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Damaged people are dangerous because they know how to survive, And if you've never been damaged you don't know how it feels to be alive, See struggle is the sauce that gives success its flavour, when life kicked you down it was doing you a favour. Cos it's in your darkest hour, not in prosperity that you will realise your true ability. Life dunks you in deep waters not to drown you but to cleanse you. And that's just the beginning of what it will put you through. But it's chiselling you down, you won't deflate. It's not wearing you thin, it's getting you to your fighting weight. Prosperity makes monsters, adversity makes men. I believe when you reach the top life will yank you back down again. You didn't break down, you just had a flat tyre so get back up and relight that fire. keep it burning and churning at the pit of your heart and keep on learning and yearning and never fall apart. Stare life in the eyes and say "no matter how many times my spirit won't break if my drive never dies" So throw me a burden I won't lose my composure, It's for this very reason that life gave me shoulders. Get better not bitter This weather will wither I'll turn wounds into wisdom sadness into spirit tears to tenacity I will never quit it Take a deep breath and concentrate your stare because a road with no obstacles never took you anywhere.
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Oct 26, 2012
Oct 26, 2012 at 6:40 AM UTC
A road with no obstacles
I cant concentrate on anything i do The sky is turning grey from sunny blue You call me a friend, as you pull out a knife You stab me in my back, not once but twice You are a lier, a poser , a freak and a cheater What wrong i did that you became a mistreater Tears, depression, pain and scar You gave me and i was like Why you did so If its my mistake then Let me know But if you dont like me then Let me go......
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Jul 4, 2017
Jul 4, 2017 at 1:17 PM UTC
Fake Friends All Around
When you feel like you're being stabbed And the knife twists deeper and and deeper tightening its grip and the tears are flowing flowing faster and faster and they don't seem to end and you're drowning in the darkness of the dark, dark night When your screams become voiceless... When your fingers become numb because you're frozen in fear... And you lose hope... Lose sleep... Lose reason to fight the pain... Lose reason... Lose sight... Of why you ever survived this far... And most importantly... Why you didn't switch it all off... It's because you care, It's because you're stronger than you think, You're beautiful, You're not all those horrible things that people call you, You're not a failure because you keep falling, You're not a ***** up because you screw-things-up YOU ARE HUMAN! You are perfectly imperfect! and now let me tell you the truth that you've been denied of... It's okay to not always be okay It's okay to care too much and be the reason that you get hurt It's okay to lose people, and things you love until you have nobody but yourself left... We where created weak, To find our strengths, And because when you feel like you're drowning and gasping for air all on your own when you finally take the choice to let yourself be the victim of your pain or rise above the waves of your dark dark days And learn how to swim even if you keep drowning if you keep fighting to stay afloat you'll forget the pain And you'll concentrate on the one thing that matters you'll find out that it IS okay to not ALWAYS be OKAY You've just got to be brave.         
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Feb 8, 2014
Feb 8, 2014 at 3:38 AM UTC
It's okay not to be okay
When you feel like you're being stabbed And the knife twists deeper and and deeper tightening its grip and the tears are flowing flowing faster and faster and they don't seem to end and you're drowning in the darkness of the dark, dark night When your screams become voiceless... When your fingers become numb because you're frozen in fear... And you lose hope... Lose sleep... Lose reason to fight the pain... Lose reason... Lose sight... Of why you ever survived this far... And most importantly... Why you didn't switch it all off... It's because you care, It's because you're stronger than you think, You're beautiful, You're not all those horrible things that people call you, You're not a failure because you keep falling, You're not a ***** up because you screw-things-up YOU ARE HUMAN! You are perfectly imperfect! and now let me tell you the truth that you've been denied of... It's okay to not always be okay It's okay to care too much and be the reason that you get hurt It's okay to lose people, and things you love until you have nobody but yourself left... We where created weak, To find our strengths, And because when you feel like you're drowning and gasping for air all on your own when you finally take the choice to let yourself be the victim of your pain or rise above the waves of your dark dark days And learn how to swim even if you keep drowning if you keep fighting to stay afloat you'll forget the pain And you'll concentrate on the one thing that matters you'll find out that it IS okay to not ALWAYS be OKAY You've just got to be brave.         
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What I fear isn’t hairy eight legged creatures crawling into my mouth at night What I fear isn’t the whole “Something’s gonna come out of the dark and eat me,” while I’m trying to get a glass of water in the middle of the night. Nor even when my father angrily yells at me Because in all honesty he starts regurgitating spit from his mouth making it so hard to take him seriously when he’s drooling. What I’m afraid of is… I’m afraid of tomorrow… You see, Once upon a time On a Saturday Night I was so excited to finally finish writing my second chapter of my fan fiction Talking to a few friends. And relaxing from my stressful day of a Saturday. Then suddenly a wild message about financial aid appears, Now, This isn’t where my fears start coming to life This isn’t even where my thoughts were being provoked. This was just a simple conversation about financial aid information. You see,| My friend knows little about financial aid and my friend asked about the information I know. I thought, “Well I have limited knowledge on this…I’ll give my friend my best answers and hope it turns out alright.” Well, Things didn’t turn out the way I had imagined it. You see, This private conversation evolved into a group chat And even the financial aid information conversation evolved into, “How are you going to pay for your college expenses?” You see, I don’t fear of creatures with eight legs, I don’t fear of monsters in the darkness I don’t even fear of my father’s angry tone! I fear what tomorrow’s going to be I fear that my future will only just be a dream. It’s so hard to be focusing on where I’m going to be at next year when this year looks like the saddest thing on Earth. It’s so hard to concentrate on tomorrow when today looks like a horrible nightmare. Today, I’m stressed I’m not stressed about my grades I know I work harder than the average student. I’m not stressed about the guy I might like Because right now, A boyfriend is not what I be needing. I’m stressed that I may not get a job I’m stressed that my dad may lose his I’m stressed that my mom can’t find another I’m stressed that I won’t be able to pay for my ACT Ticket I’m stressed that I won’t be able to afford my SAT Subject Ticket I’m stressed that I won’t be able to pay for my college apps And I’m stressed that I can’t get fee waver Because according to the government my parents make too much for me to have one When in reality My family barely survives on a paycheck. It’s getting harder and harder to survive on that paycheck Because presently speaking It’s getting harder and harder to pay to keep on living. And because I don’t have a job yet, My parents are still forced to pay for me to keep on living. I’m stressed that I’m not going to have a tomorrow I’m stressed that I’m not going to go to a college to pay college expenses for I’m stressed that this fear is going to keep controlling my life! But… I can’t let that happen… I can’t let this fear run my life. ‘Cause sooner or later its going to run it down tot eh ground and I won’t be able to recover from that I can’t let this fear consume me, Because I’ll never find a way out. I fear something… I don’t fear eight hairy legged creatures crawling into my mouth at night, I don’t fear monsters eating me alive while I’m trying to get something to drink. Nor do I fear my dad yelling at me. I fear of tomorrow. I can’t focus on where I’m going to be at next year when today is all foggy with no sign of light.
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Dec 11, 2011
Dec 11, 2011 at 4:29 AM UTC
I fear.
What I fear isn’t hairy eight legged creatures crawling into my mouth at night What I fear isn’t the whole “Something’s gonna come out of the dark and eat me,” while I’m trying to get a glass of water in the middle of the night. Nor even when my father angrily yells at me Because in all honesty he starts regurgitating spit from his mouth making it so hard to take him seriously when he’s drooling. What I’m afraid of is… I’m afraid of tomorrow… You see, Once upon a time On a Saturday Night I was so excited to finally finish writing my second chapter of my fan fiction Talking to a few friends. And relaxing from my stressful day of a Saturday. Then suddenly a wild message about financial aid appears, Now, This isn’t where my fears start coming to life This isn’t even where my thoughts were being provoked. This was just a simple conversation about financial aid information. You see,| My friend knows little about financial aid and my friend asked about the information I know. I thought, “Well I have limited knowledge on this…I’ll give my friend my best answers and hope it turns out alright.” Well, Things didn’t turn out the way I had imagined it. You see, This private conversation evolved into a group chat And even the financial aid information conversation evolved into, “How are you going to pay for your college expenses?” You see, I don’t fear of creatures with eight legs, I don’t fear of monsters in the darkness I don’t even fear of my father’s angry tone! I fear what tomorrow’s going to be I fear that my future will only just be a dream. It’s so hard to be focusing on where I’m going to be at next year when this year looks like the saddest thing on Earth. It’s so hard to concentrate on tomorrow when today looks like a horrible nightmare. Today, I’m stressed I’m not stressed about my grades I know I work harder than the average student. I’m not stressed about the guy I might like Because right now, A boyfriend is not what I be needing. I’m stressed that I may not get a job I’m stressed that my dad may lose his I’m stressed that my mom can’t find another I’m stressed that I won’t be able to pay for my ACT Ticket I’m stressed that I won’t be able to afford my SAT Subject Ticket I’m stressed that I won’t be able to pay for my college apps And I’m stressed that I can’t get fee waver Because according to the government my parents make too much for me to have one When in reality My family barely survives on a paycheck. It’s getting harder and harder to survive on that paycheck Because presently speaking It’s getting harder and harder to pay to keep on living. And because I don’t have a job yet, My parents are still forced to pay for me to keep on living. I’m stressed that I’m not going to have a tomorrow I’m stressed that I’m not going to go to a college to pay college expenses for I’m stressed that this fear is going to keep controlling my life! But… I can’t let that happen… I can’t let this fear run my life. ‘Cause sooner or later its going to run it down tot eh ground and I won’t be able to recover from that I can’t let this fear consume me, Because I’ll never find a way out. I fear something… I don’t fear eight hairy legged creatures crawling into my mouth at night, I don’t fear monsters eating me alive while I’m trying to get something to drink. Nor do I fear my dad yelling at me. I fear of tomorrow. I can’t focus on where I’m going to be at next year when today is all foggy with no sign of light.
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Love Story byAndy Williams 'Unforgetable" "I'll Be Seeing You." "Can't get enough of your love" "Are You Lonesome Tonight." I'll Make Love To You" "What a wonderful world" Red red Wine At Last. "Yesterday" J.Lenon ~~~~ [ Nathan, Joseph-Pat-Rick ] Close your eyes, make a wish And blow out the candlelight For tonight is just your night We're gonna celebrate, all thru the night [Shawn Pat.Rick, J Paul Taylor ] Pour the wine, light the fire Guinevere your wish is my command I submit to your demands I will do anything, Karijinbba, you need only ask [ Joseph-Paul-Patrick-Richard] I'll make love to you Like you want me to And I'll hold you tight Angelina-babe all through the night I'll make love to you When you want me to And I will not let go 'Till you tell me to [Wanya, Shawn, Pat-Rick] my true love AnKarijin, relax let's go slow! I ain't got nowhere to go I'm just gonna concentrate on you the whole night through My Kariginny are you ready? it's gonna be a long night. Throw your clothes (Throw your clothes) on the floor (on the floor) [Shawn Wanja, Nathan, Pat-Rick] I'm gonna take my clothes off too I made plans to be with you queen bee mine Karin whatever you ask me, you know, I could do [Angel'Q Karijinbba Chinny Chin] I'll make love to you too Like you want me to Rickie babe And I'll hold you tight My baby Pat all through the night I'll make love to you When you want me to And I will not let go 'Till you tell me to! [Wanya,Shawn,PatRick, Nathan:] Angeli'q Babychin tonight is your night And I will do you right Just make a wish on your night Anything that you ask I will give you the love of your life, your life, your life love of my life. ~~~~ Boys To Men: For:Karijinbba. start 54-(74-95)-05.end.
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Aug 26, 2018
Aug 26, 2018 at 7:18 PM UTC
Songs Played Upon My Head Stone
Love Story byAndy Williams 'Unforgetable" "I'll Be Seeing You." "Can't get enough of your love" "Are You Lonesome Tonight." I'll Make Love To You" "What a wonderful world" Red red Wine At Last. "Yesterday" J.Lenon ~~~~ [ Nathan, Joseph-Pat-Rick ] Close your eyes, make a wish And blow out the candlelight For tonight is just your night We're gonna celebrate, all thru the night [Shawn Pat.Rick, J Paul Taylor ] Pour the wine, light the fire Guinevere your wish is my command I submit to your demands I will do anything, Karijinbba, you need only ask [ Joseph-Paul-Patrick-Richard] I'll make love to you Like you want me to And I'll hold you tight Angelina-babe all through the night I'll make love to you When you want me to And I will not let go 'Till you tell me to [Wanya, Shawn, Pat-Rick] my true love AnKarijin, relax let's go slow! I ain't got nowhere to go I'm just gonna concentrate on you the whole night through My Kariginny are you ready? it's gonna be a long night. Throw your clothes (Throw your clothes) on the floor (on the floor) [Shawn Wanja, Nathan, Pat-Rick] I'm gonna take my clothes off too I made plans to be with you queen bee mine Karin whatever you ask me, you know, I could do [Angel'Q Karijinbba Chinny Chin] I'll make love to you too Like you want me to Rickie babe And I'll hold you tight My baby Pat all through the night I'll make love to you When you want me to And I will not let go 'Till you tell me to! [Wanya,Shawn,PatRick, Nathan:] Angeli'q Babychin tonight is your night And I will do you right Just make a wish on your night Anything that you ask I will give you the love of your life, your life, your life love of my life. ~~~~ Boys To Men: For:Karijinbba. start 54-(74-95)-05.end.
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She's better than the rest. One of the best. She is smart. VERY SMART!! Her laughter is pure, like of a small kid. She makes a strange face when studying like burden of whole world is on her shoulders. She sings,she plays, she does dancing , she does everything. She's a great friend. All these things make her better than the rest but what makes her unique? It is that penguin walk of her when she is walking back from college but her hands stay still. It's her revenge plotting looks when she is trying to concentrate and look into microscope. It's her meeky voice in front of teachers which usually bursts on random occasions. She would talk to you like she's an old friend. Everyone likes her. She just wants to be a firefly but she is indeed the sun.
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Mar 21, 2019
Mar 21, 2019 at 7:06 AM UTC
Lexie
"ONE IN THREE WOMEN ARE VICTIMS OF ****** ASSAULT." They say. I am sat. Awestruck. "LOOK TO YOUR LEFT AND LOOK TO YOUR RIGHT. ONE OF YOU IS A VICTIM OF ****** ASSAULT." I look to the woman on my left. I look to the woman on my right. I look to the front. Avoid any eye contact. Keep a straight face. Don't give anything away. How dare they out me like this? The woman to my left knows that she hasn't. The woman to my right knows that she hasn't. That leaves me. Raw and exposed. I did not give consent for this to be shared. This was my secret. My ***** little secret that I do not want to have but I do despite. Did they plan this? They must have known. There must be a seating plan somewhere. Someone did some digging around. But how? I told no one. This was my secret. My ***** little secret that I do not want to have but do despite. Anger creeps up inside. Avoid any eye contact. Keep a straight face. Don't give anything away. Pain. I dig my nails into the palm of my hand and I squeeze. Blood is drawn. I look down at my hand. The woman on my left does the same. Cover it quick. I look forward. They are still talking. I process nothing. Avoid any eye contact. Keep a straight face. Don't give anything away. They are still talking. Focus. Concentrate. What are they saying? Finally I tune back in to their closing line, Reiterating their first point: "ONE IN THREE WOMEN ARE VICTIMS OF ****** ASSAULT."
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Aug 29, 2022
Aug 29, 2022 at 5:24 PM UTC
Prima Facie: A Response
It is New Year’s Eve It is hard to believe It has come round so fast. Where did the year go? No one seems to know, How quickly it passed! We got through another one And what is done is done we made memories to last. Things we should not forget But do not waste time on regret It now belongs in the past. There is no better time than this To get together and reminisce embrace the opportunity. Time for a New Years Eve kiss To contact people you truly miss Sing Auld Lang Syne maybe. Get together and celebrate All the things that went great And wonder at what might be. A chance to seriously contemplate To acknowledge and truly appreciate Your good friends and family. Through all your trouble and strife Find the good things in your life And concentrate on those. Learn from any mistakes Resolve to do what it takes To make friends of foes. Do not be afraid to forgive Be much more positive Life’s too short, God knows. Whether woman or man strive to be the best you can as the year comes to a close. For those you lost, shed a tear cherish those whom you hold dear love them with all your might. For your sins seek absolution Make a New Years resolution A great chance to make things right. Decide what you want from next year Face the future without fear A brand New Year is in sight. Look forward don’t look back make sure you have Mighty Craic On this New Years Eve night!
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May 30, 2015
May 30, 2015 at 11:32 AM UTC
What? Another Year?!?
The feeling of being trapped Trapped in this world This school, Trapped in my mind. There is no escape. Learn, learn, learn It is so hard to breath. Nobody sees, Sees how it is, How I am, How hard it is to concentrate. When you hear all these voices "Do better!" "Don't stress" "It's easy" "Think of your future" My future seems to be a blur, I have no way of escaping, To reality -te
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Jun 12, 2014
Jun 12, 2014 at 8:04 PM UTC
Trapped
Dear diary, I just can't explain the amount of thoughts that I have daily!, that continuous mind charter that I have daily....! I'm filled with thoughts, every minute, and every second of my life. My mind just keeps switching from one thought to another, & The amount of day dreaming.... well!!! you know my silly screaming ??!!! Sometimes, they are really funny! And they keep making me smile, so that I keep glowing! But some thoughts...,,, They are really too dark, That ,when I confront them, it breaks my heart apart!! I'm like a confused soul, who's in search of meaning of life... Who's in search of peace , Who's in search of shine! But the moment I start thinking, ugh!!!My head starts cracking!! I just can't concentrate on one particular thing ! Today, if I feel like being a doctor, Tomorrow I might think of being an engineer, & If today I feel like being an accountant, Tomorrow I might feel like, " I just need an Oscar...!" An Oscar for what?? I don't know ...!!! It's sounds too cool and looks good to show ! Will I work for that award?... honestly, I don't know ! I'm so lazy, I don't even get up to "shoo" a crow ! But hey!...there's one amazing part about me, Guess what ? "Anyone can come and speak to me." Being an overthinker, has also opened up my mind, I don't form immediate opinions, till I get a clear sight ! I really don't know this journey of thoughts well??!!! Will it ever be stable ? Will it ever end ? But ...If it ends, I'll die for sure, But hey!, I'm sure there is some way to cure! Which way? Hey !...I don't know again ! Is that way gonna be simple or another amazing pain! But hey hey hey!!! I don't know why did I write this ?! Was I trying to find a solution or was encouraging my thoughts already  in a continuous motion?! But hey!, it's ok if you're an overthinker, Try to be amazing my friend, even if nothing is clear!
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Jul 29, 2020
Jul 29, 2020 at 5:28 AM UTC
The diary of an Overthinker!
Dear diary, I just can't explain the amount of thoughts that I have daily!, that continuous mind charter that I have daily....! I'm filled with thoughts, every minute, and every second of my life. My mind just keeps switching from one thought to another, & The amount of day dreaming.... well!!! you know my silly screaming ??!!! Sometimes, they are really funny! And they keep making me smile, so that I keep glowing! But some thoughts...,,, They are really too dark, That ,when I confront them, it breaks my heart apart!! I'm like a confused soul, who's in search of meaning of life... Who's in search of peace , Who's in search of shine! But the moment I start thinking, ugh!!!My head starts cracking!! I just can't concentrate on one particular thing ! Today, if I feel like being a doctor, Tomorrow I might think of being an engineer, & If today I feel like being an accountant, Tomorrow I might feel like, " I just need an Oscar...!" An Oscar for what?? I don't know ...!!! It's sounds too cool and looks good to show ! Will I work for that award?... honestly, I don't know ! I'm so lazy, I don't even get up to "shoo" a crow ! But hey!...there's one amazing part about me, Guess what ? "Anyone can come and speak to me." Being an overthinker, has also opened up my mind, I don't form immediate opinions, till I get a clear sight ! I really don't know this journey of thoughts well??!!! Will it ever be stable ? Will it ever end ? But ...If it ends, I'll die for sure, But hey!, I'm sure there is some way to cure! Which way? Hey !...I don't know again ! Is that way gonna be simple or another amazing pain! But hey hey hey!!! I don't know why did I write this ?! Was I trying to find a solution or was encouraging my thoughts already  in a continuous motion?! But hey!, it's ok if you're an overthinker, Try to be amazing my friend, even if nothing is clear!
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What a face "Sells" Abruptly she yells Matte burning dry Just try Too moisten her lips She's the Red devil From hell why does her orange face peel sell? The right color a psychic won't tell Wishing well drenched He touched my orange juice "All Frenched" She loves to slice and he peels what appeal orange saffron sauce One last juicy squirt divorce It's time for fresh squeeze Too frozen concentrate The happy hour "Orange" feel   no other place like fate Ten times real "One" face peel has been love absorbed Like lemon meringue Tainted love Bitter grind soft butter glove Do you mind orange flame (The Spa) sells to be loved Tra la so kind all Grunge Going "Wawa" coffee cruel Other colors haha Movie set Orange payroll lounge tease squirt But destroyed by the evil spell curse Summoned on sunburst But we need the Orange before the sun comes Like clones orange, you glad we have "Green Apple" phones One step beyond orange zones I don't want to burst your orange sauce Grand Marnier starry twist of orange Two timing orange yogurt Taste to tangy it hurt Hey Yo Orange peel Spa Still sticks Orange Julius flirt O outrageous P pick What turns us on and gets us sick Plan your work and work your plan Never offend her Let's see the chef make you love her Creamified dreamlike Whip free The orange mousse pie Let me hear it yummy to lie
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Apr 21, 2018
Apr 21, 2018 at 11:43 AM UTC
Orange Peel Sells
I used to find myself in the reflection of that water, And cleans myself of troubled thoughts At rivers bend , claim name as abandon daughter, I whispered into every tear my shame and greatest fears, That after all these years that I had made it clear That no love was real, and that I should persevere. To have my heart torn out, torn before me. I soothed it’s hot wounds in the lapping wake In the ripples that my teardrops make Examined as the flesh grew mark, Record each pain in pink puckered scar. I used to find myself in the reflection of that water, Strip bear my inhabitations lay bare to naked skin, Laugh at indiscretion, death, and fear when I dove in. Dove down into the waters where silence overtook, To noise and sleepy slumber of the flowing living brook. I used to concentrate on beauty and the confidence life took, And drown my insecurities and grin at boys who looked. I used to find myself in the reflection of that water, In the moons bright light astride the bank when summer nights grew hotter. I used to let the water pull me to the center of myself, Let it hold onto me when I was lost to everybody else, I used to sing it lullaby’s , until I found myself, Now I’m getting older, they say the waters gotten cold, And I have gotten harder but that I have gotten bold, And I know I’m apt at swimming but there are some Bridges I have known, but sometimes I think of running water Over my frayed and frazzled soul. But a storm is coming closer with terror in its clouds, Hiding in shrouds of chaos , with rain that’s falling down, It’s tearing away the sandy banks and washed my water out. It took away some part of me and held it tell it drown. I wonder what I can see of myself in the wake of all this change, Now all that’s left to do, is start wading through the pains. And fallow thoughts that whisper “if I see myself the same”, And I’ll remember I used to find myself In the reflection of that water, How much she cared for me And how much I was taught there And how everything has changed. But I have left my mark there.
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Nov 8, 2012
Nov 8, 2012 at 7:47 PM UTC
In the reflection of that water
I used to find myself in the reflection of that water, And cleans myself of troubled thoughts At rivers bend , claim name as abandon daughter, I whispered into every tear my shame and greatest fears, That after all these years that I had made it clear That no love was real, and that I should persevere. To have my heart torn out, torn before me. I soothed it’s hot wounds in the lapping wake In the ripples that my teardrops make Examined as the flesh grew mark, Record each pain in pink puckered scar. I used to find myself in the reflection of that water, Strip bear my inhabitations lay bare to naked skin, Laugh at indiscretion, death, and fear when I dove in. Dove down into the waters where silence overtook, To noise and sleepy slumber of the flowing living brook. I used to concentrate on beauty and the confidence life took, And drown my insecurities and grin at boys who looked. I used to find myself in the reflection of that water, In the moons bright light astride the bank when summer nights grew hotter. I used to let the water pull me to the center of myself, Let it hold onto me when I was lost to everybody else, I used to sing it lullaby’s , until I found myself, Now I’m getting older, they say the waters gotten cold, And I have gotten harder but that I have gotten bold, And I know I’m apt at swimming but there are some Bridges I have known, but sometimes I think of running water Over my frayed and frazzled soul. But a storm is coming closer with terror in its clouds, Hiding in shrouds of chaos , with rain that’s falling down, It’s tearing away the sandy banks and washed my water out. It took away some part of me and held it tell it drown. I wonder what I can see of myself in the wake of all this change, Now all that’s left to do, is start wading through the pains. And fallow thoughts that whisper “if I see myself the same”, And I’ll remember I used to find myself In the reflection of that water, How much she cared for me And how much I was taught there And how everything has changed. But I have left my mark there.
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He lets her touch him intimately, without emotion                         when in some pretext she is alone, in his cubicle with him, discussing  things inane,                      a software environs need not be  concerned some times when she passes through,                      her longing crosses limits, these days it has become frequent, to the extent others to  notice.                     she found silly excuses, fifth time this morning but he can't hurt her feeling, a team member valued,                       she contributes to his success, as the team leader   He can see her need for comfort,                under her tired eyes dark shadows of sleepiness   lay curled like a depressed mongrel,                      yet another duel she had with that nincompoop    she calls her husband, all through last night;                       a sudden pang he feels calls his wife   asks if she is fine, to ease his guilt that raises                         its head like  a snake from under the cover of grass.   "A housewife has a thousand things to do, why don't you                       find a buxom colleague to flirt, if that is the need"   she banters and teases him on his illogical concerns.                       Through the glass parting he discreetly watches her face    heard a murmur arising inside,"the ***** plans the next move"                            panicked he tried to concentrate on the screen    that looked frightening, the deadline getting nearer and nearer                        by each hour, he heard the heavy foot fall   at that moment he heard a thud, as if something fell down                       everyone was running towards her workstation.
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May 25, 2014
May 25, 2014 at 10:04 AM UTC
The burden
He lets her touch him intimately, without emotion                         when in some pretext she is alone, in his cubicle with him, discussing  things inane,                      a software environs need not be  concerned some times when she passes through,                      her longing crosses limits, these days it has become frequent, to the extent others to  notice.                     she found silly excuses, fifth time this morning but he can't hurt her feeling, a team member valued,                       she contributes to his success, as the team leader   He can see her need for comfort,                under her tired eyes dark shadows of sleepiness   lay curled like a depressed mongrel,                      yet another duel she had with that nincompoop    she calls her husband, all through last night;                       a sudden pang he feels calls his wife   asks if she is fine, to ease his guilt that raises                         its head like  a snake from under the cover of grass.   "A housewife has a thousand things to do, why don't you                       find a buxom colleague to flirt, if that is the need"   she banters and teases him on his illogical concerns.                       Through the glass parting he discreetly watches her face    heard a murmur arising inside,"the ***** plans the next move"                            panicked he tried to concentrate on the screen    that looked frightening, the deadline getting nearer and nearer                        by each hour, he heard the heavy foot fall   at that moment he heard a thud, as if something fell down                       everyone was running towards her workstation.
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I have work to do have work to do work to do to do it well I must concentrate my thoughts upon this task in hand and I have work to do to do it is a chore a bore but beggars are not choosers just losers but I have work to do to do work at all at any time is fine for me on being homeless I could see the workings of the work priority a majority of folk I know don't go to work go to work to work is but another reason to go on and go on I will until the work is done and my Sun sets overhead and I am dead sure that it will.
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Jun 14, 2013
Jun 14, 2013 at 4:14 AM UTC
Physical fitness (repetitions)
Rambling running were does it ever end my mind is racing. Then the wondering starts again. Hard to think or even concentrate even harder still to even speak. Why the hell did god curse me with this disease this curse of the mind. Making it hard for me to learn, to grow, old habits hard to break. What the hell I’m I to do but only to learn forms ones mistakes. Were does it end only in death will I learn that mistake. Posey 00
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Sep 11, 2011
Sep 11, 2011 at 6:25 PM UTC
ADHD
I feel so confident behind these facades but in front of you I'm just a puddle under your feet I have a problem I can't concentrate or smile your way my self esteem is terribly low and the time is escaping me I'm losing all control but even so, you try to gather me up strong embrace and I'm shaking begging I need space in the pitch black I'm back to cursing my name I'm just a disgrace.. hopeless.. worthless.. weak.. timid soul
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Nov 8, 2014
Nov 8, 2014 at 1:14 AM UTC
Low Self Esteem
My mind is out of focus And my mouth is dry My eyes are too heavy 'Im so very tired And my face is blank My heart is slow My body is so warm Then it turns cold Now my body twitches My breathing is getting deep I can't trust my ears Or images that I see It seems that I'm here But my mind is gone Time seems so short But feels so long My system needs a shock Or a wake up call When you talk to me Its like conversing with a wall Caffeine don’t do a thing Caffeine won;t do a thing Caffeine does nothing Caffeine do something The sunshine hurts my eyes My mood is so damp I'm like a zombie Try to get up but I can't Brain drain Brain drain Causing me mental pain Brain drain Brain drain My head can't sustain Brain drain Brain drain Everything looks the same Brain drain Brain drain I feel so lame Brain drain Brain drain I can't concentrate Brain drain Brain drain Worn out from this game Wake me up Get me up Keep me up Give me up My head begs for endorphins But I cant oblige Now I'm feeling down It weeps and it cries Keep my head spinning At every minute of every day But now I'm running on fumes You got nothing to say You got my heart, hold it oh so tight I go behind your back doing things that ain't so right Wrap me up in all this drama I wanna leave I need to take a break I'm almost outta steam In school I'm barely getting by Because I'm focused on getting laid and getting high My mind wandered off To where it shouldn't have been So now it has died And buried with my sins I wanna go back to normal Original thought process Mind and body went to hell and back All I can do is digress I had too much fun for way to long So now my right is left and my left is wrong I've got all this stress and it piles up But it's on my shoulders and I can't pass the buck I find no enjoyment in what I once held dear Becoming eternally empty is my deepest fear
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Mar 7, 2015
Mar 7, 2015 at 7:06 PM UTC
Brain Drain
My mind is out of focus And my mouth is dry My eyes are too heavy 'Im so very tired And my face is blank My heart is slow My body is so warm Then it turns cold Now my body twitches My breathing is getting deep I can't trust my ears Or images that I see It seems that I'm here But my mind is gone Time seems so short But feels so long My system needs a shock Or a wake up call When you talk to me Its like conversing with a wall Caffeine don’t do a thing Caffeine won;t do a thing Caffeine does nothing Caffeine do something The sunshine hurts my eyes My mood is so damp I'm like a zombie Try to get up but I can't Brain drain Brain drain Causing me mental pain Brain drain Brain drain My head can't sustain Brain drain Brain drain Everything looks the same Brain drain Brain drain I feel so lame Brain drain Brain drain I can't concentrate Brain drain Brain drain Worn out from this game Wake me up Get me up Keep me up Give me up My head begs for endorphins But I cant oblige Now I'm feeling down It weeps and it cries Keep my head spinning At every minute of every day But now I'm running on fumes You got nothing to say You got my heart, hold it oh so tight I go behind your back doing things that ain't so right Wrap me up in all this drama I wanna leave I need to take a break I'm almost outta steam In school I'm barely getting by Because I'm focused on getting laid and getting high My mind wandered off To where it shouldn't have been So now it has died And buried with my sins I wanna go back to normal Original thought process Mind and body went to hell and back All I can do is digress I had too much fun for way to long So now my right is left and my left is wrong I've got all this stress and it piles up But it's on my shoulders and I can't pass the buck I find no enjoyment in what I once held dear Becoming eternally empty is my deepest fear
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The eyes should be on the target only after opting the goal "Be Like Cheetah" -ARAVIND BHARGAVA "Cheetah getting famished sets the ambition to chase a Deer, Doesn't stop until the purpose is clear, Doesn't gets confused by seeing an animal in the middle, Achieves the goal and makes the deer to ******* You are the Cheetah and deer is the goal, Other goals are animals in a whole, Concentrate only on the purpose you have chosen, Make the goal for you to be frozen. Frame the aspiration by yourselves you had, Detach negative from mind which is bad, Attention only on the ambition you designated, Do not lose confidence even if you are underestimated, Add courage, trust, and determination to your mind, Do not cease until everything is fined. Be like a cheetah, contrive goals And be successful in life"
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Oct 23, 2014
Oct 23, 2014 at 1:12 PM UTC
BE LIKE CHEETAH
my chest feels tight, fight or flight, i can barely breathe, and i'm starting to heave. i can't even begin to explain, how horrible this is, i can't concentrate at all, and i'm starting to bawl. i feel like i'm dying, but to be honest, i'd rather be dead, than feel like this instead. n.l.b
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Jul 6, 2014
Jul 6, 2014 at 5:12 PM UTC
panic attack
i. I’ve heard people say on various occasions “if it’s meant to be, it will happen.” I don’t buy it. Lots of things never happened that should have. ii. Talking to Jimi was like having a conversation thru the plexi-glass of a prison visitation room. They could see each other, they could almost touch each other, but a layer of bullet proof glass stood between them and true intimacy.  Yet, there were times when the wall was more like the shell of a bubble—thin and pliable and sticking to her fingers when she pressed against it. And Jimi’s shape would begin to take form with her touch, and the reality of his true self would show in defiance of his expectations. iii. Jimi just didn’t seem to get it. It was like he thought every word Mango uttered about her crushed spirit and just trying to survive was some sort of manipulation tactic.   “You don't act like you did before.” She said. “I'm sorry for that, you never leave my mind though.” “The things going on in your head don't talk to me or spend time with me or hold me....they just stay with you and I am all alone.” iv. “Jimi, I can’t focus, I can’t concentrate on anything! The sound of my thoughts are so loud that reality is just background clamor and white noise!” “I’m trying, I’m doing the best I can. What more do you want me to do?” “Move out! Make the leap! If you’re not happy there, if you don’t want to be married to her you shouldn’t be there. If being with me isn’t enough motivation to leave, then leave because Lizi deserves more than a fake husband.” “I’m **** I’m just a coward. I don’t like myself for what I’m doing.” “The only one who can change how you feel about yourself is you. Sitting around thinking about how ****** you are isn’t going to change a **** thing.” “Neither is yelling at me.” “Then I guess we’re at an impasse.” v. Something in their relationship had died. Not unlike the many times Mango’s heart had been broken and her hope had been lost. But it was harder for Jimi, taking that leap of love in the first place was the most difficult thing he had ever done.  And now, he had never experienced such intense levels of pain, he thought his heart would literally stop beating, and he would be swallowed up by the enormous cavity in his chest.  Mango wanted to know if he could love her again, and he didn’t know, he honestly didn’t know. He wanted to, but now the part of him that feared he would not be enough for her had taken over, and his sense of fear and overwhelm was too much for him to bear.
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Jul 17, 2013
Jul 17, 2013 at 2:45 AM UTC
Jimi and Mango iii
i. I’ve heard people say on various occasions “if it’s meant to be, it will happen.” I don’t buy it. Lots of things never happened that should have. ii. Talking to Jimi was like having a conversation thru the plexi-glass of a prison visitation room. They could see each other, they could almost touch each other, but a layer of bullet proof glass stood between them and true intimacy.  Yet, there were times when the wall was more like the shell of a bubble—thin and pliable and sticking to her fingers when she pressed against it. And Jimi’s shape would begin to take form with her touch, and the reality of his true self would show in defiance of his expectations. iii. Jimi just didn’t seem to get it. It was like he thought every word Mango uttered about her crushed spirit and just trying to survive was some sort of manipulation tactic.   “You don't act like you did before.” She said. “I'm sorry for that, you never leave my mind though.” “The things going on in your head don't talk to me or spend time with me or hold me....they just stay with you and I am all alone.” iv. “Jimi, I can’t focus, I can’t concentrate on anything! The sound of my thoughts are so loud that reality is just background clamor and white noise!” “I’m trying, I’m doing the best I can. What more do you want me to do?” “Move out! Make the leap! If you’re not happy there, if you don’t want to be married to her you shouldn’t be there. If being with me isn’t enough motivation to leave, then leave because Lizi deserves more than a fake husband.” “I’m **** I’m just a coward. I don’t like myself for what I’m doing.” “The only one who can change how you feel about yourself is you. Sitting around thinking about how ****** you are isn’t going to change a **** thing.” “Neither is yelling at me.” “Then I guess we’re at an impasse.” v. Something in their relationship had died. Not unlike the many times Mango’s heart had been broken and her hope had been lost. But it was harder for Jimi, taking that leap of love in the first place was the most difficult thing he had ever done.  And now, he had never experienced such intense levels of pain, he thought his heart would literally stop beating, and he would be swallowed up by the enormous cavity in his chest.  Mango wanted to know if he could love her again, and he didn’t know, he honestly didn’t know. He wanted to, but now the part of him that feared he would not be enough for her had taken over, and his sense of fear and overwhelm was too much for him to bear.
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i. heretofore bygone week's Tis I was layden in mine outgoing's; Incapacitated, mine feet's step's unknowing. ii. Dolor rolled as Boulder's Down mine emptied innard's; Jinn filled with hate and sin, tooketh over. iii. They tried to possesseth me And diluteth me by their fear's; They scratched, and bit, all didst spit Yet mien reine reigned in by chariot flares. iv. Mount Mayon, in southern Luzon Volcanoe's surround her citadel; She snatched me from the barbarian's In heaven, whence in hell. v. Manila in the concentrate Between the thickness of it all; Is where mine rose, her face didst gloweth Her virtue's were one, of the prophet's and high law. ©Brandon nagley ©Lonesome poet's poetry ©Earl Jane dedication/Reyna/hari/soulmates
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Aug 15, 2015
Aug 15, 2015 at 5:01 AM UTC
Ο τόπος, όπου έχω σωθεί από το φως ( The place, wherein i was saved by a light) greek tongue
I'm running running on empty I spent last night, awake couldn't sleep, couldn't feel can't seem to feel these days, anyways I'm running running on empty can't seem to eat not that hungry it seems food repels me nowadays I'm running running on empty can't seem to concentrate can't seem to stay awake can't seem to feel I keep on running almost at 2 miles just keep running focus i'm fine I'm always fine Not hungry not feeling just running
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May 19, 2014
May 19, 2014 at 9:13 AM UTC
Running
the pieces are disconnecting, the house not under control. people showin' up unannounced, not wanting to leave. what do i do?become the bully?kick them out, give them the cold shoulder?i'm not losing the life i have, for some kid looking to get high...get you **** and go, there's the door. this is now drive thru thuggin', no more chillin'.need to get focused, need to concentrate, i'm fallin' apart, used to be on tap,now i need help. my minds always on money, ten steps ahead.now i'm falling ten behind, for letting a stranger in. the boss man's mad,mad as can be. I'VE LOST FOCUS,but i have hope cause, he still hasn't given up on me....focus...concentrate...get back.
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Feb 25, 2010
Feb 25, 2010 at 9:48 PM UTC
focus... concentrate...