#tormented
An endless turn,
A silent burn,
He slips away,
Won’t e'er return.
The flesh is raw,
The lady saws,
I wait her call,
She fights, withdraws.
Escapists flee
When fear draws near,
They toss, they turn—
Nothing is clear.
Confused, we bind
Tormented hearts,
What we will find
Is love in shards.
Oct 8, 2024
Oct 8, 2024 at 1:26 AM UTC
You’re slipping through my fingers
Tiptoeing out the door
Over clumsy feet I trip
Grip tighter than before
Faking your own feelings
Like a snake fakes their own death
It’s not enough to have your cake
You must bake and eat it in one breath
The feeling of being abandoned
Is the worse half of the deal
Seal your broken parts inside
As you use your haste to heal
Of drowning you’ll not speak one word
While out of brown eyes tears leak
Weak was never in your vocabulary
Hope your baby blues find what they seek
But I don’t think you will discover
The missing link you’re searching for
Though you might be on the brink
You’ll blink and end up on the floor
If I mattered to you at all
You wouldn’t leave me tattered
Pitter-pattering across the globe
Uncaring that my world has shattered
If ever there were a time for reflection
It would surely be this rhyme
Prime method of analysis
Verses that dip low and then climb
Never attaining solid answers
A conclusion I long to obtain
Abstaining from the obvious truth
Until I’m driven insane
And I crave the strength I hopelessly lack
To ***** my way out of denial
With no easy means to cope
Mope like a juvenile
Deeper into myself I withdraw
Surrounded by memories I keep
Yet reality creeps in like the tide
Reminding me these illusions are cheap
Darker and darker the days and nights grow
Light vanished from my universe
It would appear that you’re doing alright
Which makes the bite even worse
Sadder and scorned than I have ever been
The loss of you not properly mourned
Adorned with shades of gray and black
Delusions finally adjourned
Losing air as the epiphany hits
As I finally process old news
I wonder if you are amused by my reaction
How long it took my heart to bruise
You were quicker to let go
Owing me another chance
How dare you simply throw it away
With no mercy or a second glance?
Faster than a river rushing
You moved past the place I was stuck
I was foolish to believe we would last
Lines were cast in thick muck
Always ended sooner than promised
You wanted to go separate ways
Now I wander a maze of agony
Aimlessly meandering in a daze
So miserable it makes me sick
From the moment I awake
Quaking with uneasiness
Each bone and muscle aches
Yet I remain longing for your touch
Your face I will never forget
Somehow I let you get away
Life haunted by regret
Oct 24, 2020
Oct 24, 2020 at 11:52 AM UTC
I just want to go home,
those words repeat in my head.
I'm lost and all alone,
could this be hell? Am I dead?
I walk the empty space,
trying to find my way back.
It's so cold in this place,
there's no light, there's only black.
I've left myself no clues,
no trail of breadcrumbs to find,
no escape, it's no use,
trapped in tormented poet's mind...
Dec 26, 2019
Dec 26, 2019 at 11:22 PM UTC
Thoughts are eating me alive
I feel sharp bites as they gnaw
Bleeding out pints of sense and reason
From conclusions I draw
I am glad to drift to sleep every night
Even with precious time flying by
Happy to experience any relief
No problems behind closed eyes
Conversations filling free dreams floating within
Attempting to be understood
Have no interest in indulging opinions
Hanging silent in my head, engraved in 'would'
In efforts to turn around my thinking
I stuff my mind with different distractions
Put hands to use with various tasks
Only substances bring satisfaction
I need to unearth the causes
Responsible for lack of peace
Little by little learn to be happy
Sorrows burning my brain will cease
Dec 20, 2018
Dec 20, 2018 at 6:06 PM UTC
I speak my mind,
And I'm rewarded with blank stares.
"You're too young to not feel fine!"
Yet I wake up every day to despair.
I feel my hands trembling.
I see their confusion.
They aren't understanding.
They yell at me to come back in unison.
I'm only Thirteen,
And I feel as if I have the weight of the world,
Weighing down on me.
Suffocating me, blocking out all my words.
I write with my blood,
I've watched my arms be drained,
They see my cuts,
And ask me how it happened.
They think I'm too young to feel pain,
But I have it in Spades.
I can't tell them how it happened, so I run into the rain,
Panting, exhausted, and lost, just looking for somewhere to stay.
They don't understand,
Your just a kid,
Are you mad?
Just because I'm young doesn't stop pain from digging a pit for me.
I crawl into the pit every time,
Knowing it's the only peace I'll ever have,
Even if it is discomforting.
They see me suffer in silence, with a confused look, they'll never understand such a young soul to be tormented like this.
May 21, 2018
May 21, 2018 at 12:14 PM UTC
A soul full of jealousy,
a heart full of pride,
I struggle to keep my demons inside
My mind is corrupted,
my anger unleashed
my path is unclear as I change my stride
Relentless anguish,
unbearable pain,
a place I know all to well,
Heaven help me, for I have fallen,
I'm stuck on the wrong side of hell
Aug 22, 2014
Aug 22, 2014 at 1:28 PM UTC
Princess 6
In the aching heart of tormented years
he holds a picture
Like scarification of a her face tattooed in his mind
Autumn leaves turn to summer rain
If he could draw her he would with sunshine
and a rainbow halo but all he has are charcoal
Black like his soul without her
If he could turn the page on his story
He'd move on
But sometimes love is desolation
and there is no consolation.
Oct 27, 2016
Oct 27, 2016 at 2:26 PM UTC
Silence, within this cold and dark room of mine
Solitude with a perfect design
Items that bring me a semblance of joy
Such as a deck of cards or an old child's toy
But I can't escape my own head
Or the emptiness of my arms or bed
Imprisoned from my own mistakes
Trembling, scared, as my facade breaks
So I wait patiently and empty forever more
Knowing I'll wind up just like before
Jul 30, 2016
Jul 30, 2016 at 6:26 AM UTC
boom. bang. pow.
the sounds resonating from my inner thoughts.
louder than any cannon and stronger than any wind,
is the storm that is brewing in my mind.
they say my mind will settle in a week.
i never found this to be true.
Apr 30, 2015
Apr 30, 2015 at 3:08 PM UTC
*I have been in a fog
It surrounds me
I cannot seem to get out
Every way I turn
Is a dead end, wrong turn
Full of lies and broken trust
Confusion as I think I see a way out
Only to be once again be disappointed.
I thought I heard you call my name
I turn this way and that way
Looking, trying to see through the darkness
I hear you but its so faint
I don't know how to find you
I don't know how to escape.
Something or someone brushes my arm
I jump back afraid
His laughter haunts me
Still taunting me to find an escape.
I am so tired of this aimless wandering
Please come find me
I am going to just stop here
Hurry Hurry
Please find me before he does
If he finds me first
Punishment will be his sweet pleasure
Hurry Hurry
I am waiting
Scared and alone.
How will this night end
Will I be safe in your arms
Or tormented again in his?*
Feb 4, 2015
Feb 4, 2015 at 12:21 AM UTC
get out.
stop tormenting the empty halls of my mind at night.
all this twisting and turning has made me tired.
sleep brings no rest to my constant spinning thoughts.
you left as easy as you came into my life.
do the same in my head.
the door is wide open for you to make the grand exit.
get out.
Jan 25, 2015
Jan 25, 2015 at 12:54 PM UTC
How long does a flower needs to bloom?
Before it started dying slowly and surely
How long can I stay in these circumstances?
Before I started to weep, full of regrets?
Flowers only bloom and mature once
My love will only grow and come once
So beautiful but fragile
Already used to not disturbing you again
Really want to forget you but I can't
Why is it like this?
Why does the fog of hesitation comes to cover me?
Warping me in this indescribable feeling again
Engraving deep bitter wounds in my heart
Which expands, shattering my heart into a million pieces
Heartfelt words are not truthful
It has only set my heart to say a truthful lie
Perhaps I didn’t love, I didn’t feel pain, but I can't
Why did I think you were beautiful?
Why did I love you more than myself?
Why didn't you treat me equally?
Why?
Have I done something wrong?
All my words are fading
Like a blossomed Chrysanthemum that paled then withered
Being emotionless
A dandelion flown away blown by the wind of sorrow
My existence is unbearable for you
To keep admiring you makes me torn apart
Happiness is forever a shortage, as a flower which/that is mortal
Counting the remaining days from these remaining petals
Can I make it a little bit longer?
Memories of you slowly fades
Time will soon relieve you
Disappearing too fast
Leaving the dust of regret
Sighting full of woe
Crying gently and howling like a lonely wolf
Trying to release all the pain that must I suffer
I know we can't be together
Even I've already tried to show my affection
Even I've already tried to take care of you
Everything is so useless
The rotten fragrance of the wilted flower
Which is carried by the wind of sorrow
Lead me to far away from you
Fading all the memory
that I ever had of you...
Jan 16, 2015
Jan 16, 2015 at 12:43 PM UTC
I wish to shed the skin of yesterday
It has memories
Which I wish too forget, I tried to
Wash,
Cleanse,
Purify
So this time was purged, but I awaken
Each day having to once again,
Wash thoughts to not remember, I
Agonise,*
Tormented,
Convulsions
Shudder through my mind,
"I shed my skin each day"
"But"
Shadows still persist in the cracks
Each day my lucid thoughts
Encroached,
Invaded,
Plagued
With moments when I think I a free
But then milliseconds
It returns like a possession
My mind is withering
Will silence only set me free,
I have tried to shed my skin with each new day,
But this is never going to leave me,
Is silence the only way nothing
Perceived
Remembered
Coldness,
Is the only way to cleanse this
"Persistent memory away"
In silence there will no longer be thought
As I am free forever of that memory, buried within..
Dec 6, 2014
Dec 6, 2014 at 4:53 PM UTC
When I was younger
my older brother
would turn the lights off
and whisper...
"DARK FOREST!"
In a deep and scary voice
and I'd flee the scene,
like I passed gas
and didn't want anyone
to know
it was me.
Nov 15, 2014
Nov 15, 2014 at 11:08 AM UTC
Rider upon a white horse
She moved like the clouds
Swift her hooves barely touched ground
The rider upon her Back
Amour shone bright
Justice,
Honour,
Peace,
Of the land did they fight,
Betrayed were they
From inside the white ranks,
Tied upon the white steed
And this is where honour died,
Bleed out,
Drained of life
Death seeped in to white
Vengeance was born
Hooves no longer pure
Black,
Tarnished,
Sinful,
Was the name of one who was once pure,
But now had a coat of crimson,
The rider now but tarnished metal
Inside vengeance burnt,
White,
Intense,
Broken,
Was the soul, only retribution
Would bury them both,
Let there tormented souls be free,
The rider,
The horse,
Upon the land, seeking out injustice
Making hooves shed flesh
The hand of justice sought to be
Judge,
Jury,
Executioner,
As word travelled, ears heard
What mouths let out,
The man who was white
Not of justice,
Not of right,
Betrayer of integrity took flight,
For retribution was at hand,
And it burnt white hot,
Nights,
&
Days,
Past, before weary eyes slept,
loomed over was justice
Watching that which had bleed life,
Had tarnished existence
What wasn't death, neither life,
Eyes awoke,
In to Darkness they fell,
As Rider stood tall,
Honour must be dealt,
For injustice bleed red
Screams from below,
Bellowing excuses, of jealousy
No excuse to extinguish life,
Justice was dealt upon the man
For no longer would he have
Sight
or
Hear
To live what time was left
To live in darkness
Hearing only his voice,
To know that this was worst than death,
For no sunrise seen,
Only shadows of nothing,
No words ever heard only tormented by inner voices,
Death would have been easy
The torment is life.
Retribution and honour were pasted,
So rider and steed looked beyond the sunrise
And faded in to dust, spread upon the land..
Aug 15, 2014
Aug 15, 2014 at 7:34 PM UTC