#taint
fighting my demons
rewriting the script, changing the meaning
from a sad sad story to one filled with glory
but it's hard when every day a new thing screams my name
screaming for me to do this and that
I am put into these positions with conditions that
taint a good time, taint a pure mind
told I could find myself in the good guys
but they lied, they always do
Since Adam and Eve, I should have known
humanity is plagued with apathy down to the bone
Rather steal and stack then give a meal, clothes to an exposed back
walking down an abandoned path
Dec 12, 2021
Dec 12, 2021 at 12:35 PM UTC
Plagued by crippling doubt,
You trudge through life,
Hesitant, confused, aimless.
Peril lurks behind you.
You cling to what you know:
A sweet, numb idleness.
You seek a badge of courage,
But are waylaid by hedonism.
Sinking deeper into sorrow,
The many colored beast nearby,
Whispering, “you are alone,
Worthless, inadequate, a corpse."
Night’s jaws envelope you,
As the taint burns your soul.
The beast prowls unchallenged,
Leaving the heart torn and gory.
About to concede to the Destroyer,
You are interrupted in the act,
By a still small voice,
And love embraces you.
Sep 28, 2021
Sep 28, 2021 at 11:14 AM UTC
Photographs of naked bodies
Positioned across a bed
Seducing one other
By the gleam in our eyes
Dressed with the desirable color of red
Our lips dripping with pure lust
Forever but a mere inch away
Eternally unreachable
As pretend is what we like to play
Trace the outline of my body
Feel the softness of my skin
Dine upon the devils wishes
Give in to this lustful sin
Embrace the coldness of the night
Be intoxicated by our heat
Eyes glazed over from this dream
Slowly lose your willingness to fight
Taste the sweetness upon your tongue
Allow us to quench your thirst
But once you taste heaven gates
You will eternally be cursed
Drunken off the beating sound
Of our hearts within perfect synch
Pleasure induced by feeling Pain
Holding on tighter to that chain
Bruises and bite marks
Littering the skin
Relinquish your demons
Fall captive to that sinners grin
Harsh whispers in the dark
Lips pressed against your neck
***Tempt me with such sins
my darling***
My dear the night has only begun
Decipher what you truly want
As it seems our game of play is done
Both lost within an ecstatic dream
It appears that neither of us have won
Dirtied souls are all that are left
Without meaning or for reason
What have we done?
an echoing question
The devil replies with a taunting voice
My darling you have become undone
With a sly grin he walks away
Eroding into the dark of night
While the tainted souls
Together with their hands holding tight
A game that they were destined to lose
***We have danced with the devil tonight
And it appears he has won.***
~
Oct 10, 2018
Oct 10, 2018 at 6:20 AM UTC
I don't possess the luxury to feel alive
This broken soul is daunted by mired ties
The shell that holds these withered bones and stinted cries
Stains rotten with guilt underneath
this tainted flesh; will ultimately be my surmise
Aug 9, 2018
Aug 9, 2018 at 8:16 PM UTC
Where there's a love that doesn't fade
there is also a light without any shade.
Where there's a purity without any taint
there is a place or someone very quaint.
_______________
Mar 7, 2018
Mar 7, 2018 at 6:42 PM UTC
tick, tick, tick
i am not counting the hours i've spent with my fingers between yours
i am tracing the maps on your arms
i am trying to find a way home
we do not know what time it is
maybe it's 2am and we both have things to do
maybe it's 3pm and we have places to be
maybe it's midnight and we really have to say goodbye
all i know is
the world is not on my shoulders anymore
and all there is now is the wonder in your smile
all i can see is how well we fit
in my years
i wanted to know what it was like
to be beautiful enough to haunt
and here you are beside me in the dusk
and you tell me that i have entangled myself in your thoughts
all this time
i have been been trying to find what all the poets and the artists create for
and i found you
tick, tick, tick
how long until you see
the cracks that taint me
the shadows that follow me around
how long until you decide not to stay
you distance yourself from the calamity of me
how long until i have to beg
to stay with me so we can be lost again
Nov 15, 2017
Nov 15, 2017 at 6:23 AM UTC
your face so confused
my mind too amused
your eyes so empty
my words too petty
he wants to say something
i'm too afraid to listen
whats wrong darling?
all his words expressed
were finishing my quest
for his wrongs said nothing
my wrongs said everything
he exclaimed HOW?
"just how can you get so much fire, get so much gold?
but still have a heart so unfathomably cold."
-fir.m
Jun 4, 2017
Jun 4, 2017 at 7:20 PM UTC
.
*Her eyes faking yes, yet—
Her hands so far away, surmise,
That was the day I truly died—
Knowing a cipher compromised.*
Apr 16, 2015
Apr 16, 2015 at 10:41 PM UTC
dried blood all over your hands
when will you stop trying to fight the man
we both know its just paint
Feb 26, 2015
Feb 26, 2015 at 4:15 PM UTC
There were plenty before you,
But don't get me wrong
You were my first love.
The priors i loved but
I was never IN Love
Till the day I met you,
Your innocent smile & golden heart
Never will I forget;
How you told me
I was only your second kiss,
You were 18 how could this be;
*You were reserved n pure
Before you met me.*
A year of on and off
& we fell IN Love
You knew the ****** deeds I did
& one day near the end of summer
You invited me over; caught me by suprise
When you lead me to your room
And removed your shirt
The pregnancy scare
Is what tore us apart,
I wasn't there;
Trust was broken,
& faith in men destroyed,
You never smoked
nor drank till after this
You must have been trying to escape
We stop talking
Cause you needed space,
I never once thought I should text.
You felt unwanted n used
By the way I lacked to try
I destroyed you,
corrupted you,
And I'm guilty of that
We agreed to stay friends,
But that didn't work
& we went our separate ways
Then last Christmas as if a miracle,
You came back into my life.
*I never stoped loving you,
Never stopped hating myself*
I let be known
That I'll lend a ear
When ever your down.
You must think I'm being sweet
Just to get another hit,
But the truth in the matter is;
I know you'll never take me back
Not after what I did
But I still feel guilty
And I wish to mend the wounds
After all I'm the one who caused
Them all.......
Jun 23, 2014
Jun 23, 2014 at 10:20 AM UTC