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i don't even remember the last time i thought of loving you purely i don't even remember the last time i wanted to be in a room with you but surely its not going to be the last time where i don't want to be near you nor is it ever the last time i wanted to peak at you at a full view you make me sick to my stomach, my very essence and my bones nor the last time i want to not listen to your excessive yapping, put on my headphones you question why i don't ever want to go and be at your home but i don't ever want to make a church filled with lies, the best of them forms a dome but why would i go home when i don't even feel like i have one because every time we see each other all my instincts tell me to run because i don't feel like i can be myself when you stay around what the point in living my life if i'l just be forced to be your clown oh sure you think you are superior because the almighty gave you the right but that's not the truth because victors always makes a point to out write to exaggerate their superiority because they won one fight society makes hierarchies so overrated, it just gets so boring your blatant anger just makes me laugh, cause you just keep on roaring about how i bring nothing worth of note, honestly that just has me snoring but who between us has degraded me, beaten me and that name spare me your philosophies, you don't the things those things you claim you consider me a hypocrite but aren't you just the same honestly it is just such too much, a **** honest shame at least i admit to myself when i am wrong, accepted that i have ill fame but i at least have the audacity to have a head full of shame i wonder how the hell are we connected to each other in this life did i do something so terrible back then that i have to live with this strife? you ignore my struggles, you would tell me that your life was hard but to compare my hardships to your, its as if you claim to disregard that we don't live the same life, i didn't have what you had that time you never get tired of telling me that, you just have to win arguments everytime this is why i don't like coming home, everything feels perverse you raise your voice at any time, each and every sound released as a curse if it wasn't for the things we share together, there would be nothing to coerce me to come and see you and try to avoid conflict, change every verse of everything i say and feel when i'm around you, i rehearse because i don't want to let me have a headache or make everything worse i still remember the crushing pain of every touch, every word and every mark all because i moved or acted and spoke in a way that seemed like a bark but is it wrong for me to want to defend myself, let alone say a remark all i ever wanted was for you to understand my side of the story but all you see is the threats i pose for speaking out like its defamatory but apparently you don't care because sole control to you is mandatory i keep looking at the days when i knew i loved you beyond reason but all you know is to put me down like some common prisoner in trial for treason i just wanna escape your depravity, i want to change the seasons because i already know myself that i already have too many reasons time is always ticking in an hourglass, i have no more time for games and for silly treasons i'm so tired of this ride we are in, we only keep spinning round and round i just wanna leave this all behind, stop my tears from falling and my lips from making a sound you and i both know that this is the way it ends, both of us will go down its already on fire and we watch us burn, this silly game will become our burial mound i'm letting go i'm going away, i don't care if you stay behind and drown burn in the fires you have made yourself, suffer by yourself in your little playground i don't want to keep living life as if its just spinning continously in a blur the life i want is the life where i can live freely, where i can be what i prefer where my choices are the ones blooming, choices that i concur so i'll stop watching you tear yourself into pieces, i'll walk away i'll forget all traces of you, clear the space you occupy without delay i'll start living my life remembering this beautiful epiphany starting today
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Apr 6, 2020
Apr 6, 2020 at 2:02 PM UTC
kyliet
depravity
i don't even remember the last time i thought of loving you purely i don't even remember the last time i wanted to be in a room with you but surely its not going to be the last time where i don't want to be near you nor is it ever the last time i wanted to peak at you at a full view you make me sick to my stomach, my very essence and my bones nor the last time i want to not listen to your excessive yapping, put on my headphones you question why i don't ever want to go and be at your home but i don't ever want to make a church filled with lies, the best of them forms a dome but why would i go home when i don't even feel like i have one because every time we see each other all my instincts tell me to run because i don't feel like i can be myself when you stay around what the point in living my life if i'l just be forced to be your clown oh sure you think you are superior because the almighty gave you the right but that's not the truth because victors always makes a point to out write to exaggerate their superiority because they won one fight society makes hierarchies so overrated, it just gets so boring your blatant anger just makes me laugh, cause you just keep on roaring about how i bring nothing worth of note, honestly that just has me snoring but who between us has degraded me, beaten me and that name spare me your philosophies, you don't the things those things you claim you consider me a hypocrite but aren't you just the same honestly it is just such too much, a **** honest shame at least i admit to myself when i am wrong, accepted that i have ill fame but i at least have the audacity to have a head full of shame i wonder how the hell are we connected to each other in this life did i do something so terrible back then that i have to live with this strife? you ignore my struggles, you would tell me that your life was hard but to compare my hardships to your, its as if you claim to disregard that we don't live the same life, i didn't have what you had that time you never get tired of telling me that, you just have to win arguments everytime this is why i don't like coming home, everything feels perverse you raise your voice at any time, each and every sound released as a curse if it wasn't for the things we share together, there would be nothing to coerce me to come and see you and try to avoid conflict, change every verse of everything i say and feel when i'm around you, i rehearse because i don't want to let me have a headache or make everything worse i still remember the crushing pain of every touch, every word and every mark all because i moved or acted and spoke in a way that seemed like a bark but is it wrong for me to want to defend myself, let alone say a remark all i ever wanted was for you to understand my side of the story but all you see is the threats i pose for speaking out like its defamatory but apparently you don't care because sole control to you is mandatory i keep looking at the days when i knew i loved you beyond reason but all you know is to put me down like some common prisoner in trial for treason i just wanna escape your depravity, i want to change the seasons because i already know myself that i already have too many reasons time is always ticking in an hourglass, i have no more time for games and for silly treasons i'm so tired of this ride we are in, we only keep spinning round and round i just wanna leave this all behind, stop my tears from falling and my lips from making a sound you and i both know that this is the way it ends, both of us will go down its already on fire and we watch us burn, this silly game will become our burial mound i'm letting go i'm going away, i don't care if you stay behind and drown burn in the fires you have made yourself, suffer by yourself in your little playground i don't want to keep living life as if its just spinning continously in a blur the life i want is the life where i can live freely, where i can be what i prefer where my choices are the ones blooming, choices that i concur so i'll stop watching you tear yourself into pieces, i'll walk away i'll forget all traces of you, clear the space you occupy without delay i'll start living my life remembering this beautiful epiphany starting today
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