#toya
Awoken abruptly
It burns my brain like acid
I dissolve, absolute fear
I would rather die than feel this
Indescribable terror
Non-escapable
Dec 31, 2020
Dec 31, 2020 at 1:04 PM UTC
I think of you every minute of every day.
This has made me lose myself
I need to be me, if you are to ever love me.
Dec 16, 2020
Dec 16, 2020 at 12:37 PM UTC
Softly played music soothes
The wind howls as cars pass.
The fluorescent light shines on me.
Alone by myself, in a small room.
Paying for stress and work.
A slave of my own making.
I hope it will be worth it.
Dec 9, 2020
Dec 9, 2020 at 11:58 AM UTC
The burning continues, i'm on fire
Consuming me and growing, unceasingly.
I hope that you start on fire as well
if you throw water, I will die out.
Then glowing embers will fade away.
Dec 7, 2020
Dec 7, 2020 at 11:33 AM UTC
Outside air flirts with skin
numbing effect slowly creeping
gusting air, a soft assault
makes me grasp my jacket tight
Dec 4, 2020
Dec 4, 2020 at 12:06 PM UTC
O bitter tears!
wetting my face, stinging my eyes
The weight of life draws you out
All could go wrong, you would be lost
Weeping bitterly is painful healing
I am glad to heal, glad to hurt
O blessed healing!
Dec 2, 2020
Dec 2, 2020 at 12:01 PM UTC
Leaves crunch around, the wind blows hard.
The trees shudder slightly as we rhythmically step.
Brown and gold colors catch our eyes.
I turn around, your eyes inviting and deep.
I am so thankful that beauty is everywhere
Nov 1, 2020
Nov 1, 2020 at 9:08 PM UTC
I have torn in two, never to be one.
I formerly only cared for myself.
But now I care for you deep as a well.
I cannot find the bottom of the flowing love.
My heart will continue drawing from the depth of my soul.
As long as you are here, I am complete.
Nov 2, 2020
Nov 2, 2020 at 2:22 PM UTC
Deafening noise in waves
Glinting light blinding off mirrors
A circle turns red, steel at a standstill
The quiet lingers for just a brief second
Nov 13, 2020
Nov 13, 2020 at 5:48 PM UTC
You beat up yourself
militarizing doubts.
but I can offer you
some good armor.
I give many pieces
but you must equip them.
Please hear and equip
because my heart is breaking for you.
Nov 18, 2020
Nov 18, 2020 at 9:30 PM UTC
There they lie on the floor of the house.
Stretched in the sun, lounging about.
Furry and killer, soft yet so mean.
Gone when you want them, here when you don't.
Nov 27, 2020
Nov 27, 2020 at 6:34 PM UTC
You laugh, then I
Our breath escaping
Inhaling deep as we catch it
I'm so glad I know you
Nov 28, 2020
Nov 28, 2020 at 1:52 PM UTC
Elusive but everywhere
some live their lives seeking it,
"if it feels right, how can it be wrong?"
they say as they self-destruct,
The lord gives us free will, and we choose to die
who then can complain?
Nov 29, 2020
Nov 29, 2020 at 8:04 PM UTC
I pour my emotions,
letting them flow.
They run and
pool in a safe place
purified and bottled,
then delivered back to me,
I drink them back up, invigorating life.
Dec 1, 2020
Dec 1, 2020 at 5:26 PM UTC