#withdrawals
Pain disguised as boredom
masked by being high all the time.
Hotboxing with denial,
thinking there's nothing wrong with mine
mind drowned in reassuringly comfortable lies.
**** controlling without objection -
past trauma hidden deep with suppression.
But one more hit will make me feel wise.
Had to quit to grow and wake up.
I'm sorry we had to go and break up -
but an addiction to numbness
can't be what I continually take up.
Mar 26, 2025
Mar 26, 2025 at 9:54 AM UTC
When I do not see you for awhile
Start going through withdrawals
Like when you’re addicted to drugs
Dependent on alcohol
When I eat food is tasteless
In fact hard to enjoy
Much anything consumed
Focused on the void
No matter what’s done or said
Nothing distracts from absence
If I keep hours busy
Not once your thought leaves my head
My brain obsessed with you
Turning memories around
Try focusing on anything else
But way your laughter sounds
Impossible to be at peace
I wake up alone
Emptiness follows me from our bed
Clinging to each bone
Inside stomach sits a knot
Tangled with concern
Ball that gets tighter every minute
Messages left unreturned
I hate how I need your kiss
To function throughout day
Did not realize contact was necessary
Til moment it was taken away
My heart beats unevenly when you are gone
Stays like that until you come back
Every ***** placed in my body
Is in some manner out of whack
I am more than just miserable
Sick without you here
Unable to be myself
Until presence is again near
Oct 25, 2020
Oct 25, 2020 at 5:10 AM UTC
you were the one
but not for me
you made me happy
but I guess my happiness wasn't enough
maybe I just didn't fit
like a puzzle piece in the wrong spot
theres another piece thats supposed to go there
but I'm not that piece
go find your piece
and ill find my missing spot
maybe we'll both be happy in the end
but for now
you're just not for me
Dec 28, 2018
Dec 28, 2018 at 8:40 PM UTC
and it is in the very loss of hope
that lucidity comes
--Watercolour
Sep 23, 2016
Sep 23, 2016 at 11:45 AM UTC
*Clonazepam, Lorazepam, Diazepam, Alprazolam, if you've been acquainted with benzodiazepines,
Then you will know the hassle that I hearby mean.
Names so crazy it's like they fit your mind,
Yet without them they can be so unkind.
Clonazepam, Lorazepam, Diazepam, Alprazolam,
Tiny little pills, oh how you can truly and seriously help me to heal!
Yet, you make us happy as we should be without you to feel,
Because I'd rather remember you as an old friend who was there for a while to keep me "still".
Clonazepam Lorazepam, Diazepam, Alprazolam...
I know it's hard to say goodbye,
So for now I'll just say "goodnight",
And maybe one day I'll see without you-
the true happiness of daylight.*
❥
Oct 27, 2015
Oct 27, 2015 at 3:25 AM UTC
" Should of taken acid with you, glued our tongues and become undone "
Should of taken ecstasy with you, discover aspects of euphoria you were always afraid to touch//
Should of taken ******* with you, become one with the worldly elements, talk to the sun as if the same blood ran within//
Should of taken shrooms with you, allow your toxic thoughts to breath along side the explosive stars//
Should have ...
but didn't.
So now, I will suffer withdrawals of your destructing presence.
Jul 25, 2015
Jul 25, 2015 at 5:26 AM UTC
~ I am chaos and I will ****** your tranquility.
~ I am drugs and I will cause you to feel withdrawals.
~ I am love and I will teach you to admire yourself.
~~ I am the perfect balance of the bad and the good this temporal world has to offer.
NOW LET ME LOVE YOU.
Jul 25, 2015
Jul 25, 2015 at 5:07 AM UTC
Its like I'm crazy.
Missing someone who wasn't even
there.
Am i losing my mind?
doesn't anyone ******* care?
Jun 22, 2015
Jun 22, 2015 at 7:17 AM UTC
Is it worse, being it that
my plight has no doors?
The line of sight agreeing with-
stand failure to converse,
despite seeing the design I fight myself with my own curse:
to die of thirst while they ignore
the gasping they have heard before.
I might have given more.
I might have given more.
May 18, 2015
May 18, 2015 at 6:18 AM UTC
A girl approached me today.
She felt sorry for me.
She said that she wanted to help me.
"Go home to your family, girl.
You don't need this in your life."
I said.
Sep 4, 2014
Sep 4, 2014 at 9:11 PM UTC
I had no clue,
that with just one kiss I could become so addicted to you.
Now here I am waiting for your calls,
while experiencing the most common symptoms of withdrawal.
Every inch of me is begging you to stay,
as I witness you silently slipping away.
Jul 9, 2014
Jul 9, 2014 at 9:47 PM UTC