#unhealthyrelationship
I smoke your lies
With guilty highs
You shape my hate
Into tiny sighs
You call me insane
Coloring the rain
Your love is constant
But so is the pain
You fell in love with
The ways that I hurt
Self destruction
So what am I worth?
You bring out the worst in me
But you're all that I have
Fighting us helplessly
How long will I last?
Mar 31, 2021
Mar 31, 2021 at 7:58 PM UTC
I still don’t know the color of your eyes
They go from gray to green to blue
You like cold showers and clear skies
And I like crawling into you
I get so caught up in the endless sea
I don’t notice when my lips turn blue
The psychedelics take over me
My fingertips numb from touching you
A violet girl with tangerine dreams
Can’t ever pull off those shades of blue
My tired blue boy in baby blue jeans
I almost dyed for you
Apr 27, 2020
Apr 27, 2020 at 11:46 PM UTC
I refuse to be the puppet
That you dangle on the string,
I refuse to be the person
You always count on for things.
I refuse to have everything
Dumped on me,
I refuse to always be the one
Begging on her knees.
I refuse to be lied to,
Purposefully ignored;
I refuse to be the one
Who is left out in the storm.
I refuse to be left out as refuse;
Worthless, forgotten trash
That you threw out your window,
Scattering my soul to ash.
Apr 19, 2019
Apr 19, 2019 at 4:09 PM UTC
Hurry up please
Don’t leave me in suspense
I know it’s coming
I’m used to your habits now
So spit it out
Quick and clear as you can
Tell me your lie
So I can leave again
Then prepare myself
To come back for more.
Oct 12, 2018
Oct 12, 2018 at 2:35 PM UTC
you turned me into a flower
beautiful to hold
and easy to cut down
spun my silk skin
into a blanket
just to keep you warm
set me on fire
just to watch me burn
left me ash and rubble
but I came out
phoenix and scarlet beauty
I came out
steel and armor heart
- Try to break me now
Sep 18, 2018
Sep 18, 2018 at 4:29 PM UTC
“I love you, but your laugh is so weird!”
“I love you, but you shouldn’t have
Failed that test.”
“I love you, but you shouldn’t go out in
That ugly dress.”
“I love you, but why is your car so *****
“I love you, but please at least try not to snore?”
“I love you, but keep your distance, okay?”
“I love you, but stop getting so
Worked up about things!”
“I love you, but your anxiety is hurting me.”
“I love you, but I don’t think this is
Going to work out.”
This is all my ears hear, but
My heart doesn’t hear it, comprehend it.
I just want you to know,
“I love you, but I’m not sure if I should.”
Jun 30, 2018
Jun 30, 2018 at 2:09 PM UTC
our souls struggled
to share the spotlight,
but oh...
when our demons danced,
it made the very sky jealous;
we were stars brighter than any night had known before.
May 19, 2018
May 19, 2018 at 2:30 AM UTC