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There was once this boy
Who treated me like Helen of Troy
To my euphoria, he was the ground
To his kingdom, I was crowned
From the shadows that abducted me
He fought and snared the key
Chased me, he did
So I could finally be freed
On his white horse, I rode
My hands, to him I bestowed
For I knew his love wasn’t feigned
And for he’s the one who got me unchained
Forth we escaped
As my heart got reshaped
Into something beautiful and steady
Hence he could hold it dearly
Shortly, the darkness penetrated
The castle our love had made
And with his arms as my shield
I was utterly concelead
The attack never ceased
And I watched as my bliss
Slowly withered with every hit
But even with the utmost, he didn’t quit
He said, “If love isn’t enough
to keep you away from the cuff,
then darling, I’d be again the key
that would always unleash thee.”
And with his last gusted breath,
Before he surrendered to Death
He rested his lips on mine
And made our last kiss benign
Oct 21, 2013
Oct 21, 2013 at 11:29 PM UTC
your eyes once were the shade of blue
the way the sky looks
before the sun gives way to the moon
but they are black as midnight now
the starless sky, pitch-dark
oh, what did i do?
did i cause this to you?
your wings, broad and strong
flew me to paradise and back
and to everywhere my feet can’t take me
but you’re featherless now
flightless and short of harbor
oh, fly, please, fly again
feel the wind and fly back to me once more
*
but i’m still broken, darling,
i don’t deserve your loving*
Oct 22, 2013
Oct 22, 2013 at 5:01 AM UTC
wipe that smile in reverse off of your face
i am nothing if it weren’t for your stunning rays
forget the lonesomeness, forget, forget
your heart has long been out of the net
smile for me now, darling, please
reward me with your one sweet kiss
have me flying high above the cloud
for it is you who finally have me found
the seas - all of them, in fact - whisper your name
and i see your right hand which i should lay claim
as the skies cry with me tonight
cry joyful tears for i have won the fight
the battle against the chaos who used to be me
vanquished when the light set me free
and my light is you, yes, it’s true
the only answer my heart knows now is you
Oct 22, 2013
Oct 22, 2013 at 5:03 AM UTC
Losing control
As on my knees I fall
I used to stand so tall
But with you, I crawl
Troubled thoughts
I feel at a loss
Didn’t my words come across
or did you have them all tossed?
Fractured and frozen
For I believed I was chosen
Over everything that was golden
But now, I’m left broken
My cherished moment
My stolen enjoyment
My love with no current
My heart with a dent
Oct 22, 2013
Oct 22, 2013 at 9:33 PM UTC
is this as far as we can go?
are the lodging feelings to sink six feet below?
in the thick of the stars that glow
along the tracks of the train that goes slow
i seek for answers to flow
will the scintillation from long ago
wind up just another dumb show?
or will we be able to bestow
each other with a lasting beau?
how can i ever be
the keeper of the most precious key
to a heart that’s shattered in three?
separated by an outstretched sea
will you ever hear me as i plea
for on your hands you hold my glee?
will you finally come free me
and lead me to a love with no fee?
why can’t i seem to tell
that i’m under an agonizing spell?
unrequited love comes really close to a cell
where only anguish and misery dwell
however way i want to quell
this love that puts me in hell
it will never change the fact that i fell
and you broke into my own shell
am i still going to fight
and hold on tight
even with my missing knight?
my will tells me to further re-ignite
so i could keep the subsequent bright
but will i still find the only light
that will help me see through the night?
Oct 22, 2013
Oct 22, 2013 at 9:36 PM UTC
isn’t it sad
how you once were
my past,
how i have always
wanted you to
be my future,
and how there
always seems to
be no present
for us?
May 5, 2014
May 5, 2014 at 11:59 PM UTC
whenever our eyes meet
there are sparks that make me believe
we can go anywhere, we can go far
we can soar high and create our own star
there’s nothing i wouldn’t give
to have you close to me and relive
all the days of euphoria and paradise
the life with nothing but your spice
with every single thing i’ve done wrong,
you’re the only one that makes everything right
maybe it’s time to say so long
maybe it’s time to end the fight
May 6, 2014
May 6, 2014 at 12:00 AM UTC
the rain drops never made it
to the ground
for you caught them
with your palms held upward
and your mouth open wide
just in time
before they turn into
mud
the petals of your favorite daisy
never reached the soil
for you kept them in between
the pages of your books
until there, they withered
the balloon you bought
remained in between your hands
as you adored its color
and the way the sun gave it
a different shade
and your eyes followed it enrapturedly
all the way up in the air
as you let it go
the smoke you blew from
your perfectly pursed lips
remained aloft
as you finished
one stick
one pack
two lungs
the heart i once had
stayed wondering why
it was the only one
that fell all the way down
while everything else
you held
stayed up and far
from the ground
where my heart
found no refuge
May 6, 2014
May 6, 2014 at 2:55 AM UTC
I am jealous
of the sun
for its rays
always give you
hope for a new day.
Of the moon
that gets to
greet you good night
and wish you
sweet dreams.
Of the water
that touches
your face,
your arms,
your body,
and every part of you
that my hands
can’t get a hold of
yet.
Of the heart
that beats life for you
for my heart
does the same too.
May 6, 2014
May 6, 2014 at 2:57 AM UTC
be her ribs -
the refuge
of her busy, tiny heart
capture and enclose it
like it’s yours
own it, keep it, cage it,
save it from knives
that intent to
make it bleed
the life out of her
surround her lungs
because she needs them
to breathe you in
to devour your scent
to sponge herself up
with the air that you exhale
through her lips
as you two kiss
and be her ribs
for when a length
of you fractures
even the tiny fragment
will bring her pain
be her guard
against any harm
be her ribs -
her outline
her vault
her kingdom
be her ribs
May 6, 2014
May 6, 2014 at 3:27 AM UTC
and you’re eternal, darling
as long as my pen has ink
as long as my words still exist
as long as my papers fly freely, unburnt
as long as our tree lives
the one where we engraved our names
next to always and forever
you’ll stay steady, unfaltering
because this love is timeless
yours, mine, ours in perpetuity
until my voice turns hoarse
until my face gets wrinkles
even when i can’t recognize your sweet scent
or when your beauty is already blurry
or when your words don’t penetrate my ear
undying, never ending
all yours, darling, all yours
May 6, 2014
May 6, 2014 at 3:35 AM UTC
the night held the paralyzing silence
that smothered me upon my rest
but i was too crestfallen for defense
so i let it take me, take me
and end this triumphless quest
but i was abandoned alive
left alone with only the memories
to keep me engaged with my life
parts of me scattered piece by piece
so i sat there and waited
for someone to take me, take me
and get this body vacated
but no one came to rescue
they said my soul wasn’t due
then you came out of the blue
one step closer and i hoped it’s a slaughter
but you held me and i felt stronger
and to my ears, a whisper,
“life’s too short to wish it was shorter”
May 6, 2014
May 6, 2014 at 3:44 AM UTC
my hushed pleas
that remain unnoticed
sorely losing all the hope
that got me holding the end of the rope
that bridged me to you
oh please, oh please
i’m down on my knees
hear me as i beg thee
be again the reason behind my glee
loneliness enveloped me
as my tears found their way to the sea
the sun rose and set
the moon turned full and new
but still, there was no sign of you
i’m at the edge and just one leap
and i’m off to my deepest sleep
oh darling, won’t you be my saving grace
won’t you occupy this empty space
that used to be where my heart is?
May 6, 2014
May 6, 2014 at 3:50 AM UTC
With the days that pass by
Along with the moments we hope to leave behind
Come the lingering feeling
Of what should have clearly been
As the contingency gets scanty
And the feelings, grievous and empty
Even with desperate cries for help
Why do I stay incurably unheard?
I extend my arms and try
Try as I might to fly
For when they say follow your heart
It’s with you I want to start
Yet my hearing must be impaired
'Cause it hears your voice that says we'll not end
Tell me how could I not hold on to these words
When in my heart they broke through, heard
As we dare and lose a zillion times
As our laughs retrogress to cries
As the hugs turn into meters apart
Does the end really need to be that we depart?
Then here I hope that all the pain leads us farther
That the past was nothing but a mere poseur
'Cause when we again find one another
It’s up to the flame we cannot smother
May 6, 2014
May 6, 2014 at 3:55 AM UTC
i saw it
i saw myself
i saw myself falling
i saw myself falling for you
i saw you waiting for me to fall for you
with your arms patiently waiting to grab a hold
of the parts of me you’ve come to love, of that one dream
you’ve been waiting for your whole life to finally be real, of me and
everything that’s in between. but the gravity wasn’t strong enough to keep me falling. so i floated away, farther, yonder, and left you with not a word left to say
May 21, 2014
May 21, 2014 at 10:25 PM UTC
he knows his way with words
he manages to take me to places
with every conception of sentences he makes
i stay seated on my place
consummately delighting in his utterance
and unknowingly,
i am transferred to somewhere else,
wandering and savoring the destination
no matter how gloomy the day is,
he knows exactly the right words
to lift up my mood and make everything okay
his words are the bandages to my wounds,
the sun glasses when the sun shines so bright,
and the umbrella when the skies cry
his words are all I have now and
i’ll treasure these until he finally
finds his way back to me
until he finds his voice
to speak these words to me
once more
May 21, 2014
May 21, 2014 at 10:48 PM UTC
What a beautiful morning
to wake up on your side of bed -
now empty of you and your smell.
There was a warning
and I got it misread
now I can’t get out of your spell.
Are you still coming
or are you waiting until I’m dead
to release me from this cell?
I dine alone, love
and the seat across from me
where you’re supposed to be
is empty.
So I dine alone.
I
dine
alone
May 21, 2014
May 21, 2014 at 11:03 PM UTC
i have always hungered
for sleep that wouldn’t come
for words that are only whispered
for touch that is warm and soothing
because i’ve stayed up late for nothing
i have opened my ears but got not a word
i have been held but only coldness was there
and sometimes i drift and wonder if there is really
something that would come find me and take me away
from this shadowed place of vagueness and obscurity so i
could see the light from the other side and savor the absence
of deafening solitude and desolation that have concealed me from
the glimmers of hope, certainty, and promises that are never broken
will that something ever find its way to me? because i’m cloaked and hidden
in this unlit abode where my unhappiness and wounds that medicines
cannot cure dwell. and i am growing tired and weary of carrying all
the troubles i have saved up for myself without wanting to and
here i am still asking for someone, something to finally alight
and save me from further deteriorating while i can still be
mended and fixed so at long last i would be able to start
anew and revive myself. i need both of your hands
to come grab me from being beyond repair and
your voice that’ll tell me everything’s going
to be alright even whilst i’m still lacking
sleep, words, and touch that i’ve
hungered for from the start.
May 21, 2014
May 21, 2014 at 11:20 PM UTC
please take me back
take me back to the place
where even green grasses
that spike my legs
with its unblunted tip
speak of your presence
where flowers welcome me
as i get within your vicinity
with your breathtaking scent
grazing the parts where
my skin stays unsheltered
where the water that i sip
sways from my lips like waves
thrilled to reach the shore
please take me back
take me back to the place
where i remain a part of you
where love doesn’t wear off
and does only develop
into something bigger than
what my words can epitomize
where my name nests in solitude
in your vocabulary
please take me back
take me back to the place
the place next to you
May 21, 2014
May 21, 2014 at 11:27 PM UTC
sa pagsasalubong ng araw at buwan
hindi ko pa rin magawang tumahan
ilang oras na nang ika’y lumisan
pero pagbabalik mo’y patuloy pa ring inaasahan
karapat-dapat bang hintayin
ang pag-ibig na hindi na sa akin?
mananatili pa rin ba akong sabik
sa iyong mga yakap at halik?
sa paglalim ng gabi
tila ang mga bituin ang pumapawi
sa sakit na dulot ng iyong labi
na siyang dahilan ng aking mga hikbi
hindi ba’t ikaw ay nangako
na sa laban na ito’y di ka susuko?
hindi ba’t ikaw ang sumuyo
at sa aki’y noo’y nagsumamo?
sa pagbabalik ng araw
alam kong di na kita matatanaw
ang hiling lamang ay agad malusaw
itong pag-ibig na di mo pinukaw
May 21, 2014
May 21, 2014 at 11:35 PM UTC
Kumusta na raw tayo, ang tanong nila
Ewan, malay ko kung kumusta na nga ba
Tayo
Simpleng tanong na hindi ko alam ang sagot
Ano nga bang nangyari sa
“Tayo”?
Inisip ko ang nakaraan
Pinagmasdan bawat pagpatak ng ulan
Hinanap ang kislap
Ngunit tila hindi pa rin sapat
Upang mawari ko ang sagot
Sa tanong na bumabalot
Sa ating mga puso
Na pulos nagbabalatkayo
Kumusta na tayo?
Anong nangyari sa magandang kahapon?
Bakit sa aking muling paglingon,
Ikaw na rin ay nakatalikod?
Hindi ba’t iyong sinabi
Na sa piling ko ika’y mananatili?
Bakit sa bawat paglakad mo
Ikaw ay palayo nang palayo?
Hindi ba may usapan tayo
Na sa akin ka patutungo?
Nasaan na ang mga pangako
Na sinabi **** di mapapako?
Kumusta na tayo?
May 21, 2014
May 21, 2014 at 10:54 PM UTC