#willing
Mother, I spread my arms for you
as the nails beat into the flesh of my wrists
and the wood stings the skin of my back
I look up at the skies and pray that it rains
so that your garden will grow at last
and bear fruit that you'll want to share with me
but I'll be gone far too fast
Father, I raise my eyes for you
so that I'll see if there's tears when you cry
The phone will be answered for all but for me
and my sisters and my brothers will be free
No more time at the window, because we knew what to expect
no more times calling your name when locked out of the nest
So wear a cross or a ring maybe my name to mark
do not forget I was here
Sisters, I'll raise my chest for you
as I breathe in and out for as long as I can
until it becomes heavy with a weight I cannot bear
and my spirit shoots up into dusk
You held my hands as I first took steps
but clawed at my scars when we were on other ends of the battlefield
we were what we were raised to be,
and I love you forever til my rest
Brothers, I'll hold my face to yours
as my blood starts to run thin
Nose to nose you'll see we aren't that different
as you once thought
Fingers crossed that you'll reach the steps
you've prayed to reach a thousand times
and I hope that my blood will hit the earth
so that the sacrifice will be mine
Friends, wherever you were when the time had come
I will always hold my peace
for you were my stable when it thundered
and my flower for deaths the reaper will keep
In a circle we will rise, in a cycle we'll never leave
I hope that I'll meet you in my next life
otherwise I'll forever be near, hold your peace
My tears that I cry are for the gods that held me
and I not knowing their presence held fast
For regret that I will not stay too long
but relief as freedom will last
My heart will beat just one more time
for the people of this world
I hope that you will not cross the line
when the war goes on still
I'll give up all my lives if it means that you all will be safe
underneath the willow tree
we were all birthed under that place,
for our will to choose will be always free
Sep 10, 2025
Sep 10, 2025 at 11:22 AM UTC
HOPEFULLY, if willing, I will see you again,
HOPEFULLY, This Friendship would never, ever end,
HOPEFULLY, some day l will see you around,
even if I am feeling so low and so down.
Hopefully, I will touch the blue heavenly skies and
spread my wings like the birds so very High,
I am very thankful for whatever life provides, and
the fact the grass isn't always greener on the other side.
MOST DEFINITELY, I will BE THANKFUL of the things I already have,
Accept things as they are, and in this BE GLAD,
I am happy with MY LIFE, and this HAPPINESS IS FREE,
Just to LOVE my WONDERFUL LIFE, and I will CONTINUE TO LOVE ME!!! ❤️
B.R.
Date: 11/2/72024
Nov 28, 2024
Nov 28, 2024 at 11:08 AM UTC
You say quote, "it should be easy to see" that you love me
Promising me, biyearly, that I'm your one and only
Your heart was supposedly given to me willingly
But you kept the key
So I wait endlessly for you outside the entry
I pine for you in spite of me
Yet you waste no desire on me
Avoiding anything resembling intimacy
Can't even toss me something phony
Hiding that half of your beauty from me
While forcing me to ignore that better half of me
Both instantly and,
It's occurred to me more recently,
Possibly for all eternity
Won't blow me like I'm somehow below me
I faintly remember you'd at least pity fuuck me
Now I seem to turn you off completely
Acting like you need to do absolutely nothing sexually
Literally refusing to be seen hand in hand in public with me
You constantly go out of your way to physically avoid me
The reason?
Because you know you've hooked me already
Leaving you to instantly cancel the pageantry
But is it to much to ask to willingly snuggle up close to me?
Hell...it must be...
Because you're giving off that type of energy
While ******* the entirety of my passion till my souls empty
Not s single thought on how this might affect me
You've more that just damaged me
But go ahead and ignore what's going to finally break me completely
No, really
Step back through the stage curtain and curtsy, you've beat me
©2024
Jun 11, 2024
Jun 11, 2024 at 4:55 PM UTC
I need to be more open
or honest
Cause if I am not
there will be even
more battles I will have
to fight
And it should be easy but
my mind scared
Scared something will
going wrong and my earth will fall
And this is me the person that is
not ever smart or free
I've lost a lot cause of my stupid thoughts
But now I know what I need to do
so that I don't loose
I pray that I can do this everyday
But it seems like there is not point
Apr 30, 2021
Apr 30, 2021 at 1:08 PM UTC
Why make me stuggle
because of you,
When I'm willing
to struggle with you?
Oct 5, 2020
Oct 5, 2020 at 5:05 AM UTC
You follow light with willing desire
With no fear
No worries
Why
~~~
A silly mouse
A confused cat
You follow without question
You trust in something
with blind eyes
Why
~~~
Desperate are you
Lost
Confused
In need
I cry and worry in your stead
Wait
For a sign of safety
But none
Jan 26, 2020
Jan 26, 2020 at 1:08 PM UTC
I'm ready and willing to fix you
even if it means giving you a piece of me,
and that's what scares me about love
©L.F.
Dec 26, 2019
Dec 26, 2019 at 8:12 PM UTC
“Take care of yourself first.”
That’s what we told my mama
When my daddy had his strokes.
Seven long years by his side,
Caring for his body, paralyzed.
Fearing for her health we said:
“You can’t take care of daddy
Till you care for yourself first.”
That’s what we told my mama,
Until my daddy died in 1985.
“Take care of yourself first.”
That’s what I told my wife
When her mom’s simple operation
Became a septic laceration.
As she tirelessly cared for mom
I feared for her well-being.
“You can’t take care of mom
Till you care for yourself first.”
That’s what I told my wife,
Until her mom passed on in 2011.
“Take care of yourself first.”
That’s what my wife told me
As my mama slowly wasted away,
Physically, mentally, emotionally.
And we willingly provided the
Loving care that she deserved.
“You can’t take care of mama
Till you care for yourself first.”
That’s what my wife told me,
Until my mama left the scene in 2015.
Take care of yourself first
When you experience the worst,
For if you fall apart, for certain
You’ll be someone else’s burden.
Oct 25, 2019
Oct 25, 2019 at 10:59 AM UTC
The way you smell,
I’ll breathe you in,
that spot, just behind your ear,
where hairline meets skin.
You fill me with a fire,
That warms me from within.
I love the way you touch me gently.
Oh! But the way you throw me down!
Washing over me like the ocean,
and im so willing to drown!
I’m drawn in by your energy,
I can feel it pulling me close.
Like magnet to metal
like a moth to a flame
That magic I feel deep inside,
when I hear you say my name!
Mar 13, 2019
Mar 13, 2019 at 5:00 PM UTC
Are you willing to give up your name,
the way Romeo was willing to lose
his name for Juliet?
Jan 26, 2019
Jan 26, 2019 at 2:36 PM UTC
I worry that
I may be
An electron.
The negative charges
Are building beneath
The shield that I choose
To call my ribcage,
Painting my lungs blue
And weighing it
With my mistakes.
I cannot exist alone,
All too willing
To give myself away
To anything that somehow
Makes me feel whole.
I’m sorry
I couldn’t tell you sooner,
But these problems
Can’t be solved
With science.
Jan 15, 2019
Jan 15, 2019 at 2:02 AM UTC
you're a lightning
beautiful
and unpredictable
you light up my world
and I love the sound of your thunder
but at the same time
I know
you have the power
to destroy me
within seconds
and it scares me
that I'm willing
to live
with this fear
for you
Sep 11, 2018
Sep 11, 2018 at 2:14 PM UTC
you've had me, you've had me
and you've had me not
so you think that by now
you'd know what you want
you had me, you have me
and you're losing me now
you can either pull me in
or you can let me down
I was yours, and I am yours
but I'm not like before
you've not giving what you've given,
and I'm heart aching for more.
you want to explore
want to know through and through
but I gave you every inch of me,
I have nothing left to expose to you.
let me in, let me in
or let me go, let me go
I'm in this, and I'm willing
how could you not know?
Jun 19, 2018
Jun 19, 2018 at 3:22 AM UTC
*You've enslaved my heart
before I could ever say
I'm willing.*
Apr 6, 2018
Apr 6, 2018 at 5:36 AM UTC
When I was younger,
I used to make fun of the people in the Depression commercials.
I thought, "Oh, just cheer up!'
I thought the people in those commercials were always so pathetic.
I never thought that as an adult,
I would be faced with the same issues.
I never thought I would reach a day in my life,
where all I ever want to do is sleep.
I never thought that I would struggle to do small tasks.
I never imagined that I would have such a hard time leaving my bed every morning.
I never imagined that this ache in my chest would come back every time it snowed.
I used to love the snow,
but ever since my junior year of high school,
I reach this stage of nostalgia when the frost bites.
I literally have no idea how to help myself.
I feel so incredibly isolated.
Perhaps, it is the darkness that makes me so tired.
I want nothing more than to cuddle up in my comforter.
I want nothing more than evenings spent binge watching episode after episode.
Maybe it's the weather,
Or maybe it is me.
Maybe it is the situation that I am constantly finding myself in.
I feel like I can never please anyone.
I feel like I lose all sense of motivation.
I do not understand.
This time, it is different.
For I do not want to take my own life this season,
but I do not want to do anything with it.
I am drowning in homework.
I am drowning in confusion and doubt.
I don't even want to tell Henry what I am dealing with right now,
because he doesn't deserve it.
He doesn't deserve my constant complaints.
I just feel so empty inside.
How do I deal with this?
This ache comes back season, after winter season.
I cannot wrap my mind around it.
Why does this happen to me?
I am unsure of who I am supposed to turn to in these nights of need.
I feel as if I am lacking something,
or perhaps my brain lacks something during these cold months.
Perhaps it is my heart.
Feb 6, 2018
Feb 6, 2018 at 10:10 PM UTC
sometimes it doesn't matter
that you're not as capable
as smart
as organized
as sociable
you are willing
willing to learn
willing to grow
that willingness you have?
that is enough
you are enough-
more than enough.
Jan 12, 2018
Jan 12, 2018 at 12:11 AM UTC
She has tried her hardest not always but often
She falters on occasions not often
She wants him to see how much she has done
She wants him to stand by her side when she is not at her best
She knows he is willing to do it sometimes not often
She knows that he feels sick just looking at her
She knows that he can't stand her
So, she backs away into silence right beside him
Right where he can see
Because unlike him she would stay at his worst
She would die for him always not often
Oct 26, 2017
Oct 26, 2017 at 7:52 AM UTC
Don't stare at me with teasing eyes
Don't stir my feelings with playful smiles
Don't stiffen my muscles with soft touches
Don't leave me blank with inviting kisses
Don't melt my heart with warm breaths
Don't give me a rush with that passionate wanting
Don't give me a reason to desire you even more
We don't want a relationship filled with abuse
A relationship where wanton rage reigns
We don't want a love that turns into poison
A love that becomes ****** and repulsive
As much as I crave your every taste
Fall for your game, let no time go to waste
Breathe the same gasps of air with you
Freeze time whenever I share it with you
Rushing into your arms for the rest of our days
As much as I want to be with you this instant
Let's take the pace slow and steady
Instead of a quick and brittle love affair
Let's build a quake-proof connection
An affair with strong and sturdy foundations
Where our desires can freely be expressed
And our love meant to protect and caress
Just us indulging in our passionate wanting
I don't want any compromise for building "us"
I want a slow but steady path towards you
I will wait even for a long time, even if its a must
I don't care about how long, I simply desire you
You, the one belle that caught me by surprise
The one belle that drives my dreams every night
Sep 3, 2017
Sep 3, 2017 at 12:47 PM UTC
Lovers learn to love each other after the sun rises
True love can learn to love again after something traumatic
Jul 18, 2017
Jul 18, 2017 at 4:56 AM UTC
I think I hit the point in life where,
I'm just done.
I cried,
I fought,
I tried,
But everything is crashing down.
My demons are screaming louder,
Trying to eat away the rest of me.
And this time,
I'm not going to fight back.
Apr 10, 2017
Apr 10, 2017 at 5:54 PM UTC
The ****** up
part of it all
is that even though
she can hear
her own heart breaking
she's still willing
to love
the same one
who broke it.
Apr 10, 2017
Apr 10, 2017 at 5:41 PM UTC
If you're not satisfied;
do not be willing
to be pacified.
Jan 5, 2017
Jan 5, 2017 at 8:23 PM UTC