"feining" poems
Come and wrap yourself in my arms protection
make me your object of affection with no objection
the way you moving got me feeling you in some kind of way
I can't get enough of you in any shape of fashion
got me feining for you
in some type of way you are perfection
I want your body language
to teach me a lesson
you are so blessed
I want to give you my blessin
Feb 21, 2018
Feb 21, 2018 at 11:39 PM UTC
I'm Feining For A Dose of
Methamphetamine.
I Know I Have successful Sobriety Days.
But My Thoughts Are Overwhelming Me Heavily.
And What Best Knowing iCan Take A Hit And Forget Everything. I'm Feeling So Low,
Drowning My Self in Guilt And Sorrow. Yes I Know Its Effects Arnt Forever lasting .
But My Heads pounding iJust Want To Feel The **** Flow Blast in.
How Long? How Strong?
Will I Give in or Will Reality Kick quick Which Do You Predict?
Scan Through My History,
Sadning Because My Minds Weak And Would Rather Tweak
Than Go Through it how I'm Supposed to.
Wouldn't Be The First time,
More Like it's the only option
I tend to want to see.
Because of what it brings,
An Easy Solution That will have me Loving its fascinating Pollution.
Deep in me I really don't want to abuse this,
But When I Feel So hopeless
My Mind blinds me on purpose
to reach the Dope Switch
And instantly want to turn to the substance
and use to get high to cope with.
Nov 21, 2014
Nov 21, 2014 at 3:29 AM UTC
How to design a killer society
by president whiteness
the imperial imagination
drone culture
drone language
drone purpose
a rough process
of putting your conscience
back into yourself
far away from what you look like
while having your experience
surrounded by those who fear
having their experience alone
awkward comparisons of experience
acting out in play
called
“how normal melts into experience”
you ****** expired
you are looking now
at yourself having been experienced
expired and ready for the next program
I destroyed leisure
white celebration
single handedly
found its brittle structure
and took it apart
piece by piece
as it squeezed and begged
I smiled as it crumbled
down back to nature
begging for mercy
begging to be taught how to live
how to be alive
i can give time
I can take it away
does time need electricity
to be charged
does time need to socialize
the harder it seems
the more easy my words come
the better they touch you
graze your skin barely
tickles
like I could never with my hands
I want my words to be a spark
I want you to be flammable
I want you to be mesmerized
by the flame I made out of your attention
I want you to feel warm and cozy
burning passion
scared of fire out of control
spreading
you need
yet fear so boldly
desperate nuclear dissociation
like the affection of whiteness
stampeding innocence
feining my writing
like drugs needles
love
too deep in limbs
they are coming
imperialism
*******
longing for
bodies
I want your mind
keep her body
naked hostage
of imperial lust
what happened to your attention
being an adult
I don’t know what the **** is in the future
but I do
so do you
I wanted to write to you
so I could just focus
on your eyes the next time I am with you
your moistness
melts my desire
I become more of a mystery
more mystery
until nothing but mystery
and then nothing at all
Oct 11, 2018
Oct 11, 2018 at 6:43 PM UTC
I gave my trust to a thief.
She stole my heart,
then called it love.
Made the mistake of
believing her.
Found myself needing her
Never be leaving her.
Wanted and feining, her
Potion working kneading me hard
My purpose meant for her
But like a mother's love
is mother's nature
Time reveals all
And the truth is no stranger.
The past becomes the present
of previous mistakes.
What made our world's quake
Karma turns in strange ways
But hardly makes mistakes
Painting the wrong picture
So if a heart gets broken it wasn't by Mrs.Take
Jul 8, 2017
Jul 8, 2017 at 12:09 AM UTC
Another Year ive Begun
Everyone thought i was clean but that same
31st eve, i was strung on
methamphetamine
I know i know Im the one continuing on
but temptation hit hard
i just felt the need to celebrate
and feel differnt , i was feining and
went to go seek it..
Mar 5, 2015
Mar 5, 2015 at 3:57 PM UTC
As iGet Ready To Sleep
Close my Eye's
&
Laydown, The 1st Thought Appears
Then The image
And rolling tape, scenarios of me getting high
Lately Have Been Appearing. Feels realistic
And They Have me Feining. The Movements look so Amazing &
Deceiving
All this is trippig me.
Sep 22, 2014
Sep 22, 2014 at 9:20 PM UTC
iM Still The Same,
into the Same game.
Addicted To The Same Thang,
Not Giving A **** like My minds
Always been.
The Swirls and Twirls are still existing, the thick white klouds are Still forming, ***** Always Been!
The Pipe iS Packed
The bic iFlicked ready To Start melting and Take A Bomb Hit.
I LOVE LIT
Same mentality on the low
Where iStill Seem to agreeing Imma
Die off iT Slow.
Getting High has been more difficult, seeking ways cause its
Invincible
Im losing my head as the days
Foward on.
Either Lit or Feining
Cause this just has me leaning
Towards getting every single bit
I can.
Istill Seem To See iT As My Everything.
Sep 6, 2014
Sep 6, 2014 at 3:27 PM UTC
days dangling
persisting mists keep paralysis
locked upon these lips
priority checklists insist
there is much more to live for than this
but a pack of 20 is gone long before
the night arrives
to heighten my hollow feining core
eagerly willing to endure more
if it brings an end to the internal war
then moved onto 100's
it's the percentage of how certain I am
that all corruption
is never ending
these invented coping methods
-lists of pros and cons with cigarettes-
are not getting me any closer
to blending
only extending
the mending process
of which I wish I was commencing
I bet instead
I'll keep pretending
that this demise is intended for me
still I know I'm only guessing
and growing further away from
social structure
that has been made,
but made to rupture
Sep 18, 2014
Sep 18, 2014 at 8:46 AM UTC
Longing for someone to touch my soul.
Bring the light into the darkness.
Fix the heart thats now parted.
Tears that fall endlessly because of feeling unwanted.
The emptiness that fills my stomach like im just now meeting you. Wanting to speak up , but i feel you dont want me to.
Daily I speak to my mind saying youre going to come back .
But how its looking now , i feel theres no turning back.
Why just why did you have to hurt me ? Through all the situations and problems , i was the eye to your soul.
When people did you wrong , i build up with anger.
When all along , your killing my mind.
Mentally confused , mind so abused. Words that fill my head , & thoughts i have of you.
Memories that haunt me , that i want to leave.
Soul desire for your longing touch. Was in for so long , just wonder if it was love.
Feining for your presence , im blinded by lust.
Problems built up to today thats causing me not to trust.
That deep, drowned ,feeling of my heart sinking whenever i hear your name.
I push myself so far , mentally and physically everyday.
The echoes of your mind repeats through my heart.
The words you said to me , when we were first droven apart.
I cry and i cry but i laugh after a while.
Trying to hide over my heart , that i dont plan to use for a while.
Jan 22, 2015
Jan 22, 2015 at 9:06 PM UTC
I feel so sad.
I Want Sobriety,
My minds fighting badly
It hurts so bad knowing I Don’t Want this but I’m here wanting.
I’m not feeling anything To say
I want to numb this .
It’s just an urge at the moment
To feel it in me .
A crave my mind & body
Are feining ..
I hurt when I’m on it.
Though my heart tears apart
I can’t get it through my head
At the end il be depressed In regret
I’m so saddened.
I’m sorry I’m sorry
God help me get through this
Jan 7, 2018
Jan 7, 2018 at 5:38 AM UTC
I’ll be the girlfriend in your wet dream
Only for now
As I am hoping you keep a place for me in your bed or if your sheets are always cold
Fulfill my last wish for you as I would do the same
My self control is weak
And I hope I stay on your mind
Like a parasite
I hope you crave the feeling
Of my curves
My clear, soft skin
Under your clamy hands
I was your clay, as you shaped me into yours
I rode you and drove you crazy
Every place I licked, ****** and begged out of you
As I was feining
You rose like a symphony and told me to take a bow
For my show is art and you will always be the only one to receive it
When she does the same, do you wish it was me?
Do you not wish I was on my knees for your ***** work?
Every time you attempt to sculpt her
Your clay falls and you give up
When you run your hands over her
Do you have to close your eyes?
And yearn for another
Intimate masterpiece
Only I can give you?
May 23, 2019
May 23, 2019 at 11:22 PM UTC
My Life Felt Perfect.
The minute I took That 1st hit.
I was good , living Chill like everyone around me.
I felt alive & stress free.
Worried about nothing.
My life got complicated.
The moment My secret Revealed.
Now I feel twice as miserable.
I got a reminder of why I'm inlove with the unreal.
With All These complications
My minds Losing patience.
I wasn't craving.
now that it's known , I'm feining.
To relieve All These negative feelings.
I'm loving life High.
I'm feeling nothing, that's why
Sep 22, 2017
Sep 22, 2017 at 7:42 PM UTC