#wallow
my head hangs like a willow tree
chin up they tell me
they don’t understand my pain
healing outruns me
who am i becoming?
thought it was something
but it’s nothing
ruthless instead of loving
my head hangs like a willow tree
keep my face in the books
wait for the pages to tell me
which way i should look
Oct 18, 2025
Oct 18, 2025 at 3:43 PM UTC
Every time, you try-
counting time in quarter tones,
scribing rhymes on android phones
the great design-
monochrome
As light's define
then they postpone,
another chance
To be alone
to change one's mind
To go back home.
would you always maybe sometimes make it easy take your time
in the foreground
and then back;
we reflect
as we react
&
wallow, in
the nighttime's black;
cinder's splinters trace us back.
Dec 20, 2023
Dec 20, 2023 at 1:35 AM UTC
this is the life i want to live
I say from the ground
no it isnt
but itll be part of it
time
to have it to waste and wallow
the time to let myself be swallowed
Jul 2, 2019
Jul 2, 2019 at 9:39 PM UTC
I really wanted to brood a little longer
Wallow in the hole I’ve dug myself
But you broke me down
And I think
Just maybe
You made me smile
May 31, 2019
May 31, 2019 at 7:21 PM UTC
i am tired of asking for help
for now ill let myself wallow
in the water i have soiled
because i know that
this time ive done what i can
to float through to the other side
i dont want anyone else to ruin their
cloths trying to drag me out
Oct 1, 2018
Oct 1, 2018 at 9:42 PM UTC
My recent reluctance plays on repeat
My shaken hands radiate with heat
I choke on my words
Throat thick with lies
I swallow them down
Gagging on my pride
Regret in my chest
I attempt to catch my breath
Praying for solace
My head to the ground
I'm stuck in this moment
I don't want to be found
Mar 29, 2018
Mar 29, 2018 at 10:21 AM UTC
I do not seek out a brighter day
A wish of happiness, no more
Vaulted hope; Cracked safe opened and released
Laughter and cheer walked out the door
Position every window blind shut
Draw the shades so none shall see
Must keep sunshine’s heavenly rays locked out
And preserve this perfect misery
Mar 16, 2018
Mar 16, 2018 at 11:34 PM UTC
Get the sudden feeling that I
I'd be as at home in earth as on
Because I get home to no messages
Which means no one knows me and the
ones who know me must barely care
I get the sudden feeling that half
the reason I have for living
ultimately isn't there
Jun 24, 2017
Jun 24, 2017 at 12:19 AM UTC
we,
as potentially conscious beings,
do incur such fantastic Purgatory
and yet we seem
indeed so very keen
to choose to wallow in
vain and irksome squalor-
a comfortable yet blind stupor
when it comes to
the very real causality
wrought of our intention:
yes, you read right:
i said "potentially conscious."
Jan 30, 2016
Jan 30, 2016 at 7:25 AM UTC
The never ending fall, long drop from the top makes me feel 3 feet small. It will be okay it's for the best, fake smile try to do your best. But what if my best isn't good enough, what if my best doesn't even add up. Failure is a hard pill to swallow, iron taste double shot of self hate. it's your choice to self hate get down on yourself and wallow, or pick yourself up, dust yourself off Self love will follow.
Jul 23, 2015
Jul 23, 2015 at 3:08 PM UTC
if i were to turn and say
hey dude i ******* hate you, kay?
(well no, of course it isn't true-)
but what d'you reckon you would do?
i'm only wondering because
you act like it'd be no loss
and insecurely, i don't know-
because you sometimes seem as though
either you think i'll never leave
or just don't care what i believe?
i'd like to say i have a line
but no, i'll just sit here and whine
while you sit there, knowing quite well
that i would never ever tell
you that i'm giving up, you see
i think that this means more to me
than you, perhaps, and **** that stings
especially recently, when things
have led your life away from mine
i know it's not your fault; it's fine-
except it's not, because i never
thought that i would have to weather
all my ugly parts alone,
you used to be just down the phone.
i never used to hide from you
and now it seems you want me to-
but i've spent years with my gun down
it's hard to pick it off the ground.
*-maybe i'll close my eyes instead
and un-remember what you said.*
Dec 19, 2014
Dec 19, 2014 at 7:16 PM UTC
Think positive
*Have you learned nothing about
me?*
Have you learned nothing of me?
-.-
Fire with fire... Questions with questions
*Smoke with ashes, I'll smother
you -.-*
After nine lashes, you've nothing better to do?
*Before your funeral, you've got
nothing better to say?*
Inhibitions compensated, though so futile. Bury yourself beneath your yesterdays.
*Trial and error, yet so naive.
Through your mistakes and
heartaches, you still
overcompensate.*
Smiling through tears, and tearing through smiles? What do you fear--everything prior, or just one more trial?
*Been crying through the pain
for far too long. I fear...
Simply everything, to avoid
the hurt, why is that so wrong?*
Not wrong, but you hold doubt where hope belongs. Don't wallow in the dirt, or hold on to this morning's dawn.
*But where I should see hope,
there's only despair. I'm not
wallowing, simply realistic. It's
really not fair, to assume I'm
being over dramatic.*
Learn to cope when people are unfair. Try hallowing what you know's simplistic. There's much in the air, besides the cruelness of fanatics.
*But the evil is overwhelming,
it truly surrounds me, in my
mind and my heart.
Sometimes, I can't help but
fall apart...*
When the Devil is swelling, his doings unruly, and it all mounts on you, know there is kindness. Just part with the bad times and take the goodness to heart.
Nov 13, 2014
Nov 13, 2014 at 8:37 PM UTC
Once we were laying in a field
in the early hours of the morning
with dummies in our beds
without screens in our windows
I think he was crying or maybe I was
I asked him what sadness felt like
he whispered
"hollow, hollow, hollow."
Sep 2, 2014
Sep 2, 2014 at 1:29 AM UTC