015 at 5:01 PM UTC
"Basic Programming"
First, If I'm outside losing my **** and you say you're going to do something. To help you don't just say I don't feel good anymore or I need to sleep or you're overreacting, I know I'm FUCJING overreacting that's why I need you for ***** sake. Second, I'd like to give a shoutout to the security guard who put **** in perspective for me tonight. Okay so there I was on the 5th floor, my rooms on the first floor so Yes I walked up 4 floors at 12:30, and as I'm up there stumbling around breaking down I hear a mans voice say hey bud what in gods name are you doing. And I tell him the truth I'm walking around cause i feel like **** I feel worthless and I just want stuff to be done. I don't know why or how I confided in him but that doesn't matter because I'll never see him again. He walked up to me and said look I'm here because someone called and said there's a teenage boy out here walking around by the ledge of the top of a building so I came out. And he said look if you're thinking of doing anything don't because all these people payed a lot of money to come here and if you were to happen to end up as a splat down there, it would be a hell of a vacation ruiner for them and I know that sounds bad but sometimes you just have to **** it up for other people cause if you can help others be happy it's worth it. Then he said goto bed and i went back to my room and my friend mel told me we can't be friends anymore. So I'm back out here cause **** those people if I want to jump and **** myself their happiness will have no effect on that and if I don't post by 12 tomorrow afternoon I did jump. So if this is goodnight all sleep tight and live your life the best you can. And to my family **** you for every insult and rude comment you've said to me and dad I guess I am just a big old ******* disappointment after all.
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Aug 3, 2014
Aug 3, 2014 at 1:27 AM UTC
Two things
First, If I'm outside losing my **** and you say you're going to do something. To help you don't just say I don't feel good anymore or I need to sleep or you're overreacting, I know I'm FUCJING overreacting that's why I need you for ***** sake. Second, I'd like to give a shoutout to the security guard who put **** in perspective for me tonight. Okay so there I was on the 5th floor, my rooms on the first floor so Yes I walked up 4 floors at 12:30, and as I'm up there stumbling around breaking down I hear a mans voice say hey bud what in gods name are you doing. And I tell him the truth I'm walking around cause i feel like **** I feel worthless and I just want stuff to be done. I don't know why or how I confided in him but that doesn't matter because I'll never see him again. He walked up to me and said look I'm here because someone called and said there's a teenage boy out here walking around by the ledge of the top of a building so I came out. And he said look if you're thinking of doing anything don't because all these people payed a lot of money to come here and if you were to happen to end up as a splat down there, it would be a hell of a vacation ruiner for them and I know that sounds bad but sometimes you just have to **** it up for other people cause if you can help others be happy it's worth it. Then he said goto bed and i went back to my room and my friend mel told me we can't be friends anymore. So I'm back out here cause **** those people if I want to jump and **** myself their happiness will have no effect on that and if I don't post by 12 tomorrow afternoon I did jump. So if this is goodnight all sleep tight and live your life the best you can. And to my family **** you for every insult and rude comment you've said to me and dad I guess I am just a big old ******* disappointment after all.
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by Arcassin Burnham Visits from the spirits, while i'm fighting inner demons, stabbing at my dreams, guess i wouldn't have to let my emotions just burst the scene, the cosmic ship or the fallen angels, coffee creamers on the kitchen sink, wake up now before, they, catch, you, rip out your laughter, like the clock tower death in seconds, i'm bound to make a mends, if i keep my blessings, lead a nation with correction, i put god first before i goto bed, didn't think the devil put thoughts in my head, protect me from the creatures, that lie ahead, and the ones without a head to be perished or dead, i think about the times, when i was awake, and when i'm lieing, there would be good dreams at stake.
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Sep 12, 2014
Sep 12, 2014 at 4:44 PM UTC
"You Wake Up"
It was a fraction of a flicker, Though it seemed so drawn out passing through each other's spiritual planes It all rushed through me, An instant in forever like time didn't mean a **** And none of the writhing pain remembered, until well and truly sobered, And not in any depth, even now in this forced reflection Writing this useless scrawl seeking a justification for our concrete separation. No luck. The universe won't answer The Sands of Time keep slipping through the glass walls that dive us. Only the deepest sleep brings the opportunity To skip amongst the stars cast away the game of hide and seek, To play joyfully our celestial kiss chasey, To catch each other in our arms, Where the empty spaces of youare filled And meld into a complete Alchemic etherial union. But like sleep, astral dreams must end. The light of reality breaks through the window, And I know every degree of separation Our crueltly is the highest true sacrifice of our kind The highest love requires the highest trust And belief that nothing else matters But the ethereal elevation of every version of existence, The karmic heart lessons must be learned The test must be endured I've drawn out every awakening I've walked around in circles waiting for you Every chance I slip, Every time I see you again With these earthly eyes Feel your presence with this grounded soul, I don't want to come home But it's all in vain I'm ready to leave this test, I have to go; The stars are calling, hurry dearest love, I dont want to go Please, don't make me goto another plane without you.
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Oct 16, 2015
Oct 16, 2015 at 8:45 PM UTC
The Universe is waiting...
It was a fraction of a flicker, Though it seemed so drawn out passing through each other's spiritual planes It all rushed through me, An instant in forever like time didn't mean a **** And none of the writhing pain remembered, until well and truly sobered, And not in any depth, even now in this forced reflection Writing this useless scrawl seeking a justification for our concrete separation. No luck. The universe won't answer The Sands of Time keep slipping through the glass walls that dive us. Only the deepest sleep brings the opportunity To skip amongst the stars cast away the game of hide and seek, To play joyfully our celestial kiss chasey, To catch each other in our arms, Where the empty spaces of youare filled And meld into a complete Alchemic etherial union. But like sleep, astral dreams must end. The light of reality breaks through the window, And I know every degree of separation Our crueltly is the highest true sacrifice of our kind The highest love requires the highest trust And belief that nothing else matters But the ethereal elevation of every version of existence, The karmic heart lessons must be learned The test must be endured I've drawn out every awakening I've walked around in circles waiting for you Every chance I slip, Every time I see you again With these earthly eyes Feel your presence with this grounded soul, I don't want to come home But it's all in vain I'm ready to leave this test, I have to go; The stars are calling, hurry dearest love, I dont want to go Please, don't make me goto another plane without you.
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