I am not the star who will alwayz shine..
I am not the moon who will alwayz glow..
I am not the sun who will alwayz rise..
I am just the  part of it which wants to twinkle. .
A part of mood wch swings n  align..
But still cant fit in a proper line..
I wanna stand among the stars..
Selfless bright and always too clear..
Flowing along with soothing  glare..
Neva too fast neva too slow..
Just with steady steps n smile to show...

2 all tha women I luv’d b4, am I destined 2 be lonely?
I loved each of y’all differently but whole heartily thinking that each of you were my one and only.

2 all tha women I luv’d before, do you miss me? Do you ever still think about us?
All the times we shared, our possible future or even how I’m doing at this moment without ur love.

2 all the women I luv’d before, do you forgive me for my mistakes or do you still hate me to your core?
Though I was in love with ur flaws no ones perfect, there’s alwayz 2 sides to every coin.

To all the women I luv’d before, I wish y’all nothing but prosperity, happiness and all.
And I pray and hope that you find a love that we once called ours

To all the women I loved before, thank you for molding me for my future wife that I still haven’t met.
For she will be the last women I give my heart to, until my daughter breaths her first breath.

I feel like Imma side dude
I've never been put in this type of situation
I can't see you when I want to
and it's not because your schedules conflicted
It's because your restricted,
constricted with her suspicions
and it's not fair cuz she always gets to see you; a clear vision
but y’all not together..............

We can't go out together
cuz someone might see us and tell her
but why does that matter?
cuz y’all not together............

I can't come around your family and chill like I want to
and be around more cuz she might come thru.
But y’all not together..........

We can't talk on the phone sometimes and when we do sometimes you click on me
**** sometimes we can't even text and when we do it bothers her so you can't even send emojis.
But y’all not together........

And I swallow my pride because I wanna be with you
but I don't think you understand how I feel
I have super trust issues
And it ***** me up seeing y'all, like is this even real?
But then why am I tripping
if y’all not together......

What if one of my exes stayed with me, play fought, was jus always around me and slept in the same bed.
and I say “it's ok baby me and her, we're not together....”
You can't say it wouldn't mess with your head

And the thing that hurts the most is that I feel like you’re more considerate of her feelings than mine.
You rather not "get in trouble" or upset her and have my feelings in decline.
But y’all not together..

**** hurts. This Love hurts.
Y’all not together but in proximity are always close
We're together apparently but how can together feel so alone?
And the crazy thing about this whole ordeal is that all that hurt that I hide from you alwayz goes away when I see you or when
we're together.

I love you so much
And with all the things I said and how you make me feel.....
It makes me wonder if this is even real,
if you really, genuinely love me too. If you wanna be together
Or are you still in love with her and just not together?

Ztatic on the television
At zeven in the morning
Dark zircles and frizz
Itchez
Talking. Lotz of talking
Alwayz talking
Heart razing
Chucklez from friends
Lotz of people
Zztart of a newer day
Newer friendzz
Conzztantly zztatic
Loudnezz haunted by quietnezz
Zztatic
Zzzweaty palms
Zzztop and zzzmelling the rozzzes
Zzztatic
Buzzzzing
Watching carzzzz pazzzz by
Wonders buzzzzing about
Zzzzzchedulezzzzz
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Zzzzzzzztatic on the television zzzzzzzcrene

. . .


-Sierra Gonzales

If the pain that sears through your soul ever had a face
would it look like it was made of charcoal or chrome?
or like someone out of place?

If Loneliness had eyes would they be blinded or just constantly reminded of deceit and Lies? or would the depths of their soul Find some
form of positive resurrection discovering their life can now truly begin.

If Joy could be a planet would it choose to claim Mars for its Delicious chocolates or Uranus to claim it wasn't me who done it!!  :) thy who smelt it dealt it.

If Anger showed up wearing a costume would it wear Joy dressed as mars or come just as one huge candy bar!?!? or nothing at all because it's Angry!!!

If Hope saw only in colors would it be all radiant bright or mixed with some Sin of neutral tones or would it be all gorgeous blocking all dark ones from getting in?Would Hope Lose Faith or Faith Lose Hope 0verall we all should never'EvR
Give Up or Give In! We are born to Sin although it is about how much you'll let yours singe within.

If Failure had a scent would it be the foulest ****** odor personalized to your disgust or liking? or would you just simply be use to that smell ! What smell?
you say what is next for me to destroy? If failure had a face it would look exactly like Tim R!! He is Evil, Mean and Cruel he is and will always remain thee ultimate fool!

If Success is measured only by physical capabilities would it eventually Expire? Since we all do end up dying?? If Success is all about you?!?
Then what the hell good are you? If success is greatness then also acknowledge the tiniest of things when accomplished and true; Stop uttering things in angst and success will come a knockin at your door but you keep on being a vicious one nothing good will stem from it.

If you had to be anyone who would you be and would you swiftly reply: ME!!! of course I wanna stay me!!?or would you take the opportunity to begin complete and different because you've alwayz wished to feel different and whole!

To feel comfort and peace and entirely Loved.
If You could be someone else this would be Sadness because all those who truly Value You and who Adore you,those who can seriously see your beauty shine,
They'll MourN a LoSs even if you were a more newly improved
you would not be You and would be a lost cause,
So stay who we love
and never stop surviving.

If you had a career of your dreams what could you see ahead?
who knows maybe that means you would no longer exist?!?!
But overall Be YOU and don't let Any0ne
StomP on your dreaMs,h0pes and successes just Fill your
ears,eyes, and Heart wiTh All the Happy Re3nforcements!