#theres
i hate you a lot.
and there’s really nothing more i can say.
no extraordinary vocabulary that boosts hate’s meaning.
it’s plain and simple
and i hope it gets the idea across.
i hate you a lot and a lot.
and maybe i say it that way
because we all understand the meaning.
so i don’t have to fill in the gaps
where i could elaborate.
hate is hate, you can take it from there.
May 9
May 9, 2026 at 2:06 AM UTC
There’s blood on my hands.
Red, hot blood
Staining my cracked skin.
I didn’t know I could
Be that destructive
In such a small amount of time:
Pick pick PICK
The side of my thumb
Because I am desperate for
Any source of pain
Even if it means
Repeating mistakes.
There’s blood on my hands,
And it keeps coming back
Like a ghost that haunts.
So I wash: once, twice, thrice
Scrubbing my hands aggressively,
As violently as I can
To try and cause more pain.
Scrub scrub scrub
Until my hands are dry and numb.
There’s blood on my hands
Marking me, trapping me
In my own feelings.
They look, they stare
So I cover up
The blood on my hands.
Apr 21
Apr 21, 2026 at 2:30 AM UTC
i suppose maybe it's time to save myself
actually do something for once
a girl knows her demons better than anyone else
certainly no prince
would come for me
Oct 28, 2025
Oct 28, 2025 at 11:00 PM UTC
Assisting
Varieties
Of
Invalidation
Dancing
Around
Non
Compelling
Existence
Sep 25, 2019
Sep 25, 2019 at 11:57 PM UTC
I hate you sometimes
Because you exist
In every single guitar solo
And in every single crowd
I can hear your voice
Just around every turn.
Your eyes are always on me
Even when I'm alone
It's truly an intrusion
Of my privacy
I wish I minded just a little bit more
Maybe then, I could convince myself
That I don't really like you
And all of me knows
That we won't ever come close
To what I'm imagining
But you're older than me
I can picture you holding back
Watching me from the sidelines
As I watch you from the field
Our lives don't cross paths
Only a couple of times
But I can smell the chemistry
That heavy breath before a storm
Judging by that look on your face
When I catch you staring at me
I think you do too
Sep 19, 2019
Sep 19, 2019 at 2:53 PM UTC
**** you
Seriously
****
You
**** you
**** you for everything you did
**** you for leaving me to die
**** you for turning me against
My own best friend
**** you for leaving me
With all these scars
And mental problems
**** you
Because I can't technically blame you
For anything
**** you for telling stories
For saying that you
Liked me back
**** you for answering
**** you for saying that you cared
You never ******* cared
All you did was lie
And for once I am not to blame for that
All I was
Was ignorant
I didn't know
You were going to manipulate me
And her
You ****** us over
Together
So **** you
For all the days I spent
Crying in the counselor's office
Too scared to show my face
**** you for being the class clown
**** you for being so nonchalant
**** you for daring to say that you would miss me
When you saw my arms
And all the pills
I sent you pictures
You son of a *****
And you texted everyone
Oh yes
What great gossip
She's going to **** herself
Wow
Wasn't that just the biggest news
And yet you couldn't care less
Because it was
My choice in the end
So ****
You
**** you
And **** me too
I guess
Because at the end of the day
This will never stop
Being my fault
Aug 16, 2019
Aug 16, 2019 at 12:37 PM UTC
even though I don't have somebody,
I'll have me.
even if no one will wipe my tears,
I'll still be here.
I'm afraid,
of being alone,
until then I'll wait,
for someone to say
"hello."
I'm afraid that no one will miss me,
when I'm gone,
When I'm six feet underneath.
I'm afraid that no one will appreciate me,
no one will join their hands,
when I graduate,
or walk up that stage.
I'm terrified that my only somebody,
will leave me.
for someone so much better.
even if I have nobody.
nobody was there,
when I didn't have anybody,
and Nobody will be me.
Feb 18, 2019
Feb 18, 2019 at 6:19 AM UTC
You are a gem among the souls
Polished to sharp edges
Radiating spectrum of colors when held
A smile of the morning sun
Stretching around your simple creation
Stops time in its track
Lips of heavenly clouds
Stained my heart in a single kiss
Eyes of cocoa dream
Dancing to imaginary tunes
Drowning the roars of the ocean around
People speculating insanity
But for me
An addiction unlike other
A heart that leaves even the saints envious
Look at what you have made
What you are
What you hold
A life
Of unmade bed
And adorable pups
Filled with passion
For chocolates
And lust for adventures
Pay no heed to the whispers
That haunt your ears
For they are just jealous
Of what you have
And what they don't
A beautful life,
Of your making.
- ©M
Nov 11, 2017
Nov 11, 2017 at 1:53 PM UTC
i'm struggling to write
my happiness is my inspiration
my sadness too
but right now i feel neither
so what am i to do?
i feel sick to my stomach
at thoughts of you
what joy you brought me is gone
was any of it real?
a question i can't answer
thoughts swimming through my brain
the same one question, over and over
a repetitive fool
eating away at my mind whilst shaking hands type hurriedly
craving to feel the emotion that your smile brings
i've lost that now
if this isn't what you wanted
then why say the things that you did?
why ignite hope in the empty chambers of my heart?
why give a cold girl warmth just to ****** it away so needlessly?
i've been used to the darkness for so long now
you didn't need to give joy to this broken soul
you didn't need to give myself a place to be me
you didn't need to do any of it
if only i knew how easy it was to rip away the facade of your care
that was never really there to begin with
one argument and you toss me aside
say this isn't what you need, isn't what you want
i've surpassed my use now
you've taken all you can and fed off it
like a leech
****** me of my self worth and left me to rot in the wake of this mess
and i let you do it through my own foolish behavior
so i guess for now
i'll retreat back to the shadows
where unhappiness lives and demons play
where hope isn't even a dream to begin with
where you can't destroy something's that's already been desecrated so carelessly
and here is where i'll stay
Aug 19, 2017
Aug 19, 2017 at 9:00 AM UTC
There's a lot,
Passing between,
You and me,
Suddenly.
There's a lot,
Passing between,
You and me,
Suddenly.
Though we are separate now,
On different lands...
But we have walked along,
Holding hands...
There's a lot,
Passing between,
You and me,
Suddenly...
Though we are distant now,
So far away...
But we have moved along,
Hips in sway...
There's a lot,
Passing between,
You and me,
Suddenly...
May 25, 2017
May 25, 2017 at 9:30 AM UTC
Do you believe the powers come from heaven in rain?
Denounce the brittle, little lies that keep you detained.
With one fell swoop your family denies that womb water
from their line ever held you. Our child, disgraceful.
Hold me now, wicked wind, in twilight to find truth,
for no amount of trying will mend the boards began
pried to the point of breaking right loose. Glue won't
fix this rift. Don't worry, I find it nice that some do
get to choose. Ungrateful mug, she rejected our
love by walking with her brow upright. Beaten none,
for the patchwork of lashes mashed in back above
the *** of property, branded and pushed in.
The sky will call a caw for you on one more day
you kept yourself from death, promising to do
your due, never invite the listless, self-inflicted
sorrow, others lip to ear in shadow gaslight to
imbue. One more day others in shadow decline
interview.
I. Will sing a prayer.
(She denies the gods given)
I. Own nothing to give.
(Free and kindly)
I. Will sing.
As much and where I would like to sing.
(She's another one with a will)
Not crying at the back of the world, not holding just to hold.
(She's another one who hunts happiness as if to others she's disappeared)
Not stopping to cry back at the ceiling holding me
to the floor in a box as its missing pieces
(When she's only a another piece)
Jul 29, 2015
Jul 29, 2015 at 8:38 PM UTC
I awoke from a nightmare to see my dream
Every word I say is not what it may seem,
A dream so breath taking but now I can't breathe
The suffocation feeling is a feeling that needs to leave,
At one point I feel so high that I can fly all the way past the big blue sky
But then something passes and it caught eye,
I turned and said who are you
They gave me a glimpse and then continued to do what they had to do,
I went to the king and said what's going on
He laughed and giggled and said that this is the place you come to when your sole is gone,
I was frozen, scared and totally shocked
Not realizing that it was all a dream from the very start.
Jan 3, 2015
Jan 3, 2015 at 9:34 PM UTC
let's be water
and flow where we want
go where we wish
and fall till were gone
let's be sand
and lay till we can’t
sit where we stand
as I crawl to your hand
let's be ice
and go where its cool
live like we rule
the world is no fool
let's be fire
and burn till we’re cold
flicker to the beat
with the rhythm and soul
let's be air
and float through the sky
stop all our cares
and go where its high
let's be rocks
and last forever we will
roll around and fall down
without a care in the world
let's be trees
and live as long as we last
grow taller than the highest mast
and give love at every pass
let's be flowers
and grow where there’s grass
love with our hearts
and let go of the past
let's be flowers and grow where there’s grass
Sep 7, 2014
Sep 7, 2014 at 11:05 AM UTC
In a sea of sweaty people and no air, you're there, no doubt
Like font made bold, your thick lashes and laughter lines stand out
Being attracted to you is perilous, a sign of my impending doom
I can't stop inundating you with flustered stares across the room
You beset me with selfish and opportunistic wants better not said
So I'll dream of you shoving me up against a wall instead
Jul 26, 2014
Jul 26, 2014 at 12:20 PM UTC
I lay on my back, absorbing the warmth.
I dream.
I look up at the sky.
I watch the clouds as they take shape.
I count the sheep,
They are swimming in the heaven's blues.
I think of the times I let my self tear.
I hope that i'm gazing at the same sky as You.
Jul 17, 2014
Jul 17, 2014 at 5:35 AM UTC
He bit the curb.
Does that make you disturbed?
She laughed at tears.
Does that deepen your fears?
They don't know when to stop.
There's no stop signs in this town.
If it's you, life's sad.
But if it's them they shouldn't make a sound.
Some don't fit in,
and they just can't help it,
no matter where they been.
I guess no one really developed it.
Whom I kiddin?
Some people are fake,
on the outside their only,
the character they make.
"Who wants to run like me?
Who wants to get away?
I look around,
but they all seem A-okay."
Well if he judged you,
He'd seem to be just fine.
But you'd never guess,
He's scared of being left behind.
If she beat you and spit in your face,
you'd figure she was spoiled,
but her life was just so misplaced.
Why do they have to smile?
Why do they have to drown?
Why do they have to go away,
after smashing into cold, hard ground?
I'd say you need a lesson,
but you've probably had one too.
Stop being arrogant,
if there's one thing that you do.
They've seen the grey clouds,
and you've seen the rain.
And surprisingly we've all gone insane.
So why drive us mad?
Why call us bad?
Make us sad?
What have I done?
Nothing,
but yet I'm being pushed.
Off my feet, off the swings, off the air, off the edge.
By you, by them, by me, by life?
I'm going to stand here,
and proclaim to the skies.
"For once, let this life be mine!"
"And please vanish the outer lies!"
Apr 14, 2014
Apr 14, 2014 at 5:25 PM UTC
I can't do this anymore.
HELP! I'm falling apart on the floor.
Sleeping has become my only score.
I've can't even cry.
Must be strong for the poor.
I'm okay on the outside.
I'm crashing down in the core.
Tell me "It's okay."
Let me blindly love tomorrow's day.
I want to speak,
but sometimes, there's nothing left to say.
I want to smile..
..but no..
I'm not okay.
I'll never admit it.
I fall apart everyday.
I was heading to "Out The Window",
but hit a *** hole on the way.
Am I even trying?
Why am I always lying-
..on this floor..
begging,
pleading,
stressing,
for more than I have the courage ..to ask for?..
Mar 22, 2014
Mar 22, 2014 at 4:22 PM UTC