"ambitionless" poems
I am swimming in my coffin,
A plush cage of silk and satin.
Hollow housing what's gone rotten
Cold vacuum of the forgotten.
Backfired plan, ran from a quagmire.
"Departure" from unquenched desire.
A notionless naivetty,
Breeds ambitionless apathy.
I'm placid, pallid, on the floor,
In yearning dreams from days of yore.
An idyllic end depicted,
To deep rooted pain inflicted.
Yet...
Curtains' fall is ill-begotten,
By memory I am sought in,
A cacophony, my casket.
No sanity can outlast it.
Mar 23, 2010
Mar 23, 2010 at 7:23 PM UTC
" you’re a walking expression" he said confidently, his head tilted on it’s axis, gazing downward into the wine that he swirled so violently. i felt a little empty. he was handsome. i could see the winged tips of his ribcage protrude toward me whenever he stretched or adjusted his posture. "lately i feel like i’m always having miscarriages with my creativity." i said, my eyes transfixed on the miniture hurricane of burgundy. "like i’m there, everything is correct and pure and plentiful- and then it just kinda crumbles halfheartedly back into chemistry". i never say things like this. he nodded wistfully. i couldn’t tell if it was forced or not. he followed it by adding some statement more profound than my own and suggested that we head out into the night. it was getting late. i nodded lightly a few times and began to clumsily button my flannel up across my flat chest and noticed him staring strongly at me across the table. "you know" he smiled, zipping up his coat, "any woman can look **** getting undressed, but it takes a charming one to carry the same effect while putting on clothes.” i laughed, admired the wit, wondered if the line was borrowed, felt nauseous, carried on.
Oct 27, 2013
Oct 27, 2013 at 5:45 PM UTC
Alone the mirror,
Cracked and ugly
Stares blankly at nothing
Waiting for a face to draw upon
For images protruding
From behind my glassy eyes
Reddened without sleep
Speak softly to the morning me
And tell of unwanted future’s plan
I recklessly endanger hope
For self-satisfying ambitionless wishes
Defying optometry, optimistically,
I see beyond the pleasant and mundane
Mar 8, 2013
Mar 8, 2013 at 3:37 AM UTC
The Rose
So beautiful- yet
Far from perfect
Luscious
Crimson Red
Top-
Yet
Crimson Red
Blood-
Drips
From the thorns
The Rose
Tries to free itself
From the hands of the man
Who grasped her Sharp, Spiny, Stem
The Rose
Is stuck
With-
That man
That "Man"
Who
Wakes up at noon-
Who
Doesn’t do his dishes
Who
Has no plan but labor
He- is
Ambitionless
All that "Man"
Will do-
Is hold the rose-
In a vase
And later on
--You--
Will regret
Wasting your youth
away
Feb 14, 2015
Feb 14, 2015 at 12:21 AM UTC
Every time I gaze at the mirror,
a storm of doubts rises within me —
Am I worthy?
Am I beautiful?
Am I doing enough with my life?
Am I ambitionless?
Am I being too carefree?
Am I gaining weight?
…and so many more.
But amidst the flood of questions,
my heart gently whispers:
You are worthy.
It’s not the external beauty that defines you —
It’s your self-love,
your kindness to yourself.
Mirrors only reflect what’s visible.
But what really shapes us
is the change we choose
beyond the glass.
Jun 27, 2025
Jun 27, 2025 at 6:10 AM UTC
Corpulent, relaxed, you’re watching Netflix,
The softer we’ve become as generation.
Your function is unknown like your appendix,
Toil now is just imagination.
The days go by as you grow older,
But never faster than the lies.
You told yourself when you were bolder,
But lies catch up you realize.
That you could make it, become stronger,
Reach your dreams, that was the prize.
But you gave up, and now you ponder,
That dreams can die, in your surprise.
Dec 4, 2020
Dec 4, 2020 at 7:52 PM UTC
Untying
lighter I do feel
in my pocket there's nothing
empty from head to heel-
let others do their shouldering
layer upon layer to peel
ambitionless all I do is dreaming
in contention with none to deal.
Aug 20, 2018
Aug 20, 2018 at 10:33 PM UTC