"bridgers" poems
Deleting old pictures,
Scraping the bones
From memories that sting
When we were happy and didn't know
That your feelings would change
Like a switch to a light
Like the seasons, or seconds
Like day to night
And I wanted to hold on,
but I knew it when you chose flight
Now I'm looking at my walls
Deciding what to do next
How can I move on, when you were the best?
Your mind always wooed me, despite your chaotic and dark eyes
You were Hades to my Persephone
But you won't be back this winter's time
Now 'Motion sickness' by Phoebe Bridgers
Is playing on repeat
The lyrics are heaven
When my heart is taking Hell's heat
I'm healing from this whiplash,
What the hell happened?
It was a waiting car wreck
And I carelessly kept my seatbelt unfastened
But Phoebe is keeping me company
And her music is like a drug
Distracting me from my enemies
And keeping my heart numb
I just thought you were the one.
Dec 23, 2019
Dec 23, 2019 at 2:56 PM UTC
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Aug 31, 2021
Aug 31, 2021 at 11:46 AM UTC
6 years old
loves barbies
plays outside
learning to ride a bike
shes getting taller
9 years old
loves chapstick flavors
walks outside
rides her bike everywhere
she is the tallest in her class
14 years old
loves mascara
runs outside to burn off the cupcake
bike sits alone
she is the biggest in her class
16 years old
loves black
runs lines down her arms, she doesnt see the sun
she drives around for hours thinking about everything but nothing
she is shrinking
18 years old
loves loneliness
runs and runs and runs from herself
she drives around hoping that she will be strong enough to make it home
she is breaking
slowly
20 years old
loves skipping meals
goes running until she feels like she's going to pass out, then runs another mile
she drives around thinking about her suicide attempt and thinks about heading home
she doesn't even know if home is a place or a feeling or if its real
lines going up her thigh now because she found out that wrists make people worry
23 years old
loves medicine and **** and alcohol
goes running and then to work and then tries to sleep but never can
so she turns on phoebe bridgers and goes on a drive at 3am
she decided that home was a place on her childhood roof looking at the stars but her parents sold the house
she got a tattoo instead of making her own scars because if she’s going to be in pain anyways someone might as well make art out of it-
but she found the tattoo didn’t hurt her at all so the grid on her thigh came back anyways.
people don't understand
the process of self destruction
it started a long time ago
and it will never end
until she does.
Oct 12, 2021
Oct 12, 2021 at 2:10 AM UTC