By Me, the Great Duncan
Fickle and ever indecisive,
Destiny such a mistress
Taunting at my soul,
Yet,
When it shines in your favor,
Such a shine, shimmering with your jubilation for everyone to see
Hopeing was now a tired act,
Always the same night, same time,
Deep in sleep wanting nothing more,
Than to wake to someone,
Anyone to just ease this,
This tragic ironic loneliness I had put myself in
"Why?!" I screamed to the heavens of my dark ceiling,
Calling a question that mockingly,
Never was answered,
Yet
No more,
Live,
I whisper to the glass and grass,
Flowing and burning,
Mimicking the nights,
Speeding by,
Blurs on a deserted and dark, desolated highway, thumbing my way down,
Trying, searching,
For the tell tale signs of destiny,
Shimmering on the horizon,
Till,
Finally, in a bar,
"Let the night begin!" We yell as we begin our hunt,
Laughing, yet always on the scout,
Never seeing her,
Passing oh so close,
Almost!
The clock ticked down,
Closer and closer as Destiny,
That fickle mistress of my nightmares,
As deemed fit,
I met her tonight,
For all my cries in the night,
For all my past failures,
For all the ones lost,
I would find the one,
I've been asking for,
But only just,
As the clock,
Ticks,
Down,
Ever,
Closer,
Till...
She smiles sweetly,
I see her, only her,
The rest is blurred,
Distorted in the wake,
Of the beauty,
Radiating,
Only for me
Another smile,
From on high,
Destiny laughs,
We embrace,
A sigh,
Happily,
My question answered,
"Why?!" I had screamed,
Her,
Destiny answered
May 20, 2013
May 20, 2013 at 4:05 PM UTC
Dear friends
Loved ones,
rivals of all sorts
pass by me in a river,
of pain and pleasure
On this bench,
by this beach,
watching the sun
dip slowly
highlighting my years
as I close my eyes
tears
down my face
and a Grin
The moments found,
the feelings felt,
the hearts broken,
all fresh wounds now,
old scars
just another lifetime now
Feeling the shivering,
melting,
pleasure of your touch again,
all of you
lost shadows,
still here now with me,
like you once were
like you once did
Nothing more now,
I murmur in the fading light,
save the embrace,
of one I lost so long ago
I know him when he calls,
Fierce and Loyal,
even through death
Not long now,
I whisper,
through the tears
Yet,
a smile still remains,
like the light of the sun
still reflecting in the moon,
like the lives
Ive lived,
ready to do it all again
Aug 12, 2011
Aug 12, 2011 at 3:15 PM UTC
I sit in the center of a bright lit room
screaming at you,
You sit and stare
never flinching,
Your smile,
Consumes me,
I reach out
Screaming,
I reach out
Nothing
I sit here now
In this room which holds my being,
Hearing nothing but the flutter of wicked love,
and the caress of poisoned promises
"Cant you see me?!" I cry,
the echo of your lies
in the absence of your heart answers for you
The light is dim now
fading from sight,
You
Fading from light,
Me
Here I sit,
no longer screaming,
no longer bleeding for your touch
no longer suffering for your passing glance
no longer...
The light bulb shatters,
See nothing but the dark where it all began
Finally Seeing that you no longer matter,
an empty socket,
Waiting to be filled again
Jul 20, 2011
Jul 20, 2011 at 10:47 AM UTC
Can you forgive
Can you forget
Can you look past,
all my faults
all my failures
all my regrets that I have in life,
Could you see it in your heart,
your soul
to forgive someone
who cant forgive himself,
a man who regrets much,
who thinks of the past,
as the present
The pain
of your passing
still
flows through my mind
without check
and the nights
sometimes
never end
Guilt
wells inside me
filling my heart with black
crude
remorse
dripping into my psyche
draining my will,
wanting nothing but you
If only you could forgive,
a man like me
who still cries in dark
wishing for just one more day
to see
just one more
then maybe
I could forgive myself
Jul 15, 2011
Jul 15, 2011 at 10:31 AM UTC
The night is heavy now,
sitting in thick of it all
My tears staining my face,
where the smile used to sit
Nothing now,
save for the throbbing of my heart
broken, yet still
counting the seconds
with each beat
Here I lie
wanting nothing
but to pass on
either in sleep or life
as darkness,
eternal,
creeps in my mind once more
I feel weak now,
lost within the abyss of my mind
withering in the dark,
imprisoned by tears
Yet
Hope filters through,
like the rays of the coming sun,
the morrow brings with it light
brings with it
Dawn
Jul 14, 2011
Jul 14, 2011 at 10:15 AM UTC
Tonight
I write
these feelings of pride
Honor,
Courage,
Sadness,
Worry,
Pride
&
Love
Here we salute you
to your endeavors,
to your dreams,
to your friendship,
that will be here
long after the war is over,
long after the dead are buried
long after you've,
gone
May 12, 2011
May 12, 2011 at 3:54 PM UTC
To you,
Mother
I write this world,
to show it
just how amazing you are
Mother
Through out my dark times,
through out my strife
my failures
Mother
You have been the,
only
one
Mother
Who could help me forget,
and brighten my being
Mother
with compassion
with love
with something only
You can
and will ever do
and not a Soul on this earth
or above
can ever take that from me
Mother
May 7, 2011
May 7, 2011 at 3:42 PM UTC
When They Came,
the neighbors left with them
When They Came,
the city shut down
When They Came,
the world died...
and came back,
hungry
They Came,
I stayed
They Came,
I hid
They Came,
shattering my world
They Came,
and took my humanity
I Left,
my belongings and home
I Left,
my friends and family
I Left,
and fell in line
I Left
now I march with Them
Forever,
Till I Die again
Apr 24, 2011
Apr 24, 2011 at 7:01 PM UTC
This tune,
this melody,
this horror in front of me
Plays like a sick tune,
of sickness and disease
The key winds around,
the picks play their death cry
over
and over
again
It haunts my dreams
playing as your face
locks my soul
into a dance of death with your heart
Over and Over again
you play
through my head
pounding the beat,
snapping the strings,
flaying the chords,
bleeding the Harmony
Years this went on,
the dance of my heart
Slogging through the tears,
as you always bow away
spinning through the music,
cutting my veins
succumbing to this haunting
Music
Centered in the sky,
above the our waltz
sits the centerpiece of our dance,
a grand chandelier,
adorned in silk and diamonds,
sparkling above us,
showing the times we should have had
could have...
Yet here we dance,
forever the Music echoing,
deep
in my Heart
Mar 25, 2011
Mar 25, 2011 at 11:22 AM UTC
I Rove for you,
My love
I Rove searching always
My love
Every drink,
every song I play,
every swish of my cane,
always to find you
My love,
Im a Rover,
always roving,
searching,
for you,
My love
You may not know me,
or know of my quest
Nor do I know of you
except for your beauty
your grace,
your pull
My love
We will be together,
one day
but here I Rove,
through the dark,
the dank,
the evil of this land,
I Travel
I Quest
I Search
My Love
I Rove
to gain my true loves company
Jan 26, 2011
Jan 26, 2011 at 8:12 AM UTC