"antibodies" poems
Emerging economies.
What they’re emerging from I don’t know.
My guess, the depths of hell.
From the frying pan, right into the fire, or worse; a well.
A deep hole stronger than gravity, the force.
To be forever under the thumb of remorse.
A modern era of endless acts, policies and bla bla bla.
Shut up with all your platitudes.
I see what’s really going on. Aha!
You speak of sustainable development.
Nice to know that you’ve led by example.
Carried the mantle for all these years.
Centuries of ruthlessness, now veiled in sheep’s clothing.
But you won’t shut up. Because you don’t speak.
You never have. You just do.
Each day that goes by, you carry on anew.
Behind all the talk of hope, equality and more progress,
it seems the wolves are lurking.
Cooking up the next tool to subdue countless.
This time, not behind closed doors. But in plain sight.
It’s scary to imagine such spite.
Each year that goes by it becomes clearer that you never cared.
You sold guns, drugs and all kinds of war.
And each time, you kept coming back for more.
You’ve built up antibodies that ensure your survival.
But sometimes I wonder if you’re alive at all.
But what do I know?
Maybe you’re more alive than ever.
Doing what you do best but always more clever.
That not even the most stable of geniuses can evade your pressure.
A strong enough foundation that each break makes you stronger,
So strong that not even the Gremlin can take you under.
Against this dreary background, foregrounded is nothing short of magical.
Beyond hope, prayers or a thoughtless radical.
Or maybe this is all just fake outrage.
An attempt to evade the boredom of this endless monotony and baggage.
Or maybe, the term is out of date.
Like every other, that makes me increasingly more irate.
In which case, this poem is at least ten years late.
Or maybe there are too many maybes’.
And I’m perfectly suited for this time of vague uneasiness and indifference.
In which case, my imagination probably needs more sociology and less a lesson in rhymes.
Oct 14, 2018
Oct 14, 2018 at 1:44 PM UTC
When Ebola’s fever begins to rage,
The prognosis isn’t nice,
Monoclonal antibodies
are needed from three mice.
The mice must first become exposed
to a weakened viral strain.
Their antibodies harvested
and combined with those of man.
Strangely the proteins that we need
are grown best in a ****
A modified tobacco plant
will do the job indeed.
The serum, that derives from plants,
had not had human trials.
(but eight of ten young chimpanzees
endorse what’s in that vial.)
Our missionaries, sick unto death
were clearly in no position
to refuse to try the medicine
that might provide remission.
Their rebound was miraculous.
To Atlanta now they fly.
Man finds himself in debt to a mouse.
“Good job, little guy!”
Aug 6, 2014
Aug 6, 2014 at 8:44 AM UTC
Flood myself with
poison
my blood with
love, alcohol,
what ever drugs they give me.
Produce antibodies,
fall asleep. Awaken; groan.
Roll over, smell you.
Don't ever leave me.
Two hours later,
flood my bed with
sighs, smell your
smell, try
not to care
then cry.
Sep 24, 2013
Sep 24, 2013 at 5:38 PM UTC
perpetuated indifference
freedom and fleas
cats in the trees
loving the grass and twigs
between my knees
and toes
and fragments
in my hair
my clothes
and on a day such as forever
I spoke to another
terribly,
not so good at words
with others
who say words back,
pretty little polka dotted
circles and nonsense
like who are you kidding?
Individuality is not a crime
though faking it is,
as if being unique is even unique
but another copy
of another
a thought already thought
shush up
kiss like a real person
not a slobbery
monstrous
adolescent,
but like a man who knows
or at least cares,
but not about the earth crusts on my skin
or the air in my finger nails
it's all me
and if they can't like it
can't love it
in any way
that can be considered love
or positive
in any form or shape or sound or purpose
then forget
to forget
because sometimes
one is ****** up
and enjoys
a little game
of brain bashing insecurity,
until that day when one becomes self-actualized
(oh please)
and then real forget and freedom may happen.
How boring.
Sep 11, 2012
Sep 11, 2012 at 8:54 PM UTC
Lamentation; infelicity through neurotransmitters
Passing fleetly; swift but disturbed
Grids of brainwaves for the degraded
Overhead LED view is negroided
Chapter 1 Migraines;
A klaxon that grains into migraine
From there on out, strolling convulsion lane
Deriving from deception; antibodies start to lead loosely
Throe after throe I choose not to fuss
Laceration in hemikrania is conversing with the rest of my body,
Frequent as days turn nightly
I host the severe megrimly
Chapter 2 Vomiting;
A horendous bile builds up in my throat
Moaning like a ghoul; I banish the gloats
Disgorging from nothing, Heaving and heaving the dry
Although I force myself not, all the nosh turns into emit rye
Vital fluid very crimson soon came
From the cranium, I dislose, head pain
Frequent as the waves harsh blows
I host a ***** hose
Chapter 3 Tumor;
A neoplasm underneath I've found out
Unvisible but there; my flesh will start swelling undoubt
Below I feel like a mutant
All putant and disformed
Like globular liquids dripping from sewage waste
As long as I can still haste
Crescendo and surge won't ado
Frequent as traffic builds a rush hour
I host a cyst that is sour
Chapter 4 Deaf;
An absense of all frequencies
I daze everso daily;
Feeling like an earless statue; sound unaccompanied
Missing the wind's howls that ululate,
Clamors and bellows that spoliate
I can't sight the same verbiage
Without sonancy to inflicit, I see one big mirage
Frequent as birth enfolds
I host a soundless toll
Chapter 5 Brain Cancer;
A malignant fate told today
Disease spreading like a machine,
Programmed to enquire all it knows
A gruesome and hateful dose;
Withering casually away
Grown apart of, I'm the prey
As we hunt the beasts'
An invisible naked eye is poaching
Frequent as a house infested
I host a cancerous clothing
Chapter 6 Death;
A termination soon to unfold
I am as finished and ruined as story told
Biological function ending
Senescence through spending
User maat I haven't seen all wanted
Alas I am greatful for what has been daunted
Frequent as a death anew
I host a dissolution
My evolution; through.
Nov 24, 2010
Nov 24, 2010 at 7:09 AM UTC
The poster girl of well-thumbed submission,
The American Nurses Association,
A narrow mouthed river in Oregon,
Charles Howard Hinton’s fourth dimension,
A track from Pixies Bossanova,
Antibodies,
Anorexia Nervosa.
Dec 29, 2013
Dec 29, 2013 at 7:30 PM UTC
I lived a childhood of dirt:
my beginning and end, my friend, my
frontier. Dirt was the reason why
when other kids were always sick, my antibodies
made me a demigoddess, a mud-pie,
sand-cookie, dirt gourmet
crunching lightly-rinsed carrots wiggled
straight from the ground.
It never hurt, never hurt at all.
Warm dirt under my knees and hands,
my nails blackened, feet buried like I
could root myself in the soil -- I was lettuce
with dirt at the center of each lacy skirt.
Horseradish, deep in the ground and bitter,
wanting to become something sweeter, a new
tree or rosebush or better yet a veggie,
like the wild dirt-skinned potatoes
I dug up in the yard.
But tubers don’t have moms who give
***** looks and shake their heads,
examine your hair and your nails.
She sighs at the dark stain of your
feet, and banishes you
to a white tub, where she scrubs
the back of your neck, muttering
“Dirt, dirt, dirt,” as if
she doesn’t know what you are made of.
So give me the dirt, because I know my onions.
Always digging for gossip, flipping up
the neighborhood skirt, curious whispers
the way cornstalks share their childhood
tales before being tilled down,
becoming rich, dark dirt.
Ashes to ashes, I recognize some
for what they are, just fertilizer
for the imaginations and vibrations of others.
I may be half dirt but don’t
treat me like it, full of grit and
covered in sand from my hands to
my elbows. But what I am won’t
put up with your ******** Dirt is
a mother, to feed and flourish, dirt
is a woman much like me, and you
will never know the dirt under my
fingernails the same way I do.
May 24, 2013
May 24, 2013 at 1:57 AM UTC
There's a dusty book on an old chestnut bookshelf,
'Love' scrawled across the spine in golden letters.
Everyone has read it's secrets and taken them to heart.
Everyone has tasted it's nectar and gotten drunk on its words.
Everyone has prayed to its truths.
Everyone has promised to abide.
Verse I: She will love him.
Verse II: He will love her.
She-him, he-her.
These pronouns are tattooed in my eye lids.
These pronouns course through my veins.
These pronouns are stuck in my throat.
I'm choking on a normality I've been force fed,
my insides burning with society's expectations.
As I prayed every night for the man of my dreams.
As I confessed ever boy I had ever kissed.
As I looked at him and felt nothing.
As I looked at her and felt everything.
My fingers skimmed the pages of society's bible,
the pages slicing apart my fingers and leaving blood in the margins.
When my friends placed the rosary around their hands,
and I placed my hands in hers.
When I looked into the words being taken so blindly,
and my body created antibodies for every lie I had contracted.
And I stared into the verses, washing them away with angry tears.
And I threw the book into the fire, watching as the flames made their final edits.
And I looked into her eyes, and I tasted her lips.
And I let everything about her become everything I know.
I ignored the teachings I had once treasured and wrote a book for myself.
I learned to be unfaithful, and put my faith in her.
Aug 1, 2015
Aug 1, 2015 at 11:41 PM UTC
The beat, the snare, the drum
Starting in at the floor and flying to my brain
**** all the people who say I’m numb
I’m sane, oh so sane!
My thinking, once a cloudy, congested, coagulate of incoherent thoughts,
Now flows free from its once catastrophically, closed chasm,
Bringing fourth meaningless, mindless motions and movements,
Showing all, that you are who you are, don’t be afraid to fall.
As the smoke clears, the crystallized casts of crushing vocals
Radiate to my ears; all we hear is the hate, the hassle, the hustle
The bustle. Look beyond what has spawned to see what you find fond.
Blinded we remain; we fight, frightened and furious against this foe.
Conformity hinders our ability to show individuality. They attack us
With ambidexterity to keep us statues of our own subconscious design,
Yet we continue to follow these wrongly deified prodigies. They’re using
Us as antibodies to cleanse what are others conformities.
Enlightened I will stay to ensure Elysium for my fellow enthusiasts.
Free from these prodigies, my persistence will not fade
To grey, black, white, withered, wretched wasted thoughts.
My mind is free, my soul deep, this music is the up-beat.
Feb 11, 2010
Feb 11, 2010 at 5:03 AM UTC
When last did you relish in your sadness.
I mean felt it, till it consumed you.
Used you, ruled you.
I mean you let it take control
and you bathed in it.
You realised it then
The uncontrollable wave of happiness that followed.
Like a flurry of antibodies fighting,
fighting your self inflicted illness.
Moved you from stillness.
People keep themselves distracted,
they never really fully indulge in either.
But what is life without indulgences.
What is life without the extremes.
What is life if its always imbetween. Life.
Nov 25, 2013
Nov 25, 2013 at 2:04 PM UTC
I guess what I'm trying to say, is I want to take a bite out of your soul like an apple.
want to leave a bite mark in who you are,
to give my antibodies to help fight infection,
build a scab over the tooth mark
want to regrow
slightly darker scar tissue over the bite mark I left there.
Leaving a little island on the orb.
I guess what I'm saying is
I want to mechanically be a part of you
want to digest who you are to help fight diseases in my body.
wanna take you like a vitamin
wake up every morning to take my daily dose
like a nice clean bite out of an Apple.
Wispy Orb of you. your essence
then stick it right back in your chest.
with a tiny little tooth mark indent left by my bite.
ready to heal where I left it.
I want you to take a bite right outta my soul too,
want the nutrients of who we are to coarse through our bodies
repair the bite marks.
leave scars on us.
Dark little landmarks so we never forget the bite.
we both love kissing scars
so much that why wouldn't we want our own personal landmarks
i guess what I'm saying is, I'm allergic to apples.
but i'm not allergic to people.
If I run out of allergy pills and vitamins
I might as well get my daily dose of happiness.
i'll be ****** if you aren't my prescribed dose of happiness
no doctor handed me papers or charged me a fee
i don't have an insurance plan to help me pay for you.
but at least I can't run out
so i don't need to worry about faxing my doctor to renew my pharmacy pickup
I guess what I'm trying to say is
if my personality was an apple I would be allergic too it, but I'd let you take a bite.
I guess what I'm trying to say is:
I already have a scar for you, and you already kiss it.
Dec 6, 2015
Dec 6, 2015 at 12:43 AM UTC
If you were water
I would mix salts, antibodies, and lysosomes into you
and put you into my tear ducts
so that whenever I cry,
you'll know it's always thanks to you.
Apr 12, 2014
Apr 12, 2014 at 12:51 AM UTC
I have been craving that which I know will make me sick.
Already,
The mere thought has my stomach roiling,
Insides twisting in displeasure,
Heart pounding out its discomfort,
Head aching in protest;
My fever keeps climbing
But I can't take a hint,
For it seems there's no proper immune response
For desire,
No thorough little antibodies to drive the thought away,
Just a full body reaction,
A rebellion of the senses,
Near anaphylaxis;
It would seem that I'm allergic to you.
But Benadryl and epinephrine are of no use to me
Since it's this wanting that's the problem,
Stumbling over myself just to see you smile,
All the while tying my intestines into impossible knots.
I know that you're no good for me,
But like a dizzy, desperate ******
I can't cut myself off,
Can't force myself to stop chasing you
Though you cause my airways to constrict.
Feb 1, 2011
Feb 1, 2011 at 6:49 PM UTC
Quiet, dawn, Covid.
Biggest accomplishment yesterday: buying toilet paper.
Thanking the young cashier for doing her job.
Feeling a little sick, wearing my mask and gloves,
Spring oblivious to the virus, an idiot like Millay said.
At least we’re not beheading each other—yet.
Symptoms mild so far. Today rest,
no long walk, no knee bends.
I think I’ve watched every possible movie and tv show
and nothing’s left that doesn’t bore me.
I could learn the calculus, chemistry or physics
but will I and what for?
Most poetry is chopped up prose. That’s harsh
but true. But that’s because most days
are prose or yesterday’s news. Win or lose
sumthins gonna getcha. Drug cartel assassin, the blues.
If not now, when? Some other Wednesday. Why wait?
I wish I had some wisdom to translate.
It’s living and helping others to live
that counts, I guess. Cast a cold eye and guess,
walk the extra mile, report from the besieged city, be wise or a ****
I hope to get the antibodies the easy way,
mild symptoms, no brush with death, don’t intubate.
An existential bessemer process, strange quark,
chances are I won’t be able to organize this day into an expressible state.
A daily exchange with nature’s enough
to alleviate my fear.
When I thanked the cashier
her smile was like the sun coming out from behind clouds
or the end of the pandemic, as if I had not wasted my life.
Sep 13, 2021
Sep 13, 2021 at 8:38 AM UTC
Little girl, stop shaking
Your wounds are not the kind that will heal in time
You have predator in your blood
And abuser in your skin
Your antibodies cannot save you
When your body wages war against itself
The **** it will not clot the way it is supposed to
As you grow older, the features come in
Your eyes look more and more
Like your Pop Pop's
Your face looks more and more
Like your father's
Your mouth tastes more and more
Like your older cousin's
After all, you would know
What his skin tastes like
You try to scrub it off
Causing the wound to reopen
Scrape the scab away
But you, beautiful girl
You are not your bloodline, your birthright
You are not destined to be angry and cold
Your sentence is not the dungeon
Is not death
Intelligent woman
You will hold in your hand the power of ten thousand men
You will wear the teeth from your ********* relative
Like pearls around your neck
You will paint your nails with the blood of your toxic family
Your past will not mute your scream
Your childhood will not filter your radiance
You, warrior, will rise up to be queen.
Jan 23, 2016
Jan 23, 2016 at 10:33 PM UTC
etchings are probably finer than carvings, i bet the latter are more country based, as in
rural. wood blocks made from twenty years .
he has done me a service, how to be happy . no need to buy and sell, we can look
and enjoy..
the wax came later, as did the currant slice. neither resisted, the cake one pound
ten pence.
i placed the white paper bag in the village recycling.
so very nice to me today too late, i have resigned. my self,
my work is honest.
i have turned it all upside down, and most of the crumbs are gone, with added blowings.
verb
verb: resist; 3rd person present: resists; past tense: resisted; past participle: resisted; gerund or present participle: resisting
1.
withstand the action or effect of.
“antibodies help us to resist infection”
noun
noun: resist; plural noun: resists
1.
a resistant substance applied as a coating to protect a surface during a process, for example to prevent dye or glaze adhering.
“new lithographic techniques require their own special resists”
sbm.
Mar 4, 2017
Mar 4, 2017 at 2:28 AM UTC
You are a virus absorbed through the eyes and ears
that attacks the soul. You are nothing more
than your own vaccine
and antibodies are rushing up to exterminate you.
Feb 17, 2014
Feb 17, 2014 at 10:58 PM UTC
I long to talk to a stranger and ask them:
"
Ever worry that,
in your blood there are antibodies
to make you nauseous towards
every.single.person.you.get.close.to?
That we are peering - naked, wet, shivering - into an unfathomable loneliness,
balancing on our toes,
inching, with our mistakes, ever closer to the most personal,
most frightening,
most loathsome loss
we will ever experience?
That you will never reveal yourself
Never be vulnerable
Never be loved or
love the one person with the
right size-of-wrench to fix you?
Your infernal heat, to guard against probing hands, will scatter any hope that the right hands might intrude, and you will die inside, trembling, small, at the thought you will REMAIN ALONE FOREVER.
"
And then, grin, and pause, and they walk away from the unthinkable phrase that describes...
All our bad or separate moments.
Mar 5, 2010
Mar 5, 2010 at 11:23 AM UTC
Two years in recovery;
Emotions disregarded.
While antibodies made homes
I created something new inside.
Have I forgotten how to feel?
Three years in secrecy;
I lived in ignorance
While whispers lie caught in webs
I discovered something new to hide.
Choosing nonentity.
A heart that is void.
Backwards living, Forward talking,
Influenced by all that is around
To grasp the idea of truth.
There is far more to all of this
Than memories, and words.
May 29, 2010
May 29, 2010 at 11:59 AM UTC
Started like a zygote
We got eyes, ears, nose and tongue
And food from mother
Which helped to form kidney, heart, liver and lung
And we create our own antibodies
Hair and eye brows starts growing
And we build our own immuno system
After nine months we are out
Observing things around us
Scanning each and every sound
And finally taking first bath
And recognizing our parents
Wonderful isn't it
May 8, 2014
May 8, 2014 at 9:53 AM UTC
she said:
*you are a man knowing cruel, knowing hard,
with strangest soft skin, a funny way of talking,
lick my face with your words so I’ll learn,
to be tough and tender too, this I want, wanted*
he replied:
**life gave me splinters, broken from rough edges,
left under my exterior to fester, blister, and scar,
life licked my face, taught me mean, and the words
that came with that, were sand papered on my skin**
she answered:
*I’m not blind, I can feel, smell your contradictories,
want your antibodies in my blood, survival skills,
to be what I am not, and keep too, what I’ve got, to
be infected and protected, knowing words defensive*
he listened:
**what you desire, is the health that comes after,
after what you don’t understand, until you’ve
loved, lost, been beaten down so that getting up is
miraculous, this unteachable, this licking by words**
she insisted:
*your arrhythmic rhymes, skinflint perspectives,
this is what I ask, what I need, what you can give,
what is in your possess, what you need to unburden,
making me better for making you lessened*
he wept:
and said nothing.
for nothing taught appreciating silence and that,
***was the beginning,
of what she wanted,
of what he did not,
of what he gives reluctantly***
8:16AM
Wed May 20
Isle of Mind
May 20, 2020
May 20, 2020 at 8:26 AM UTC
I’m not ready for the curtain call,
I’m not ready for the curtain to fall
You’re ready to go,
I’m not ready to let you,
So, I’m holding on to something I don’t know,
Might be wrong but I don’t know what else to do
I wish I could have been your antibodies,
I wish I could have been the author of your story,
I wish I could have been there to say I’m sorry,
I wish I could have been your antibodies
You’re ready to go it alone,
I’m not ready to let you,
Stone, I wish we were made of stone and bone,
My living dead interlude that never moves
I wish I could have been your antibodies,
I wish I could have been the author of your story,
I wish I could have been there to say I’m sorry,
I wish I could have been your antibodies
You danced naked,
In a front of a crowd of empty faces,
Wild and wasted,
But you danced,
And they faded,
You are who you want,
You are who you want us to want you to be,
But now you’re leaving me,
And I’m not ready,
I’m not ready for the curtain call,
I’m not ready for the curtain to fall
I wish I could have been your antibodies,
I wish I could have been the author of your story,
I wish I could have been there to say I’m sorry,
I wish I could have been your antibodies
I wish I could have been your antibodies, but I can’t and I’m so sorry
Jan 19, 2016
Jan 19, 2016 at 5:41 PM UTC
You make up my anatomy
You're the specks of color in the iris of my eyes
They remember the way your smile looked
Little microscopic pieces of you flow in my blood from when you were there before
You're the bruises I used to find in a quick glance that I didn't know were there.
Your scent is sewn in my brain and frequently makes spontaneous trips to my nose and causes me to grimace in nostalgia
But mostly pain;
You're the taste of blood in my mouth when I try to kiss someone else
You tasted that way when we last kissed.
You put your dagger in my heart when we were together and when you left
You took it with you, leaving the gaping hole that is always hurting
It's all that's left
I wish the tiny microfibers would grow and repear the tear to how it was before you
But it's too deep and still fresh even after two years,
And my antibodies aren't strong enough to rid you out of my system.
Sep 21, 2013
Sep 21, 2013 at 5:41 AM UTC
Hot dogs are know to eat apple sauce when uninvited apostrophies invade their canoes. The barking can be heard for centuries
Several flying arbitrary algebra sharks scrape the bleeding jelly fish from the skies leaving only dead eyes and caramel drops
This obviously leads to omnipotent marshmellows adorning the french quarter in sandwich bages
Untied shoes always lead to this sort of indulgance. You know what i mean?
So in closing
Rewire your scathing antibodies before the devil unleashes his pink flamingos
Corn flakes won't be on sale forever
Jul 29, 2015
Jul 29, 2015 at 1:42 PM UTC