#turnaround
To go so far
And turn around
To take a step forward
And take two steps back
Ambition lost
Courage faltering
And you...
You just keep going
Leaving me reaching and falling short
Feb 2, 2024
Feb 2, 2024 at 2:35 AM UTC
Hey Mom,
I just wanted to tell you about the amazing day I am having. First, I woke up to water dripping on me, as if the leaky roof were trying to improve the lumpy bed by giving it a good soak- when the brochure said I “would feel closer to nature more than ever,” I didn't think it meant so literal. After salvaging some semi-dry clothes, I went outside to realize my car window had been broken into. It was dumb of me for leaving my laptop bag in the car when I got in last night, I was just so exhausted from the drive. Well, you know how I get when I get upset, so I chunked my phone, as if it was the one causing my great morning. It landed in some bushes, and after wrestling with the branches for a bit, I finally saw him. Not even ten feet away from my phone did I see the most beautiful pelican. Something about his simple eyes, looking at me with some mixture of boredom and apathy, made me realize where I was. The cool air filled my lungs, leaving smell of salt in my nose. The sand I was sitting in was warm from the sun, feeling like that cozy quilt grandma made for me years ago.
So yeah, today was an amazing day.
With Love,
Chris
Sep 15, 2021
Sep 15, 2021 at 11:39 AM UTC
Just because you don't have someone
By your side doesn't mean
you're alone.
Close your eyes.
Turn around.
When you open your eyes,
Tears might fall when you see
All the people who have watched you grow.
Feb 18, 2020
Feb 18, 2020 at 7:17 PM UTC
When things come around
And make a change in your life
Turnaround and see
Turnaround and wait
Sometimes you are not ready
Sometimes they are sad
Turnaround and act
Acting on the turnaround
Is often very hard...!
Brian Hill - 2019 # 165
Jul 5, 2019
Jul 5, 2019 at 9:38 AM UTC
You are the moon
Dark and lonely
and looking for a friend
And I am the star
sitting right behind you
Praying for you to turn around
Oct 31, 2018
Oct 31, 2018 at 2:26 PM UTC
but can it be transformed?
can the piles of bones form waves
and crash into beauteous palettes of marble?
can the deepening cracks in the concrete
be filled from the top and forgotten?
i think they would reappear much sooner.
lately it’s been good to think
and once the mind has wandered off
does it have the courage to stay lost?
because i think it’s funny –
the pain of trying to hard to find a place –
consumes the soul much more, it seems,
than thriving in the uncertainty
of being content while still feeling lost.
can the wires be untangled
if the ends are saudered shut?
can we pull apart the fibers
and recreate landscapes we thought
were places we’d like to visit.
i don’t want to believe the places i’ll find
are perfect mirrors at this point in time
and my arrival will shatter the equilibrium
but if that turns out,
i will hold my breath
and put the pieces back in a mosaic
and color the shards with my tears.
Jul 9, 2017
Jul 9, 2017 at 4:53 PM UTC
Contemplating suicidal thoughts
Making plans
Setting locations
Not caring what happens
Broken
Hurt
Alone
Words that ran through my head
A broken record of past events
Events that killed me inside
Ripped me to shreads
Discarded my carcass
And left me
Remembering last words of those who hate me
Words that haugnt my thoughts
Stalk my actions
Break my soul
People who caused me so much misery
Can rest easy now
Free of a burden
Free of me
A light shines through
My thoughts soften
My actions cease
I hold my head up
My heart pounds
I felt the warmth
I stand strong
Feel my saddness melt
My emotions concentrate on one thing
people who do care
I'm not alone
I never was
I have people who care
When I break
When I cry
When I fall
They soothe me
Pick me up
Make me believe I will be alright
People who love me
Want me here
Need me here
Friends who would miss me
Cry when I left
Die when I was gone
Family who loves me
Cares for me
Won't let me go
I stand
Letting go
Letting go of my enimies
Of their hate
Their problems
I stand
Proud of myself
Alive and well
Mar 12, 2014
Mar 12, 2014 at 10:12 AM UTC
Some roads you shouldn't go down
Maps use to say that's where dragons would be found
Now they don't, but that doesn't mean
The dragons aren't still there, just unseen
So on some roads you shouldn't go down
On some roads you should just turn around
May 7, 2016
May 7, 2016 at 6:15 AM UTC
Some roads you shouldn't go down
Maps use to say that's where dragons would be found
Now they don't, but that doesn't mean
The dragons aren't still there, just unseen
So on some roads you should just turn around
Mar 6, 2016
Mar 6, 2016 at 10:46 AM UTC
Me who wears leggings in the heat
Me whose boyfriend has a smile that can't be beat
Me who hides scars embedded deep in my wrists
Me who wants so badly to be missed
Me who goes on isolated walks
Me who never talks
Me who loves to be kissed
Me who has wished
Me who doesn't belong
Me who is wrong
Me who is cared for
Me who they adore
Me who is needed
Me who was pleaded
Me who was kissed
Me who will be missed
Me
Sep 1, 2015
Sep 1, 2015 at 9:18 PM UTC
I know what it's like
to see the other point of view
on life
You love it now
but you won't later
It hurts you
There is no one you can trust
On the other side
So please turn back around again
Jun 7, 2015
Jun 7, 2015 at 9:18 PM UTC