#toll
The dots keep popping
out of the blank canvass map;
and then they vanish.
Ceasing to gleam entirely;
fading into nothingness.
4d ago
May 30, 2026 at 2:31 PM UTC
What!? You say you're tired of living,
well, I think I know what you mean
as I also don't regard myself being
particularly, at all now, very keen.
The last couple of years have taken their toll on me
so much so that its become obvious for any to see.
The affairs of this world are just one thing I've considered
but what are the things I've done which haven't delivered?
__________________________
May 12, 2024
May 12, 2024 at 9:24 PM UTC
i am not thinking
clearly no more drinking does
a toll on my mind
Apr 29, 2024
Apr 29, 2024 at 10:05 PM UTC
A lost grip,
Another familiar slip
Running parallel with a predictable confidence dip
Regardless of every other absorbed hit
No one's record is perfect
It was bound to become evident
Taking a toll
Beginning to show
Worried life will dole out more trouble than one should be expected to tow
Stashed in the back of a mind is the knowledge it's possible
Work to avoid the void of a logic loophole that feeds the unreasonable
While acknowledging life cares so very little
About a big ol' white flag run up a pole
©2024
Apr 18, 2024
Apr 18, 2024 at 2:26 PM UTC
~
*Dead channel skies
Segregation in the flat fields
A hole in the silver lining
Where the fence is low*
~
*They fell from the moon last night
Caught in a strange
Chapter of fear
The land is inhospitable
And so are we
Wipe them from your mind
We must preserve what is left*
~
Feb 27, 2024
Feb 27, 2024 at 7:37 PM UTC
there is a price to
authenticity that
most people
are not prepared
to pay
the cost
(at least in part)
is:
indifference,
isolation,
rejection, failure,
anxiety, madness,
etc.
it's vicious
strangers and
deadly lovers--
all of them
with spinning
flowers for
eyes as they
dig in: the
elbow, the
heel, the
knife
becoming who
you are demands
that you sacrifice
every inch of
what you
thought you
were to the
eternal flames
it means you're
gonna be hard
on yourself--harder
than anybody else
has ever been
on you
it means you're
gonna think
about killing
yourself
sometimes--you
may even come
close--
and,
make no
mistake, it
will be the
death of you
someday,
but
it will be
the best death
you could've
offered yourself
you will look
back upon
your life with
a cutting
smile and
piercing eyes
knowing that
you stayed
fighting
through every
cheap shot,
backstab, and
bad call
every
knockdown,
defeat, and
sabotage
you kept
coming, no
matter what
life threw at
you:
poverty,
shame,
guilt,
loss,
exile
these things
mean nothing
in the face
of true
becoming
and what
is becoming
if not
annihilation
and that
which remains
after its
totality?
Oct 10, 2020
Oct 10, 2020 at 7:24 AM UTC
Young lives are being slaughtered by knives
law and order seems to have no power
to contain the gangs creating such strife
brutality grows not by weeks but the hour
these crimes getting rapidly out of control
with no logic to the mounting toll!
The gangs culture has been allowed to expand
cities towns and villages none are immune
in the present climate they are in command
too often on the roadside flowers are strewn
lawlessness spreads as people are oppressed
helpless we stand as a society transgressed!
A bleak future violence escalates and discipline
is now lost allowing worrying complacency in
surely it extends far deeper into our culture
where nobody can see that hovering vulture!
Now nobody is safe from the threat of violence
as corruption destroys human tolerance!
#TheFoureyedPoet.
Apr 20, 2019
Apr 20, 2019 at 1:25 PM UTC
When someone tells you they love you
What does that mean to you ?
It means
I lose everything
I lose my very being
I lose everything I'm used to seeing
But love you decieve me
Tricked me into contentment
Believing I was comfortable
High Apon my feet shouting with Glee
But you decieved me.
Now I am alone
Not making a move
Because it comes with a fee
You take it so easily
As I crumble
With every part of me
I'm lost
The cost
Is too much
I let go
And forget I breath
I thought I was better
To know
When I was decieved.
Jan 12, 2019
Jan 12, 2019 at 2:32 AM UTC
There's a tolling depth to me,
A rebounding chasm
Space a hopeful quantity
Tuned instruments ignore
Where broken column qualities
Lie naked in the unkempt stubble
Undisturbed, those civilised peaks
Mountains for heavens bored smooth by soft hands
Champing teeth abound the wind,
Old sounds of dun legs taking flight
And leaving the knotted trees
That died in the clotted soil
Be warned, beasts have left this barren
Sharp corners have been smoothed for
Once this land was deep and green
And gushed with florid indecencies
Now its depth tolls
With the charter of the wind
Scattering what few collected rocks remain
As bricks for walls built far beyond.
Jan 6, 2019
Jan 6, 2019 at 10:39 AM UTC
I'm running out
and drying up
you've left me no more tears to cry
love
gone is our time
my soul a stone
stuck beneath waves
of emotional toll
so please
get out
let me dream of something more
pleasant
I can't do this forever
and sooner or later
it's you or me
who will be dust
Oct 5, 2018
Oct 5, 2018 at 12:39 AM UTC
bodies for my shrapnel
lay limp on the street
like dogs in the summer time.
i will bring my storm to you.
have faith in my punch,
believe it.
but don’t you trust
a survivor.
they wouldnt know
how to leave a city in wake.
they wouldnt know not to
pull the knife out.
i am a hurricane with skin
and i will
rip your house in half
if i have time to catch a glimpse.
you can pack your bags
and flee but
i dont stay gone.
i live on forever,
i dont die easy.
the toll will raise.
Sep 8, 2018
Sep 8, 2018 at 6:56 PM UTC
as there's
a potato
in her
frock that
she cried
shank a
pleasantry that
persisted when
she'd only
garner a
twist that
hers now
exist in
this open
context albeit
that seeds
her trust
Feb 6, 2018
Feb 6, 2018 at 4:17 AM UTC
The demons live within my soul
I cut thin lines to let them go
They just make the memories grow
Over and over they make them show
Oh so very long ago
Within my head thier seeds they sow
Over the years They took control
They left me feeling so ******* low
My misery is thier only goal
With every punch I try to roll
The more I take the more they throw
It's really starting to take it's toll
Through my agony they just stroll
Every ounce of happiness is what they stole
They left me in the deepest, darkest hole
Apr 24, 2016
Apr 24, 2016 at 10:28 PM UTC
You can't be lost if you have never been found,
You can't fly if you've never walked upon the ground,
You can't be broken if you you were never whole,
Because that's what life is life takes its toll.
Mar 16, 2016
Mar 16, 2016 at 7:39 AM UTC
You can't be lost if you have never been found,
You can't fly if you've never walked upon the ground,
You can't be broken if you you were never whole,
Because that's what life is life takes its toll.
Feb 28, 2016
Feb 28, 2016 at 11:41 PM UTC
Far into the night I wandered
over vast age and distance
before time or names
through dense shadow thickets
across wide black waters
to the edge of an infinite sea
In my palm, a pebble
which I skipped along the surface
disturbing the dark glass
I heard a thousand voices
saw a thousand faces
and lived a thousand lives
all in a moment
I knew yellow
I knew cinnamon
I know fear and love
and I found you
and I found many others
but you I found again and again
over countless lives
I found and lost you
a thousand times
the melody rolling
outward forever and on
the stone and the sea
the world in a song
Jan 8, 2016
Jan 8, 2016 at 10:30 PM UTC
You said we've all got cracks and blemishes
wrinkles in our character
the little crevices where the past is hidden
where the fear settles as a dust,
nibbling away at a fragile foundation
It's this Modern Age I said,
kids in the automaton state
profit slaves desperate to break their screens
and return to the fields
rise and set with the sun
like in the ancient golden seasons
But you smiled, it has always been so
men with eyes glazed recalling days long gone
when the real work was done
when love was grand and the food were rich
Roman hearts pining for halcyon Greek nights
Then we are born crooked it seems
fresh but weathered like newborn lava
set under pressure, too old for our years
just clumsy instruments
put to task in a china shop
every stumble a chip in our innocence
And in there lies our radiance you beamed
with every glass shattered, a million gems by accident
refracting light on an imperfect world
every hasty breath a powerful wind
destined for great heights
Jan 8, 2016
Jan 8, 2016 at 10:28 PM UTC
and I woke from a dream
as fading clouds float downstream
and collect like leaves at the mouth
of the sea, children of the spring
monsoons, but today merely a wave
I see all this from my perch
high above the main, rolling to and fro
on Mother's breath, her every sigh
gives us motion, portends danger
leaning her shoulder on rocky cliffs
and I woke from a dream
to a screaming train car
gripping the tracks, gobbling human snacks
and spitting them back out on the streets
passing signs that press for cash
as goblin laughs mock and sneer
from the fleeting recesses, off limits
to civilian souls, just one more stop to go
and I woke from a dream
with bare feet on cool tile
water drops pooling in low spots of grout
and steam collecting in the corners
while dawn peeks through thawed out
windows, a dim promise of the heat of day
shaking the dew from my eyes I see
in the mirror haze, strange reflections,
unfamiliar through a glass roof sky
cursing screaming questions why
and I woke from a dream
and I finally woke free
in your arms, far from dark seas
and subway dreams and prophesies
clawing sleep like an attacker
wrestling sheets and memories
and welcoming the day to ponder
what these visions foretell, left to
wonder the vast expanse of mind
fumbling for a pen to try
and I woke from a dream
Jan 8, 2016
Jan 8, 2016 at 10:09 PM UTC
I sent my soul to walking
down barren wastes of land
housing nothing but garbage rats
and all the worst kinds of people
where conversation was bleak and simple
and hopeless dreams were last week's
lottery tickets, scattered and forgotten
in the ditches along empty bottles
So I sent my soul to diving
lower than light cares to go
so low that thoughts weigh tons
and past plans sink into canyons
forever lost in cold chambers
where ***** and eels munch on
ancient bones from a world away
never knowing of the sun above them
So I sent my soul to flying
dodging lightning, seeking craving
and reaching but the outskirts of heaven
desperate for love, but finding only
hostile bodies hurled down paths
with no beginning and no care
for earthly truths and happy endings
holy indifferent to joy and pain
So I sent my soul to writing
to wallow in the mud and shame
to sift among the shadows for a song
or simply a voice alone
to sing and weep along with me
never to see the dawn, a few
scratches on a page and nothing more
a single soul sent wandering far
Jan 8, 2016
Jan 8, 2016 at 9:56 PM UTC
I once rubbed a crucifix to know
what it was like to be touched by Christ.
It wasn't warm.
He wasn't warm.
He was rusty metal.
A relic.
A man who has long since died.
One day that will be me.
A long lost artifact
Or photograph, that
will be stuffed in a drawer
next to a book and some condoms.
Nov 26, 2015
Nov 26, 2015 at 6:47 PM UTC
No one will ever know
How I felt about you
No, no one will ever know
All the Sleepless nights I had
Each tear would fall
Fall like the Niagara Falls
The thought of you
Oh, it hurts me so
If I could see that beautiful light
Shining across your face
Or to feel your lips
One last time
Would be music
To my ears
It was just you and me
Our love was different
I cannot lie
It was just you and me
But now
We are no more
Our time has took its toll
By: ZainaMusic
Aug 20, 2015
Aug 20, 2015 at 10:33 AM UTC
*I'm sorry, strong little guy
For all the pain and pressure
You see, it wasn't entirely me,
Wasn't all MY fault
It was all them,
Not me
Ok, that was a slight lie,
Please forgive me
I took things slightly more seriously
Than your blood pumping could ever do
You work my veins
Until they decay
The blood rotten and thick
It drools throughout my flesh
The pressure will take its toll one day
And you will not forgive me for it*
Jul 5, 2015
Jul 5, 2015 at 12:18 PM UTC