Step one: get very drunk
Repeat step one as needed
Cry for them
Cry for yourself
Cry because you are alone
Now try to move on
Commit to it
Don’t think about them
For three days you didn’t
And then something reminds you of them
Repeat step one
Tell yourself you were never in love
Tell yourself you will never fall in love again
Agonize over everything you think you did wrong
Blame yourself
Get mad
Blame them
Blame god
Repeat step one with friends
Repeat step one alone
It has been a month and they haven’t crossed your mind
And then you run into them
And you’re fine
And you are free
Now fall in love with somebody else and do it all over again
Nov 12, 2013
Nov 12, 2013 at 2:54 PM UTC
I’d make an awful stargazer
While you looked up at the sky
I would gaze at you
And wonder at the universes
Which lay behind your eyes
Nov 4, 2013
Nov 4, 2013 at 11:47 PM UTC
I can see you clearly
Even though my vision's blurred
I can tell you how my feelings feel
Even though my speech is slurred
I'm never gonna recover from
What you're about to do so
Why don't I just call the morgue?
I'll ask for a reservation
How bout a table for two or
Maybe make room for three
Where have you been?
I can't sleep
My bed is like my life
Too big for one
Too small for two
My head is like my life
Too loud for me
Too quiet for you
You were only looking for a fling
I reach in my pocket for the ring
You probably start to think
staring down the barrel of a gun
is the closest thing you've ever felt
To this in your life
And now I'm on my knee
Playing this sick game of chicken
Who'll be the first to turn and flee?
Nov 4, 2013
Nov 4, 2013 at 1:23 AM UTC
There is no more sky
No more blue
Endlessly stretching forth
No more fast clouds or silver linings
No more storms or stars
No more wind in my hair
There is a six foot barrier
And a velvet lining and a wooden box
Which I can't think outside of anymore
Nov 4, 2013
Nov 4, 2013 at 1:22 AM UTC
God cursed me with foresight and empathy
I know the pain that will be felt
And I get to see it coming
Like looking down the barrel of a rifle
And the pain shoots straight into my chest
I'm going to fall in love
I'm going to feel the force,
the full weight of emotion
I have a gift
Connecting words
Sewing stories into tapestries
I can write the future
And I dye it with ink
You can see something in the way the light hits each individual word
Intricate and hurried but never rushed
You see my story
You see where the lines are crossed
Where paths intertwine and diverge
Never were there deeper wounds
Than those cut by keen insight
Those are they which cannot be healed with time or love
Only held together by hope
Bandaged by the courage to persevere
Nov 4, 2013
Nov 4, 2013 at 12:45 AM UTC
I do not wish to exist,
But others wish me to exist.
I know,
And I know I will want to exist in the morning.
It is both sad and lovely
To write these words here for you
It is a good thing
A noble thing
To write my pains for your pleasure
I do not wish to be how I am
I know I could be better
And I know I will be better in the morning
I'm a little drunk
And more than a little lonely
Because my sorrows taste like honey
When I filling up my cup for the fifth time
I do not wish to say these things
I wish I understood myself
I know that I am becoming something
But I wish I was sure what that was
Nov 4, 2013
Nov 4, 2013 at 12:21 AM UTC
I see the skies of life and
Marvel at the sight
I cannot bear the magnitude
Of the atmosphere's embrace
As I fly across the horizon
I strive to express the ineffable
I wish to grasp what nature will only insinuate
To squeeze the juices from the universe
Like the proverbial lemons given to me
I dare to ride the wild skies
Bucking and turbulent
The splendid experience
To which I return again and again
Allowing fear of the unknown to wash over me
Only to tell her I love her
And I do not wish to escape her grip
Which I have known since way back when
Nov 4, 2013
Nov 4, 2013 at 12:01 AM UTC
I miss you constantly
I miss you more than that, I bet
I miss you even when I’m sleeping
I miss you when I’m sad and my whole body shuts down
I miss you when you died
I miss you when you resurrect
Well I miss you when I die too
And I miss you when I shiver
I miss you when my mind travels to the moon and back
And I miss you when I’m the only person who exists
I miss you when the rest of the world fades to black
I miss you when I feel the rain on the grass
And I miss you every time I sigh
And I miss you right now
I miss you when I’m restless
I miss you when I’m scared
But most of all I miss you in the moments between dreams and waking when I realize you’re not here with me
Nov 3, 2013
Nov 3, 2013 at 1:52 AM UTC
Have you considered that the reason
You can’t believe you have beautiful eyes
Is because beauty is in the eyes of the beholder
And you’ll never truly see yourself?
Why don’t you let me love the parts of you that you can’t
Let me love you for you
Let me tell you how beautiful you are
Every time you begin to forget
Let me be a constant reminder
Because I behold you
And I am held by the beauty in your gaze
Nov 3, 2013
Nov 3, 2013 at 1:40 AM UTC
Feels like you have a grip on my heart
And I have somehow pulled free
But the shadows of your fingerprints remain
And I move on and try to move forward
Please retire your bedsheets and leave me alone
I did not sign up to be haunted
You turned out to be not what I thought
And everything I never wanted
I woke up this morning
And your were on my mind
So I wrote this poem
And it’s all about you,
Every word
Every line
You’re a natural disaster
But sometimes I still wish you were mine
If I can’t forget you
I’ll sweep you under the rug
With the rest of my mistakes and regrets
But I don’t want to remember
The way that I felt
The way that you still make me feel
Because how can it get better
If nothing is changing?
I’ve tried everything
I don’t know what else to do
So I cut all our ties
Set our bridges on fire
Walked away without looking back
And sighed with relief
Because I went a day without thinking of you
Oct 29, 2013
Oct 29, 2013 at 8:36 PM UTC