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"convulsive" poems
making love suspends gravity    and time seconds expand    into eternity we are    on top of the universe floating    in the fourth dimension feeling      the birth of a new solar system       amidst convulsive explosions    whose brilliance       light years into the future    may be observed    by keen astronomers we do not mind our system radiates and shines in its time nothing else matters
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Mar 18, 2015
Mar 18, 2015 at 3:24 PM UTC
new solar system
I sit and look out upon all the sorrows of the world, and upon all oppression and shame; I hear secret convulsive sobs from young men, at anguish with themselves, remorseful after deeds done; I see, in low life, the mother misused by her children, dying, neglected, gaunt, desperate; I see the wife misused by her husband—I see the treacherous seducer of young women; I mark the ranklings of jealousy and unrequited love, attempted to be hid—I see these sights on the earth; I see the workings of battle, pestilence, tyranny—I see martyrs and prisoners; I observe a famine at sea—I observe the sailors casting lots who shall be kill’d, to preserve the lives of the rest; I observe the slights and degradations cast by arrogant persons upon laborers, the poor, and upon negroes, and the like; All these—All the meanness and agony without end, I sitting, look out upon, See, hear, and am silent.
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I Sit And Look Out
Orcas in Puget Sound Along the road, abandoned wild apple trees bend with their heavy loads, dusty skirts of blackberry bushes purpling fingers, piercing flesh mouths ringed with berry juice, vampires all. Along San Juan Island salmon leap clear out of the briny water, just yards ahead of their predators, Orcas, dorsal fins curving shiny black, sluicing and slicing the surface like sharpened knives They have bred with one another for 10,000 years trolled these waters through famine, earthquakes, world wars through shifting continents, glacial avalanches, through the extinction of whole civilizations. Standing on a cliff, my daughter and I watch the Orcas churning the water - studies in grace the largest gem on the necklace of a great food chain and when we sleep we too chase the great King Salmon of our deepest dreams, the fathers we lost, the currents that bear along children Translucent jellyfish, palm sized, breath below sideways exhale, convulsive inhale umbrellas opening and closing a thousand years or more sliding through forests of brown kelp where mollusks cling We have clung like this to one another, with my body thrown over hers for protection and her exhaling away from me If Mama Orca keeps her young close, so will I If there are salmon to chase and harbor seals to command, so we will Arcing in the late August sky slapping and parting the surface, over and over the whales, lords of the Sound, swim in our brains as we sleep sparkle against blackening waters You are of my body from my body cleaving there for 10,000 years Whatever quarrels there are on land vaporize In the presence of these creatures, arcing against all that is temporal, vicious, small, studies in power and grace The tide pulls out, skimming across rocks and oysters in their muddy beds But this need to care for you remains as big as an Orca your appetite for adventure as voracious and I watch you, my child, disappearing with summer into high school, into womanhood, into the salty, light-dappled ocean
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Jul 15, 2012
Jul 15, 2012 at 4:15 PM UTC
Orcas in Puget Sound
Orcas in Puget Sound Along the road, abandoned wild apple trees bend with their heavy loads, dusty skirts of blackberry bushes purpling fingers, piercing flesh mouths ringed with berry juice, vampires all. Along San Juan Island salmon leap clear out of the briny water, just yards ahead of their predators, Orcas, dorsal fins curving shiny black, sluicing and slicing the surface like sharpened knives They have bred with one another for 10,000 years trolled these waters through famine, earthquakes, world wars through shifting continents, glacial avalanches, through the extinction of whole civilizations. Standing on a cliff, my daughter and I watch the Orcas churning the water - studies in grace the largest gem on the necklace of a great food chain and when we sleep we too chase the great King Salmon of our deepest dreams, the fathers we lost, the currents that bear along children Translucent jellyfish, palm sized, breath below sideways exhale, convulsive inhale umbrellas opening and closing a thousand years or more sliding through forests of brown kelp where mollusks cling We have clung like this to one another, with my body thrown over hers for protection and her exhaling away from me If Mama Orca keeps her young close, so will I If there are salmon to chase and harbor seals to command, so we will Arcing in the late August sky slapping and parting the surface, over and over the whales, lords of the Sound, swim in our brains as we sleep sparkle against blackening waters You are of my body from my body cleaving there for 10,000 years Whatever quarrels there are on land vaporize In the presence of these creatures, arcing against all that is temporal, vicious, small, studies in power and grace The tide pulls out, skimming across rocks and oysters in their muddy beds But this need to care for you remains as big as an Orca your appetite for adventure as voracious and I watch you, my child, disappearing with summer into high school, into womanhood, into the salty, light-dappled ocean
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bespeckled, blotched & blokey feminine in aspects only little ****** hair patches two chins, or rather a sloped one the front evenly declining to the middle of the throat a gradual slope from the tip, for juices to run if his manner and situation allowed him to be as casual and sloppy as his laziness chose, torso without form, so there was no curvature on the buttocks or the fly region. a mass a blob of bulges on spindly legs he leans on the wall stubby in hand he balks (he means jovial but unintentionally he vocalises mockery) at the suggestion that the Pies will do better & that Eddie is a clever man due for thanks, who has done his club well (apparently a straight Aussie arrow tried and true!) the man ***** his head back & cackles (the trebly popping bubbles of a gala crackle outwards as the man cackles) & decides his arms need a rest, (a long day of up and down they have had indeed, they deserve respect, or rest (or a benching)) so he places his beer down on a sloped surface, & therefore it slips down…. he sees it plummeting, he stretches toward it's tragic trajectory, …..but he is too slow it smashes on his foot (the shards) the beer bottle it transfigures, and the shards they impart their misery on his toes. The shards they intrude on his relaxed state of wellbeing, they intrude on the security sanctioned within the casual footwear of a man at a barbecue; taking it easy. he swears and hops, reaching in indignation for his bleeding toes he holds the wound cursing; resisting the impulse to begin convulsive throws (an oscar worthy performance from a usually suburbaly urbane individual) the moisture feels degrading (as it would within a man's pants) the pain from the cuts it is worsened by the smirking gazes of others about he hobbles, disregarding his thong in the wreckage of the scene off to retrieve a band aid to mend his ego and his foot simultaneously
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Mar 18, 2013
Mar 18, 2013 at 10:18 AM UTC
the barbecue
bespeckled, blotched & blokey feminine in aspects only little ****** hair patches two chins, or rather a sloped one the front evenly declining to the middle of the throat a gradual slope from the tip, for juices to run if his manner and situation allowed him to be as casual and sloppy as his laziness chose, torso without form, so there was no curvature on the buttocks or the fly region. a mass a blob of bulges on spindly legs he leans on the wall stubby in hand he balks (he means jovial but unintentionally he vocalises mockery) at the suggestion that the Pies will do better & that Eddie is a clever man due for thanks, who has done his club well (apparently a straight Aussie arrow tried and true!) the man ***** his head back & cackles (the trebly popping bubbles of a gala crackle outwards as the man cackles) & decides his arms need a rest, (a long day of up and down they have had indeed, they deserve respect, or rest (or a benching)) so he places his beer down on a sloped surface, & therefore it slips down…. he sees it plummeting, he stretches toward it's tragic trajectory, …..but he is too slow it smashes on his foot (the shards) the beer bottle it transfigures, and the shards they impart their misery on his toes. The shards they intrude on his relaxed state of wellbeing, they intrude on the security sanctioned within the casual footwear of a man at a barbecue; taking it easy. he swears and hops, reaching in indignation for his bleeding toes he holds the wound cursing; resisting the impulse to begin convulsive throws (an oscar worthy performance from a usually suburbaly urbane individual) the moisture feels degrading (as it would within a man's pants) the pain from the cuts it is worsened by the smirking gazes of others about he hobbles, disregarding his thong in the wreckage of the scene off to retrieve a band aid to mend his ego and his foot simultaneously
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you're drinking, and then you can't control the reaction upon entering the tetragrammaton... one h is for hushed up laughter, for sighs (ah), and then the alter deja vu is a cocktail of: ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha, yeah, so many, so you can look at it rather than say it... it's a sunny day, go out and play or something... leave me with the anchor of **** humanity dragging us down, or simply basing us in the underwater fudge of mud to a standstill... it's sunny, go out and play, ride a bicycle or something... you know, living 20 odd years in an english society i never had an english girlfriend, i'm told she's a real firecracker fortune-cookie... my hands are cold, i swear by the oath of the old Bailey i never touched her thighs... scouts' honour, cross my fingers and wear woman's underwear with a bowler hat to match my serious demeanour... yep, an Abbey Road's standstill... a fifth beetle chatting cheeky chat chat of a chirp... gurgles of fizz in carbonated wine known as champagne, well that's me... or as the roadrunner said to speedy Gonzales... hark a sayonara when changing the gears to a 100m sprint world record. the Mayan disease? ah right... excess spontaneous laughter, unstoppable like a tide; got chatting to a ms. khan... Genghis' great great... great great great great great... great great granddaughter... a doctor from pakistan... nice english accent gets you all the pleasantries so everything can go to hell... the sleeping pills prescription is waiting... now the sick-note... so i don't crash a plane into the Swiss elevations by "accident" while sitting on an arm-chair of nails while everyone else is farting into cushions. honest to god, the tetragrammaton is like a brick wall for vowels, you hit the ball against the four walls, and the vowels are either ****** up or they extract the consonant stability of the four letters, and your safest bet to express them is to laugh; well, i do call it a Mayan disease... because my stomach is aching from building a six-pack with the giggles.
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Apr 5, 2016
Apr 5, 2016 at 7:40 AM UTC
a convulsive attack of a Mayan disease
you're drinking, and then you can't control the reaction upon entering the tetragrammaton... one h is for hushed up laughter, for sighs (ah), and then the alter deja vu is a cocktail of: ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha, yeah, so many, so you can look at it rather than say it... it's a sunny day, go out and play or something... leave me with the anchor of **** humanity dragging us down, or simply basing us in the underwater fudge of mud to a standstill... it's sunny, go out and play, ride a bicycle or something... you know, living 20 odd years in an english society i never had an english girlfriend, i'm told she's a real firecracker fortune-cookie... my hands are cold, i swear by the oath of the old Bailey i never touched her thighs... scouts' honour, cross my fingers and wear woman's underwear with a bowler hat to match my serious demeanour... yep, an Abbey Road's standstill... a fifth beetle chatting cheeky chat chat of a chirp... gurgles of fizz in carbonated wine known as champagne, well that's me... or as the roadrunner said to speedy Gonzales... hark a sayonara when changing the gears to a 100m sprint world record. the Mayan disease? ah right... excess spontaneous laughter, unstoppable like a tide; got chatting to a ms. khan... Genghis' great great... great great great great great... great great granddaughter... a doctor from pakistan... nice english accent gets you all the pleasantries so everything can go to hell... the sleeping pills prescription is waiting... now the sick-note... so i don't crash a plane into the Swiss elevations by "accident" while sitting on an arm-chair of nails while everyone else is farting into cushions. honest to god, the tetragrammaton is like a brick wall for vowels, you hit the ball against the four walls, and the vowels are either ****** up or they extract the consonant stability of the four letters, and your safest bet to express them is to laugh; well, i do call it a Mayan disease... because my stomach is aching from building a six-pack with the giggles.
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In the Church, I met a woman so old Bending under the weight of years I wonder what made her steal my attention Was it her struggle to hold back her tears? In spite of her frail stooping figure She seemed to have an indomitable will Defeating all infirmities of age, she stood With a face though sad, yet tranquil and still Strange enough, she recalled to me The determined, but decrepit old man beside the pool Whom Wordsworth had once encountered Gathering leeches so scarce, but resolute and cool I watched the woman humbly prostrate And feebly rise and straighten her aged form Surrendering herself at the feet of God Imploring grace for life’s little tasks to perform In her gnarled hands, she firmly held a prayer book With the other supporting her frail figure on a staff And with a sigh of relief, she left the church As if her afflictions were reduced to half As the Congregation dispersed in all directions She feebly walked to her accustomed haunt At the rear side of the church was a Cemetery unkempt Where the ancestors slept, devoid of earthly cares and want Among all the tombstones in marble and granite Erected in memory of the kindred dead There was a newly dug up grave That stood aloof as a heap of mud I watched the old woman approach this spot Where she knelt down with a calm demeanor Her withered hands clasped together in piety And her eyes closed in silent prayer With a convulsive motion of her lips She rose up and once more knelt down As if searching for a face so dear Whose memory she could never ever drown Within that mound, slept her only son Who died in his prime, a month before Leaving his widowed mother behind To brave the shafts stinging, so sore As Time by seconds and minutes ticked away The bereaved mother stood up at last And heavily yet quietly walked away Leaving the one who was once her own part *** *** ** While the wounds of the young are quickly closed and healed And their ductile affections entwine around new passions The aged withdraw to the silence and desolation of life Once when deprived of the love that life no more sanctions!
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Jul 20, 2016
Jul 20, 2016 at 7:09 AM UTC
Frozen Grief
In the Church, I met a woman so old Bending under the weight of years I wonder what made her steal my attention Was it her struggle to hold back her tears? In spite of her frail stooping figure She seemed to have an indomitable will Defeating all infirmities of age, she stood With a face though sad, yet tranquil and still Strange enough, she recalled to me The determined, but decrepit old man beside the pool Whom Wordsworth had once encountered Gathering leeches so scarce, but resolute and cool I watched the woman humbly prostrate And feebly rise and straighten her aged form Surrendering herself at the feet of God Imploring grace for life’s little tasks to perform In her gnarled hands, she firmly held a prayer book With the other supporting her frail figure on a staff And with a sigh of relief, she left the church As if her afflictions were reduced to half As the Congregation dispersed in all directions She feebly walked to her accustomed haunt At the rear side of the church was a Cemetery unkempt Where the ancestors slept, devoid of earthly cares and want Among all the tombstones in marble and granite Erected in memory of the kindred dead There was a newly dug up grave That stood aloof as a heap of mud I watched the old woman approach this spot Where she knelt down with a calm demeanor Her withered hands clasped together in piety And her eyes closed in silent prayer With a convulsive motion of her lips She rose up and once more knelt down As if searching for a face so dear Whose memory she could never ever drown Within that mound, slept her only son Who died in his prime, a month before Leaving his widowed mother behind To brave the shafts stinging, so sore As Time by seconds and minutes ticked away The bereaved mother stood up at last And heavily yet quietly walked away Leaving the one who was once her own part *** *** ** While the wounds of the young are quickly closed and healed And their ductile affections entwine around new passions The aged withdraw to the silence and desolation of life Once when deprived of the love that life no more sanctions!
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514 Her smile was shaped like other smiles— The Dimples ran along— And still it hurt you, as some Bird Did hoist herself, to sing, Then recollect a Ball, she got— And hold upon the Twig, Convulsive, while the Music broke— Like Beads—among the Bog—
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Her smile was shaped like other smiles
928 The Heart has narrow Banks It measures like the Sea In mighty—unremitting Bass And Blue Monotony Till Hurricane bisect And as itself discerns Its sufficient Area The Heart convulsive learns That Calm is but a Wall Of unattempted Gauze An instant’s Push demolishes A Questioning—dissolves.
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The Heart has narrow Banks
****lovely Saturday morning....       might we dance a bit today          to ease off some sadness?**** DANCE (A repost...some editing done) The neighbor's stereo was playing tango music       too loud, it made me  look at my red painted toes... i realized, my feet hadn't even swayed for so long now, they've grown timid...and wary    All i want is to dance, to be safe, warm, close to one, as close as cheek to cheek, go left, then right, lean, cling, then hold hands, be held on the waist, dip, then circle gracefully, and step, a stretched arm away, be brought closer once again, hearing clearly the sighs as the music reaches a high. But, it was a chicken dance i had joined then, the shaking and jiggling were so repulsive...convulsive...confusing. it mattered not who fell out of the beat the desire waned, fires die, fires died, alright. My feet are raring to swing back, to be alive once more on life's dance floor no more falls, trips or missteps this time just steps with a slower beat with more grace now, who knows, this could be my best dance ever! This has got to feed my jazzy mood play my chosen music maybe do the shimmy for a while, then shift to the bossa nova, swing to its cool, hip-py rhythm. Whatever the beat may be, my partner and i, we shall blend in while we do the mambo, the rumba, cha-cha, even tap dance, to celebrate this new chance on life. I only  wish that on our first dance together, we may dance the samba on the wide floor, let the hours fly by. Then, with a waltz,  we'll take it easy until we finally get weary, until we decide....to slow drag the night away. ************ Sally Copyright 2014 Rosalia Rosario A. Bayan
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Oct 2, 2015
Oct 2, 2015 at 11:23 PM UTC
D A N C E
****lovely Saturday morning....       might we dance a bit today          to ease off some sadness?**** DANCE (A repost...some editing done) The neighbor's stereo was playing tango music       too loud, it made me  look at my red painted toes... i realized, my feet hadn't even swayed for so long now, they've grown timid...and wary    All i want is to dance, to be safe, warm, close to one, as close as cheek to cheek, go left, then right, lean, cling, then hold hands, be held on the waist, dip, then circle gracefully, and step, a stretched arm away, be brought closer once again, hearing clearly the sighs as the music reaches a high. But, it was a chicken dance i had joined then, the shaking and jiggling were so repulsive...convulsive...confusing. it mattered not who fell out of the beat the desire waned, fires die, fires died, alright. My feet are raring to swing back, to be alive once more on life's dance floor no more falls, trips or missteps this time just steps with a slower beat with more grace now, who knows, this could be my best dance ever! This has got to feed my jazzy mood play my chosen music maybe do the shimmy for a while, then shift to the bossa nova, swing to its cool, hip-py rhythm. Whatever the beat may be, my partner and i, we shall blend in while we do the mambo, the rumba, cha-cha, even tap dance, to celebrate this new chance on life. I only  wish that on our first dance together, we may dance the samba on the wide floor, let the hours fly by. Then, with a waltz,  we'll take it easy until we finally get weary, until we decide....to slow drag the night away. ************ Sally Copyright 2014 Rosalia Rosario A. Bayan
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Some of her wiring had come loose She had burnt out like toast left on too high a setting Now her brain needed a reboot It had come to this be plugged into a mainframe she did not feel a thing just a small sharp scratch and the pleasant scent of the oxygen mask wakes up a little blurry mouth a little furry but new connections made a few weeks on she can spark up a smile again an electro convulsive treat
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Dec 9, 2014
Dec 9, 2014 at 8:07 PM UTC
E.C.T.
After all, poetry is a savage calling. -Edel Garcellano Let poetry be an interstice. Say, an intervention to the gap of loneliness. Depressive. Let bitter medicines dissolve or, madness will make its ultimate call. Convulsive patterns of mental spasms. Schizophrenic impulse hitting the nerves. What is known to be rational flees. Enough to learn from the burning of its wings and Youth. Say, pulling a magic trick under the hat. You know you are being fooled but why enjoy such spectacle or, better enjoy than masking the truth. Say, a glimpse through an interstice—from Whitman’s poetry. An intervention to the rashness of day. An intercept to the chaos of the soul. A reminder that we are not assemblages forever desiring. A poetry fumbling to the course, enough to welcome the rain of sad realizations. “The task is heroic. Poetry is a minor matter” (E. Garcellano) – an intervention/interstice, the negotiator to the ultimate task of poetry. We are savage gods. We feed on the detritus of truth, those are, lies. Consider this poetry as an epitaph. To the disremembered victims of El Sidro. We dealt the cards of fate. We intervened to live. We pierced our stones to their hearts so cold. Darwin’s prophesy always reminds us that in every epoch there are some interventions we cannot avoid. After all, we are his favorite animal. We are gods feeding on loneliness. We are agnostic souls entangled in caves of shadows. Say, are we forever trapped in the compulsive dimensions of ourselves? In love, for example. To answer this question is the task of poetry. Let poetry be an interstice.
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Oct 1, 2016
Oct 1, 2016 at 7:46 AM UTC
Interstice
After all, poetry is a savage calling. -Edel Garcellano Let poetry be an interstice. Say, an intervention to the gap of loneliness. Depressive. Let bitter medicines dissolve or, madness will make its ultimate call. Convulsive patterns of mental spasms. Schizophrenic impulse hitting the nerves. What is known to be rational flees. Enough to learn from the burning of its wings and Youth. Say, pulling a magic trick under the hat. You know you are being fooled but why enjoy such spectacle or, better enjoy than masking the truth. Say, a glimpse through an interstice—from Whitman’s poetry. An intervention to the rashness of day. An intercept to the chaos of the soul. A reminder that we are not assemblages forever desiring. A poetry fumbling to the course, enough to welcome the rain of sad realizations. “The task is heroic. Poetry is a minor matter” (E. Garcellano) – an intervention/interstice, the negotiator to the ultimate task of poetry. We are savage gods. We feed on the detritus of truth, those are, lies. Consider this poetry as an epitaph. To the disremembered victims of El Sidro. We dealt the cards of fate. We intervened to live. We pierced our stones to their hearts so cold. Darwin’s prophesy always reminds us that in every epoch there are some interventions we cannot avoid. After all, we are his favorite animal. We are gods feeding on loneliness. We are agnostic souls entangled in caves of shadows. Say, are we forever trapped in the compulsive dimensions of ourselves? In love, for example. To answer this question is the task of poetry. Let poetry be an interstice.
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I grew into my youth without fearing dinosaurs, Because I watched too many re-programmings of Jurassic Park. I wasn't aware that my basketball skills could take me places. I was born here, I ran through cornfields and tall shades of grass, playing hooky with ******* hopscotch with ****** yet still averaging 24.6ppg while playing only 20 minutes a game. It seemed so easy and simple at first, doing these things. My neighbor Craig down the street, used to work at the children's hospital so he always had access to needles; all he wanted from me was a stack of metal spoons that I could steal from my grandmother's house so we could dissolve the ****** “This shit'll make you feel like you could never die”, he would always say. It was the 3rd quarter of our high school opening game against Fullerton. We played at the redeveloped convocation 20 miles south of town, because our high school received a bomb threat earlier that week. The court constructed with cheers and boos due to my low field goal percentage. I stashed my lucky line inside of my practice shorts in the locker room, so I could lie to my coaches about needing some air. My nostrils captured the effects of this white powdery substance, as my body started to fail and deteriorate. I think I felt my heart stop beating when I came to the free throw line. First shot...air ball. Second shot...no shot, body falls to the hardwood. My shoes squeaked like rabid mice without control, my right leg became convulsive and spastic, my left moved none. The floor below my body drenched in a bilinear merging of crimson red and **** yellow. The last image that I witnessed before my eyes left this world Were the faces of the opposing cheerleaders, Their young eyes bleeding blue and yellow, mascara and grief running down their pretty cheeks. They knew this from the beginning, my parents did. They thought I had changed and found a new sport to love. As my body laid on the floor, my parents laid in the belly of the audience, Incapable of shedding tears, because their suffering overtook their ability to cry.
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May 10, 2013
May 10, 2013 at 10:43 PM UTC
David Walcott
I grew into my youth without fearing dinosaurs, Because I watched too many re-programmings of Jurassic Park. I wasn't aware that my basketball skills could take me places. I was born here, I ran through cornfields and tall shades of grass, playing hooky with ******* hopscotch with ****** yet still averaging 24.6ppg while playing only 20 minutes a game. It seemed so easy and simple at first, doing these things. My neighbor Craig down the street, used to work at the children's hospital so he always had access to needles; all he wanted from me was a stack of metal spoons that I could steal from my grandmother's house so we could dissolve the ****** “This shit'll make you feel like you could never die”, he would always say. It was the 3rd quarter of our high school opening game against Fullerton. We played at the redeveloped convocation 20 miles south of town, because our high school received a bomb threat earlier that week. The court constructed with cheers and boos due to my low field goal percentage. I stashed my lucky line inside of my practice shorts in the locker room, so I could lie to my coaches about needing some air. My nostrils captured the effects of this white powdery substance, as my body started to fail and deteriorate. I think I felt my heart stop beating when I came to the free throw line. First shot...air ball. Second shot...no shot, body falls to the hardwood. My shoes squeaked like rabid mice without control, my right leg became convulsive and spastic, my left moved none. The floor below my body drenched in a bilinear merging of crimson red and **** yellow. The last image that I witnessed before my eyes left this world Were the faces of the opposing cheerleaders, Their young eyes bleeding blue and yellow, mascara and grief running down their pretty cheeks. They knew this from the beginning, my parents did. They thought I had changed and found a new sport to love. As my body laid on the floor, my parents laid in the belly of the audience, Incapable of shedding tears, because their suffering overtook their ability to cry.
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at this time in the past right here it used to be real oh!...oh! for another reality to leave this false perception and go...go...go to feel the wind on another's face to see with another's eyes how the colours appear to them to hear what another hears with an innocent ear to feel the euphoria that slows the world down to have another's departure from all perceived notions of reality to a new understanding another reality where brief encounters with time start with the embarkation of a sentence that causes a curious disquiet to race through the nerves ricocheting in a vibrancy of vatic vitality, a creative tension transforming the cortex creating new unforeseen images a new reality where thoughts are visible and circulate, orbiting moons around the mind dazzling with a universal symbolism that with a kaleidoscopic vengeance of words scatters and amplifies the distinctions of the senses, into a new reality one of convulsive voices oh! this new reality it causes me to walk to a stranger who is myself and forms a true disintegration of a controlled focus on a beautiful disorder of chaotic discourse of a volatilized impulse of the emotions, where blood stains smile lavishly with a different vocabulary destroying a predictable reality and forges a new one that entertains discovery of other dimensions.. which are the figments of another's imagination it is solitary encapsulation of ideas that glitter on my tongue where conflagrations of burning water swirl dramatically in difficult articulation of the smells and rancid ***** stains of the ordinary that tries but is precluded from the stream of consciousness rushing in a discord of sympathies through the inner geography of my mind and forges a symbolic relationship with these inplosively brief encounters with time causing psychic post apocalyptic predispositions to a false mimesis
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Jan 23, 2014
Jan 23, 2014 at 9:46 PM UTC
A new reality in my mind...
at this time in the past right here it used to be real oh!...oh! for another reality to leave this false perception and go...go...go to feel the wind on another's face to see with another's eyes how the colours appear to them to hear what another hears with an innocent ear to feel the euphoria that slows the world down to have another's departure from all perceived notions of reality to a new understanding another reality where brief encounters with time start with the embarkation of a sentence that causes a curious disquiet to race through the nerves ricocheting in a vibrancy of vatic vitality, a creative tension transforming the cortex creating new unforeseen images a new reality where thoughts are visible and circulate, orbiting moons around the mind dazzling with a universal symbolism that with a kaleidoscopic vengeance of words scatters and amplifies the distinctions of the senses, into a new reality one of convulsive voices oh! this new reality it causes me to walk to a stranger who is myself and forms a true disintegration of a controlled focus on a beautiful disorder of chaotic discourse of a volatilized impulse of the emotions, where blood stains smile lavishly with a different vocabulary destroying a predictable reality and forges a new one that entertains discovery of other dimensions.. which are the figments of another's imagination it is solitary encapsulation of ideas that glitter on my tongue where conflagrations of burning water swirl dramatically in difficult articulation of the smells and rancid ***** stains of the ordinary that tries but is precluded from the stream of consciousness rushing in a discord of sympathies through the inner geography of my mind and forges a symbolic relationship with these inplosively brief encounters with time causing psychic post apocalyptic predispositions to a false mimesis
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I can be a wretched fake, in private, intimate performance. I’m an actress capable of imitating spontaneous pleasure - by tricks of hesitation, convulsive vocal play and postures. A mimicry undetectable to an immediate spectator. "Aww, thank you", I’ll sigh, as if leaving a good party. “I’ve got a lot of homework to do,” I’ll add, a minute later. To clear the stage.
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Feb 14, 2024
Feb 14, 2024 at 10:18 PM UTC
fakery
It was like a dream - a paradise of intoxicating scents, the heat of passionate caresses then the moaning, convulsive transfer of genetic information. Rolling on top she declared her love. Still panting, he combed his fingers through her hair and whispered, “Make me a dad some day, ” “Good as done, she said” and clicked her ring to his. With head thrown back he said the word again, “Dad” It had a solid ring to it, “Dad” “Dad, Dad. WAKE UP, DAD! ” Searching his way through the pastel haze, he saw the visage of a largish boy-man hovering over the couch. spoken sounds gradually coalesced into familiar vocal code –     “The car keys…”         “To the mall…”             “You promised…”                 “Tux for the prom…” Propping his head on his hands he surfaced in the land of now. “You OK Dad? ” “Sure son and so are you.” He drew a ring of jingling metal from his pocket and gave it over - pointing with his free hand like a cue for the clarinets, “Drive carefully son. Always drive carefully.” December, 2006
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Aug 3, 2013
Aug 3, 2013 at 5:19 PM UTC
Passion Flower
amid pentagrams satelliting my mind an outward location of an ostentation that lids a voyeuristic eye to Da Vinci’ fingers in a jar waiting anxiously for them to move, perform an ****** panache of evocative art but they are congealed in a stalactite shiver that lacks transmitted urgency but contact with these enigmatic digits causes a correspondingly delayed then urgently convulsive frenzy that somewhere in time bring frictional contact with a canvas or a ceiling Da Vinci’ fingers in a jar an outward location of unclasped curiosity
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Feb 17, 2013
Feb 17, 2013 at 11:01 AM UTC
Da Vinci' fingers in a jar
Misty dreams flow shimmering through empty catacombs. Floating effortlessly, the galaxy I see blows straight through me. Above and all around, you gotta go up in order to get down. Twisting visions morph into view. I cast them aside with the wave of my hand. Shadows cast upon the wall, you never know they're there at all. Spiteful demons invoking chant, laughing hysterically as you fall. I can simply pass through the wall. Dissolving dimensions of your matter, within me. I can consume your eternity, Know that I know you like no one else knows you. Hide your eyes, it's no surprise. The tangible world filled with your lies. I pay no head to the convulsive cries. There is no need, for all things die. © Crystal Erickson 5/19/08
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Dec 27, 2014
Dec 27, 2014 at 11:11 AM UTC
Chronically Injected
You have the force of a magnet snapped tightly against me Leech, Leech, Leech Mental and physical combat are futile My inner screams are drowned by a convulsive torrent of rage My very kernel resignedly submits Now I whisper Leech, Leech, Leech Such damage; you have harvested a monster I cannot control
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Mar 13, 2016
Mar 13, 2016 at 10:35 AM UTC
LEECH
Dance The  neighbor's stereo was playing tango music too loud, it made me look at my red painted toes. I realized, my feet have not even swayed for so long now, they've grown timid and wary of making the wrong step. All i want is to dance, to be safe, warm, close to one, as close as cheek to cheek, go left, then right, lean, cling, then hold hands, be held on the waist, dip, then circle gracefully, and step, a stretched arm away, be brought closer once again, hearing clearly the sighs as the music reaches a high. But, it was a chicken dance i had joined then, the shaking and jiggling were so repulsive...convulsive confusing. it mattered not who fell out of the tempo. the desire waned, fires die, fires died, alright. My feet are raring to swing back to be alive once more on life's dance floor no more falls, trips or missteps this time i'd like to dance with a slower beat with more grace now who knows, this could be my best dance ever! This has got to feed my jazzy mood play my chosen music maybe do the shimmy for a while, then shift to the bossa nova, swing to its cool, hip-py rhythm. Whatever the beat may be, my partner and i... we shall blend in......be it mambo, the rumba, cha-cha, even tap dance, to celebrate this new chance on life. Together, we shall dance the samba on the wide floor, let the hours fly by. Then, with a waltz,  we'll take it easy until we finally get weary, until we decide to slow drag the night away.   ************* Sally Copyright 2014 Rosalia Rosario A. Bayan
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Jul 5, 2014
Jul 5, 2014 at 11:24 PM UTC
D A N C E
Dance The  neighbor's stereo was playing tango music too loud, it made me look at my red painted toes. I realized, my feet have not even swayed for so long now, they've grown timid and wary of making the wrong step. All i want is to dance, to be safe, warm, close to one, as close as cheek to cheek, go left, then right, lean, cling, then hold hands, be held on the waist, dip, then circle gracefully, and step, a stretched arm away, be brought closer once again, hearing clearly the sighs as the music reaches a high. But, it was a chicken dance i had joined then, the shaking and jiggling were so repulsive...convulsive confusing. it mattered not who fell out of the tempo. the desire waned, fires die, fires died, alright. My feet are raring to swing back to be alive once more on life's dance floor no more falls, trips or missteps this time i'd like to dance with a slower beat with more grace now who knows, this could be my best dance ever! This has got to feed my jazzy mood play my chosen music maybe do the shimmy for a while, then shift to the bossa nova, swing to its cool, hip-py rhythm. Whatever the beat may be, my partner and i... we shall blend in......be it mambo, the rumba, cha-cha, even tap dance, to celebrate this new chance on life. Together, we shall dance the samba on the wide floor, let the hours fly by. Then, with a waltz,  we'll take it easy until we finally get weary, until we decide to slow drag the night away.   ************* Sally Copyright 2014 Rosalia Rosario A. Bayan
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My lust is a trip like DMT A kiss of death I'm Poison Ivy I smell of garlic and horseradish I'm yellow in color But not threatening my dish I'm a scarlet lover The White Mouse you failed to capture and being a women I was slighted in the matter Exhaling H5N1 on my breath No one yielded once I left them speechless Chirping my songs possessing the charms of sirens Beauty is illusive Seduction is bait *** is violent Power is the cake I enjoy Big Boys for the chances they take Ego is the downfall of the great ZZZ top gives you the steak I can't resist the urge to devour savoring the taste Let's play for sake of convulsive spasms I could use a good power trip followed by an ******
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Feb 16, 2014
Feb 16, 2014 at 4:49 PM UTC
Chemistry Warfare
the only sounds, the sloshing of our jungle boots   and a cricket symphony the air affluent with the odor of  the paddies   oxen dung, rice-rich stagnant water a lone golden cloud I see has two lives--one in the western sky; another on the water’s face and it suffers two fates, in unison, as light fades, while sky births crimson before it morphs to black     in its silent death throes, I see the cloud melt from the heavens but on the water its departure is less graceful     blurred, convulsive from our mad marching, our soles slaughtering a would be perfect reflection of  firmament
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Nov 3, 2016
Nov 3, 2016 at 6:50 PM UTC
Mekong water
At breaking of dawn in early morning light when you first stir and I'm your first sight, when you gently taste my satiny skin teasing me awake as our day begins. With whispery touch lips moving down my back urging me to waken love you with no lack, arousing from slumber with passion fully stirring tensions already built and motor whirring. Hair tousled upon my pillow as I come to you from sleep then eyes widening with surprise as you meet me so deep, sun never burst across morning sky as the explosion from you sending me into convulsive sighs. Day has begun with morning ever so bright as you come to me bringing total delight, passion untethered in wave after wave leaving me sated from the love you gave.
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Nov 25, 2012
Nov 25, 2012 at 10:46 PM UTC
At Breaking of Dawn
This is the poem about itself In a futile attempt at meta cognition Why would a poem detest its own self? Why bother discerning purpose beyond all else *Why do I consider myself an anathema When others behold and perceive me as beautiful I'm devoid of a body to do anything dutiful Nothing prepossessing, not even a cuticle* For what, after all, what role do I play In a convulsive storm of life each grim day Bleak—the subtlety of shame, agony of dull pain Haunting me! What less may I speak *I constantly ponder my creator's reason For penning me in that malevolent season Was I evoked by boredom or pain? My consistency only denotes dismay.* This is the poem about itself Ruminating the hell of all hells A poem of darkness, perplexity too What is my meaning, why?—I now ask you
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Jun 28, 2014
Jun 28, 2014 at 11:54 AM UTC
The Poem About Itself
Down my cheeks, bitter tears incessantly rain And my heart struggles with convulsive sighs. However, when I see that gentle smile again; That modest, sweet, and tender smile arise, Lost in delight is all my torturing pain; It pours on every sense a blest surprise. Though well you read my heart and knew How much I longed your charms to view. While I concealed each tender thought; Your face, with pity was sweetly shown. Within that beauty, my fond mind sort That love, which made your passion known. Your sunny locks were seen caught short, Nor smiled your eyes like a precious stone, And behind a misunderstood cloud retired, Those beauties, which I most admired. My flows proper throne is that adorable face, At times escorts her ‘mid the muses fair; And so swells in me the fond desire apace, As each, their beauty is than hers less rare. So high and heavenward when my eyes do trace, I say ‘my dove! In grateful memory you I'll bear'. Yet unsung, sweet maid, your beauties should remain, Pleasing, within my heart, as none shall ever please again.
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Dec 30, 2012
Dec 30, 2012 at 1:09 PM UTC
Down my cheeks