#tiring
this verbal wishing well, appreciated,
a nut of good intentions but drives me
deeper into de-spare-ing downing detentions,
for it is only the article's genuine genius,
that elevates the human spiritus, to godlike status
no ditty this, but a wail, shriek, for
human touch is gift so greatest,
that any day passing without
either, neither but both, 'tis one
truly wasted,
a deduction on our
calculus of inited^ human intuitions,
a failure of our greatest inventions
a subtraction of our
gainful living, a purposed ecstasy
our one and only inexact
measure of measurement
that defies pedantic notions of
things of weight or volume,
but extends our own existence
sans
the armies of embrace,
the electric elected syncing,
of the shocking sharing of
closing the borders of divided spaces,
a soft contusion, a realized illusion
a de minimus of our days,
a lessening of our lessons,
a loss of earning livingness,
a nail in our coffined basket,
and here to cease without surcease,
the elemental incalculable numbered
members of our total human races,
that so tragic in a twenty four expiry,
that the bonding of affection goes
unexpressed...
offer you my armory of arms,
cleanse us both with showered kisses,
inform you thus of our emboldened connection,
voiding these lowlife separators of lineage divisors,
what matter color, gender, chosen god nomenclature,
any of this nonsensical human inventions for distancing
divested human beings from each other
tho eyes closed, and all our senses flaring,
when we confirm what we were born knowing,
there is nothing greater than the human touch
PostScript
my first and best poem of the day,
how it came to me goes unbeknownst,
but will practice what is preached
with any and all willing encountered souls,
and perhaps, come-end of day, will write,
once more, one more, re heaven on earth
7:02am
Tue Sep Thirty
Two Thousand and Twenty Five. nml
Sep 30, 2025
Sep 30, 2025 at 7:13 AM UTC
I used to climb on window pipes.
Look through the neighbour's side,
Reach around trying to climb high.
I wanted to go into the dark skies
Find the real paradise.
And I am still climbing the staircase
where the happiness begins
but the steps are never ending
my legs are forever bending
the journey, like any, is tiring.
Oct 16, 2022
Oct 16, 2022 at 1:00 PM UTC
Living
shouldn't be this complicated
why it feels like all of us
are in a race against each other?
who has the fancier job
who has the more sophisticated house
how far is the finish line?
Feb 8, 2022
Feb 8, 2022 at 2:46 AM UTC
Failure..
Embarrassment..
Disappointment..
That's how I describe myself.
That's me. That's really me.
Dec 4, 2021
Dec 4, 2021 at 1:34 AM UTC
What is the deal with boundaries
When it comes to the things we love,
Why is it inexhaustible and all-consuming-
how do we make it stop?
Aug 29, 2021
Aug 29, 2021 at 2:39 AM UTC
it's not tiring being happy
it's ******* tiring not being sad and bothered
Jun 23, 2021
Jun 23, 2021 at 10:40 PM UTC
I am.
I am a cold, crisp autumn field.
I am a plush scarf in the breeze,
I am omnipresent, and yet never near.
I am a crackling fire in a winter freeze.
I am crumbling, cold, and free.
I am encumbered by the slush and snow.
I am waiting toe-to-toe.
You have seen me,
slouched, burdened, fatigued by the stress of the day,
waiting in the back of the bus bay.
I am all, and I am more.
Mar 19, 2021
Mar 19, 2021 at 2:37 PM UTC
Girls are so kind, they're tend and warm,
Smelling like sweat and vanilla, and recent alcohol,
Perhaps I should fall for that side, rather than to the illusion behind liking guys;
Feb 6, 2021
Feb 6, 2021 at 1:32 PM UTC
Self-loathing is tiring
But god, it’s inspiring
Anyone would be lying
To claim they weren’t trying
To work day by day
To mend their mistakes
To reshape their ways
The ill strive for change
The strive to improve
Or perhaps just to prove
The pain is the truth
The weaknesses too
With all the crying
The bleeding, the fighting
Self-loathing is tiring
But god, it’s inspiring
Nov 3, 2020
Nov 3, 2020 at 12:11 PM UTC
My recovery was like climbing a mountain
Hard
Tiring
But so worth it
Then I lost my footing
And fell
Now I'm laying at the bottom
All beaten up and broken
Too hurt and tired to start again
Oct 9, 2020
Oct 9, 2020 at 3:14 PM UTC
Against the backdrop of a global catastrophe
witness us busying to fix the natural damage
heavily wrought
an endeavour in itself,
which ought to warrant respect
and the gift of time and patience
Our blood and sweat
a human resource
gladly spent to rebuild the detriment,
but not at any cost
not kamikaze squadrons
dashed upon the decks of a false progress
For each of us as batteries
are finite
and our spark will drain,
our light will die
unless the blinkered
see that trying is enough
for now
When foundations are rebuilt, safe
and feet feel steady
we will readily head skywards again
Sep 20, 2020
Sep 20, 2020 at 8:10 AM UTC
Ever felt so emotionally drained that you just... can’t?
• can’t cry,
•can’t sleep,
•can’t think,
•can’t focus,
•can nothing.
You simply
Can’t.
Jun 2, 2020
Jun 2, 2020 at 4:24 PM UTC
Self destruction is soul obstruction
thinking a perfect building needs construction
turning negative thoughts into a institution
self loathing in every discussion
the funniest thing is,
there is no solution
May 19, 2020
May 19, 2020 at 4:32 PM UTC
I love Pain and the way it makes people feel,
I love how tender and mild it is at first,
I love how annoying it is sometimes,
I love how excruciating and unbearable it is other times,
I love how indescribable and profound it is, leaving us clueless,
I love how irritating and troublesome it can be,
I love how it brings us discomfort and agony,
I love how tormenting punishing it makes us most of the time,
I love how tiring it is yet also satisfying,
I love how piercing it is that it spreads into us physically and mentally,
I love how it's scary intermittent it can become,
I love how miserable and dreadful it makes one person,
after the very long sickening and exhausting feeling
it will always leave us
empty.
Dec 4, 2019
Dec 4, 2019 at 1:22 PM UTC
When you’re little, everyone thinks you’re special...
When you’re twenty, everyone thinks you’re promising...
And when you’re dead, everyone will love you.
Do you see yourself as successful?
Beautiful?
Charming, even?
Well, I see you dead in a bathtub...
Surrounded by drug paraphernalia.
I see your mother crying for you...
Syringe in her arm to take away pain.
Do you see yourself as a failure?
Disgusting?
Horrid, even?
Why, don’t think of yourself that way...
You’ll be alright.
There is no storm...
Just calm, just the eye...
When you’re little, they beat you.
When you’re twenty, you’re hopeless.
And when you’re dead, you’re saved.
Is the drive boring?
Tiring?
Numbing, even?
It’s okay, just fall asleep...
You’re not responsible anyway.
It’s fine, go to sleep...
You’ll be unresponsive, anyway.
When you’re low, it’s blue.
When you’re high, it’s full.
When you’re dead, you’ll finally be numb.
Aug 31, 2019
Aug 31, 2019 at 11:48 PM UTC
Ever since I was a little girl, I had always wanted to be pretty. To be a beautiful princess, a tall and irresistible super model, the gorgeous actress of a telenovela, or the weather girl that always looks fantastic, even though that's not really the purpose of her job.
Laughing, dreaming, and playing silly games. All that to grow up in a society where they DEMAND YOU to be pretty because if you aren't, you'll never be good enough. In a society where you are judged by your looks and not by your skills, where you are treated as a ****** object.
I didn't mean that when I said I wanted to be pretty!
Being catcalled, sexually and psychologically harassed, **** attempts... and the list continues.
Everytime, going out with fear, dressing as covered as possible, crossing to the other side of the street and being forced to be extremely prejudiced with people, because you never know if you are going to be the next victim.
I DON'T WANNA BE PRETTY ANYMORE.
I wanna be smart, capable, kind, loving, respectful, honest, funny, creative, generous, strong, loyal, determined, humble...
But above all, I wanna be
RESPECTED FOR WHO I AM.
May 30, 2019
May 30, 2019 at 10:31 AM UTC
On the drive back home i tried to make sense of your presence
You weren't here or there or anywhere
But i could still hear your lingering footsteps pacing past my door
The uneven rhythm of pounding against the floor
thud THUD THUD thud thUD
Were you trying to control your demons?
Or at least trying to keep them at bay?
I could hear your footsteps getting louder and louder AND LOUDER
UNTIL IT FELT AS IF MY HEAD WERE TO EXPLODE
But then you would constrict your muscles using every last ounce of power
To stop yourself from moving
You weren't here or there or anywhere
Except for my imagination
Mar 5, 2019
Mar 5, 2019 at 12:52 PM UTC
I try to find something but nothing's there.
I try to talk but my mouth's stitched.
I try to walk but I have no feet.
I try to crawl but I have no energy.
I try to move but I'm boneless meat.
I try to feel but I am machine.
And no one notices.
Or worse... No one cares.
Jun 2, 2018
Jun 2, 2018 at 11:25 PM UTC
Having children of my own, somewhere, someday...
Will be to me, the most phenomenal distraction from self which could ever be...
May 7, 2018
May 7, 2018 at 12:46 PM UTC
Having children of my own, somewhere, someday.
Will be to me, the most phenomenal distraction from self which could ever be...
Jun 1, 2018
Jun 1, 2018 at 12:45 AM UTC
My mind is full, but empty.
My brain is a chaos, and my
thoughts are a mess. Yet my mouth
keeps smiling.
I'm tired, but my body keeps on going.
I want to rest, instead,
my eyes are wide awake.
The life caring on,
As does the bubble.
Becoming bigger and bigger as the
days become weeks, and
the weeks become months, and
months become years.
The life should be cheerful, but
the bubble is anything but fun.
Like a battery, my energies
are zipped out, and life feels
like a timeless mission.
At some point,
the mission must end.
But at this rate,
It’s just a dream.
Dreams don’t become true.
You have to work for them,
not wish for them.
But working is tiring and
this line has no end.
I don’t know how long I can keep
this act. I should talk,
but talk feels like attention.
My mouth is shut. This is
my mission, not theirs.
This bubble is my life
now. Much more comfortable
than the outside.
Mar 19, 2018
Mar 19, 2018 at 12:42 PM UTC
Busy days
Long hours,
Closing eyelids,
On the buses.
Drooping eyes,
Sore knees,
Cranky voices,
Like a breeze.
Hard day,
Aching back,
Groans and moans,
Tried to slack.
Need a rest,
Need some time,
Need a home,
Need a more rhymes.
Feb 22, 2018
Feb 22, 2018 at 6:36 AM UTC
i am drained
so drained
so very drained
i cannot seem to find
solace
within a single thing
i am so drained
just let me lay
don't speak
your words have done
enough already
Dec 14, 2016
Dec 14, 2016 at 3:45 AM UTC