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"alcoholism" poems
She’s more fun when she is drunk At least…until she’s not Because she’s puking in the toilet And regretting her last shot She’s more confident when she’s drunk Gorgeous and ready to score Until she looks in a mirror And feels even uglier than before She likes herself more when she is drunk Until that feeling goes away When she is so far beyond gone That her self-hatred comes out to play She’s happier when she’s drunk All her issues leave her brain But they all come crashing back at once And cause her so much pain She likes the world more when drunk It’s filled with so much good Until one little thing sets her off And she hates it all more than she should She likes life more when she’s drunk Her mind for once feels still Terrified of losing that feeling She soon wants to end things with a pill But she can stop any time she wants Or so she’d have you believe Because alcohol makes her seem so happy That is, until all her friends leave
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Mar 8, 2017
Mar 8, 2017 at 3:21 AM UTC
Alcoholism
the best addiction is alcoholism, because you can drown your pain into the sweet taste of alcohol, and forget all about it.
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Apr 25, 2014
Apr 25, 2014 at 7:35 AM UTC
alcoholism
I want to write a poem about you, but all the words sound good in my head until they get out on paper. I can't make anything out of the slur of words I wish I could say to you. There's a sentence for all the years I want you to have back, and words for all the days you spent waiting for probation in a cell. You are still just as much of a man as you were before they stripped away your sanity. They say that people make mistakes, But you had to give up most of your life for just one of yours. I like to think you spend so much time in the company of a bottle because somehow, in your mind, you'll find the years that you lost at the bottom of every one. I want you to know that Alcoholism is not a choice, Nor is it a death sentence. I want you to know that I do not bow my head in shame at you; You are not a monster. You are a child, One that never got to experience innocence before it was taken from you. You are not a trophy to be on display, You are not a spectacle to be snickered at, You are not a John Doe to be left lying in the cold, You are not next week's breaking news, You are not stupid, You are not broken. You are not a statistic, You are not a stereotype. You are sick.
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May 21, 2014
May 21, 2014 at 11:25 PM UTC
Dear Uncle
This is the Last Straw – and Something About Sacred Buckets of Holistic Ice Water ****** predators, human smugglers Starvation in the Sudan, civil war in Syria, mass executions in China Journalists murdered almost everywhere Fashionable infanticide, homelessness Unemployment, urban terrorism Mass ****** school shootings, wildfires, racism An unstable national government Anti-Semitism, border desperation Riots, arson, ecclesiastical corruption **** alcoholism, historical cleansing Skinheads, abuse, Khardassianistas Volcanos, the death penalty, free verse Affluenza, Jerry Springer, The View Herbal tea, antifa, anti-antifa And the soul-sucking existential despair Of inspirational singer-songwriters: Nah, not a bit worried about plastic straws But I must go now; The Voices are telling me To pour a bucket of ice water over my head (As long as it’s not a plastic bucket)
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Jul 27, 2018
Jul 27, 2018 at 3:58 PM UTC
This is the Last Straw! And Some Inspirational Singer-Songwriters...
I am in a constant battle for control. I am hard to deal with because my therapist says OCD will not rest OCD does not care what time it is OCD does not care where you are OCD does not care who is watching. Usually when I obsess over things I see my life falling to shambles I see people not loving me anymore I see germs sneaking into my skin. When my uncle, my aunt, and my friend all died in a matter of three months, i performed rituals every hour on the hour sometimes even more. My therapist says this will not go away. My therapist says to come see her so we can try to cope with this. My therapist does not understand that WE are not coping. I am coping not her not anyone else me. My therapist is a sick person she is still recovering from alcoholism so how can she help me if all she sees is a bottle of bourbon when she looks at me. I am not a bottle of bourbon I am a bottle of OCD and depression and anxiety I am a bottle of drugs and alcohol and death I am a bottle being smashed over your head I am not coping I am drowning And people have stopped loving me And my life is falling into shambles And I think I may be getting sick so what the **** are these rituals even doing for me anyway. I have stopped taking medication because wanting to die has become habitual and I fear that will become a ritual too. If I die all people will talk about is how much they loved me even if they didn't. If I die, there will be no room to have my life fall to pieces because I will be in peace. If I die, I cannot get sick because the soil will be taking care of my body but who will perform my rituals once I'm gone?
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Mar 3, 2014
Mar 3, 2014 at 4:13 PM UTC
ocd
I am in a constant battle for control. I am hard to deal with because my therapist says OCD will not rest OCD does not care what time it is OCD does not care where you are OCD does not care who is watching. Usually when I obsess over things I see my life falling to shambles I see people not loving me anymore I see germs sneaking into my skin. When my uncle, my aunt, and my friend all died in a matter of three months, i performed rituals every hour on the hour sometimes even more. My therapist says this will not go away. My therapist says to come see her so we can try to cope with this. My therapist does not understand that WE are not coping. I am coping not her not anyone else me. My therapist is a sick person she is still recovering from alcoholism so how can she help me if all she sees is a bottle of bourbon when she looks at me. I am not a bottle of bourbon I am a bottle of OCD and depression and anxiety I am a bottle of drugs and alcohol and death I am a bottle being smashed over your head I am not coping I am drowning And people have stopped loving me And my life is falling into shambles And I think I may be getting sick so what the **** are these rituals even doing for me anyway. I have stopped taking medication because wanting to die has become habitual and I fear that will become a ritual too. If I die all people will talk about is how much they loved me even if they didn't. If I die, there will be no room to have my life fall to pieces because I will be in peace. If I die, I cannot get sick because the soil will be taking care of my body but who will perform my rituals once I'm gone?
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hit the road i’ve been bold talking in my sleep i grit my teeth walking the streets at night i’ve decided that everything is emptiness everything as i know it, is emptiness how refreshing life is how incredibly refreshing my mind is my mind is emptiness my heart is emptiness my lust is emptiness my love is emptiness my thoughts, my theories, my ambitions, my abortions, my cheating, lying habits, my dreams, my girlfriends, my world, my room, my hate, my anger, my joy, my pain are all emptiness nothing happens nothing is a word and words don’t exist the way that i am tied to words is emptiness the alcoholism is emptiness the drugs are emptiness the friends are emptiness my family is emptiness i am emptiness there is no support, no conflict, no harbored poor emotions, no bold ideas, no sympathy, no death, no life and no person. thank god, allah, buddha, shiva, abraham, dalai lama, bob dobbs, the cosmos, myself and all those other wonderful concepts that don’t exist because they are mere words.
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Nov 5, 2012
Nov 5, 2012 at 5:54 PM UTC
..desolation, no, enlightenment..
abolitionism absenteeism absolutism abstractionism absurdism academicism academism achromatism acrotism actinism activism adoptianism adoptionism adventurism aeroembolism aestheticism ageism agism agnosticism agrarianism alarmism albinism alcoholism aldosteronism algorism alienism allelism allelomorphism allomorphism alpinism altruism amateurism amoralism anabaptism anabolism anachronism analphabetism anarchism anecdotalism aneurism anglicism animalism animism anisotropism antagonism anthropocentrism anthropomorphism anthropopathism antialcoholism antiauthoritarianism antiblackism anticapitalism anticlericalism anticolonialism anticommercialism anticommunism antielitism antievolutionism antifascism antifeminism antiferromagnetism antihumanism antiliberalism antimaterialism antimilitarism antinepotism antinomianism antiquarianism antiracism antiradicalism antirationalism antirealism antireductionism antiritualism antiromanticism antiterrorism aphorism apocalypticism apocalyptism archaism asceticism assimilationism associationism asterism astigmatism asynchronism atavism atheism athleticism atomism atonalism atropism atticism autecism authoritarianism autism autoecism autoeroticism autoerotism automatism automorphism baalism baptism barbarianism barbarism behaviorism biblicism bibliophilism bicameralism biculturalism bidialectalism bilateralism bilingualism bimetallism biologism bioregionalism bipartisanism bipedalism biracialism blackguardism bogyism bohemianism bolshevism boosterism bossism botulism bourbonism boyarism bromism brutism bruxism bureaucratism cabalism caciquism cambism cannibalism capitalism careerism casteism catabolism catastrophism catechism cavalierism centralism centrism ceremonialism charism charlatanism chauvinism chemism chemotropism chimaerism chimerism chrism chromaticism cicisbeism cinchonism civicism civism classicism classism clericalism clonism cockneyism collaborationism collectivism colloquialism colonialism colorism commensalism commercialism communalism communism communitarianism conceptualism concretism confessionalism conformism congregationalism connubialism conservatism constitutionalism constructivism consumerism controversialism conventionalism corporatism corporativism cosmism cosmopolitanism cosmopolitism countercriticism counterculturalism counterterrorism creationism credentialism cretinism criticism cronyism cryptorchidism cryptorchism cubism cultism cynicism czarism dadaism dandyism defeatism deism demonism denominationalism despotism determinism deviationism diabolism diamagnetism
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May 12, 2017
May 12, 2017 at 12:16 PM UTC
"ism"
abolitionism absenteeism absolutism abstractionism absurdism academicism academism achromatism acrotism actinism activism adoptianism adoptionism adventurism aeroembolism aestheticism ageism agism agnosticism agrarianism alarmism albinism alcoholism aldosteronism algorism alienism allelism allelomorphism allomorphism alpinism altruism amateurism amoralism anabaptism anabolism anachronism analphabetism anarchism anecdotalism aneurism anglicism animalism animism anisotropism antagonism anthropocentrism anthropomorphism anthropopathism antialcoholism antiauthoritarianism antiblackism anticapitalism anticlericalism anticolonialism anticommercialism anticommunism antielitism antievolutionism antifascism antifeminism antiferromagnetism antihumanism antiliberalism antimaterialism antimilitarism antinepotism antinomianism antiquarianism antiracism antiradicalism antirationalism antirealism antireductionism antiritualism antiromanticism antiterrorism aphorism apocalypticism apocalyptism archaism asceticism assimilationism associationism asterism astigmatism asynchronism atavism atheism athleticism atomism atonalism atropism atticism autecism authoritarianism autism autoecism autoeroticism autoerotism automatism automorphism baalism baptism barbarianism barbarism behaviorism biblicism bibliophilism bicameralism biculturalism bidialectalism bilateralism bilingualism bimetallism biologism bioregionalism bipartisanism bipedalism biracialism blackguardism bogyism bohemianism bolshevism boosterism bossism botulism bourbonism boyarism bromism brutism bruxism bureaucratism cabalism caciquism cambism cannibalism capitalism careerism casteism catabolism catastrophism catechism cavalierism centralism centrism ceremonialism charism charlatanism chauvinism chemism chemotropism chimaerism chimerism chrism chromaticism cicisbeism cinchonism civicism civism classicism classism clericalism clonism cockneyism collaborationism collectivism colloquialism colonialism colorism commensalism commercialism communalism communism communitarianism conceptualism concretism confessionalism conformism congregationalism connubialism conservatism constitutionalism constructivism consumerism controversialism conventionalism corporatism corporativism cosmism cosmopolitanism cosmopolitism countercriticism counterculturalism counterterrorism creationism credentialism cretinism criticism cronyism cryptorchidism cryptorchism cubism cultism cynicism czarism dadaism dandyism defeatism deism demonism denominationalism despotism determinism deviationism diabolism diamagnetism
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Alcoholism took my father away from me. I watched him destroy his life from the age of five. When Austin left us- I watched his life shatter completely. I started to plink away on the piano. Then he started to pick up the pieces. He got his life together, remarried, and is trying to repay a lost childhood. So I continue to play. Now, I'm watching both my sister's life come to crumbles at the lips of a bottle. So I play louder. One has gone to rehab for drugs and alcohol. She is getting better- back on her feet. The other has moved out and cut off communication with our Father. So I keep playing. I'll write a sonng or two for you- and I'll wait for you to come home. All I've ever known alcohol to do- is destroy. And people wonder why the smell nauseates me..
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Jun 16, 2014
Jun 16, 2014 at 12:02 AM UTC
Alcohol
You were an alcoholic, And I was just another bottle. Maybe you won't break The next bottle you drink from. I doubt it, though. You will drink and break until you wobble. You are an alcoholic, And I let myself forget it.
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Jan 25, 2016
Jan 25, 2016 at 4:39 PM UTC
Rampant Alcoholism
One thread came loose with alcoholism at a very young age. She recovered. She forgot and proceeded. One thread was yanked loose by a growing tendency to self sabotage. She clawed her way out of the spiral. One thread pulled at others when she learnt she didn’t need alcohol to have a good time. She felt deprived by self-restraint. So she slightly caved. One thread burned along with her personality when she became a stoner again. She was suffocated yet high. One thread was singed by **** She fell back into her ***** habits. She found herself here, but not quite present. She became dependant. As she flooded her body parts with superficial happiness, just a quick release, her mouth grew dry. Then the peeling skin on her stained lips began to stick together and she regressed into a still and faded silence. In the end, she was in shreds and blissfully unaware, alone with nothing but one solitary thread left to grasp at.
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Jan 7, 2019
Jan 7, 2019 at 7:30 PM UTC
Shreds of She
Dear Lesley, I'm sorry to have to do this through a letter, but last time your crying just humiliated the other couples in your group session. Although, this might save embarrassment, and make me look better, now that we are both sleeping with other people. (If you can call conjugal visits to your ex-husband people.) This letter may well be the last memory you will have of me, if your social worker lets you keep it as a memento anyway. I am leaving, and I won't be looking back either. I am sure you won't be surprised or terribly upset. It is completely your fault, no doubt about it! Mainly, it is your long history with lying problems, even more than your alcoholism, that keeps me from being even remotely interested in continuing this relationship with you. (I told you I forgave you for sleeping with your boss, but I guess I never really did.) You would be so much better off finding someone that can accept the emotional baggage that you carry around, the ones with the orange tags. Maybe your analyst can explain that to you better than I can. I must say, I will miss some of the exciting times we had together. Like when you got so drunk and flirted with my father at our family Christmas dinner. My mom has still not gotten the red wine stain out of the tablecloth where you puked on it. I'm glad this is finally done and we can go our separate ways. I think you will find someone else with whom to have an unhealthy relationship based on physical attraction and a passion for strip-club bars. Hopefully, this will happen incredibly far away. Good riddance, and Happy New Year. PS Maybe you should just go back to being a lesbian. PPS I have no idea where you parked your car.
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Jan 12, 2012
Jan 12, 2012 at 2:23 PM UTC
a letter to a friend wishing her a Happy New Year
Dear Lesley, I'm sorry to have to do this through a letter, but last time your crying just humiliated the other couples in your group session. Although, this might save embarrassment, and make me look better, now that we are both sleeping with other people. (If you can call conjugal visits to your ex-husband people.) This letter may well be the last memory you will have of me, if your social worker lets you keep it as a memento anyway. I am leaving, and I won't be looking back either. I am sure you won't be surprised or terribly upset. It is completely your fault, no doubt about it! Mainly, it is your long history with lying problems, even more than your alcoholism, that keeps me from being even remotely interested in continuing this relationship with you. (I told you I forgave you for sleeping with your boss, but I guess I never really did.) You would be so much better off finding someone that can accept the emotional baggage that you carry around, the ones with the orange tags. Maybe your analyst can explain that to you better than I can. I must say, I will miss some of the exciting times we had together. Like when you got so drunk and flirted with my father at our family Christmas dinner. My mom has still not gotten the red wine stain out of the tablecloth where you puked on it. I'm glad this is finally done and we can go our separate ways. I think you will find someone else with whom to have an unhealthy relationship based on physical attraction and a passion for strip-club bars. Hopefully, this will happen incredibly far away. Good riddance, and Happy New Year. PS Maybe you should just go back to being a lesbian. PPS I have no idea where you parked your car.
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I am from New Jersey. From the paradise of small towns And the inferno of concrete jungles. I am from truck tire playgrounds, Porch Clubs, and the whistle Of the Riverline. I am from divorce. From alcoholism and denial, From broken doors and hearts. I am from next to hell. From pouring out full forties For one's homies passed away. From too many candlelight vigils And sidewalks littered with fourth grade pictures. I am from the garden state. From cows, corn, and Clinton, And tractors in the parking lot. I am from tradition. From pasta and seven fishes, From "Mafiosa!" screamed in the streets And "No WHOPs" pasted on storefronts. I am from love. From three parents and four siblings, From six dogs and duplicate holidays, And the smell of tulips and holly.
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Jul 2, 2017
Jul 2, 2017 at 10:09 PM UTC
Where I'm From
As they walked along after the matinee, the older brother teased his sister, “Hey, guess what, Frankenstein lives in the attic and he’s goin’ get you.”  With a flushed face the little sister responded, "Nah-ah, besides the attic door is locked."  And her brother smirked, “Think Frankenstein cares about locked doors?" Throughout their childhood, the brother jumped out behind closed doors, terrifying his little sister, and with each fright he gave his own fear seemed to lessen.  After a startle the sister thought, ‘Does my brother love me, like I love him?’, and she concluded, “He must, why else would he try to scare me to death?’ Within the decade, a sudden brain hemorrhage took their dearly loved mother.  Now, untethered in their mother’s love, the siblings changed, tightened, within,  While their father, a traumatized, war veteran, swiftly fell off the wagon, and the brother and sister cast off, rudderless, uprooted into troubled waters. And with their hearts snapped shut, immersed in relentless grief, they parted ways.  Some years later, their father died, bequeathed them both his unhealed pain. The brother, the sister, slid secretively into alcoholism, conceded the family custom, invested deeply in their despair, the two went on, married, raised families, conformed. And time went by, as alcohol soothed the pain until the brother breathed his last, his belly taut with fluid, his liver destroyed, a life sentence ended.  While she, the lone survivor, mysteriously yielded unto Grace and was pardoned, recovered, she finally understood, she knew deep inside; everyone did the best they could, even her. …and within a circle of one; I loved them all forever and ever.
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Apr 13, 2014
Apr 13, 2014 at 11:53 AM UTC
The Curse of Frankenstein, 1957
As they walked along after the matinee, the older brother teased his sister, “Hey, guess what, Frankenstein lives in the attic and he’s goin’ get you.”  With a flushed face the little sister responded, "Nah-ah, besides the attic door is locked."  And her brother smirked, “Think Frankenstein cares about locked doors?" Throughout their childhood, the brother jumped out behind closed doors, terrifying his little sister, and with each fright he gave his own fear seemed to lessen.  After a startle the sister thought, ‘Does my brother love me, like I love him?’, and she concluded, “He must, why else would he try to scare me to death?’ Within the decade, a sudden brain hemorrhage took their dearly loved mother.  Now, untethered in their mother’s love, the siblings changed, tightened, within,  While their father, a traumatized, war veteran, swiftly fell off the wagon, and the brother and sister cast off, rudderless, uprooted into troubled waters. And with their hearts snapped shut, immersed in relentless grief, they parted ways.  Some years later, their father died, bequeathed them both his unhealed pain. The brother, the sister, slid secretively into alcoholism, conceded the family custom, invested deeply in their despair, the two went on, married, raised families, conformed. And time went by, as alcohol soothed the pain until the brother breathed his last, his belly taut with fluid, his liver destroyed, a life sentence ended.  While she, the lone survivor, mysteriously yielded unto Grace and was pardoned, recovered, she finally understood, she knew deep inside; everyone did the best they could, even her. …and within a circle of one; I loved them all forever and ever.
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i will carry your body from the flicker i will lose my eye four houndred and fifty seven times before i jab back. all this makes a sister look weak, but this is what i know of patience and loyalty. and we will stare into the souls we drain everyday and drown in the woes of alcoholism and suffocate in the smoke and go bankrupt from the weekend rut. and i am happy that i know i could be doing this alone but alas i have a twinsoul a twinflame. for vinagar girls, full of *** and vice and all horrible things, somehow we manage to hold more value in each other in people and parents and newcomers than any one any where can relate. my partner in crime, my fellow feline, i will follow you into the flame and drag you back out.
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Nov 17, 2012
Nov 17, 2012 at 11:25 PM UTC
to my best friend
when i told my friend that my new boyfriend loved sports and going out; partying, being loud and obnoxious, she grimaced and said she didn't know why i even liked him. i got angry with her - why did she not trust my gut? i once told her that opposites attract, so we should be fine. we should have been. but then came the fighting over little things, then came the mutual devaluation of each other's interests, then came the nights spent on the couch instead of in bed,  his drinking. he would always take the books from my hands and throw them across the wall - ******** he called them. he'd always say i lived in my head, that i never gave him the attention he deserved, that he would take a ********** instead of me any time. and at some point, he had me loathing him more than i did myself. yet, at the same time, i still loved him. it was like an addiction - i knew he was bad for me, but i clung onto him like he was air and i couldn't breathe. there were nights when i really couldn't. sometimes it felt like he still loved me, too. when he came to the locked bathroom door and cried with me; apologizing over and over again. at those moments my love for him would crawl out of its cave - my heart - covered in blood, battered, bruised, but still standing. and it would hold him, whispering false truths in his ear. i would always forgive him, because opposites attract. it was just the way he was, he couldn't do anything about it. even if he could, i frequently thought i didn't want him to. not because i was content with his violent outbrusts and alcoholism, or what he put me through on a daily basis - no. because i loved him, regardless of all the pain he caused me. and love means to accept someone for who they are. but i came to realize that love is quite finite when all negative things seem infinite. i hated the way we were so different. where i would sit in one place for hours on end, he'd walk around clumsily, breaking things, screaming, slamming doors. he drove me mad. and, don't get me wrong, i am not a saint. i'm sure i did the same to him. maybe it's my fault that he turned out the way he did - perhaps if he had chosen to live with someone else, his smiles would still be kind rather than cruel. perhaps if i had changed for him - if i was more like him, we would have been okay. but my silence was deafening. i was convinced he didn't deserve to hear my voice. and he didn't, for days. sometimes he asked if i was pretending to be a ghost of what we used to be. i started questioning my previous way of thinking. do opposites really attract? and i came to a conclusion. they really do. opposites attract, but they are not always good for each other. i had to learn that the hard way. and just like a ghost, i faded. i left.
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Apr 8, 2015
Apr 8, 2015 at 6:23 AM UTC
do opposites attract?
when i told my friend that my new boyfriend loved sports and going out; partying, being loud and obnoxious, she grimaced and said she didn't know why i even liked him. i got angry with her - why did she not trust my gut? i once told her that opposites attract, so we should be fine. we should have been. but then came the fighting over little things, then came the mutual devaluation of each other's interests, then came the nights spent on the couch instead of in bed,  his drinking. he would always take the books from my hands and throw them across the wall - ******** he called them. he'd always say i lived in my head, that i never gave him the attention he deserved, that he would take a ********** instead of me any time. and at some point, he had me loathing him more than i did myself. yet, at the same time, i still loved him. it was like an addiction - i knew he was bad for me, but i clung onto him like he was air and i couldn't breathe. there were nights when i really couldn't. sometimes it felt like he still loved me, too. when he came to the locked bathroom door and cried with me; apologizing over and over again. at those moments my love for him would crawl out of its cave - my heart - covered in blood, battered, bruised, but still standing. and it would hold him, whispering false truths in his ear. i would always forgive him, because opposites attract. it was just the way he was, he couldn't do anything about it. even if he could, i frequently thought i didn't want him to. not because i was content with his violent outbrusts and alcoholism, or what he put me through on a daily basis - no. because i loved him, regardless of all the pain he caused me. and love means to accept someone for who they are. but i came to realize that love is quite finite when all negative things seem infinite. i hated the way we were so different. where i would sit in one place for hours on end, he'd walk around clumsily, breaking things, screaming, slamming doors. he drove me mad. and, don't get me wrong, i am not a saint. i'm sure i did the same to him. maybe it's my fault that he turned out the way he did - perhaps if he had chosen to live with someone else, his smiles would still be kind rather than cruel. perhaps if i had changed for him - if i was more like him, we would have been okay. but my silence was deafening. i was convinced he didn't deserve to hear my voice. and he didn't, for days. sometimes he asked if i was pretending to be a ghost of what we used to be. i started questioning my previous way of thinking. do opposites really attract? and i came to a conclusion. they really do. opposites attract, but they are not always good for each other. i had to learn that the hard way. and just like a ghost, i faded. i left.
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Sitting here trying to make small talk, I'm going insane, we're all insane. Broken topics over chips and salsa, god its so bizarre, I don't understand how "normal" we all are. I keep my mouth semi-full so I'm unable to speak, I can't stand myself, **** why am I so weak? Why does this bother me so? It's like no one even knows, the truth, be told it's a mess, I can't stand too much more of this, someone relieve me from this **** before it makes me sick.. All the underlying problems...drink to numb the pain but those same drinks taketh life away. And I don't mean with death, for life still moves on, but it's broken into pieces and it's better off gone. Cause one needs it to stay strong and the other knows that lifestyle is wrong: Substances don't bring you happiness, they don't fix your pain, they ruin relationships and families all the same. But we sat and we talked, topics in no particular range, and what hurts is seeing how things both have and haven't changed. The connection is there, but the love has departed; neither hope nor intention to go back and restart it. And now we're driving away and nothing is said, no mention of the insanity that hides in my head, No acknowledgement to the tears I watch my own mom fight back..similar to the sick truth the whole situation lacked.
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May 15, 2014
May 15, 2014 at 11:56 PM UTC
Break-Ups and Alcoholism
No. It is not ok with me to say that. Gay is not a synonym for stupid. Gay is not an insult, and I will not allow you to use it like one. It is because of people like you That our society is intolerant, ignorant, and unforgiving. It is because of people like you That our society revolves around the chauvinistic cult That men are not manly if they don’t show preference For a butts and **** attached To a brainless body. It is because of people like you That hundreds of tormented, depressed teens attempt suicide Every year. It is because of people like you That many succeed. It is because of you That one of my best friends is addicted to drugs Struggling with alcoholism And self-loathing Because he can’t admit to himself That he might be gay. So no. It is not ok with me. That you are openly homophobic. Because what if I were gay? With my pretty face and big ***** Would you treat me differently? Would you still joke around and flirt? Because in the end, Homophobia is the same thing as Xenophobia Racism And sexism. And the only thing that separates you And the openly gay boy that you Hate so much is that he has strength to go against the very tide that has swept you and morals away.
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Apr 26, 2011
Apr 26, 2011 at 6:06 PM UTC
It is because of people like you that
we play with a retired professional but none of the other kids mind— his alcoholism has gotten the better of his muscle memory and god doesn’t he look bad the ball is an old piece of garbage made from a kind of industry plastic half-flayed alive by loving kicks that expose the moldy gray rubber inner- sphere like some soft eyeball and, behind one of the goals, the boy who plays goalkeeper only on Wednesdays lounges like a pimply Greek sculpture— unable to move as an epileptic fit lazily puppeteers his body while the players pass the ball into his gut and I step aside, too— my stomach aches so badly for the crispy joy of cold cereal I can’t play— some days are like that—shed of their seriousness because it’s more fun to play without a defense even though we’re always losing **** it I just scored a goal!
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Nov 29, 2010
Nov 29, 2010 at 5:14 AM UTC
Soccer Game
There are not enough poems about manatees If you are interested in human rights being kicked like a dog and justice being dragged through mud, you can find it If you are interested in love that aches with a “burning heart” or a “bleeding soul” you can find it If you are interested in death that holds out its hand to you like relief, or takes one too early, you can find it But where, I ask, do you find a badger in a turtleneck? Or a cup of coffee that doesn’t sound so self important? If you’re interested in the ocean or the sea or maybe a single “crushing wave of emotion,” you can find it If you’re interested in God dying to save you, or God abandoning you to the darkness you can find it If you’re interested in athletics— especially running towards dreams and horizons—and losing and winning, you can find it But where, I ask, do you find a good left-handed centipede? Or a wonderful, ice cold beer that doesn’t turn into alcoholism? If you want to find a poem about how the “gray rain spills from the clouds like the pain” you can find it If you don’t want to find a poem about rain you’ll still find it (cause those rain poems are everywhere) If you’re looking for a poem about regret and forgiveness and cruel mercy making false promises, you can find it But where, I ask, do you find a barbarian ballerina? Or a cigarette whose smoke doesn’t outline the shadows of a lost soul? Show me these things, show me a fat manatee, and I will finally take a deep breath and smile
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Apr 19, 2013
Apr 19, 2013 at 6:07 PM UTC
Arrogant Coffee
There are not enough poems about manatees If you are interested in human rights being kicked like a dog and justice being dragged through mud, you can find it If you are interested in love that aches with a “burning heart” or a “bleeding soul” you can find it If you are interested in death that holds out its hand to you like relief, or takes one too early, you can find it But where, I ask, do you find a badger in a turtleneck? Or a cup of coffee that doesn’t sound so self important? If you’re interested in the ocean or the sea or maybe a single “crushing wave of emotion,” you can find it If you’re interested in God dying to save you, or God abandoning you to the darkness you can find it If you’re interested in athletics— especially running towards dreams and horizons—and losing and winning, you can find it But where, I ask, do you find a good left-handed centipede? Or a wonderful, ice cold beer that doesn’t turn into alcoholism? If you want to find a poem about how the “gray rain spills from the clouds like the pain” you can find it If you don’t want to find a poem about rain you’ll still find it (cause those rain poems are everywhere) If you’re looking for a poem about regret and forgiveness and cruel mercy making false promises, you can find it But where, I ask, do you find a barbarian ballerina? Or a cigarette whose smoke doesn’t outline the shadows of a lost soul? Show me these things, show me a fat manatee, and I will finally take a deep breath and smile
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second sight alternate mind sliding down the slippery slope chasing a rabbit into fantasyland the world is the same but changed this drink is full of laughter this drink makes everything strange and why am I here you may ask as I refill my already refilled glass to find myself of course I've looked everywhere else and this is the only place I exist at the bottom of a bottle recycling the abyss I am alive tingling inside and I know he is waiting on the hangover side, but I'll let him deal with it **** it up while I just crawl away to Hyde until he is again enticed to walk away from his Jekyllite life we're all inmates so what's your poison prisoners here in alcoholism
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Jan 16, 2022
Jan 16, 2022 at 8:47 AM UTC
alcoholism
I don't have pneumonoultramicroscopicsilicovolcanoconiosis. I'll stay away from Yellowstone. If one's asthmatic in the Eifel region You don't pronounce the "P." This won't **** me. I don't have COPD. Everyone coughs in blue smoke. My throaty itch won't **** me. I won't constrict and choke. I don't have an infectious disease, Despite my personality. I run for shelter in acid rain. I drink water with ice cubes, And spray my green out back. As much as I hate to, I avoid rusty nails. *** is safe... and at a distance. Despite being repeatedly told to, I never eat **** The great imitator Is a snivelling mime. If I'm bitten, I recognize the marks. The erupting of the ring of fire won't **** me, but perhaps I was precocious To drop the "P" in Pneumonoultramicroscopicscilicovolcanoconiosis. I haven't succumb to animal flues, I stay clear from the bars. I donate to the SPCA, Bet on ponies or the odds of SARS. I don't have meningitis. I like lights and loud music. If I get the night sweats, I turn down my electric blanket. I haven't the minor or greater pox, I spurn comparisons. According to the scoop and scope, I ascend and descent C free. But the time spent on Referrals Might be the death of me. I don't have botulism. My smile still concaves down. Curling convex above it, A condescending frown. I'm not a ***** I feel every poke and like. My digits number twenty... Twenty one. My glasses are smudge free. If anything I see too well. Alcoholism can't **** me. Alcohol can. I haven't cardio entropy, But I'd be remiss To dismiss The wise counsel Oz gave me: "Hearts can never be made practical until they can be made unbreakable." So true. So true! Anyway, none of the above will get me. But, I do have what you have. The young and grown. The able and ill. A hand. A sweeping hand. A second hand Setting those infectious nonogerms Like diamonds In my Time-x.
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Mar 7, 2014
Mar 7, 2014 at 11:51 AM UTC
Pneumonoultramicroscopicsilicovolcanoconiosis
I don't have pneumonoultramicroscopicsilicovolcanoconiosis. I'll stay away from Yellowstone. If one's asthmatic in the Eifel region You don't pronounce the "P." This won't **** me. I don't have COPD. Everyone coughs in blue smoke. My throaty itch won't **** me. I won't constrict and choke. I don't have an infectious disease, Despite my personality. I run for shelter in acid rain. I drink water with ice cubes, And spray my green out back. As much as I hate to, I avoid rusty nails. *** is safe... and at a distance. Despite being repeatedly told to, I never eat **** The great imitator Is a snivelling mime. If I'm bitten, I recognize the marks. The erupting of the ring of fire won't **** me, but perhaps I was precocious To drop the "P" in Pneumonoultramicroscopicscilicovolcanoconiosis. I haven't succumb to animal flues, I stay clear from the bars. I donate to the SPCA, Bet on ponies or the odds of SARS. I don't have meningitis. I like lights and loud music. If I get the night sweats, I turn down my electric blanket. I haven't the minor or greater pox, I spurn comparisons. According to the scoop and scope, I ascend and descent C free. But the time spent on Referrals Might be the death of me. I don't have botulism. My smile still concaves down. Curling convex above it, A condescending frown. I'm not a ***** I feel every poke and like. My digits number twenty... Twenty one. My glasses are smudge free. If anything I see too well. Alcoholism can't **** me. Alcohol can. I haven't cardio entropy, But I'd be remiss To dismiss The wise counsel Oz gave me: "Hearts can never be made practical until they can be made unbreakable." So true. So true! Anyway, none of the above will get me. But, I do have what you have. The young and grown. The able and ill. A hand. A sweeping hand. A second hand Setting those infectious nonogerms Like diamonds In my Time-x.
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capsized beating purple algorithm for a heart, cross-nit aspirations still taste dirt on my teeth, the mission creep of eager eyed poets, carry a briefcase with my levi's -- close cut cigarette encounters, all brick shantytown of a friendship them lovelies run on endless, it's starting to get cold outside. restless sprites circle our ***** exhaling greek mythopoeics every sure footed step. alcoholism echoes in my skin a depth charge i cannot cut out, we all have broken thoughts here, all have blind spots in our stomachs, they read like a preacher's insecurities: burly things we warm ourselves with, the winters sting bitter. something is wrong with me, sinkhole of ambition and honey kisses, all the great thinkers **** themselves, it's the staunch lack of spotlight, way the earth drips lackadaisical-like we just call it a perfect orbit. shake my hand and feel a goldilocks pulse anemic shards of a cornered animal, we cut right to the bone here, or so we tell ourselves. and love is always the answer? that sure footed toothy angel so beautiful, it couldn't just be our churlish blood, frothing and calming, frothing and calming, electrons rise and fall to create light, they still circle an untapped atrocity perfectly, like this, like it must be god or something close. something stopping them from running, free from bonds ionic or otherwise, bare feet beating the pavement until there are no more stones to throw. firstborns of the universe, each star is a setting sun, blinks staggered, still grew us up quicker than most, there is no aphrodisiac like heliocentrism. them bones cut good doped up on oxytocin, those empty thoughts still rattling, dig sharp -- then nice and numb. and we cutthroat and glossy, sharper than ever. walk outside smoke a cigarette know how much you love her, look at the stars -- it's ******* beautiful isn't it
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Oct 14, 2014
Oct 14, 2014 at 7:57 PM UTC
Jesus, Ect.
capsized beating purple algorithm for a heart, cross-nit aspirations still taste dirt on my teeth, the mission creep of eager eyed poets, carry a briefcase with my levi's -- close cut cigarette encounters, all brick shantytown of a friendship them lovelies run on endless, it's starting to get cold outside. restless sprites circle our ***** exhaling greek mythopoeics every sure footed step. alcoholism echoes in my skin a depth charge i cannot cut out, we all have broken thoughts here, all have blind spots in our stomachs, they read like a preacher's insecurities: burly things we warm ourselves with, the winters sting bitter. something is wrong with me, sinkhole of ambition and honey kisses, all the great thinkers **** themselves, it's the staunch lack of spotlight, way the earth drips lackadaisical-like we just call it a perfect orbit. shake my hand and feel a goldilocks pulse anemic shards of a cornered animal, we cut right to the bone here, or so we tell ourselves. and love is always the answer? that sure footed toothy angel so beautiful, it couldn't just be our churlish blood, frothing and calming, frothing and calming, electrons rise and fall to create light, they still circle an untapped atrocity perfectly, like this, like it must be god or something close. something stopping them from running, free from bonds ionic or otherwise, bare feet beating the pavement until there are no more stones to throw. firstborns of the universe, each star is a setting sun, blinks staggered, still grew us up quicker than most, there is no aphrodisiac like heliocentrism. them bones cut good doped up on oxytocin, those empty thoughts still rattling, dig sharp -- then nice and numb. and we cutthroat and glossy, sharper than ever. walk outside smoke a cigarette know how much you love her, look at the stars -- it's ******* beautiful isn't it
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