I miss having my children around,
Is It Too Much To Ask.
I miss my grandchildren,
Is It Too Much To Ask.
I want my family back,
Is It Too Much To Ask.
I want to have friends again,
Is It Too Much To Ask.
I want to be able to do things,
Is It Too Much To Ask.
I just want my life back,
Is It Too Much To Ask.
Dec 14, 2022
Dec 14, 2022 at 3:04 AM UTC
Just a Failure with everything,
Failed with being a good daughter,
Failure with being a mother,
Failed all my children,
Failure as a grandmother,
Failing my grandchildren,
Failure as a girlfriend/wife,
Failure as a friend,
Nothing but a Failure,
Just a waste of space,
Wasting everyone's time,
Just a Big Failure in life,
Just a Failure.
Apr 15, 2021
Apr 15, 2021 at 3:25 PM UTC
She felt beat down, wore out.
She felt broken inside.
Tired of the pain she felt, tired of crying.
She felt useless and worthless.
She couldn't do anything right.
She hated everything about herself, she felt alone and unwanted.
Why does no one love her, why does she have to feel so sad, unloved and unhappy.
Nov 16, 2020
Nov 16, 2020 at 3:27 AM UTC
I thought we were finally going to have our chance at happiness,
That we didn't get to have before.
But like a snap of a finger it was gone and I only have myself to blame,
I was blind and stupid to not see what I had.
Now I have lost you and my heart aches,
Wishing I could turn back time and redo what I didn't do or say before.
I am just a **** up, broken and damaged. A lost soul longing for the love I thought I could've had with you.
Now I see why I deserve to be alone, I destroy everything I touch.
Run...
Run as far and as fast as you can away from me, before I **** up your life.
You are better off without somebody like me, you want to help me but there is no helping somebody like me.
**** My Life...
Jul 1, 2020
Jul 1, 2020 at 2:29 AM UTC
I hesitate because I'm afraid,
Afraid of loving you.
I hesitate because of love,
Love I may never know with you.
I hesitate because of pain,
Pain I don't want to feel again.
I hesitate because of heartache,
Heartache I can't bare to take.
I hesitate because of fear,
Fear of having it all then losing it.
I hesitate because I love you,
I believe you may be my soulmate.
I hesitate...
Jun 25, 2020
Jun 25, 2020 at 4:07 AM UTC
It hurts to know we never had the chance to be happy.
It hurts to see you with another, knowing that I love you.
It hurts to think that we could've tried, but I was too afraid.
Knowing we would always have the same people trying to destroy us.
It hurts to know you don't love me the way I now know that I love you.
It hurts too much to see you and know that we can never be, now that you are with another.
Knowing that you love her and not me.
It hurts to know that we can only be friends and nothing more.
It hurts so much, that we will never have the chance again because I was too blind to see what we could've had.
Knowing you are still in my life, if it is only as just a friend is better than not having you in my life at all.
It hurts to know the pain and heartache I feel, but I will hopefully get over it in time.
Jun 17, 2020
Jun 17, 2020 at 1:39 PM UTC
I Hate everything about myself
I Hate that I'm not a good mother
I Hate that I'm not a good grandma
I Hate that I'm not a good girlfriend
I Hate that I'm not a good friend
I Hate that I'm not a good lover
I Hate that I'm not a good sister
I Hate that I'm not good at anything
I Hate that I wasn't a good daughter
I Hate my life and myself
I Hate me!!
Aug 4, 2019
Aug 4, 2019 at 11:09 AM UTC
Why do you stay?
Are you just using me for a place to stay, until somebody new comes along?
Why do you stay?
Is it because you see me as someone who is pathetic and won't say anything?
Why do you stay?
Is it because you have no place else to go?
Why do you stay?
I know it's not because you love me.
Why do you stay?
When you are not happy with me.
Why do you stay?
I have told you numerous times that I am not the right woman for you and to find someone who will give you all your wants and needs.
Please answer me, why do you stay?
Aug 4, 2019
Aug 4, 2019 at 10:40 AM UTC
Guilting me, Making me feel like I wronged you.
Guiting me, Making me feel like I'm not suppose to be happy.
Guilting me, Making me think you deserve happiness and not I.
Guilting me, Making me feel like the piece of **** that I am.
Guilting me, Making me out to be the bad guy even now.
Guilting me, Making me think it's fine for you to be happy with another but not I.
Guilting me, Making me feel undeserving of anything.
Guilting me...
Jun 23, 2019
Jun 23, 2019 at 11:18 AM UTC
I should really be fearing myself, I am my own poison, my own prison cell.
My mind takes over, I start thinking and then only begin to think the worst. I am a very emotional and sensitive person and take a lot to heart. I have depressed myself, I fought back tears and the ones I couldn't fell like rain today.
May 30, 2019
May 30, 2019 at 9:31 PM UTC