#truestory
What can I write about California
sun
rocks
sand
blooming flowers year-round
waxy succulents of every size
determined shrubs with thorn-like twigs
What can I write about the soothing clicking of palm leaves rustling in the wind
bold seagulls
spying
searching
soaring
dark fins of dolphins
slipping through rolling blue-green water
water stretching past the horizon
What can I write about the soundtrack of crashing waves
a comforting affirmation whispered over and over
the cascading curves of water
like a woman twirling in a flowing skirt
trimmed with frothy white lace
What can I write about the tide
that pulls
and pulls
and pulls
How it seems to pull out my sorrow, my pain
How I am found when lost in its current
How this water lifts me
and I am a child
embraced by the strong arms of a fearless parent
How good it feels to be carried
to let go of making decisions, directing steps
let go of any destination
any time but this moment
to feel the need to control release its panicked grip on my heart
How this baptism tastes like salt
as I am engulfed in each wave
as I am reborn
rising from the water with a gasp
reborn sinless
free
© SincerelyJoanWrites
May 23
May 23, 2026 at 3:52 PM UTC
They say childhood lives in back gardens,
in scraped knees and dinner bells,
in front doors left open
and laughter down the stairs—
but mine lived under fluorescent lights
on Ward 10,
behind curtains that whispered
like walls pretending to be home.
I played hide and seek
between metal beds and quiet machines,
counting seconds in heartbeats,
laughing louder than the beeps
that watched over us.
Ward 10 was my playground,
its corridors my streets,
and every child there
was family for the time we had.
We weren’t supposed to run—
so we ran.
We weren’t supposed to wake each other—
so I did, whispering,
“come on, let’s play,”
like the night belonged to us.
And for a moment, it did.
A nurse would sit with me,
paper and pencil in hand,
turning homework into something softer,
like it wasn’t work at all
but time together.
She’d let me write my name—
crooked, unsure, mine—
then trace it back
so the world could read it clearly.
Someone always came around with toys,
with something to do,
so I wouldn’t feel the quiet too much.
And when the day was done,
they’d run me a bath—
bubbles rising like clouds
in a room that smelled clean,
not like fear.
Fresh pyjamas.
Warm water.
A small kind of peace.
I was mischievous—
always pushing the edges,
always smiling,
because there,
being a child didn’t feel like a risk.
I even had keys—
little bits of responsibility
that made me feel big,
like I belonged.
Like I mattered.
And maybe that’s the strangest part—
not that it was a hospital,
but that it was the first place
that felt like home.
No shouting through walls.
No waiting for something to go wrong.
No learning how to be small.
Just rooms filled with people
who showed up,
again and again,
without hurting me.
So yeah…
my happiest memories
live in a place most people fear.
But that’s because
it was the only place
I didn’t have to.
Ward 10.
Where I wasn’t just surviving—
I was a child.
Apr 26
Apr 26, 2026 at 12:09 PM UTC
***
Still That Boy
There once was a lad sat in Carlton town,
By an old oak tree where he’d often sit down,
Not lost in a daze—
But deep in his plays,
With whole other worlds spinning round.
I saw myself brave with a sword in my hand,
A knight riding strong through a faraway land,
Fighting dragons and flame,
For honour, not fame,
Doing things only dreamers had planned.
Then I’d turn to the sea with a shift of the day,
A pirate now sailing wherever I may,
Through storms I would steer,
With no sign of fear,
Captain of all in my way.
Travelling farther again—past the stars I would roam,
No longer on earth, no longer at home,
Through galaxies wide,
With courage as guide,
Finding places no one had known.
But I never stood there on my own in any fight,
There were others beside me, steady and right—
A wizard so wise,
A warrior who’d rise,
And a healer who carried the light.
Together we faced whatever would come,
Dark forces, hard roads—we never would run,
Each strength played its part,
Head, hands, and heart,
And somehow the battles we won.
But life has a way of quieting dreams,
Or making them smaller than how they once seemed,
I thought I’d outgrown
The worlds I had known,
And left them behind— merely dreams.
Till a time in my life when I felt off my feet,
Unsure of my path, not steady or sure,
And I reached back inside
Where those old voices hide,
And found the boy was still there.
Those heroes I made weren’t just in my head,
They were lessons in how I should walk where I tread,
Be brave when it’s tough,
Be kind when it’s rough,
Stand firm in the words that I said.
I picked it back up—not the sword, but the way,
Not the ship, but the choice of how I would stay,
Facing life as it came,
Still playing the same old game—
Just with real things that come each day.
Because truth is, that lad never really left me,
He still sits by that oak where the world used to be,
And when I write lines,
It’s his voice undermine—
Still shaping the man that you see.
Not a knight, not a pirate, not lost up in space—
Just a man trying hard to stand in his place,
With a bit of that fire,
That old, quiet desire,
And a boy— still writing truth through his voice.
Apr 15
Apr 15, 2026 at 7:54 AM UTC
"Marry me!" said she,
She had one eye... so reply:
"I choose death! thanx - bye!"
Mar 30
Mar 30, 2026 at 7:41 AM UTC
I’ve come unmoored
Unsure
Unfocused
Unsettled
I can’t decide the best path
In a landscape so new
Living in limbo
Wanting more
Wanting less
All at the same time
My past begs me to shut down
Pull back
Give up
Retreat
My scars whisper ominous predictions of future pain
More time together means certain doom
If he sees me more, he’ll see my flaws
And start to hate me
He’ll get mean
He’ll look at me with disgust
His irritation will boil over
The stakes feel too high
going through that a second time
would break me for good
I need to be good on my own
I am good on my own
But then those sweet moments of unalone
They crack open something inside me
Something I thought was lost
A need I am scared to face
What if the safety of solitude isn’t worth missing out on the highs of togetherness
As my one true love grows up
Needing me less and less
Wanting my time less and less
I’m desperate to fill that void
I feel myself floundering
But
I don’t believe in love
I don’t believe in love
I don’t believe in love
What do I need to anchor me in this world
Will I blow away, an insignificant leaf
if I don’t tie myself to a partner
I was flying high and free
Didn’t realize how cold I was
Until his warm arms held me
Like a divine lullaby
His voice vibrated against my cheek
The thrill of him wanting me
Woke up a need in me, an aching need
A need that unsettles me
And steals my sleep
And leaves me longing
for touch
for more
Can I continue to satisfy this need without losing my peace
Why must every pleasure come with a cost
Does every pleasure come with a cost
What am I doing
What should I do next
Is it even up to me
It feels it is time to sink or swim
Floating to survive is no longer an option
© 2026 SincerelyJoanWrites
Feb 15
Feb 15, 2026 at 9:06 AM UTC
They stole your youth,
And they stole your words:
The rockers of Kiiminki
And Oulu
Saw your talent,
And they were envious.
I know your style,
And I know who the thieves are.
The audience doesn't know you:
Your old band mates didn't give you
Any credit.
(The audience is yours, really,
Not theirs.)
With this poem,
I want to tell you about Aadi:
He looked like Kid Rock,
And he was an honest and
A gentle man.
He would've been a great husband and
A great dad,
But he ended up with the wrong gang.
Jan 31
Jan 31, 2026 at 1:31 PM UTC
I hear the numbness in her monotone voice
the lack of affect in her face as she recounts
the shock
the betrayal
the Herculean effort of each next step she must take
Looking into her slow-blinking eyes
as she recounts telling their children
I recall how heartbreak can turn one into an automaton
I, too, have been the wartime nurse
applying pressure to bleeding wounds
while the man responsible for the carnage
is AWOL
I give her the name of my divorce lawyer
I send her daily affirmations
words of encouragement
humorous anecdotes
to help her find the escape of laughter
to remind her
she—source of life—is still alive
I will continue to show up in the waiting room of her trauma
bearing witness to her metamorphosis
from trampled caterpillar to butterfly
with razor-sharp wings of shiny steel
I will spread thick warpaint upon her bruised cheeks
summoning the strength of all women warriors
whisper into her ear to harness it
this burning fury rising up within her
I’ll hold up a mirror to her emerging power
her beautiful, bullet-proof resiliency
remind her she will not drown in this man-made disaster
No, she will not drown
for her numb heart will heal
and as her feelings return
she will find strength has replaced weakness
she will realize
she is not choking on salty water of violent waves
she will discover
she is, in fact, the motherf*cking hurricane
© 2026 SincerelyJoanWrites
Jan 10
Jan 10, 2026 at 6:12 PM UTC
Heading to the welfare office to collect another check,
the cost of surviving keeps compounding—I can’t outrun the debt.
I’ve been staring in the distance, trying to recollect whoever’s left,
because I’m drowning in the struggles I’m facing and I can’t catch a breath.
Waking up exhausted from whatever I have going on daily,
every bill’s a reminder that I’m barely standing stable.
The rent’s due, my phone’s off and the fridge is running empty,
I’m trading peace of mind just to keep food on my ******* table.
Yeah I ****** it up for myself, made the calls that got me stuck,
can't blame the world for choices when I pushed my own luck.
But the system's got me circling now, can't climb out of this rut,
and tomorrow looks the same as today—another day I'm ******
Dec 23, 2025
Dec 23, 2025 at 8:02 PM UTC
Oh, Isabella
Wild, giggling Isabella with hair like pure golden thread
Every girl wants to be you, every boy yearns for your glance
I’d sell my soul to be you for only one mere day
To regain the one thing that I desire
Who desires you instead
But who wouldn’t, with looks like that
And that fierce sense of humor
Anything you could want is yours
But are you truly happy?
Each quip, each joke, each one-liner
Only earns you more followers to your cult of dreams
But do they really care, Isabella?
Do the boys who follow, whispering the sweetest of nothings
See beyond your body and into the girl within
Oh no, Isabella
Are the rumours true?
The one person you truly loved
Never truly loved you
You and me, we’re much the same
With our unfulfilled dreams of love
So there we sit alone together
Oh, poor Isabella
Dec 7, 2025
Dec 7, 2025 at 4:04 AM UTC
His eyes are the fragile sheets of ice spread across the deep, storming ocean
His hair is the wild sands of the desert
His laugh is the music of angels
His smile is the crown jewels, putting every other gemstone to shame
His chest is the warm hearth at the centre of a barren home
His lips are Atlantis
His cheeks are a sweet cake dappled with sprinkles
His voice is the rhythmic, comforting percussion of drums
His mind and Loki’s are one in the same
His hands are ancient carved marble
His skin is the most precious pearl in all the seas
His love is a mirage on the horizon seen by the madman
His new girls are lit matches
His stare is the bullet of a sniper’s gun
And I am the wounded soldier who remains unseen by his comrades
Left
To
Die
Dec 6, 2025
Dec 6, 2025 at 10:41 PM UTC
I once saw the body of a dead man
Grey and thin on the pavement
First I saw his black plastic comb
Then his shoes
knocked from his previously alive feet
at the moment of impact
“Is he alive?”
The driver anxiously asked
“Oh, god! Is he alive?”
No one answered
No one wanted to voice the truth
With care, I covered him with a blue and white beach towel
from the trunk of my car
I will never know
Was it an accident
Struck while crossing the road in the pre-dawn darkness
Or was I a witness to the aftermath of a desperate man’s solution
an intention realized
I will never know what I covered up that day
Like a mother putting her child to bed
Beneath a blue and white towel
© 2025 SincerelyJoanWrite
Dec 4, 2025
Dec 4, 2025 at 8:28 AM UTC
I can't trust anymore.
It's okay- don't fuss.
Really, I'm fine.
I'm not upset about it.
The concept of trust has always-
Theory, been a loose concept.
Maybe it was never real in practice.
I mean let's be honest-
Theory always sounds better-
Practice is just...a bore to us.
This idea that you can behold
Someone's secrets in entirety and not-
Say a word?...
I know people crack eventually...
And why is it we,
As humans-
Think it acceptable that when
We are friends or companions no longer-
Those secrets are free game?
Trust is just your prop-
You play it.
Get bored of it.
Then throw it away like it was never useful in first place-
I don't trust anyone, anymore.
Flicking through my phone each morning
While I lay dead asleep next-
To you?
The one person I thought-
Might keep my secrets.
My trauma.
My aching to be seen as more than an add on to our relationship.
Do you remember the concert?-
The one in London with the flashing lights and the heavy metal band,
Safe, did I feel in your arms.
Trust I did exude.
You broke that within seconds-
Not even a hairs length of a warning-
You abandoned me.
You whispered all night up until the doors opening-
"I'll be right here..."
So where were you?-
When that man grabbed me and pulled me into the pit.
Where I was touched and mauled by too many hands-
You were ******* gone.
I took the train by myself while calling my friend in- a panic.
At least... I could still trust her.
Right?-
I could still trust...you- right?
Cassie?
You didn't answer that night.
You stopped answering the following nights.
Neither of you did...-
What were you doing?...
I had to call my mother.
Tears, A fountain- Actually,
Cascading down my face as I walked those littered streets
Alone.
While you were likely whispering sweet nothings-
Into the shell of her ear like an oath.
And you? Cassie?-
You melted under it.
So yeah-
I can't trust anymore.
**** the both of you.
Nov 11, 2025
Nov 11, 2025 at 6:39 PM UTC
She has a counterpart
Dark and dreary architype
Lucid dreams paralyzed flat
Your peripheral is no fool
Silhouette dons blackest of hat
Oct 30, 2025
Oct 30, 2025 at 7:29 PM UTC
On a sailboat
On Lake Superior
This shimmering body of water and I
are separated only
by a thin layer of sunblock,
a pair of shades
On a sailboat
On Lake Superior
Moments move as slowly
as the low breeze nudging the sail
I know not the year
or state I’m in out here
I know only
that I am the water
and the water is me
To Do Lists of life on land
cannot find me
sheltered here
by waves
Cradled here by currents
older than any human care
I am free as I float
Agendas, ambitions, anxieties—all inferior
On this sailboat
On sacred Lake Superior
© 2025 SincerelyJoanWrites. All rights reserved.
Jun 21, 2025
Jun 21, 2025 at 2:05 PM UTC
Like soldiers of comically varying heights
I line up my pill bottles along the border
of my place mat for morning roll call
Some plastic, some glass—
Green, white, purple, yellow, gold
Each with their own earnest promise—
Energy, metabolism, muscle function,
allergy relief
And I earnestly swallow each down
Willing each to complete their mission
To find success in the battle against time
Willing them to bring new life
to this tired body of mine
© 2025 SincerelyJoanWrites. All rights reserved.
Jun 11, 2025
Jun 11, 2025 at 8:32 AM UTC
I wear my past like a cape
Superman’s got nothing on me
now that I’m free
All I’ve overcome
widens my stance
straightens my shoulders
I didn’t die
so I raise my chin up high
Shame, regrets, fear
in bullet-shape
bounce right off
my bullet-proof drape
Finally, I truly mean it
when I say, ‘I’m fine’
for I wear it like a cape,
this past of mine
© 2025 SincerelyJoanWrites. All rights reserved.
Jun 4, 2025
Jun 4, 2025 at 9:33 AM UTC
The Foundation We Build
Beneath new beams and fresh-cut pine,
In the hush of evening’s slowing time,
We shape a space with care-worn hands—
A daughter’s dream, a life’s new plan.
My son-in-law, with steady grace,
Beside me in that shadowed place.
We lift and frame, we brace and bend,
Not just a room—but means to end.
My father’s voice, still calm, still wise,
Echoes through sawdust-scented skies.
Three generations, hearts as one,
Driving nails until it’s done.
There’s laughter echoing off the studs,
And plans sketched out in drywall dust.
Each hammer’s swing, each nail we drive,
Another way we keep love alive.
And yet, amid the joy and sweat,
There lies a quiet, soft regret.
A space beside me not yet filled,
A longing that won’t quite be stilled.
I wish my son could see this too,
And feel the pride in what we do.
To pass this torch, to share this bond,
To build a life he’s proud beyond.
And someone else—I feel the lack,
A presence missed, a voice held back.
To share the dusk, the ride, the road,
To lighten up this blessed load.
For family’s more than blood or name,
It’s showing up through joy and strain.
It’s knowing love in tired hands,
And finding peace in shared demands.
And when the stars begin to show,
And quiet calls me home to go,
The country roads stretch soft and wide,
With sunset bleeding on each side.
My body aches, my spirit soars—
For in these nights and through these chores,
I’ve come to see what matters most:
Not walls, not tools, but who we host.
A future built with sweat and care,
With love poured out in each repair.
And in that basement, warm and bright,
Lives not just shelter—but their light.
To give, to build, to stand beside,
To share the load, to swell with pride—
I know now what family means:
It’s not the house, but all the scenes
Of working late and driving slow,
Of quiet peace when day lets go.
Of building futures, hand in hand—
On sacred, sawdust-covered land.
© 2025 Shawn Oen. All rights reserved.
May 23, 2025
May 23, 2025 at 10:11 AM UTC
Hills, trees, rocks, cold waves
A city wrapped in the wild
Duluth, steel and heart
© 2025 SincerelyJoanWrites. All rights reserved.
May 9, 2025
May 9, 2025 at 10:32 PM UTC
I need truth & light,
not lies & fights.
Emotional security,
not shame & anxiety.
I need love that’s true.
Sometimes ‘Hello Me’
is pronounced ‘Goodbye You.’
Not every promise is golden.
Sometimes, vows need to be broken.
Leaving was brave,
given how you behaved.
Not every ending is unhappy.
Sometimes ‘Goodbye You’
means ‘Hello Me.’
I’d rather be single
than a married martyr.
I’d rather laugh & mingle
than keep on trying harder.
I need something new.
Sometimes ‘Hello Me’
is pronounced ‘Goodbye You.’
I choose my mental health
over double-income wealth
Wellness over weakness,
happiness over secrets,
freedom over familiarity.
Sometimes ‘Goodbye You’
means ‘Hello Me.’
© 2025 SincerelyJoanWrites. All rights reserved.
May 4, 2025
May 4, 2025 at 8:54 AM UTC
Your family hates me for leaving you
They don’t know
I would have died had I stayed
Even a cactus can die of thirst
© 2025 SincerelyJoanWrites. All rights reserved.
May 2, 2025
May 2, 2025 at 7:52 AM UTC
jagged little tooth
protruding from the roof
of my mouth, unseen
by all but me
inside it hangs
a secret fang
hidden by my smiles
my feminine wiles
reminding me
unbeknownst to you
that I can bite
draw blood
if I need to
Do I need to?
© 2025 SincerelyJoanWrites. All rights reserved.
Apr 29, 2025
Apr 29, 2025 at 10:46 AM UTC
Inside the shadows of my mind
I search
and reach
and try to find
I kneel
And dig
And scratch the black
Aching for direction
An answer back
What buried treasure will I find
What happiness
Motivation
Peace of mind?
Is there really any reason to be found?
What’s it all even for?
Maybe it’s just darkness
And dirt
And nothing more
© 2025 SincerelyJoanWrites. All rights reserved.
Apr 27, 2025
Apr 27, 2025 at 7:55 PM UTC