#unfathomable
Is this what love was meant to be?
This overwhelming feeling in your company
Undeniably true, unfathomably right
Becoming my everything in the blink of an eye
How is every touch so perfectly placed
Mindful and distinct
Yet absent-mindedly performed
Like second nature
Every word written or uttered from your lips
Fills my heart to burst
You've been fulfilling my young girl fantasies
Those of which I never thought could be brought into this reality
When you ask me, "where did you come from?"
While staring into my eyes, bewildered
Or breathlessly gasp, "what the ****
During and after every passionate night
Every time I'd blow your mind
Knowledge of some obscure childhood memory you hold dear
I was there to share it
Though I was nowhere near
Our beginning started on a shattered base
Each of us unaware that the other
Was precisely meant to be in this place
Convoluted events leading us here
At the same time
For our beginning
It's been 4 years in the making, you and I
And even longer than that still
A perfect set of circumstances
That it took to reveal
You're what I've been wanting
You're what I've been seeking
I'm what you've been yearning for
I'm what you've been needing
May we continue to grow this happiness
Grow this family
Meld these lives
Expand our spirits
I cannot explain why I feel this way
But I promise to love you every day
Sep 13, 2023
Sep 13, 2023 at 10:57 AM UTC
Do I still take your breath away or has that power expired?
Leave me to my own devices because I’m growing tired
And for a little while you lead me to believe you’re done
Until the moment I start losing interest in which direction your feet run
And I say I no longer care but we both know it isn’t true
Honestly I do not give a ****
About anything except you
The only thing ricocheting against my set of bones
Is your name bouncing like drumsticks on xylophones
For once I get to perform our song
Music to my lonely ears
Skeleton an instrument producing every note brain hears
Have my mutilated perception record melody
When finished play it over so I can sing off-key
And leave on your doorstep to remind you of what we had
When I am done realize I still feel just as sad
And screams bottled up press on the walls of my insides
Threatening to expose the place heartache hides
Slide shapeless secrets even deeper down the slope
Drowning damaged moments in a mess of distraction and dope
One
Two
Three
I count numbers to ground racing thoughts
Break the anxious flow in a failed attempt to untangle mental knots
I will go to extreme lengths to relieve madness in my mind
Waiting for comfort desperately needed but can never seem to find
And my own flesh torments with mocking memories
Using tattooed ink for leverage to ridicule and tease
A traitor amongst body parts equally writhing in despair
Breath inhaling solitude coursing through the stagnant air
Lifeless eyes exhausted from overwhelming cruelty they view
You put up careful facades but ******** is easy to see through
X-rays of faithful adoration reveal commitment a disguise
Well-rehearsed remorse when stripped is nothing more than lies
And crumpled promises fill the trash can with empty words you said
Same old disappointment cuts
Blood staining hands bright red
Stomach full of excuses violently crammed down my throat
Those plus dead butterflies swell causing my tummy to bloat
My heart now lies in throbbing pieces scattered across bottom of my soul
In the exact spot you used to reside within my chest is now an unfathomable hole
Dec 23, 2020
Dec 23, 2020 at 2:54 AM UTC
We seek for an excuse impatiently,
To keep living our life freely;
To endure the dreadful scene intrepidly,
Fraught with the mess, doom, and jeopardy.
A dark, infectious, virus may it be;
Unfathomable, and obscure seemingly
We are unaware of it wholly.
We wish to get out from this trouble,
So as to wake up on a bright day;
After it, we would have learnt
To face our reality as humans together.
We need these kinds of tragedies,
For them to remind us of our humanness.
Mar 29, 2020
Mar 29, 2020 at 12:19 PM UTC
Sometimes I feel like I am just a supporting character
A sidekick in someone else's unfathomable destiny
Maybe that's why I am the poet, and not the muse
Feb 19, 2019
Feb 19, 2019 at 11:10 PM UTC
The human mind can't fathom infinity.
Yet,
when I'm alone with you,
infinity doesn't seem so unfathomable.
Sep 13, 2018
Sep 13, 2018 at 12:53 AM UTC
A tight pressure gathers in my chest as they approach and I feel a fear in my heart that's never been there before, My heart..
"RUN!"
They're even closer to me now and it's to late to turn back now. They're arms are outreached almost surrounding me, My mind..
"STAY!"
I vigorously lash out and shout. I don't deserve or want such an honor. I have to distance myself now! Or else I'm stuck. The arms close in on me and wrap around me tightly, I can't breathe. My mind..
"PAIN!"
Warmth. It greets your body with a oozing presence. My heart beats fast, and my mind lines up to start racing. I fall into the welcoming sensation, bringing it's youthful taste. My heart...
"LOVE!"
Jun 6, 2018
Jun 6, 2018 at 1:12 PM UTC
It's Not Your
Lips I Taste
When We Kiss.
It's Not Your
Corporal Odour
Salved To My Soils.
Its Your Subliminal Essence
By My Core Being Drenched.
May 18, 2017
May 18, 2017 at 1:27 AM UTC
what is it when every time witness your image.. minutes feeling like forever, when i know everything is finished. reflections may not be as vibrant as they use to be, you know everything seem to turns translucent. lucid, but losing what it exactly meant to an extent. lingering somewhere rather known dwelling deep inside. let alone all i confided just a piece is missing, when it comes to reminiscing. i know it doesn't make any difference. past tense to present.. the significance lost its value.. its not a coincidence. just dont misrepresent
Jan 14, 2017
Jan 14, 2017 at 12:19 PM UTC
Under the spell of the milky way's surge
an illusion past a zillion light years,
among a million things dull and bright
flashing messages like crazy fireflies,
all the time demanding my attention,
how did, just you became my cynosure?
As I sit amazed like a kid on an ocean shore
foolishly start to analyze, without knowing
how to go about it, except dreaming in poetry,
my eyes catch the same galaxy in my veins
in your eyes churn, to catch the essence of this spell.
And I realize : you too are like me, puzzled
about this magical conspiracy of stellar configuarations
that make the star dust within us attract each other.
Sep 5, 2016
Sep 5, 2016 at 5:15 PM UTC
My pen and paper used to spawn fantasies
Imagery of happiness and sadness,
Random feelings I have never felt,
Emotions I have just thought of,
Made up stories of love and heartaches.
But now that you are here,
I know in my heart that my love is for real;
All words lost in an endless abyss of love -
Coz I know, no word could ever describe
This unfathomable love I have for you.
Aug 12, 2016
Aug 12, 2016 at 4:47 AM UTC
Silhouetted feathers, dipped in Unfathomable pain, rain inside my room.
And the monster under my bed has awoken again. Feeding on my mind and the emotions I emulate
His cold, dead, hands wrapped around my brain
I can hear his voice inside my head his wondering thoughts keep me cold like bed sheets
Sometimes I wonder
If these walls could speak
What would they say after catching wind of everything they've absorbed
When I yelled my rage, distress, and disbelief at them
Sometimes I wonder,
If this ceiling had eyes
could it see
Me in a bipolar state of mind
as I write in this notebook
my moments of sadness, malice, and agony
Sometimes I wonder
If these walls were alive
have I slowly been watching them die
As I stabbed them a million times
With my lingering thoughts
And if these walls could walk
Would they walk away and leave me here
In such a lonely world
laying in my bed drowning in this shame
Buried in bones
As the skeletons inside my closet
dance above my body, & soul
in this rain made of nostalgic feathers
And the monster under my bed has replaced the monster inside my head.
Jan 9, 2016
Jan 9, 2016 at 7:11 PM UTC
I could never fathom
Why she chose to love you
In subtle shadows
Where she was but invisible
I could never fathom
Why she let herself
Drown in bed, thinking of you
But not tell you so
I could never fathom
Why she kept her words
Forever dreaming
She has said all to you
I could never fathom
Why she draws a line
When in truth, she, o she
Wants to cross and be with you
But mostly,
I could never fathom
Why you said you'll wait for her
But threw her heart
And gave yours to someone else
I could never fathom
Why you made her feel
Everything was real but
Forget it all after she left
I could never fathom
Why now she is a secret lover
Who can freely live and love another
But won't bother to do so anyway
I could never fathom
Why she chose to love you.
I could never fathom
Why I chose to love you
Oct 20, 2015
Oct 20, 2015 at 4:11 AM UTC
I know I am not
But oh, how I long to be
Yours, and yours alone.
Oct 2, 2015
Oct 2, 2015 at 12:06 AM UTC
(a tribute to all mothers)
When loved ones go ahead of us,
people say, "They're home,
in a better place, safe from harm...."
When a child's life is cut short,
it is most often said, he, or she is "...better off that way
better dead... saved from hovering perils..."
and more comforting words
spoken softly......repeatedly
to help us cope with loss, with sorrow.
But, a mother in pain...bereft...defiant.. still asks:
"Who are we to say, a child is safer,
away from his, or her mother's loving care?"
a mother's love knows no bounds,
she would keep watch, with a vulture's eyes
until her sick child makes it through the night
she would climb any mountain
brave all that would stand in her way
just to keep her child safe, happy and contented
The life of her child is all that matters to her.
A mother feels a stab on her chest
when her child refuses her love and care
and chooses to stay away from home
how could a mother be inflicted with such immeasurable pain?
she dies a thousand times
her suffering heart is soaked in tears
it comes to a point when she cries without tears,
because, she loves without questions asked
she loves without complaining
because,
a mother's love is unconditional
a mother's love is an ocean...unfathomable
A mother's grieving heart could sometimes be blind,
in denial...cold...stubborn, in her non-acceptance,
though weary, she appears to be indefatigable,
never surrenders
even as she tries to walk on the water
even as she tries to walk, amidst the crowd...
(December 24, 2014)
Sally
Copyright December 2014
Rosalia Rosario A. Bayan
May 9, 2015
May 9, 2015 at 1:37 AM UTC
You were everything and nothing
All at once
An inspiration and a distraction
At the same time
A someone and a no one
In both ways
You are so frustrating
That I cannot fathom
Into straight-forward words
Enrich in strong phrases
And complete into a sentence
Jan 23, 2015
Jan 23, 2015 at 2:49 AM UTC
Infinities and unfathomables
Unseeables and unthinkables
They want the unachievable
But all I ask in this transcient state
Is a tiny forever
Just within the confines of possibility
Just outside the realm of reality
Right in the center of your soul.
Jan 17, 2015
Jan 17, 2015 at 12:49 AM UTC
Vivid forget me nots feign sleep,
their tired eyes tinged pink.
The soap and chlorine
at Lyme Regis bay
doth stand to make me think
About the way the rushes grow
and what lurks amount the reeds,
what gently dazzles
behind closed doors
and what we doth concede.
Is the laurel leaf unfathomable?
Is nature that way too?
For I feel that I don't understand
what every body seems to.
The humbled bumbles rumbled buzz
Satin saints upon our door
We wonder what was here,
And what was there before.
The streaming stained glass
waterfalls, were they always there?
The sickled moon stands amorous,
clotted clouds about his hair.
Stately sit the beaded stars
in a wash of sky,
And still I sit, Still I sit,
Sit and wonder why.
Apr 16, 2014
Apr 16, 2014 at 3:24 PM UTC