Frre from the stress that has you depressed.
Free from the distraction that keeps you disconnected.
Similar to those held down.
Once freedom is achieved.
Your whole world feels turned around.

Unlike the emancipation proclaimation.
Which was just a signed symbolic act.
You afraid to move willingly.
Until your proposal is met.

Not afraid of reprisal from your enemies.
Because your freedom was achieved by your own reasonings.
Others lives according to fear.
But you convinced with truth that in some ways you're not affected.

The Emancipation Proclaimation passage.
Has beeen everlasting concerning freedom for some.
While others were held in *******.

To be free.
Means you move according to your rules.
As long as the decisions affects only you.
Not one to be hunted because others refuses to accepts truth.

Sometime i cry, cry because im in this long confusing process of trying to figure out who i am and what i wanna do with my life.

I cry because im constantly putting myself down

I cry because my mom does it ten times more than me

I cry because i feel like im not good enough for anyone

i cry because i just wantt to be the reason for my moms smile even though shes the reason for my tears.

I cry because ive beeen obsessed with popularity, and being accepted because i some how feel it will substitute for the love i dont get from my mom

I cry because i want to come home once in my life and be welcomed with a hug and kiss

I cry because i swear no one understands

I cry because i try to be stong, but i feel so weak, ugly, worthless bcuz thts what im told on a daily basis by the one who gave me life.

I cry because i feel so broken and empty inside.

I cry because i try to comfort myself; i say 'things could be worse' but i only cry more because the thought of someone going through something worse than what i am breaks my heart. i just wish i could take away everyone's pain. tell everyone their beautiful in their own way and to never let anyone tell them different. tell them what I need to hear,

I cry, I cry for those people...

I love it
When you
Kiss me
And everyone
Is watching
Because your
Not afraid
To be seen
With me.

                                                            ­                                                                 ­                                                   I love it when you hug me
                                                              ­                                                                 ­                                                 Like it's beeen years
                                                           ­                                                                 ­                                                    Since you've seen me
                                                              ­                                                                 ­                                                 So warm and wrapped tight.





I love it
When you
Tell me you love me
Because
I feel the vulnerbility in you
As well as myself
And when I reply
You almost always
Hug me
And then kiss me.

                                                            ­                                          
                                                                ­                                   I simply cannot determine
                                                       ­                                            What it is that I love more
                                                            ­                                         The way you hold me
                                                              ­                                        The way you kiss me
                                                              ­                                        The way you love me
                                                              ­                                         But it's okay because
                                                         ­                                              At the end of the day
                                                             ­                                               I love it all.

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Well to start my names Chloe Elizabethh Williams. I'm 14.. I live in Kansas. I'm an emotional person and don't like very many people. I get upset easily. I only have like 2 friends... One if them is my best friend Savanna. She's been there through it all.. I've beeen through a lot in a little amount of time. My birthday is December 4th.. I love sad quotes and sad music.. I don't like talking about my problems at all. I like keeping every feeling I have in my body and not sharing them. I already get judge about my weight and I don't need it about my problems... But yeaah. That's me!

For months I've beeen trying to write you.
To fold my emotions together like origami.
I'd make you a boat so that you can escape.

I'd bleed an ocean of ink from my pen.
Tides and waves, velvety rich and blue.
A grand sail of metaphores would carry you through an ocean of my desires, my ideals.

But, I realized that I was lost in translation.
My hands cant craft to catch your beauty.
I've lost myself in paper chains, a strength of love untold.

Your chains hit the bottom a year ago, they sway in stangnant waters.
Chain links made of memories Bob lifelessly in the water.
They stay around a centre point, gently knocking my shrivled skin.
A blank face drowning in the inky sea, I'll stay to an anchor what was.
With time these memories will bury me.

THE PAST IS THE PAST FOR A REASON

THAT IS WHERE IT IS SUPPOSE TO  STAY

BUT SOME CANNOT LET IT GO

THEIR IT EATS AWAY



UNTIL ALL THEIR FOCUS BECOMES

THE PERSON THAT THEY USE TO BE

THE MISTAKE THEY MADE IN THEIR LIFE

OH! IF THEY COULD ONLY SEE



THAT YOU CANNOT CHANGE WHAT HAPPENED

NO MATTER HOW HARD YOU TRY

NO MATTER HOW HARD YOU THINK ABOUT IT

NO MATTER HOW MUCH YOU CRY



WHAT HAPPENS IN YOUR LIFETIME

HAPPENS FOR REASONS UNKNOWN

SO YOU HAVE TO LET THE CARDS UNFOLD

LET YOUR STORY BE SHOWN



CAUSE THE PAST IS THE PAST FOR A REASONS

IT'S BEEEN,AND NOW IT IS GONE

SO STOP TRYING TO THINK OF WAYS 2 FIX IT.

I want to help you through all the pain you have beeen through,
To stop all of your flashbacks and nightmares.
But I'm not sure if I will be able to be your solution,
I will try with everything that I am to help you as much as I can.
I'm here for you day or night, my door will always be open,
Just always know I am here for you and always will be.
I'm not sure that I can help you find the closure you so greatly need to heal,
And I am so very sorry for my failure as a friend if I cannot help with what you need most.
I can only do so much to help you and I know that isn't enough,
I'm sorry I can't do more for you but to only be here for you as a friend.