#usedto
I used to be such a beautiful delicate Rose, now all I am is dead Rose that has been Wilting in the winds of disappointment/stress and solace.
I used to look at myself in the mirror 🪞 and be happy with what I see, a beautiful girl with long spiral curly hair along with a nice slim figure and beautiful beautiful big brown coffee eyes. All I see now is a used to be beautiful girl that went from an 8 to a 4, her big brown eyes became smaller, her nice slim figure is thicker, and her long textured hair became nothing... Relationships, the 🌎, and people can damage you. Most importantly.. YOU can damage you. Putting others before your happiness will destroy you. Since I was a little girl I was putting people before me at all times; I wish someone would of taught me to love myself the way you're supposed.
I used to be such a kind soul. Still am but my eyes and my glow are not as bright anymore. It has dimmed down to depression, anxiety, and introversion what makes me seem like a monster... The people I gave/give my heart to and my all to are the same people (including myself) that made me into the dead Rose I see today. I just want to see my glowing light shine nice and bright...
🥀
Like it used to.
Aug 11, 2023
Aug 11, 2023 at 8:35 AM UTC
you used to dream in moody lit bars
raise your glass
higher
and higher
each time.
you used to live in tricolors
gleaming across the atmosphere
all
at once.
you used to shine brighter than the sun
but your light dimmed
darker
and darker
every time.
i know you aren’t ok anymore, but i really wish you were
Aug 6, 2022
Aug 6, 2022 at 11:16 PM UTC
When sadness came as a raging river
I used to reach into my trusty quiver
To pull out the Arrow made of honey
and heal the wounds that were fresh and ******
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Now, when sadness comes, I have no defense
The quiver was lost and it made no sense
Now my wounds are sore and bleeding
That honeyed Arrow was an arrow fleeting...
Apr 9, 2021
Apr 9, 2021 at 2:19 PM UTC
Losing my **** over you is an understatement,
that's something a person like you would do,
not me honey.
Feb 4, 2019
Feb 4, 2019 at 3:00 PM UTC
You've been gone for so long
Or maybe it was I this time.
It's hard to say that I'm wrong,
when I've just wanted to be right.
As you light your cigarette,
does it taste like things used to?
It all change so suddenly,
but that's what it's supposed to do.
Orders meant to be followed, not taken.
Maybe all the words exchanged were just mistaken.
You can't say thank you if your mouth's already full.
Pretending you aren't broken doesn't fill the hole,
But creating false presentation does grow old.
Dec 9, 2016
Dec 9, 2016 at 12:44 PM UTC
Perhaps,
the
most
saddest
thing
you
can
hear
someone
say
is
"I'm used to it."
Jul 7, 2015
Jul 7, 2015 at 1:55 AM UTC
Just
to
let
you
know
that
these
days
I
don't
miss
you
like
I
used
to
miss
you
Feb 24, 2015
Feb 24, 2015 at 10:59 AM UTC
Why don't you love *me anymore?
I understand why other people don't*,
*But you did
O n c e.*
Dec 17, 2014
Dec 17, 2014 at 5:55 AM UTC