#undecided
On this Birthday,
The snow fell,
The tree withered.
Is this for good?
Or for bad?
On this birthday,
The omen was undecided,
Leaving a faint trace of doubt.
On this birthday,
A warrior was born,
But also a saintess,
And something even more.
Who can find out the meaning of this,
Good for some, is evil for others,
While bad for some, is good for others.
Let this child decide her faith then.
And let the rest be left to faith.
Dec 20, 2025
Dec 20, 2025 at 5:40 AM UTC
For a moment I thought
it was a butterfly,
the yellow and orange leaf
that took flight from the swishing poplar tree
across my balcony.
It swayed and fluttered in excitement –
here and there, up and down,
undecided if right or left,
to the ground or up to the sky –
Should I stay or should I go?
What to make of perceived options
when you lose your wings to know
that gravity always wins?
And ultimately to the ground
with or without wings.
Jul 29, 2025
Jul 29, 2025 at 3:53 PM UTC
I could prate about how I feel
about you for days
until my words become
redundant and repetitive
I could prate endlessly
about how I hate you
or about how I love you
or about how I don't know how
I feel about you
as undecided as my feelings are
I could still prate about them
May 31, 2025
May 31, 2025 at 4:21 PM UTC
I'm trapped, it feels endless
Drowning in my own thoughts
Is the path I've chosen the right one?
Have I taken a wrong turn?
Then why do I see no light ahead?
So many pebbles disturbing steps
So many exhausting uphill climbs
Is the destiny I hold onto just an illusion?
Will The dream I proudly share fade into mere memories?
I've wandered this far,
God, guide me through my doubts.
Mar 3, 2025
Mar 3, 2025 at 11:14 AM UTC
A heart divided;
Twice more than breath and dust gave life.
To breathe and love pain,
Both of one, and two minds.
A fickle ocean tide
That rises and falls upon the moon,
Leaving the waves of last thought
To stir the murky surface.
Like embers burn, beneath the ash
The calm reflection of indecision,
Caught perilously perched
Between success and disaster.
The thought thought, and un-thought
To hide the answer from the words.
Repeated and changed over drifting time,
The roving heart beneath my chest.
Will it stop?
Or better yet,
Would I let it?
Then take this from my foolish heart.
Set the path before my feet
And light the lamps along the way,
To make a stand
And keep a vow.
Sep 15, 2024
Sep 15, 2024 at 7:23 PM UTC
That road I planned
Is merely a plan.
No dent, no mark,
No foot print of mine.
A clean canvass
With no acrylic colors,
An untouched paper
Without a sketch.
Sometimes I think
What road should it be.
Mine or theirs,
What should it be.
I go with mine,
I'll be happy
Right?
May 2, 2022
May 2, 2022 at 2:21 AM UTC
Life is at my fingertips.
I have ever decision to make on my own.
I can do anything and everything,
yet I've never felt so alone.
I want the control taken from me,
but I want to feel in control.
It sounds bipolar, and vague,
but truthfully,
I want nothing but to lay in bed.
I want to ponder on hours on end,
without thinking of what might've been.
My life lies at the edge of the world,
where no one dares to approach.
Still, I must venture on,
and somehow,
make my legacy be told.
Apr 30, 2020
Apr 30, 2020 at 3:48 AM UTC
High school
Either
The best or
Worst days
Of your life
It’s still to be decided for me
Apr 16, 2019
Apr 16, 2019 at 9:22 AM UTC
I don't want to learn how to live without you, coz if i do, i'll be an expert at it
Apr 6, 2019
Apr 6, 2019 at 2:01 PM UTC
Sometimes I feel invisible.
My surroundings consist of barrier reefs
And schools of exotic fish.
I am just a guppy in saltwater.
Out of place and out of mind.
And yet visible and more than often declined.
Where do I belong?
In freshwater or the sea?
Why must life be so hard for a saltwater guppy like me?
Mar 26, 2019
Mar 26, 2019 at 10:42 PM UTC
I told him I was tired
He asked, "of what?"
I said, "Everything"
He told me to erase it from my mind
"Including us?" I asked.
Mar 12, 2019
Mar 12, 2019 at 7:01 PM UTC
Limbo is my company this night
One plate empty, one plate not
Struggling to find an outlet to release my demons
Alone when faced with my best friend’s hubris
Limbo is where I want to hang on
I cannot foresee if there is a morrow at dawn
To wait, truth is no longer relevant per se
All my defenses and arguments withdrawn
Limbo is not a permanent home
But that’s from I can’t seem to move on
One plate empty one plate not
I deign to leave but I dare to roam
Mar 3, 2019
Mar 3, 2019 at 3:50 AM UTC
Here I am again
Another lost prayer from Solace
Hands folded, but trembling
Lips shaking and eyes closed
Muttering to myself
A list of regrets
At my bedside
Paying off my debts
The longer I speak
To that wall in front of me
The more I feel
My elbows sink into the sheets
And with each passing statement
The heavier my arms are
With the guilt of knowing
How I came so far
Fingers now intertwined
Gripping tightly at my skin
Biting my lips, trying not to scream
Blood dripping down, splashing on my knuckles
As the tears roll down my cheeks
And my hands collect my blood
My mind goes almost completely blank
My blood turns dark like mud
Arms now limp at my side
Face down in the sheets
My eyes snap shut
and my heart skips
I feel it against the bedside
The metronome of my chest
But sadly it won't last much longer
It's time for me to rest
Because in the world we've created
When your heart stops you haven't died
But when your faith is crumbling away
This hypocritical world turns
If you're not sitting in those pews
Every Sunday morning
I'm here to beckon a call
Maybe just a forewarning
I've witness firsthand
How people turn evil
The kindest preacher you'll ever meet
Has the sharpest knife
And as my heart finally stops
I feel a wave of solace
A light and gentle smile appears
This black void is flawless
Jul 11, 2018
Jul 11, 2018 at 5:56 AM UTC
...I LOVE YOU
the way you make me smile is the greatest
You are my sunny days amongst the greyest
You make me laugh like no other
I am the happiest when we're together
...I LOVE YOU NOT
You are a **** ******* and a selfish guy
you say I don't change, at least I try
There are days I don't ever stop crying
My sanity slowly dying
...I LOVE YOU
My dear to other couples they cant compare
We live our lives without a care
They can only wish and dream to be like us
Power couple like Bonnie and Clyde once was
...I LOVE YOU NOT
I am sick and tired of this ******** and fighting
you say you tell me the truth, I know you're lying
You love me one day an then you don't
leaves me wondering should I leave you alone
...I LOVE YOU
...I LOVE YOU NOT
...I LOVE YOU
...I LOVE YOU NOT
......
Mar 11, 2018
Mar 11, 2018 at 7:34 AM UTC
I like you
Is it because you're a pretty boy?
Is it because you got the profession I'm working on?
Is it because you also love cats and other things I want?
Is it because you are a good guy?
Is it because we got closer everyday we talk?
Or is it because I know I can never have as my man.
Coz you are not sure if you want someone like me or someone like you.
Oct 27, 2017
Oct 27, 2017 at 7:46 AM UTC
Conditioned into silence, out of fear of violence we shut our mouths to avoid the pain, the pain that won't and can't go away.
We are divided, our beliefs undecided, our true thoughts in hiding, we are like puppets miming.
Sep 7, 2016
Sep 7, 2016 at 6:16 PM UTC
It is strange. Life is strange.
To think that you are this person.
This amazing, gifted person.
That you are able to see the light through darkness.
That you are able to see stars when the clouds have wrecked their havoc upon this ground.
The belief that you are something more.
The belief that your pieces create more than just a pretty picture.
But in reality you're not.
Because all you ever were was sorry.
And it's still not good enough.
Aug 20, 2016
Aug 20, 2016 at 6:18 AM UTC
Left or right? Where will I go?
Up or down? Where will I be?
Living with a limited timeline,
When will I grow?
May 27, 2016
May 27, 2016 at 3:28 AM UTC
I've found myself lost,
Drifting around in a
Series of complex caverns,
Spinning from one dead end
To another inside the
Terrible length of tunnels
In which I've found myself.
This maze of which I can't escape,
I cannot decide which way to go
I do not know
Which way is out,
And how do I choose,
What way to cruise,
Left or right?
I cannot tell,
Wouldn't someone ring the bell?
Break this spell,
That keeps me dazed,
Unfazed inside my jail,
Which is my mind.
I'm trapped in a bind,
It is now time,
I've not gotten ready,
I'm not prepared,
My legs aren't steady,
My heart is scared.
Where do I want to go or be?
Here or there?
Sep 30, 2015
Sep 30, 2015 at 10:12 AM UTC
It was a very long time before I was with her awhile ago.
I missed her a lot like, I don't want to let her go.
But we separated and it's a thing.
Yet, I feel differently happy like undefined something.
She was just my best-friend for you to know.
But, I feel different for her and I don't know.
This feeling strange that I can't show.
I feel like she's something I don't wanna let go.
I couldn't make a move even make a sound about it.
I was too shy, too nervous to admit it.
This feeling never lost ever since so long.
Every-time I get in touched with her my heart beats so strong.
She's the one I've been waiting for.
She's the one I adore.
She's means a lot me.
She's the one I want to be forever with me.
Am I in love with my best-friend?
Sep 12, 2015
Sep 12, 2015 at 12:19 PM UTC
people like you drive me away
to a heaven and hell of a place
a burning feeling that I'm in heaven
yet sometimes I mistake that feelin'
just tell me what you think
of me and you
is that a possibility
we both are thinking I know I know
well I want to know that I really do
but what the way I'm thinking
is we need to talk
what's this turning into
I could just stop and let you decide
but there's this mighty wind inside
don't listen to society
"you take charge" they say
but when I do it folds everything in place
for a while
I don't see smiles from you
and I. was smiling while you were blue
I had no worries but when they came
I realized how I am such a shame
May 31, 2015
May 31, 2015 at 1:02 AM UTC