sunbitten fingerprints all over my hands.
my body is my transport and everything in between.
i am a passenger in lethargy
fallen away sleeplessly
staples in my bedsheets my skin its paper
sunken in teeth
heavy rapid quick quickening shaky breathing
shamed to be burdened and carried
but all the same burned by the sun
by the son
aimlessly to wander where i first began
handheld and handmade but i am just an automaton
writhing in my own flesh.
give me a piano and i can return it new
but God, tell me i'm not alone in this.
all of this is so lonely.
Mar 30, 2024
Mar 30, 2024 at 6:24 PM UTC
paperback spine.
you have a paperback spine.
it is creased with liquid white.
liquid moon.
i trace my piano fingers
to feel your used.
the used is how the white came about.
the stories you've lived and told.
you wouldn't tell me that it was
painful
but i've already read it.
your paperback spine.
there was bad.
and there was good.
you've seen colder winters than i.
i've asked before if you regret
your paperback spine.
if it becomes unbearable to show
vulnerability as a color.
as the liquid moon
dripping down each crevice
you said no
because honesty
was what made the liquid moon white on your back.
you were proud of that.
and i didn't ask anymore.
Jul 2, 2020
Jul 2, 2020 at 1:25 AM UTC
whenever i think about you,
i always remember when
we danced in your front yard
at 9 pm
in front of boys
in front of your dad
in front of people
i didn't even know
and just didn't care.
we just didn't care
how bad our moves were
or how awkward
the stares were.
we just didn't care
how grainy the music was
on your broken phone speakers.
and of all the memories i have of you,
this one's my favorite.
and one i'll remember
with a smile.
because even though you told me
you didn't need me anymore,
i will still remember
fondly
but maybe
with a touch
of bitter sadness.
May 22, 2020
May 22, 2020 at 1:00 AM UTC
whenever i feel content
with it just being me
and God in the same room,
i know i have succeeded.
May 21, 2020
May 21, 2020 at 4:20 PM UTC
when a friend becomes a stranger
and bitterness always lingers
when the sweet becomes sour
and all the brave seem to do is cower
when a heart breaks and heals
and all the skin can do is steel
be prepared to scream
you can win no other way
if you don't have a battle cry,
fighting as if you're
prepared to die.
May 20, 2020
May 20, 2020 at 5:39 PM UTC
You could throw me in a cage
and grate my skin from my bones.
You could eat my heart raw
in front of me.
You could let a lion ravage me,
tear me apart, piece by piece
with my ****** ashes
soaking in ocean water.
You could feast
on my madness
but I will not be truly scared
unless you take my tongue
and my pen.
May 18, 2020
May 18, 2020 at 5:15 PM UTC
it's the anchored sound of piano tiles
hit
struck
gently
by eagerly peaceful fingers
it's the pedal and it's sound
aching
breaking
groaning
under the pressure of beauty
when all has been stripped of
goodness
kindness
loving
it's the sound of tiles and pedals
that
remain.
May 15, 2020
May 15, 2020 at 10:26 PM UTC
i'm as dull as butter.
there is no more poetry
i can squeeze out of me anymore.
where did it all go?
May 12, 2020
May 12, 2020 at 8:01 PM UTC
falling out of love
with this tongue
aches to no end.
May 11, 2020
May 11, 2020 at 3:32 PM UTC