#throw
I love you to the edge of the galaxy and back, but it is never-ending.
you mean what the sun means to us,
you are beautiful, bright, and keep me alive.
you do tend to burn at times,
harsh, warm,
sometimes the pain is good, other times not.
i love you but sometimes i lose myself in that love.
sometimes i use it to barricade myself from reality,
and sometimes when you break that 4th wall i will spiral.
but i need to learn i must not depend on others,
it will bite me, soft gnaws become flesh-deep.
I cannot depend on you, and i must learn the hard way.
we will make mistakes,
and it is always a breath of fresh air,
a timestamp -- worldwide,
to a burn of realization.
i sought out reassurance,
where you weren't aware it was sought,
you tried your best, and i do not blame,
my tongue is best kept a bay,
for if i tried to express,
i'd dump, and bite, and scratch with each scathing word,
unintentionally tearing at our love, and i must resist,
because i love you.
i won you, i will learn to adjust
i tried to make intents clear,
that i did not take interest in that, i even cleared up at it,
and it did not work.
i was afraid to comment, out of fear you'd get mad,
you told me you wouldn't,
but you snapped earlier, you apologized of course,
but it planted a needle of doubt,
should i or should i not? pushing was too risky,
i do not walk eggshells around you,
but at times, past experience stares me down --
searingly, daringly,
'go ahead and test the waters.'
but i've seen where it gets me.
i try to ask, and attend, and help --
but you close yourself down,
"We tell each other EVERYTHING!"
is that so. .?
bit hypocritical, but boundaries are walls of white sheet,
one stain is ever-lasting, and i love you,
so i do not pry, and i stay attentive and careful.
it is very irritating, but i shall keep my tongue a bay,
or it will lash, and i shall not become one that i was before.
for i love you, hence i would never intentionally try,
to cut you open and dissect your dismays,
because i love you,
and because i'd never want to hurt you how i've hurt others.
i love you so much.
i hope to never ruin our relationship,
so i write here,
where i speak in words,
careful to depict,
but not enough to be direct.
i love you.
Apr 13
Apr 13, 2026 at 11:47 PM UTC
is that a period?
no, better put one there.
a comma next, right here?
no, that's a period.
why are there dashes
between 'nine-inches-tall'?
oh, that's a smudge.
i need isopropyl alcohol
to clean up the ****
from eating fudge
and having fun
Nov 23, 2025
Nov 23, 2025 at 3:56 AM UTC
sunday on a saturday afternoon
fills my lungs with soda taste longing
flinging through words never said
to spit out of my head
here i lie on the bedding
sunday comes around
to feed me to the ground
silence waits til i turn to say ‘i found you’
saturday sun on a sweet afternoon
week full, ate up my work til i threw up on you
what was that last thing we spoke about?
like,
just wait til it ends
just wait til it ends
sun sat day to wait til it ends
and then you know like
it starts on a friday night
we’ll tie our hands together
over our new tv
we’ll watch the stories as they play
of a life worth living past sunday
life worth living past sunday
Feb 28, 2025
Feb 28, 2025 at 12:17 AM UTC
fine then.
i'll forgive a memory and condemn a feeling.
the arteries
bloodless fingers squeezing
an expression silent.
press into gumlines - remind enamel
no recastings will remain
at the end of this.
Dec 19, 2023
Dec 19, 2023 at 10:07 AM UTC
Why did you toss me out the back door like yesterday's trash?
Sweet moments swiftly kicked far from your life without a second look or thought
Something innocent at first grew to be such a ****** excuse for a relationship
You cannot ever undo your mistake
I will never let anybody else throw my love away ever again
Jan 14, 2021
Jan 14, 2021 at 7:55 AM UTC
I try to do the best I can
Yet everything still falls apart
I end every day with the same problems
Working their way through my heart
Talk but you are distracted
We never find a solution
Stress poisoning the air around us
We keep breathing in pollution
Just keep ignoring the damage
Acting like we are fine
Blind to fact we are tiptoeing
Dangerously on a thin line
Me pretending that I don’t notice
How close we are to the edge
You don’t seem to mind the risk
Associated with the ledge
You listen
You attempt to understand
Why I live with such fear
But can’t change the speed you move at
Or switch into a lower gear
Don’t hear my worried murmurs
Cries fall upon ears rendered deaf
If you continue wheeling and dealing
Soon nothing will be left
Destroying me one piece at a time
As you throw your potential away
Hoping in time you will see the truth
Before it’s too late to stop decay
Oct 19, 2020
Oct 19, 2020 at 1:21 AM UTC
Unnecessary mental stresses are meant to be thrown away like dilapidated shoes.
Aug 18, 2020
Aug 18, 2020 at 8:10 AM UTC
A bloom of sunshine in a day
Playfully, picking up flowers for a fine treat
The paint of pastel that allures eyes
A sort of smile, a kind of way
Of a certain imagination of a happy gray
This will end a premonition for a day
A messy room for such a baby
Waking up, staring at a mirror; saying,
"You're a child"-- quite deceitful to look at it
Starting the day with a thing
Seemingly, suspicious to talk about
A delighted grace dives as i open the door
A place condemned of mockery and derogation
Sought as heaven for bullet heads
I stood on the crack
The party begins with a slap
Raise a cup! Raise a cup!
Green faces hover the floor
Crawling for legs, it's for sure
All come to see my beautiful
My rose, my bad
Skin as baby's lips
An adorn, i tremble
Carried me into the woods
One night, a filthy paradise
A job to have it inside
Pour with sweat over my body
Strangled my garments to shreds
Shackles, chains, ropes
Arms stretched, legs loose
Bend over 'til a joint injects
It is a norm for me
Oh how, why it shuts me
Please daddy, don't you grab me
As a prize, i puked 'em all
An illusion of running, always cuts me
My reward can't give me toys to play
A thousand compliments I put on my dress
While they see nothing on me
It thrills to call me pretty
Well indeed, I was trained
As a subject to pet a doll
They ask me if i want a candy
Who would ever thought, I was the sweetest candy
I know, it would be like this
A history of my shattered daydream
My haunted misery
Behind beauty is a lost innocent child
I am pretty baby
Oh why they throw me?
Jan 29, 2018
Jan 29, 2018 at 8:17 PM UTC
Throw kindness around because world needs more
Like birds let it soar through air
Confetti Earth with goodness galore
Your actions inspire others to share
Mar 22, 2020
Mar 22, 2020 at 7:49 PM UTC
Where do you go when my presence is not there?
The absence of my gaze
Who's eyes get captured in a stare?
While you mouth the word "always"
What do you clutch when you're scared?
My hand too far away
Wonder how well you'll fare
On your own when skies turn grey
Does someone gently stroke your hair?
Are you genuinely okay?
Is it difficult to breathe air?
Body caught in a craze
When we are apart are you even aware?
That next to I no longer lay?
Am I nothing more than spare?
Part to use then throw away
For who do you pretend to care?
With constructed words you say
Many times you have said "I swear"
Unsaid it the very next day
Please answer the question "where?"
Where does your heart wander when it strays?
Mar 8, 2020
Mar 8, 2020 at 3:21 AM UTC
_Spin,
Mister
Fisherman,
Throw me a line;
A fluttering lure of burnished vowel chimes
Bait, braid and bailor - snap, swivel and fly;
Dub well your quill,
Hook me low,
Run me
High_
Apr 18, 2020
Apr 18, 2020 at 1:34 AM UTC
You gave me a watch
You said “check the time,
When we meet again
It’ll be different on mine.”
But I threw it down
And you hugged me tight
Yet I still didn’t want
To say goodbye.
The dust has settled
I know you’re gone
But still I stay strong
But still I go on.
Jul 28, 2019
Jul 28, 2019 at 12:34 AM UTC
you brought me along
for the journey
and i after i developed
and gave you memories
you threw me out
Jul 4, 2019
Jul 4, 2019 at 2:22 AM UTC
I have a rock
With my name on it
And one for my father
And one for my brother
And one for each of the boys
Who broke me
They are grudges I carry with me
Heavy in my pockets
One step away
From the cement blocks
Tied to my feet
Someday I will throw these grudges
As far as my body will allow
In hopes that they land in water
Less shallow
Than the names on the rocks
May 28, 2019
May 28, 2019 at 4:55 AM UTC
the heart becomes hollow
you know
the rain will go
down , do
to plant love's wall
people show
the love arrows throw
needs hero
Apr 27, 2019
Apr 27, 2019 at 7:40 PM UTC
always throw caution to the wind
for a life well lived, for I did not, and lived a life well-lied
always throw caution to the wind
our life in this realm is short-lived, no bigger than
the size and brevity of our divine sparks existence
always throw caution to the wind
long winters and short summers recalled on paper,
have you not realized that mere gods worship immortal men,
our gloried markers, our stories, our ephemeral skin - forever
always throw caution to the wind
jump in after it, the winds course is a buffeting, head knock heading,
breeze, gust, gale and storm, a recovery chance of chances, a tourney
where the thrill of the unpredictable toss is not a simple head or tails,
but a slot machine of innumerable outcomes randomly optimized
always throw caution to the wind
the life irregular is the normative, the outcomes always positive,
this is the only thought that should ever provoke -
be wild but not crazy, think clearly and dare define safety
on your own terms, your own odds calculating, sew your own net,,
pick your wind and as a parent, always dress appropriately
for I am still crazy after all these years
Apr 26, 2019
Apr 26, 2019 at 3:30 PM UTC
I'll tie the loose strings
Around the glass bottle
Slip in the letter
And throw it out to the sea
Hoping someday you'll read it
With my name scribbled at the edge
Your not so secret admirer
Erian
Apr 10, 2019
Apr 10, 2019 at 9:26 PM UTC
I
am the crumpled up
rough draft girl
in the wastepaper basket
corner of my mind
she is the file
I deleted
after too many red lines
changed her meaning
this is not my final draft
I will throw myself away
again soon
Feb 26, 2019
Feb 26, 2019 at 1:10 PM UTC
throw
me
away
let
me
waste
away
tell
me
i'm
okay
that
i'll
live
another
day
with
sand
in between
my
toes
and
fireflies
dancing
in
the
sky
throw
me
away
but
do
it
gently
Jan 1, 2019
Jan 1, 2019 at 1:32 PM UTC
I cut off my hand
to put in a bouquet
that you didn’t keep
Sep 10, 2018
Sep 10, 2018 at 11:00 AM UTC
Give me a choice
One immunity
It will not be
Pain
I still need
Something to remind me
I'm still just a mortal
Need saving
If
I gave you
The choice
To live or
Die
You would choose live
But I would choose die
Cause I don't know
What's going on
But I want to know
I'm not immune
To reality
Throw me away
I'll bounce right back
This home I've made
I know won't last
I just
Don't want
To be
Invincible
Aug 17, 2018
Aug 17, 2018 at 12:24 AM UTC