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Selfies, I can smell the desperation, from here. odors of worry; rippling anxities of uncertainity. two dimensional, instantaneous impressions, pixelated presentations, and Teenage frustrations. up tilted camera. held against the light, Illuminating eyes , and eradicating spots. that looks like a good one. Vicarious representation; of how good one could look, fallible and hopeful. big bosomed dame showcasing blessed cleavage, pulsating the adolescent bulges. delivered to metal passenger, thereafter shown among peers. networked to unknown. Friends who'd never met eye, or touched skin, or even spoke. self conscious cropping of images. fat and fearful. wasted hours, dying for love. False dream of captivating the messes with her selfie. The very ugliness of impressions. Oh, how shallow we've became. The denial of the impact of aesthetics. laughable, torrents of judgement Skinny, fat, ugly, behold their desperate eyes behind the selfie.
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Jul 14, 2014
Jul 14, 2014 at 4:35 PM UTC
Shame of the selfie
they can't see, they can't see that it coats my bones, bulges against my skin; those little yellow bubbles that make me want to give in.
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Sep 18, 2022
Sep 18, 2022 at 11:53 AM UTC
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Right. Listen to this: Whenever life gets you down, Mrs. Brown, and things seem hard or tough, and people are stupid, obnoxious or daft and you feel that you've had quite enough! Just remember that you're standing on a planet that's evolving and revolving at nine hundred miles an hour! It's orbiting at nineteen miles a second, so it's reckoned, a Sun that it the source of all our power. The Sun, and you and me, and all the stars that we can see are moving at a Million miles a day in an outer spiral arm at forty thousand miles an hour of the Galaxy we call the Milky Way. Our Galaxy, itself, contains a hundred Billion stars. It's a hundred thousand light-years side to side. It bulges in the middle sixteen thousand light-years thick, but out by us it's just three thousand light-years wide. We're thirty thousand light-years from Galactic Central Point, we go round every two hundred Million years! And our Galaxy is only one of Millions of Billions in this amazing and expanding Universe! The Universe, itself, keeps on expanding and expanding in all of the directions it can **** As fast as it can go, the speed of Light, you know twelve Million miles a minute, and that's the fastest speed there is! So, remember when you're feeling very small and insecure, how amazingly unlikely is your birth! And prey that there's intelligent life somewhere up in space because there's ****** all down here on Earth!
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Apr 11, 2014
Apr 11, 2014 at 8:23 PM UTC
The Galaxy Song - Monty Python
Why I Always Carry Tissues To My Children: I'm laughing at myself, As I am prone to do because Why I Always Carry Tissues Is the title of a poem I write for you. There is a story here, Of parenting, and responsibilties That transcends yourself, defines me, Vis-a-vis you, then and there, and maybe now. When you were small, I took you by the hand, The cement canyons, trails & rivers of West Eighty Six Street, Together, we would ford. Periodically, as Fathers are prone to do, Your hand, from my hand, I would release So you could fall down, All on your own. It bemused me that I could see Three or four paces ahead of thee Exactly which crack, Upon which you would trip, And come crying back to me. Back-to-me. That was then. And now, Yes, no more, Back-to-me. But I always had tissues to dry your eyes And no surprise, I still do, Always will. These days, they, more likely used to dry mine, As I have forded that Styxy river, When crossed, you spend more of the day, Liking Back more, Then looking ahead. No matter, by right and tradition, It is still my mission, that when you need, when you bleed, as I know you surely shall, These pocket tissues will be there Ready, willing and able, fully capable, of snatching away your tears. **When you need, When you bleed, And you surely shall, These pockets of mine, Of tissue made, Are waiting for your tears, And you, to fill them, For without them, Their raison d'etre is unfulfilled.** These used tissues are my history book, Re the art of loving, and the arch-i-texture of life, Of tears and hearts, And concrete spills, That need knees to be complete. That is why you will find me, without fail, Ready, willing and able, holding my White Badge of Courage at the ready, Waiting patiently, for my mission to be redeemed, Missions known as parenting schemes. The scheme is clear, even if my tissues you no longer request, You will let your own babies fall n' fail, then take their tears Put them in your pocket, keep them forever wet, Like my memories of you the ones I cherish best... Perhaps a tradition We will start, Unsightly bulges in our pocket rear, Where we will store our packet of saver-saviors Removers of our dear one's fears. If we are truly wise Those tissued memories We will keep, Die among them contented, Knee-scraped deep When tears fall... 2008
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Jul 27, 2013
Jul 27, 2013 at 9:09 AM UTC
Why I Always Carry Tissues (2008 - the poem I love the best)
Why I Always Carry Tissues To My Children: I'm laughing at myself, As I am prone to do because Why I Always Carry Tissues Is the title of a poem I write for you. There is a story here, Of parenting, and responsibilties That transcends yourself, defines me, Vis-a-vis you, then and there, and maybe now. When you were small, I took you by the hand, The cement canyons, trails & rivers of West Eighty Six Street, Together, we would ford. Periodically, as Fathers are prone to do, Your hand, from my hand, I would release So you could fall down, All on your own. It bemused me that I could see Three or four paces ahead of thee Exactly which crack, Upon which you would trip, And come crying back to me. Back-to-me. That was then. And now, Yes, no more, Back-to-me. But I always had tissues to dry your eyes And no surprise, I still do, Always will. These days, they, more likely used to dry mine, As I have forded that Styxy river, When crossed, you spend more of the day, Liking Back more, Then looking ahead. No matter, by right and tradition, It is still my mission, that when you need, when you bleed, as I know you surely shall, These pocket tissues will be there Ready, willing and able, fully capable, of snatching away your tears. **When you need, When you bleed, And you surely shall, These pockets of mine, Of tissue made, Are waiting for your tears, And you, to fill them, For without them, Their raison d'etre is unfulfilled.** These used tissues are my history book, Re the art of loving, and the arch-i-texture of life, Of tears and hearts, And concrete spills, That need knees to be complete. That is why you will find me, without fail, Ready, willing and able, holding my White Badge of Courage at the ready, Waiting patiently, for my mission to be redeemed, Missions known as parenting schemes. The scheme is clear, even if my tissues you no longer request, You will let your own babies fall n' fail, then take their tears Put them in your pocket, keep them forever wet, Like my memories of you the ones I cherish best... Perhaps a tradition We will start, Unsightly bulges in our pocket rear, Where we will store our packet of saver-saviors Removers of our dear one's fears. If we are truly wise Those tissued memories We will keep, Die among them contented, Knee-scraped deep When tears fall... 2008
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I know from my past, gym class From locker rooms, I learned fast That lots of guys have winners But my sausage is from Vienna. I got a little bump, a tiny little lump, Like a hamster has taken a dump. Nothing bulges my shorts at the crotch. Not much there for anyone to watch. But our society puts the emphasis On just how big your business is. If you have a tiny peter, my friend Many kinds of applause will end. Go read the writing on the walls, Because you will inherit the catcalls And no matter how much you moan They come through no fault of your own. Regarded as less than a man; sick Or perverted to have a small **** As too often I have been told Since as a kid and not very old Amid laughter and cruel jests I have learned a big **** is best. No matter it’s something I can’t change, Apparently a small ***** is strange. In time I left behind those taunts As I left behind adolescent haunts. The pain has become only a taint; The scars of bullies with no restraint, But I am sure I never will fully be Free of their thoughtless bigotry As I reach the age of an old codger Dealing with life with a not so jolly roger.
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Oct 3, 2015
Oct 3, 2015 at 10:11 PM UTC
***** ENVY
bespeckled, blotched & blokey feminine in aspects only little ****** hair patches two chins, or rather a sloped one the front evenly declining to the middle of the throat a gradual slope from the tip, for juices to run if his manner and situation allowed him to be as casual and sloppy as his laziness chose, torso without form, so there was no curvature on the buttocks or the fly region. a mass a blob of bulges on spindly legs he leans on the wall stubby in hand he balks (he means jovial but unintentionally he vocalises mockery) at the suggestion that the Pies will do better & that Eddie is a clever man due for thanks, who has done his club well (apparently a straight Aussie arrow tried and true!) the man ***** his head back & cackles (the trebly popping bubbles of a gala crackle outwards as the man cackles) & decides his arms need a rest, (a long day of up and down they have had indeed, they deserve respect, or rest (or a benching)) so he places his beer down on a sloped surface, & therefore it slips down…. he sees it plummeting, he stretches toward it's tragic trajectory, …..but he is too slow it smashes on his foot (the shards) the beer bottle it transfigures, and the shards they impart their misery on his toes. The shards they intrude on his relaxed state of wellbeing, they intrude on the security sanctioned within the casual footwear of a man at a barbecue; taking it easy. he swears and hops, reaching in indignation for his bleeding toes he holds the wound cursing; resisting the impulse to begin convulsive throws (an oscar worthy performance from a usually suburbaly urbane individual) the moisture feels degrading (as it would within a man's pants) the pain from the cuts it is worsened by the smirking gazes of others about he hobbles, disregarding his thong in the wreckage of the scene off to retrieve a band aid to mend his ego and his foot simultaneously
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Mar 18, 2013
Mar 18, 2013 at 10:18 AM UTC
the barbecue
bespeckled, blotched & blokey feminine in aspects only little ****** hair patches two chins, or rather a sloped one the front evenly declining to the middle of the throat a gradual slope from the tip, for juices to run if his manner and situation allowed him to be as casual and sloppy as his laziness chose, torso without form, so there was no curvature on the buttocks or the fly region. a mass a blob of bulges on spindly legs he leans on the wall stubby in hand he balks (he means jovial but unintentionally he vocalises mockery) at the suggestion that the Pies will do better & that Eddie is a clever man due for thanks, who has done his club well (apparently a straight Aussie arrow tried and true!) the man ***** his head back & cackles (the trebly popping bubbles of a gala crackle outwards as the man cackles) & decides his arms need a rest, (a long day of up and down they have had indeed, they deserve respect, or rest (or a benching)) so he places his beer down on a sloped surface, & therefore it slips down…. he sees it plummeting, he stretches toward it's tragic trajectory, …..but he is too slow it smashes on his foot (the shards) the beer bottle it transfigures, and the shards they impart their misery on his toes. The shards they intrude on his relaxed state of wellbeing, they intrude on the security sanctioned within the casual footwear of a man at a barbecue; taking it easy. he swears and hops, reaching in indignation for his bleeding toes he holds the wound cursing; resisting the impulse to begin convulsive throws (an oscar worthy performance from a usually suburbaly urbane individual) the moisture feels degrading (as it would within a man's pants) the pain from the cuts it is worsened by the smirking gazes of others about he hobbles, disregarding his thong in the wreckage of the scene off to retrieve a band aid to mend his ego and his foot simultaneously
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I went for an X-Ray the other day. My name was called and after the expected delay, I heard a nurse say Right knee? I said Yep! She said “Come this way… Can you get your trouser leg up to your thigh"? I said “No… these skinny jeans don’t go that high”. “In that case” she said looking me up & down... with a frown Pop in that cubicle… and put on this gown! For a start…it took me ages to get these trousers off… and force the rest of my stuff into the carrier bag supplied and then, when I saw the gown, I very nearly died! It would have fitted me just fine if I’d been 18 again but the gaps and bulges in the thing were a farce... and allowed everyone in the corridor to see my fat 71 year old **** I said out loud when I sat down again in the queue “You know…I had an inferiority complex before I met any of you. But this has definitely taken me down a notch. And I apologise about the view”. However, inside the X-Ray room with all the techie kit and Radiographer Rob, I felt better… The pain in my knee had almost gone apart from a distant throb. Then he said “You’re completely safe, just lie back calm, quite still…serene”. Whilst he clicked the shutter from the other side of his lead lined screen. (So he was alright then!) Well, I’m home again now, hobbling about… It’s bearable (not like childbirth ladies) but not great. I’m sitting here with my leg up waiting for the letter that will let me know my fate. Ah yes… men and pain! There is a well know fact about the differences between the sexes. It’s proven that, with men, colds become flu…and ailments:- epidemics… (No really!) So, here’s the letter… Now...will it be Ointment? Physio, to transform a permanent slouch? Or a keyhole flush with a catheter? Or - Oh no!… For me - it’s a titanium replacement knee!… Ouch! Somebody pass me that gown!!!
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Apr 27, 2019
Apr 27, 2019 at 6:09 PM UTC
Hospital Gown
I went for an X-Ray the other day. My name was called and after the expected delay, I heard a nurse say Right knee? I said Yep! She said “Come this way… Can you get your trouser leg up to your thigh"? I said “No… these skinny jeans don’t go that high”. “In that case” she said looking me up & down... with a frown Pop in that cubicle… and put on this gown! For a start…it took me ages to get these trousers off… and force the rest of my stuff into the carrier bag supplied and then, when I saw the gown, I very nearly died! It would have fitted me just fine if I’d been 18 again but the gaps and bulges in the thing were a farce... and allowed everyone in the corridor to see my fat 71 year old **** I said out loud when I sat down again in the queue “You know…I had an inferiority complex before I met any of you. But this has definitely taken me down a notch. And I apologise about the view”. However, inside the X-Ray room with all the techie kit and Radiographer Rob, I felt better… The pain in my knee had almost gone apart from a distant throb. Then he said “You’re completely safe, just lie back calm, quite still…serene”. Whilst he clicked the shutter from the other side of his lead lined screen. (So he was alright then!) Well, I’m home again now, hobbling about… It’s bearable (not like childbirth ladies) but not great. I’m sitting here with my leg up waiting for the letter that will let me know my fate. Ah yes… men and pain! There is a well know fact about the differences between the sexes. It’s proven that, with men, colds become flu…and ailments:- epidemics… (No really!) So, here’s the letter… Now...will it be Ointment? Physio, to transform a permanent slouch? Or a keyhole flush with a catheter? Or - Oh no!… For me - it’s a titanium replacement knee!… Ouch! Somebody pass me that gown!!!
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The town does not exist except where one black-haired tree slips up like a drowned woman into the hot sky. The town is silent. The night boils with eleven stars. Oh starry starry night! This is how I want to die. It moves. They are all alive. Even the moon bulges in its orange irons to push children, like a god, from its eye. The old unseen serpent swallows up the stars. Oh starry starry night! This is how I want to die: into that rushing beast of the night, ****** up by that great dragon, to split from my life with no flag, no belly, no cry.
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The Starry Night
Inside of my body Amidst death and poison a virus lurks in every puddle, pumping blood that flushes my tired heart like the river Styx Amidst this battlezone that is my failing being lies a secret, sleeping The cells swim by They are rarer now like precious gems the factories of my fighting body produced like diamonds born amidst feverish forges within a toxic mine The gems, they call them T-cells, are now suicide bombers converted daily by the whisper of necromancy They call this hex *** a war against your own treasures Yet my T-cells are more, runes blazing mystic and glowing, antigen sorcery that wards against failing Amidst the 300,000 +sleeper cells that abandoned my cause Insurgence bulges with nightmare The cells clamour growing with the whispers of past victims now roped into the mystic chains, the wizards call it RNA, that bind us An ironic family of ghosts who live in each other "junk DNA" My body is no junk; instead a treasure - what do they say one man's trash? My body an amalgamation 30 years magic growing twisted like thorny vines that must consume their helpless host My T-cells inception Worlds within me the "JUNK" of lovers past becomes entangled in archives carved in my bones. Amidst recipes of a poison I cannot trace, I am ironically linked into a family of ancestors whose cries beat in my still working heart The drum of the long fallen crying for justice ...My blood Our blood. chains enmeshing ....ghosts I will never know Now parts of me that lie sleeping in Trojan horses, all my own.
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Jul 8, 2014
Jul 8, 2014 at 6:16 AM UTC
Blood is Thicker than T-Cells
Inside of my body Amidst death and poison a virus lurks in every puddle, pumping blood that flushes my tired heart like the river Styx Amidst this battlezone that is my failing being lies a secret, sleeping The cells swim by They are rarer now like precious gems the factories of my fighting body produced like diamonds born amidst feverish forges within a toxic mine The gems, they call them T-cells, are now suicide bombers converted daily by the whisper of necromancy They call this hex *** a war against your own treasures Yet my T-cells are more, runes blazing mystic and glowing, antigen sorcery that wards against failing Amidst the 300,000 +sleeper cells that abandoned my cause Insurgence bulges with nightmare The cells clamour growing with the whispers of past victims now roped into the mystic chains, the wizards call it RNA, that bind us An ironic family of ghosts who live in each other "junk DNA" My body is no junk; instead a treasure - what do they say one man's trash? My body an amalgamation 30 years magic growing twisted like thorny vines that must consume their helpless host My T-cells inception Worlds within me the "JUNK" of lovers past becomes entangled in archives carved in my bones. Amidst recipes of a poison I cannot trace, I am ironically linked into a family of ancestors whose cries beat in my still working heart The drum of the long fallen crying for justice ...My blood Our blood. chains enmeshing ....ghosts I will never know Now parts of me that lie sleeping in Trojan horses, all my own.
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that’s the thing with those trophy wife types, never really mandible in *** like a jaw ought to be, too stiff, too anorexic model type: pooch pooch a handbag full of duck quack pouts of the lips. i like mandible women, scary scarred women, the types that will grow into fond babushkas and cook you a broth. ah all this crap with daddy longlegs walking into a paparazzi web of flashes is ruining the red carpet, i was about to frizz it up into cushion afro softness that would be quicksand for high heels. i need blotches i need survival skills that hold the skin together, every wrinkle, every passing jest of “irrelevance,” every amulet glow of feeling through the kaleidoscope of depression, jet-lag i call it, although i rather call it trombone, with the numbers it was bound to happen, leaving the mammalian kingdom and entering the insect kingdom, it was bound to happen, the lost identity tiling the earth, ploughing the eardrum for symphonies, it was just waiting... just waiting... like a spider waiting with the flies of the urbanisation of green & green... can’t change my mind... blotches on skin and bulges of missing protein on the hips... perfect girth for child rearing... i don’t like perfect... it’s supposed to have an aesthetic aura of an art gallery... instead it has an aesthetic aura of hygiene of a hospital; i arrested all the beauticians while talking to the paediatricians painting my nails with u.v. liquorice in this hospital of hygienic looks but unhygienic romping pompoms that swayed man to chlamydia.
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Oct 18, 2015
Oct 18, 2015 at 11:14 AM UTC
trophy girls
that’s the thing with those trophy wife types, never really mandible in *** like a jaw ought to be, too stiff, too anorexic model type: pooch pooch a handbag full of duck quack pouts of the lips. i like mandible women, scary scarred women, the types that will grow into fond babushkas and cook you a broth. ah all this crap with daddy longlegs walking into a paparazzi web of flashes is ruining the red carpet, i was about to frizz it up into cushion afro softness that would be quicksand for high heels. i need blotches i need survival skills that hold the skin together, every wrinkle, every passing jest of “irrelevance,” every amulet glow of feeling through the kaleidoscope of depression, jet-lag i call it, although i rather call it trombone, with the numbers it was bound to happen, leaving the mammalian kingdom and entering the insect kingdom, it was bound to happen, the lost identity tiling the earth, ploughing the eardrum for symphonies, it was just waiting... just waiting... like a spider waiting with the flies of the urbanisation of green & green... can’t change my mind... blotches on skin and bulges of missing protein on the hips... perfect girth for child rearing... i don’t like perfect... it’s supposed to have an aesthetic aura of an art gallery... instead it has an aesthetic aura of hygiene of a hospital; i arrested all the beauticians while talking to the paediatricians painting my nails with u.v. liquorice in this hospital of hygienic looks but unhygienic romping pompoms that swayed man to chlamydia.
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Before last night, I'd only seen the forbidden-fruit curves and ripples rendering my skin unbeautiful. But in the fluorescent indifference of a drugstore I caught sight of my legs through eyes not my own, new tapers and bulges swathed in black spandex even too flimsy for the $15 price tag, and wondered why words like "small" and "gap" were heaven to my ears, while "quadriceps" and "endurance" have their own quaint ring, a lovely taste on the tip of a tongue which has spent too much time wallowing in self-hatred. Strength isn't a virtue in women, we who learn from birth to take up as little space as possible. Our shapes always need shaping, guiding, sometimes our own voices telling ourselves we deserve the pain of fatigue after one mile too long spent running up the avenue, forcing ourselves to faint for a glimpse of thinner thighs, we deserve to be dehumanized if we don't inch our way into the body laid out for us by Mother Society. Where is the place for the girl who hobbles home, skin bruised purple but flushed with the accomplishment of stopping every single shot in practice? Or for the boy whose gentle hands provide the perfect perch for a butterfly to land upon? My strength is not an imperfection. There is beauty in it, and discipline. These legs can take me for miles if I take off the iron vest that keeps me anchored to a Hollywood version of myself. Without it, I can fly.
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Aug 15, 2013
Aug 15, 2013 at 8:33 PM UTC
Legs -- a severely rough draft.
So many conflicting images society tells us exactly how we should look but I’m still supposed to love myself exactly as I am. Supermodel tall and athletic but still petite enough that no man feels intimidated. No extra rolls or bulges anywhere in sight but not skinny enough to appear sickly. Never cover yourself up too much as to appear prudish but showing too much skin equates with promiscuity. Don’t be too in touch with your sexuality else you should be labeled a ***** but don’t deny too many men else you should be labeled a tease. Never not be aware of your surroundings as danger lurks in every shadow at night but don’t seem too hyper vigilant unless you should appear paranoid. Don’t dare wear too much makeup but never let them see your flaws. Beauty comes before all else, including pain but never let them see how you achieve your beauty in danger of being labeled vain or sick. Girls should be driven to excel but only in activities deemed suitably feminine. Society’s views dictate from birth how we should act, feel, and look as women, but the molds they attempt to force us into are not designed to contained all the magnificence we are born with.
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Jul 6, 2014
Jul 6, 2014 at 9:02 PM UTC
Conflicting
I'm putting on my flowing cape to contrast against these skin tight words, delivering truth, freedom, beauty, hope, love, joy, *** war hate, passion, and emotional genocide I'm flaunting my anatomy in mis-measured feet, peculiar textual bulges with evidence of discrepancies, and wondering why the mayor won't call me back.
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Aug 18, 2013
Aug 18, 2013 at 11:53 PM UTC
antithesis
If you only knew, I'd stare in the mirror Then stare a bit harder "I look fine, don't worry" those words were my armor. Because when im alone, Its just me. No one around To call me ugly. But kids are cruel, I thought to myself And in my situation I was left on the shelf. Hate shows acknowledgment, and i was not hated. They were okay to my face, But i was being tolerated. Being shown pity made me confused. What did they see? Was it my hair or my shoes? I looked in the mirror, Again i looked "fine" But then another thought Crossed through my mind. "Maybe they see, Something else? Maybe I'm not supposed, To like my self?" This started it all, Now I saw me. With the mirror upside down, Came the negativity. I would look at myself, With confusion and disgust. I would curse at the world That I would no longer trust. I would sit on the floor. Until I'm blue in the face From fighting my demons That I could not erase. Gelatinous bulges, Consumed my body, Restricting my looks,m my hidden personality. I felt embarrassed, I felt felt upset. I would start to scream, I was filled with regret. Id pray every night For a little change, And that my future would not Forever stay the same. And those prayers were answered, But it took years to recover, So much pain and hurt, That no one would uncover. So i was broken, And now released from the cult, I can express myself, And take some control. Those years are gone, But i still hurt. I have to look back in time, So see I'm no longer "her". So when they are confused, Why im a little defensive, I will direct them to this poem, To see my perspective. But these is just words, Strung in a pattern, The hell that Iwent through, Doesn't really matter. Because the words are past tense, And others are suffering, And its not those who post it, On social networking. Its the quiet girl, You won't expect Because she wants to look normal, Not perfect.
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Apr 30, 2014
Apr 30, 2014 at 11:37 PM UTC
What it is to be Insecure.
If you only knew, I'd stare in the mirror Then stare a bit harder "I look fine, don't worry" those words were my armor. Because when im alone, Its just me. No one around To call me ugly. But kids are cruel, I thought to myself And in my situation I was left on the shelf. Hate shows acknowledgment, and i was not hated. They were okay to my face, But i was being tolerated. Being shown pity made me confused. What did they see? Was it my hair or my shoes? I looked in the mirror, Again i looked "fine" But then another thought Crossed through my mind. "Maybe they see, Something else? Maybe I'm not supposed, To like my self?" This started it all, Now I saw me. With the mirror upside down, Came the negativity. I would look at myself, With confusion and disgust. I would curse at the world That I would no longer trust. I would sit on the floor. Until I'm blue in the face From fighting my demons That I could not erase. Gelatinous bulges, Consumed my body, Restricting my looks,m my hidden personality. I felt embarrassed, I felt felt upset. I would start to scream, I was filled with regret. Id pray every night For a little change, And that my future would not Forever stay the same. And those prayers were answered, But it took years to recover, So much pain and hurt, That no one would uncover. So i was broken, And now released from the cult, I can express myself, And take some control. Those years are gone, But i still hurt. I have to look back in time, So see I'm no longer "her". So when they are confused, Why im a little defensive, I will direct them to this poem, To see my perspective. But these is just words, Strung in a pattern, The hell that Iwent through, Doesn't really matter. Because the words are past tense, And others are suffering, And its not those who post it, On social networking. Its the quiet girl, You won't expect Because she wants to look normal, Not perfect.
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Light steps sound from the basement stairs. A case of home brewed liquor in his father’s hands. Bizarre, cancerous bulges from cap to bottom. Plastic explosives from corrosive neglect from stow-away rooms in white neighborhoods. His father with a bronze idea, all of them with a destructive mind A twenty-two saloon rifle bottled up too, like a maniac gone off his reds and blues, ready to fire out with remorseless recoil. High octane, high explosive, high art. Cartridge clicks into the chamber. Son like father, his aim is true. Like twelve year olds with cherry bombs we blast a hole right through. ******* boom! Rancid swill rain staining the biting bright snow
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Jan 9, 2014
Jan 9, 2014 at 12:42 AM UTC
Bronze, Lead & Copper
I'm not religious. I'm not even spiritual. I'm just a cold, soft Vulcan. The system of the down has isolated me here to think, which is what a Vulcan does all the time. It's really pointless. It is desert, hot and cold served in deprivation, meditation, and solitude. The system has been doing this for eons. It's called increasing systemic risk when stressed. I make a cognitive chunk for you to cogitate over coffee. Picture this. Wandering Boy Scouts (BS) in their pickup trucks, helpful, strong, vicious when aimless, efficiently cruel, mechanized abattoir makers mass pit diggers, merit badge takers. Smell the BS. It all goes into baking gooey brownie BS, repugnantly pungent, and redolent of sweet burning flesh. Stressed, the down system spits BS out randomly to nucleate, and procreate if possible. Breeding a new Brand, with Cult leader Classes and all the -isms. Visionaries with their caries; Pushers with agendas hidden; Leaders steadfast in conviction, taking a nation, against all odds, in Battling Bulges, ****** lines hidden within clean, pleated leather skirts that still reveal penciled seams up straight shaved bare legs. This is how the system shakes itself; auto ****** asphyxiation. Vulcan's never shake the bars of their cells because there's no barring except Great Walls forbidding, with a wink, killing each other. To be thy Greek brother's keeper, is to cut not that brother man, but the other brother man down with BS fervor and S&M; madness, before bondaging his wounds in mummified State, taped shut with a healing kiss. To have dominion over the animals means a bludgeoned pleasure, or transplanted desire. Dominion to exploit blunted, unconditional, emotional resources, until the system gels again, vaginally or astrolly whole.
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Aug 9, 2013
Aug 9, 2013 at 11:11 PM UTC
Vulcan system
I'm not religious. I'm not even spiritual. I'm just a cold, soft Vulcan. The system of the down has isolated me here to think, which is what a Vulcan does all the time. It's really pointless. It is desert, hot and cold served in deprivation, meditation, and solitude. The system has been doing this for eons. It's called increasing systemic risk when stressed. I make a cognitive chunk for you to cogitate over coffee. Picture this. Wandering Boy Scouts (BS) in their pickup trucks, helpful, strong, vicious when aimless, efficiently cruel, mechanized abattoir makers mass pit diggers, merit badge takers. Smell the BS. It all goes into baking gooey brownie BS, repugnantly pungent, and redolent of sweet burning flesh. Stressed, the down system spits BS out randomly to nucleate, and procreate if possible. Breeding a new Brand, with Cult leader Classes and all the -isms. Visionaries with their caries; Pushers with agendas hidden; Leaders steadfast in conviction, taking a nation, against all odds, in Battling Bulges, ****** lines hidden within clean, pleated leather skirts that still reveal penciled seams up straight shaved bare legs. This is how the system shakes itself; auto ****** asphyxiation. Vulcan's never shake the bars of their cells because there's no barring except Great Walls forbidding, with a wink, killing each other. To be thy Greek brother's keeper, is to cut not that brother man, but the other brother man down with BS fervor and S&M; madness, before bondaging his wounds in mummified State, taped shut with a healing kiss. To have dominion over the animals means a bludgeoned pleasure, or transplanted desire. Dominion to exploit blunted, unconditional, emotional resources, until the system gels again, vaginally or astrolly whole.
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They must not hear of things that have gone on, under this roof, during these hours, they would scream at the top of their lungs, You do not want to know, pressing intentions why his waist bulges over his belt, why his face is so red, a murky sky, eyes slits in ebony stone. she is gone, someone must know why, others are left to guess and to gossip, hens clucking, you must not know, what they whisper with thickened tongues, There is a kind of pride, in being the one that sees and knows, nervous, menaced by petty stimulants, Events become like a sepsis, webbed, sickness multiplying, years kind pass like temporary paralysis, fear is  a currency, sometimes.
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Oct 17, 2018
Oct 17, 2018 at 11:28 AM UTC
Anxious worker 2
A leviathan i'm beneath my skin:swimming bulges veiny skeleton rippling dusted morsels of muscular innovations infinite minute orbs bustling scarlet oxygen my limbs w,Re'tHe my copper hugeness i'm so tiny, in your heat, innumerable witless drips of sweaty hours drawn long nights groaning in your skinny monument i'm hip and teeths and fist and gnashing thigh purple delicate spiderweb of bloodshot moans hey VENUS and cupid a cushion for his pins in your nudeness. i'm skin just crumbling to your fingers in the finite naked cells of your palm i love you darling
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Sep 6, 2010
Sep 6, 2010 at 1:38 PM UTC
A leviathan
I buy the cheapest cigarettes that I can find sometimes subsisting solely on my own fears too busy counting and alphabetizing all of my past traumas to get to work on time I’m too young to feel this old I’m tired of being so tired I’m still waiting for my life to start— I’m dreaming of a day that I can feel young— as young as these bones that creak under me and this flesh that bulges and sags as young as these eyes that do nothing but stretch and dilate I’m always so afraid but I don’t see ghosts anymore it’s trite to say that what I fear is myself but I know, I know how evil I can be and I’m afraid of everything how do I keep going under the weight of myself? why do I try when all I do is waste so rapidly away?
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Mar 8, 2017
Mar 8, 2017 at 1:52 AM UTC
marlboro 72s
There is a face That lingered So constantly Her name was Cindy I thought at first She wanted to help But now I see That she hates me ‘Purge it!’ She screamed Standing over me I obeyed Since it was all I was capable of She told me She loved me When I looked In the mirror She revealed My hideous flabs Bulges and bumps And was encouraging When I tried To banish them But then After a time I realized That face In the mirror Was only me.
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Nov 16, 2010
Nov 16, 2010 at 12:36 PM UTC
Cindy
We are a subway. We ride encroaching on our own spaces. We bundle and fold each other into outer significant dimensions. Our arms harden to tree trunks while our blood begs to flow freely under the elevated pressure, grounding our Earthly existence. This track beats on without destination, regardless of bumps and bulges in the pathways, our starting point forgotten light years before. We try sharpening the images melting under this velocity, and our eyes flicker back and forth attempting to follow these quickening pictures. But we ride on, crushed by the pressures of the Earth, decaying the love we housed in storage, now rationed up our stabilizing arms, holding us averagely comfortable in this close proximity.
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Jan 29, 2015
Jan 29, 2015 at 2:26 PM UTC
A Trip Through a Wormhole in a Subway
While not everybody naps Simply everybody craps. If you don’t you’re a goner I swear by my honor There’s no substitute for it So just get used to it. It’s like boogers, you see It’s not talked of openly. The public has an allergy Of what can be said honestly. You can admit to burping But must do so excusing As if you had taken a dump Instead of expelling a lump Of non-poisonous gas. Society is a *** And while we’re at it We live in a world here Where ******* are reshaped And formed by a brassiere But no crotch bulges for men Especially not big shaped ones. As I have already implied Society is a mean son-of-a-gun. Breastfeeding an infant is Seen as some kind of **** But under-aged girls in bikinis? That is why men were born. They were put on earth to see And love nature and its gifts. But women in public should Not show uncovered **** Just remember this and You will do very well. Being natural is for sure The best way to go to hell. You must always look to The bluenosed of society To shape your fine sense Of decency and propriety. A natural person, as God made Is surely just the Devil’s work. Because the Devil is more Important that that God **** God and Santa make lists And punish us by and bye But Satan does it right now And then spits in your eye. So, be the proper citizen And don’t do what is natural. Following on nature’s bent Will do you no good at all. Even though the Bible won’t Agree to this simple plan Just look around you to learn What is in society’s plan.
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Jun 7, 2015
Jun 7, 2015 at 9:42 PM UTC
NATURE IS A MOTHER
While not everybody naps Simply everybody craps. If you don’t you’re a goner I swear by my honor There’s no substitute for it So just get used to it. It’s like boogers, you see It’s not talked of openly. The public has an allergy Of what can be said honestly. You can admit to burping But must do so excusing As if you had taken a dump Instead of expelling a lump Of non-poisonous gas. Society is a *** And while we’re at it We live in a world here Where ******* are reshaped And formed by a brassiere But no crotch bulges for men Especially not big shaped ones. As I have already implied Society is a mean son-of-a-gun. Breastfeeding an infant is Seen as some kind of **** But under-aged girls in bikinis? That is why men were born. They were put on earth to see And love nature and its gifts. But women in public should Not show uncovered **** Just remember this and You will do very well. Being natural is for sure The best way to go to hell. You must always look to The bluenosed of society To shape your fine sense Of decency and propriety. A natural person, as God made Is surely just the Devil’s work. Because the Devil is more Important that that God **** God and Santa make lists And punish us by and bye But Satan does it right now And then spits in your eye. So, be the proper citizen And don’t do what is natural. Following on nature’s bent Will do you no good at all. Even though the Bible won’t Agree to this simple plan Just look around you to learn What is in society’s plan.
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There is a Soldier I know Her short cadence with military precision is always careful At every bridge she breaks step to avoid foolish oscillations a peeking midriff jog pounding shoes on asphalt pavement hard could these send infatuated hopes to destructive swing Who knows what chasm fantasized are crossed Who knows what war wages and what broken battle of bulges lost Why burn another Leader ego living in some Downfall Bunker There is a Soldier I know Her short cadence in boots bare run faster than legged strut Every night she comes through a backroom window protected by a silver Spoon at best and every morning she survives as golden tongue poetry written on our wired cages There is a Soldier I know Her name is Eden and her hands are hot with Dante's inferno Her adolescent face is cool and on each ear a ring of Blue Herons Every day her short cadence brings rouge life to our clay complexion and every night her milky whey lips wonder lost in our King Lear kabuki song
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Jan 14, 2018
Jan 14, 2018 at 12:11 PM UTC
The Cadence of She
Spaceships flying eternally, beauty lost within our sleep's breadth. Never room, out in to night. With you, machine glow diving Searchlights clean the monsters. This is a light shower. Man is kind, mankind. Indigo stained glass cathedral dreamscape, lovely. The girl is trembling by your side what we should not know calmness asked by those whose light shines beyond the cold dark rocks, deeper still, bells toll underwater, asking, begging Mastodons in the distance? Year zero. Year zilch. Yearly the funds caress my alpine ******* as the budget increases. We dream of drains and hairy ones at that. Massive ketamine high bulges footsteps in the distance.
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Jul 22, 2013
Jul 22, 2013 at 1:59 AM UTC
whatever you want