#slept
I’ve never been on a beach at midnight,
while watching the waves caress the shoreline.
I’ve never slept in penthouse splendor,
next to a man who didn’t hurt my heart.
I’ve never once danced to an old school classic.,
with my arms wrapped around the man I love.
I’ve yet to sail the Amazon Basin,
and watched in wonderment as God’s beautiful
creatures ran wild and free through the
I’ve never been on a beach at midnight,
while watching the waves caress the shoreline.
I’ve never slept in penthouse splendor,
next to a man who didn’t hurt my heart.
I’ve never once danced to an old school classic.,
with my arms wrapped around the man I love.
I’ve yet to sail the Amazon Basin,
and watched in wonderment as God’s beautiful
creatures ran wild and free through the
Serengeti.
Jan 29, 2021
Jan 29, 2021 at 10:36 PM UTC
My room is empty except a
pillow...
But I drown in the feathers
that carry me
to illusions of flying
but I fall every time.
I wasn't like a bird, my
wings were decapitated
hard every time
I slept alone..
there was no one in my nest I
was alone..
I thought I was warm,
but in a nest of thorns I bleed
slowly...
I drowned in my own loneliness..
My nest was a tomb of never flown dreams...
Apr 3, 2020
Apr 3, 2020 at 7:59 PM UTC
We were two distinct lands divided by light
in my forests slept a cold penumbra
in your savannahs shone the blazing sun.
Jan 31, 2020
Jan 31, 2020 at 7:58 PM UTC
Bad ones build character
Demolish hope
Days that define are also the days that leave you damaged and dented
I slept to escape pain but in doing so also avoided change
Dec 19, 2019
Dec 19, 2019 at 7:44 PM UTC
I just want to go to sleep
But my mother weeps
So I guess I'm not sleeping
Sep 5, 2019
Sep 5, 2019 at 11:02 PM UTC
I slept with her, my rapacious pen, took me in quiet vengeance in
full on conjugation
raken and taken, me,
her overlording me now, her authorship, so long held
in my maledom abeyance,
a kept imprisonment, unleashing at last, a tongue lashing~leashing,
de-spite my un-desirous craven lying supplications,
excuses of innocence and accident, coincidence and conflation,
ashes, ashes, denials incinerated, all fall down
she wrote/stabbed upon my heartless chest,
in the cheap crudités colors of a prisoner’s inking,
“user of words mine, all mine”
gathered up my innards of loose words,
speculative notes & titles yet to be,
born and kept hid in password protected silent back labor files,
now hers, leaving me sputtering, unable to create,
a homeless mute citizen, possession-less,
helplessly hoping her hovering harlequin might relent,
without any shelter, even a glimmering, a single aleph or bet
she celebratory cackled and clawed,
professed her reclamation ownership of all my poems predecessors,
zola j’accusing that I, ripped from her forcibly,
with no granted permission, her womanly touché of my scribing,
warning of no more global warming for my unprivileged hands,
daren’t try for pretenses of stolen legal guardianship,
warning of a new, forced caining inscription,
a tattooing of “thief” upon my 5 knuckled right ******
“plagiarist” boldly inked in back & blue upon my left palm
I, predator,
she, victim,
of my now self-professed, admitted confess,
she, my single victim,
of a decade long serializing criminal coverup
her parting poem a threatening,
herein issued in this very verse,
damning all who would falsely credit themselves,
to suffer shame and an unimaginable curse,
this, the newborn eleventh of ten commandments
parting, she kissing my lips, even my emptied apertures,
with warning bitings,
she knew all my
my numerous noms de guerre,
no dead scrolls caves to hid in, and to be discovered some future day,
and if ever marked as copyrighted,
’twas no tunneling escape,
the exposed truth to be over-stamped
upon all, upon each, in every language,
”copied right from the tongue of a woman!”
and she would be wright...
May 23, 2019
May 23, 2019 at 10:10 AM UTC
5 a.m. and I still haven’t slept
A thought in my head suddenly crept
Why do I feel nothing when I think of you
The feelings left like an eagle who suddenly flew
Is this what feeling okay feel like?
That numbing pain is now out of sight
I don’t know if I could get used to this
Never knew there’s a kind of pain you could miss
I take my emotions, put them in a box
Wrap them tightly, put a ton of locks
It’s just something that I always do
Those feelings, I use them only when I need to
But now, even that box is now gone
I have nothing left, guess I’m done
Guess I’ll move on to better things
Maybe this time, I might call this life worth living
Feb 1, 2019
Feb 1, 2019 at 1:32 AM UTC
I slept with Depression
It started off w a break up
I was feeling lonely
You told me that you were
the only one who wanted to know me
I took you to my house but I didn't show my parents
Because they wouldn't like you and wouldn't understand
I took you to my room so that we could be alone
You started ********** and
showed me everything I could unfold
Started kissing on your lips of sadness
Rubbing on your body of confusion
Moved my hand down to your universe
I licked your stars and
Felt your gravitational pull
I tasted your black hole until
you finally came upon me and I fell into oblivion
When you finished I was under your control
I was stuck, Trapped
I was never good enough
My friends would ask
But talking about you was so tough
You made me look at life and question
Sent me in the wrong direction
You watched me self loathing
but always gave me your affection
You said you would be there for me and
told me what drugs to keep you near
You took advantage of my sorrows and
capitalized on my fear
I couldn't figure out how to please you
I always wanted to get out
I started to try to receive you
But you always showed some doubt
And as the skies turned dark
And then nights turned cold
I would sit with you in awe
Because u would never let me go.
Nov 7, 2016
Nov 7, 2016 at 12:07 AM UTC
Far too long he has slept inside my head
He weeps for me as we lay in bed
I wanted no more than to die by his side
By all your commandments I have abide
But please do not ask of the price I've paid
For I must sleep in sheets you've made
But Lord, obsolve him of my sins
And I will throw his ashes to the wind
Help me accept the passing of his soul
He is the one who took upon much of this toll
For far too long my lover has been dead
For far too long I have slept with guilt inside my bed
Mar 2, 2016
Mar 2, 2016 at 1:51 PM UTC
My days seemed to come in pairs
they were so long they felt like separate entities
I couldn't feel their wear
so I didn't know to search for remedies
We ate canned food off crystal plates
and that fine china must have weighed more
than the burdens locked in our fates
I remember peeling the gray from around your eyes
like a second skin and it was time to fall off
but still hanging by a thread
crispy and cracked
and I could feel the miles in our bed
even when every way I reached
my fingertips always seemed to find you
I was only happy when I was far away
and only comfortable to come home
So I slept on the side you always lay
and I pushed you away and I wanted you to stay
Nov 16, 2014
Nov 16, 2014 at 3:06 AM UTC
I fell asleep for the first time last night
His words
They were the phantom arms
that held me as I slept
That held me together
as I tore at the seams
Unintentionally he healed
a small part
Very small
oh so very little
but there
nonetheless
Nov 13, 2014
Nov 13, 2014 at 1:44 AM UTC
Wanting to
learn the jungle from the mattress,
I set it outside, surrounded,
by a mosquito net
pitched unto two
palm trees, in winter to
avoid coconuts falling by the southern terrace;
you should've joined me
In February, I can tell you
I never slept for carnaval.
Sep 15, 2014
Sep 15, 2014 at 9:35 PM UTC
I never learned to care
Until I hurt you
I never learned to dream
Until I slept next to you
I never learned to desire
Until your lips met mine
And the sad part about it all
Is that you never learned
To hate
Until you met me.
F.Z.N
Aug 19, 2014
Aug 19, 2014 at 1:46 PM UTC