I want to believe that I will find someone to share the world
I want to have hope that I am worthy of love
Yet it seems,
As days go on,
I fall back into old beliefs.
Ghosts of lovers,
Point out my flaws
Clouding my judgment, altering the person you see.
I want to belive that you can be the difference
I want to have hope that you can love and care for me
Yet,
As the days go on,
The ideal seems absurd.
Knowledge of the challenges
Does not help us through.
I want to believe that I love you,
I want to believe that you can love me too.
Yet,
As time goes on,
It's clear to see,
You don't.
Aug 10, 2017
Aug 10, 2017 at 1:32 AM UTC
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At zeven in the morning
Dark zircles and frizz
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Alwayz talking
Heart razing
Chucklez from friends
Lotz of people
Zztart of a newer day
Newer friendzz
Conzztantly zztatic
Loudnezz haunted by quietnezz
Zztatic
Zzzweaty palms
Zzztop and zzzmelling the rozzzes
Zzztatic
Buzzzzing
Watching carzzzz pazzzz by
Wonders buzzzzing about
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-Sierra Gonzales
May 7, 2015
May 7, 2015 at 12:39 AM UTC
Confined within my skin
They are always telling me how to live
Even controlling the fish’s fin
Leaving me with less than nothing to give
Shaping the way I've been
The influence seeping in unknown
Looking for the youth to chagrin
Making us feel disowned
While the road may be dim
Understanding may be key
For learning the sea of media, and knowing how to swim
Growing in this ocean, we yet still can be free
May 7, 2015
May 7, 2015 at 12:37 AM UTC
as long as everyone say what she wanted
then it was alright.
the image of perfection
i shattered it.
there was no hidding that
and she hated me for it.
it wasnt the act,
but the fact
everyone knew.
my dear mother,
she never cared.
she just needed people to see it her way.
that she was perfect in this world.
so she sent me away,
her house no longer a welcome home.
she had her perfect life.
there was no need for me.
she just needed eveeyone to see it that way.
Apr 5, 2013
Apr 5, 2013 at 11:47 PM UTC
These are the scars of battles you couldn't help me win.
Don't be afraid to ask about them,
I'm willing to share my stories to you and your kin.
I've got the eyes, that tell you I've seen more then I should.
So beautiful and blue,
The color so light, the ice melts into pools if it would.
The beatings have ended yet I still feel your hands.
I've got a past, that would make no one proud,
yet I can still find some comfort simply by putting my feet in the sand.
Mar 21, 2013
Mar 21, 2013 at 10:54 PM UTC
The desk is plastic, cold and dark.
The keys click as I type each word.
The music playing in the background, making me feel the feelings of others.
The feelings I can no longer create on my own.
I've become numb.
In a world that teaches us to do so as such a young age.
I sit here, trying to explain what has happened to me,
So that someone,
can try to understand.
Mar 2, 2013
Mar 2, 2013 at 4:52 PM UTC
Hanging,
Waiting,
Slightly swinging.
You wait for someone,
anyone.
To use you.
You've never know anything else.
So you sit,
waiting,
for someone to use you.
Jan 18, 2013
Jan 18, 2013 at 9:12 PM UTC
I see you standing there
I think its just not fair
for you to be, so happy
without me.
I walk away
cause i just can't stay
to bear the sight of you,
without me.
you where the one i loved
i put you up above
the ones that i was from.
So now I just can't see.
how your so **** happy,
without me.
I need to forget you.
Just go on without you.
Why can't I leave you?
But you can leave me.
Because I loved you.
Because you left me.
I have been broken.
I have been broken.
And everyones gone,
they're all just gone.
They left me,
just like you.
Now we can't be friends,
no we can't be friends.
Because i loved you,
then you left me.
As the tears fall down
and you scream across the crowd,
that you don't love me,
you never loved me.
So I'm sitting by the phone,
waiting for the okay to go back home.
Now I'm leaving.
I'm leaving.
Waiting for the okay to go back home,
then I'm leaving
I am leaving you,
like you left me.
Cause I'm without you
and you never loved me.
So I'm leaving.
I hope your happy,
I just Hope your happy.
Nov 11, 2012
Nov 11, 2012 at 8:20 PM UTC
You see me
I look straight at you
Then I fall
Laying on the ground
You run over
Leaving her side
The blood drains out of my body
As you start to cry
Yelling "look at you!! Look what you've done!!"
I'm slipping fast
She starts to scream
Saying you never loved her
I can't lift my head
You put it in your lap
Tears running down your face
I miss what you tell her
But she runs, almost crying
I hear the screams of the sirens
Helps almost here
I won't make it
I look up and see your face
It gives it away, you know It
The tears I always held back start to form
You kiss me, one last time
My eyes slowly close
And with my last fading breath
I whisper
" I Love You"
Nov 11, 2012
Nov 11, 2012 at 8:20 PM UTC