Then I heard from a passing auto, with a Sirius
half-mile bleed in the dry desert air, A guru
I recognized, saying... of tamed  earthlings
they and those who inform them, do
become
Too constipated about every thing,
swallowing yesteryears whole,
unchewed, and set to
digest the whole truth,
- Moses or Valis - sortasame
- Big Gulp
then tell it, as you will, no ****.
You are mortal, you cannnot not
gnoshit smells stinky,
nogood stinky,
mmgood insinct, too, scent
of a wombed

mind, crying more, more, more,
can you imagine,
poor Solomon, surrounded
by wives and concubines', praying
together, thy kingdom,
come in me,
let me bher the child to stomp
the accusering head,
let my barren womb bloom…
- the child serpent wise
- dove harmless,
- let it be me

yeh, song of solo,mon,
makes no carnal minded sense,
who ever took the time,
to compose those lines,

wished ever to know, once
a fluid mind rose into the ever was,
and saw too many told tells to retell,

how dude, did you guess?
- got a clue from sadhu, guru

Guess what.

You ache, you ache, you ache;
Why wont you let me love you?
Why must you make me wait?
I cannnot wait forever...

Why wont you let me love you?
I would live to make your sun shine brighter;
I would die to take away your pain.

Why must you make me wait?
Each day is an empty promise;
Each night is an empty bed.

I cannot wait forever --
The more I know, the more I love.
And the more I love, the more I ache.

I find myself in an uneasy stupor, amix of stress and reality.
It seems that no freedom from medication can change the bleakness of reality.
Whereas before I was beholder of every dream, now I live in my own dream-like state.
As though my mind is always at sea.
Like a moat my eye is, from which my feet cannot carry me.
Dependent on the clarity of others.
My eyes beget no sharpness.
As one half-asleep my tale unfolds.
I live halfway in bed and halfway outside it.
No one to save me from this reality.
My daydream journeys are as real as my wakefulness inasmuch as they both carry my soul away.
My right eye cannnot be open
My left eye cannnot be closed.
Every thought takes me to a place.
Every though takes me from here.
No word can be spoken from one place, but is spoken from half here half there.
My inner eye can rarely meet my outer one.
I can't fully get out of my sleep.

i am broken in all the ways you cannnot love
   -*ten words poem

No please stop!
We must not make a habit of this
It was a one in a lifetime shot
Don't do that
Move away from there
No rules in this game
Can't say your playing unfair
Just move
Let go be free
You have another
There's no need for me
They cannnot find out

I don't remember when did I saw you first, or
When did we get along?
I just remember details about you...
which are going to embarrass you,
In front of your future kids.
Still, we got to hit a long road ahead.



Cannnot wonder how would you be in uptime,
Just we grace the beauty of you amidst us.
But to be truthful.
You are one winee, full of desperations.
Left your old nest and thoughts of fantasy dreams.
But, knowing, true dreams  required too,
Luck and skills.



We share everything including the above 'Riemann'
Spent a whole year, yet the bond to be more close.
Don't think too much just relax.

You are a one wise fellow I trust the most,
Just wanna ask how do you ace the exams.


May God Bless you and your life.
And soon...
You will see a beautiful wife

I am guilty with lust, it consumes me, draws me and burns my *****
The want is a need that shames my mind, defience to what is pure
this base desire, this physical necessity, I hate that I need it
but succumb to its embrace as he lies next to me, deep in slumber
drifting alone, all too comfortable to be disturbed

My mind plays out fantasies, wrapping myself around him
I know he would even covet my embrace, snuggle close to me
My arms would wrap around him, my legs entwine his
pressing against him, sneak my hand along him, stroke
crafty fingers' speak my fire
tease his dreams to mirror my need

My body yearns, my ache is real, my lips are soft, my need drips
I can feel myself, the warmth of my lion's mouth,
its hunger, its desire to lunge, to grab deep, to ******
to feel his body next to mine, the heat of his desire
to ride, not timid, defient against him
that driving, penetrated, disgusting
urge just to ****

I have my needs, he even encourages, pleads
even complains, he knows my heart
Cannnot, I say, cannot and no
I cannot succumb this is too primative
Too much just flesh, too much

A pleasure that must be denied, not for me to savor
my animal must be leashed, controlled
I will lay here next to him, so close and far
My broken lusting heart, denied once more
It is his fault; men to blame
They punish us all
He sleeps through my pain

Lost my father
Many years back..
All he asked me
Was to take him back
That Last wish of his
Remained Unfulfilled.

They say Time Heals
All this is a Lie.
For when you remember
It seems like yesterday

Each one has to exit
This is the truth
Which cannnot be denied.

But the sadness which prevails
Is worst that death itself.

Feel worthless even after you try
All the Emotions buried
As there is no shoulder to cry

HP is the only place
For I can only Vent.

For those who still have their parents alive.
Meet them. Love them. Care for them.
As you never know when they will go.