"demond" poems
there's this girl with the pink hair, she has this never ending feeling of depression and despair
She's got this smile, that outshines the whole entire sky, but no one knows she has scars that start at her wrist, and trail down her hips, and end on her thigh.
Her eyes the colour of the ocean, she's reckless and outgoing, she's got this kind of mind, and she'll stay strong in person, but at night she wants to die.
her voice is loud and gentle, it makes the blue birds sing.
she can make me laugh, with all the right words and sayings. she says she's okay but I know instead of killing all the Demond's in her mind, herself is the one she's slaying.
Feb 1, 2014
Feb 1, 2014 at 11:13 PM UTC
I want so badly to slit my wrists,
to give you the chance to forget I even exist.
to put myself out of this misery and finally be alright
to take the blade to my wrists and let the Demond's win this fight.
to add to the scars and marks
to make you see that I'm stuck here In the dark
to wipe this smile off my face and replace it with the look of death that seems to fit right in place
over a hundred times I've slid the blade and kissed the worries goodbye
I've let the blood drip from my arms and the tears stream down my cheeks and I've also ****** it all up in front of you, just to make you feel like you're doing something right.
I wish you knew how much you hurt me, just by glancing at her.
you don't want me anymore and I know it's true. so let me take a few more pills, maybe a few drinks of ***** hang myself up from this rope because it's the only way I know how to cope.
Dec 21, 2013
Dec 21, 2013 at 10:58 AM UTC
Art is my safe place. Each night I lay here and shed my pain on the paper. Art is my safe place. Each word I write takes me to a brand new day. Art is my safe place. The inner Demond's I fight during the day, just seem to melt away. Art is my safe place my imagination always comes to save the day
Dec 2, 2013
Dec 2, 2013 at 3:28 PM UTC
Its been fifteen years sense I last heard your voice
Taken from all of us you didn't have a choice
Gone from this world in just a blink of an eye
Still you had to leave us God has the reason why
You where never perfect had some human flaws
Did some heavy drinking your Demond's were the cause
But still you held your head up had integrity
Deep down you were a softie but intimidated me
And the way you taught us was harsh and never fair
But the way you loved us showed how much you cared
No one could ever read you...you were no open book
Build you up or break you down with a single look
You had the skill to make life the hardest of it all
You were always there for us all we had to do was call
You know I really miss you my heart your still part of
I know that you still love me and watch me from above
Mar 22, 2014
Mar 22, 2014 at 10:06 AM UTC
There's a darkness grown upon me
And threw my eyes you can see
The vacancy that I must feed
With melancholy and misery
Everything I'd be has escapes me
The eveil has erased me
The Demond's
They still chase me
And my great escape is apathy
Jun 5, 2014
Jun 5, 2014 at 11:47 PM UTC
I wrote of Demond's that invaded me. Demond's that corresponded with my brain and danced with my soul. Demond's that abducted my heart and blinded my eyes.
I wrote of Darla, my idealistic alter ego. The one who dreams of romance and treads passionately towards it. The other girl inside of me who forgives and cries without remorse or regret.
I wrote of heartbreak and abuse from past lovers. The torment of a fractured heart and the loneliness that was left. The neglect from my childhood and the pains of independence. The confusion of men and the unanswered question of "How will I ever heal".
I wrote of my habitual infidelity and thirst for love. My attraction to danger and lust for something more. My deepest desires and most remembered experiences. My darkest fantasies mixed with a little chaos.
In all of this, I still feel the need to say more. Somewhere deep inside I crave to tell the world what's on my mind and written in my heart. Even in knowing I'll never say it all, I will always try.
Mar 13, 2017
Mar 13, 2017 at 5:16 PM UTC
There's a demon that I love,
I cant stop thinking about him
I only see him once a month
He says he is busy with
Work, but demons do lie
But I believe him anyway.
There's a demon that I love,
He hasn't told me his name
He said he wants to be with
me for an eternal life.
There's a demon that I love,
No thinks he exists, my
friends laughs at me, I
Hate it.
There's a demon that I love,
I tell him all of my problems
His Response was to ****
Myself, I asked him to take
My soul but he said no.
There's a demon that I love,
I killed my self for him.
Jan 26, 2016
Jan 26, 2016 at 4:16 AM UTC
I'm not perfect,
I'm not perfect,
I'm not perfect,
I wish i was,
I don't know why.
Sometimes i just want someone to understand,
To understand what i see,
To understand what i hear,
Understand i feel sometimes,
Witch is pain and always will be,
I act like nothing is bothering me,
That everything is OK when it's really not,
That is have no problems and joke about everything,
I admit i act like someone i'm not, Not sometimes but all the time,
When it comes to school
Or day dreaming,
But deep inside i want to cut myself to see if i am who i am,
To see if my pain is real,
To let all the tears out,
To let the truth come out,
To show people i'm not as strong as i am,
In my world,
Sometimes i just want to let lose and run,
Run away in the woods and never stop,
Or just die,
Death pops up in my head most of the time,
But not as much as it should,
I wish i just tell people who i really am,
Or even show,
Yea a lot of people think i'm crazy,
Weird,
Strong,
Weak,
Powerful,
Worthless,
Beautiful,
Ugly,
And a million other words,
I want people to live in my shoes just for five minutes,
Only five minutes,
And see how i feel every second of my life,
It only take five minutes to want to run away into that woods and never come back,
I want to be free from my Demond's and from my angels,
Just to see how it feels to be without any sprits fight over me,
Telling me what to do,
Telling me where to go,
What i should and shouldn't do,
Than go back,
Not to my life but to another world,
But to a world where i'm surrounded by angels,
And with people who understand,
Some people think they could relate to other peoples pain,
But I tell you now you can't,
You can't,
You just CAN'T
By: Me (Jocelyn Bennett)
Nov 25, 2014
Nov 25, 2014 at 6:59 PM UTC
Getting older, learning to burry the past
Looking for men who may heal me fast
Found myself in bad situations, the kind that wake me from my sleep
When all I ever wanted was someone to love me
Bare hands kept me silent
No matter how far I go, I can't run from it
No nightmares again he said, and we close our eyes
But still I wake at 3am fighting the Demond's in the night.
Oct 11, 2016
Oct 11, 2016 at 1:33 AM UTC