"freemind" poems
At 5 years old
She liked a boy
That told her she was "pretty".
They sat hand in hand
And played pretend
That they were "Oh so ready!"
She told her friends
So they all giggled without an end.
At 10 years old
She liked a boy
That told her she was "gross".
"Too much hair! Look at that fat!
I'd rather like a monkey instead!"
Tears rolled down,
Self esteem has broke.
She told no one,
Because she already knew
What she was...
At 15 years old
She liked a boy
That told her she was "beautiful".
So strong and tall,
She gave no thought
But loved him always more.
"He is no good for you"
"Find someone better"
She let these words fly past.
They stood hand in hand
Against the world
They always stood together.
But something changed...
No longer interested in her
"I can not wait no more!"
He robbed her of her flower once,
And then once more.
Regret and tears,
Nothing more.
She held it all inside too long.
She asked for help.
In need of aid.
But got nothing more
Than blue, purple, and red
All over her.
At 17 years old
She liked no one.
She went nowhere.
She did nothing.
She wanted forgiveness.
She wanted life to simply end.
No words to speak.
Only thoughts filled her now.
The "Why?" and "What?" and "How?"
They almost killed her.
She cried all night.
She sat all day
With nothing else getting in her way.
All alone,
No longer her,
Thinking of the best way,
To finally give in
And say,
Goodbye...
-FreeMind
Feb 19, 2018
Feb 19, 2018 at 11:20 AM UTC
I still remember the day you took my hand,
Kissed my forehead,
And told me you didn't love me.
-FreeMind
Nov 13, 2018
Nov 13, 2018 at 7:54 AM UTC
You cant escape reality
When it hugs you like a casket
Ready to burry you deep into the ground
-FreeMind
Dec 1, 2018
Dec 1, 2018 at 1:00 PM UTC
My Mama always told me, that I should never, ever, cry.
That I could only shed a tear, when someone very special died.
I kept that promise, Mama, for many, many, years.
But tonight, I'm filled with sorrow.
A river path has already been created from my eyes to my cheeks.
My body is shaking, My eyes are swollen, My jaw is clenched tight.
For I have lost someone very, very special to me.
Maybe no one can see, and maybe no one can tell, but, Mama,
I lost a little girl.
She ran from me far, far away.
Into the dark, deep, scary woods, where there was no way out.
I tried to help her, I tried to call out her name.
But she thought she could get out herself. And told me not to help.
Oh Mama! You wouldn't believe what happened next!
He came behind her and slaughtered the little girl.
Mutilated her.
Until there was nothing left but blood and bones.
Oh Mama! I'm so sorry!
I'm sorry I could not get her out!
I'm sorry that I didn't try harder to help her escape!
Oh Mama! I'm sorry, I'm sorry!
The little, happy girl is gone.
But her killer is still on the loose.
He is swimming in glory and victory.
Showing off her stolen innocence as his award.
Oh Mama,
I'm sorry.
I'm sorry that she is gone.
-FreeMind
Sep 2, 2018
Sep 2, 2018 at 9:07 AM UTC
You are laying down in a field filled with daffodils
The birds are singing happy tunes
The sun is shining just for you
You are looking up into the sky thats filled with cotton clouds
The long growing grass is keeping you warm
The butterflies are dancing just for you
You feel safe
You feel at home
My darling, My love, My little daffodil
Let me wrap you in my arms to replicate that feeling
Let me kiss you slowly to send shivers of joy down your spine
I need you and I want you
To feel safe with me
To be at home
Our home
-FreeMind
Oct 10, 2018
Oct 10, 2018 at 3:33 AM UTC
Sometimes I wish I could stop writing
About my affection
But my poems would become empty,
Meaningless
If they were no longer about You
By : FreeMind
May 25, 2019
May 25, 2019 at 1:15 PM UTC
woman
The word rolls off your tongue like an insult.
You look down upon me,
Judge me for my desire to grow wings.
Your gaze is that of disgust and yet you draw me closer
With your filthy paws.
Woman
Is the one who gave you life.
And you dare to belittle her with you filthy mouth?
Why don't you compare her to the earth instead?
The ground that gives us food
Why don't you compare her to the air?
That lets us breathe
Why don't you compare her to water?
That can drench our thirst
Why don't you compare her to fire?
That keeps us warm
WOMAN
Is what I am
Is what I am proud to be
So don't touch me if I don't want to be touched
And don't stop me if I don't want to be stopped
But most importantly,
Don't feel pity for me because I was born a woman.
I can do what I please to do
And I will do it when I please to do it.
I am unstoppable.
I am a woman.
-FreeMind
Feb 7, 2019
Feb 7, 2019 at 10:54 AM UTC
I want to be that book You can't stop reading.
I want to be that song You can't stop singing.
I want to be that air You can't stop breathing.
I want to be that life You can't stop living.
Oh Darling, tell me I'm enough!
-FreeMind
Sep 8, 2018
Sep 8, 2018 at 10:24 AM UTC
By the lonely river
I sat waiting for you.
Hoping that you would come back for me.
We would hold hands and talk about the future we never received.
Laugh about the endless memories that were never made.
But you were just like the long, cold river.
And I knew you would not stop for me.
So I sat aimlessly, alone
By the lonely river.
-FreeMind
Jun 25, 2018
Jun 25, 2018 at 7:48 AM UTC
It has only come to my mind now
That your name translates to heaven.
Thoughts of you have flooded my empty head,
And so I decided to write a poem dedicated to you.
I wanted to write about that smile of yours
(The smile that warms me inside even when it isn't for me)
I wanted to write about that rainbow bandana you wear
(That made me embrace my love for them too)
I wanted to write about that guitar you play like a real musician
(Such talent I've never seen before)
I wanted to write about that haircut I complimented you on
(The courage I gained to talk to you)
I tried so hard to think of those perfect words to write
But I can't
I can't
I can't write about how beautiful or smart you are because you are so much more.
You are magnificent.
You are an inspiration.
But what saddens me most is that you are gone.
And I will never be able to tell you all those things I have tried to say.
My only hope is that you see this some day, and finally realize how much you meant to me. Even if to you I was just a girl with a crush.
-FreeMind
Aug 21, 2018
Aug 21, 2018 at 4:05 PM UTC
"They only read me because I'm short and simple..."
-Struggles of a Poem
-FreeMind
Jun 4, 2019
Jun 4, 2019 at 1:54 PM UTC
You watch movies about affairs between teachers and students
And wonder how that could be.
"Why would they form such a relationship?"
It frightens you, but you console yourself
"It's only a movie".
Until it's not.
Because it happens to you.
And you wonder how could your kindness be mistaken
While he says "we should keep this a professional relationship".
But when was it anything else?
By : FreeMind
Jan 25, 2019
Jan 25, 2019 at 1:36 PM UTC
Your lips are filled with poison
But all I want to do
Is kiss them
-FreeMind
Aug 3, 2018
Aug 3, 2018 at 3:16 AM UTC
At last, we meet again.
So deeply devoted to one another,
Our hearts beat to the same rhythm.
"Boom. Boom."
That charming gaze, delightful smile.
I let you carry me away.
And off we go.
Flying through the cotton clouds,
Eyes filled with happy tears,
Never wanting it to end.
"Destiny awaits us!"
So utterly consumed in each other.
Two love birds unable to let go.
The softness of your palm against my cheek,
Leaning in too close,
Laughing at our little jokes.
Everything is finally falling into the proper place.
But at last,
I wake up.
And you are gone once more.
-FreeMind
May 7, 2018
May 7, 2018 at 12:47 PM UTC
Kiss me,
Kiss me,
And kiss me once more...
Shut the blinds, Close the door.
Touch my heart
And whisper my name
Can you tell that you are driving me insane?
-FreeMind
Jan 3, 2019
Jan 3, 2019 at 2:06 PM UTC
Some things were brought together by the universe
Sun and Moon
Sky and Sea
Fire and Water
You and Me
I suppose we were meant to be
-FreeMind
Apr 7, 2019
Apr 7, 2019 at 4:29 AM UTC
Your soothing voice has lulled me to sleep
But I'm waking up alone
-FreeMind
May 24, 2019
May 24, 2019 at 4:33 PM UTC
One day, Time will stop.
You will no longer be filled with all these feelings that once brought you joy.
There will be Nothing left to inspire you.
Nothing to bring you that tiny bit of Happiness.
There will simply be Nothing left.
And when that day comes, it will be up to you,
To decide to continue,
Or to simply give up that last breath of air that fills your lungs entirely.
And in that moment the decision might be final.
But before you let go. Stop. Think.
Think about all those times your stomach was filled with butterflies,
And your mouth filled with laughter,
And your lungs surrounded by a garden of flowers that grew inside of you.
Just stop. Think.
Think for as long as you have to- until you realize that once you let that air go,
All you have to do is take a deeper breath and fill yourself with Life.
Because One day can turn into a New day, but only if You chose so.
-FreeMind
Feb 8, 2018
Feb 8, 2018 at 4:38 AM UTC
My vision is being altered by an invisible being.
My body is changing drastically, no seconds to spare.
I can no longer tell if the mirror is lying to me,
If it is my eyes that are distorting my self image,
Or if I have gone completely insane.
It stares at me.
"Eat me."
It pleads. Begs for me to take a bite.
But I know better.
I won't ruin the progress. I've been working so hard.
I'll be that pretty skinny girl, I was almost meant to be.
But at 4am, it will beg me once more.
And I'll feel sorry. And I'll feel sorry.
So I will devour 2000 calories in 2 minutes, after my 42 hour fast.
Time to welcome my old friend, Regret.
Ah, I knew he would stop by. And right on time!
With the Scale and Mirror right by his side,
They will lay me down, and all watch me cry.
Where did the Scissors go?
Oh...
The ****** took those when he pretended to love me whole.
Not to worry, I'm strong.
I can take a few punches, to bruise up my soul.
Colors! Colors! Look at them go!
Representing that rainbow that makes me feel whole!
Shh!
Not too loud!
Don't let them hear!
They don't know how I feel about that girl across the street.
I should tell them. Come clean.
But won't that just cause a scene?
Stop.
No drama.
Just focus on work.
The classes you've been failing will soon **** your Hope.
HAH! What a life!
How can I complain?
All the choices were mine!
And now I'm INSANE!
-FreeMind
Oct 22, 2018
Oct 22, 2018 at 12:58 PM UTC
Stolen glances.
Secret notes.
Distortion of reality occurs.
He can no longer control himself.
The sight of her awakens tender feelings -
That were once buried deep down
From the last time he got his heart broken.
He prays that this time it will be different...
An increase in hope, a decrease in fear.
Her smooth lips against his cheeks.
The way her hips sway as she walks his way.
How can he stop thinking of that lovely soul?
How could he not wish, not want more?
Beautiful Girl.
The glory in her eyes
Overwhelms him inside.
Beautiful Girl.
That precious smile-
She is all that he desires.
If only she was truly his...
-FreeMind
Apr 26, 2018
Apr 26, 2018 at 3:06 PM UTC
Take this box and run far, far away
To a land hidden from those that don't want to be gay.
Run until your knees feel weak
And your legs can't hold you much longer.
Run until your head is spinning
And your eyes can't see much farther.
You may stop when all you hear is kind laughter.
For the box holds a treasure that can't be gone after.
'What is in this box?'
You might want to ask.
So I urge you to listen
To the 'Boom Boom' inside.
Yes, kind stranger, it is my heart.
For there is no more love left inside, it has fallen apart.
But over the years I have grown older and smarter
And now I know that a loving heart isn't an armor.
I want it to be far away from those that have hurt it.
Protect it, Keep it safe, Don't let them destroy it.
For I have faith.
Love is not Dead.
-FreeMind
Jul 27, 2018
Jul 27, 2018 at 5:40 PM UTC
I allow the darkness to fill my heart
Finally suffused with mystical energy.
I beam with joy,
As a wide smile spreads across my pale face.
I am charged with warmth,
Reflecting the sweet moonlight on my skin.
-FreeMind
Feb 27, 2019
Feb 27, 2019 at 11:42 AM UTC
I said I would not write about you
But here I am, once more.
It's all because I banned you from my heart
Yet you managed to stay in my mind
Crawling back every night
To steal my reasoning away from me
Leaving me blind
Making me follow my emotions
Until I reach you, once more.
-FreeMind
Oct 23, 2018
Oct 23, 2018 at 1:00 PM UTC
Free your soul
Empty your mind
Dance in the rain
It is you they desire
Free your soul
Dismiss the past
The future is beaming
Help them enter at last
Free your soul
They will come and go
Don't let them stop you
It is your time to grow
Free your soul
Surrender to that sound
Let the music surround you
It will help you be found
Free your soul
It is your time to choose
No time to waste
This isn't a battle you lose
Free your soul
Let go of the pain
Your heart will thank you
Don't let is stay strained
Free your soul
You know how
-FreeMind
Feb 16, 2018
Feb 16, 2018 at 6:32 AM UTC
I promised him I would stop cutting, and I did
Because what I hated most was inside
And he was hurting it just fine without my help
By : FreeMind
Jun 17, 2019
Jun 17, 2019 at 10:29 AM UTC