#sleepwalking
just past darkest, in pre-dawn
where only ghosts belong
somnambulist stood on the lawn
in lonely morn birdsong
up high a sky of dark blue slate
and smudged by moonlit chalk
inquired why, so soon, too late
he’d judged it wise to walk
he’d missed the gold at set of sun
the cloak of night long fell
and kissed by cold, feet wet and numb
been woke under this spell
in bare feet, naked and alone
his toes caressed the grass
had rare, sweet, sacred things unknown
disposed themselves to pass?
if not then how had this occurred -
just slept-walked down the stairs?
alfresco now, from slumber stirred
and crept out unawares?
no light did switch, no latch did lift,
no dead bolt did he slide
what nightmare glitch cast him adrift
and led him on this ride?
to understand why he’d been drawn
he leaned upon the fence
and scanned the hills ahead, forlorn
but gleaned no ounce of sense
his thoughts parlayed a trick was played
a kind of waking dream
for sport that bade him walk or wade
the mind’s unconscious stream
but when coerced the mist did clear
on tracks once shaded black
how he’d traversed from there to here -
the facts cascaded back
he’d climbed in bed to get some rest
a touch before nightfall
an aching head and tight of chest
that much he could recall
he’d said “I’ll live, not really ill
-benign, not far from norm
I’m fed up with this winter chill
but fine, on par, just warm”
then pulled the sheets ‘til tightly wrapped
to burn that fever out
but lulled from sleep, felt shoulder tapped
he turned as if to shout
a djinn or sprite was in the room
beside him, floating there
it’s skin so white it lit the gloom
supplied him quite a scare
and tall and thin, half out, half in
each limb a branch of birch
with pointy chin and wicked grin
the grim of some dark church
he couldn’t deal with that right then
so lay to face the wall
in time he’d steal a look again
or maybe not at all
“I’ll save my view from things untrue
and hocus-pocus lies
that see-through, voodoo, bug-a-boo
made by unfocussed eyes.”
since that’s the way he dealt with things
and had done all his life
downplay, delay the woes it brings
he’d shun, defer all strife
with problems near, beset by fear
he’d sit them out and wait
his steer was clear, why interfere?
commit them unto fate
you might expect fiends from beyond
that form of fevered head
won’t interject, reply, respond -
but here’s what this one said
“Why, don’t be shy, deny your eye
or will me to wink out
divert, decry, dismiss, defy
I’ll still be here, don’t doubt
concerns you spurn when trouble stirs
you never make a stand
your court adjourns, your head inters
wherever you find sand
but think on this, somnambulist
who sleeps all through his day
ignorant bliss by case dismissed
won’t keep my kiss at bay
Death, the darkest, endless black
says nigh it’s time to pay
somnambulist get off your back
or die right where you lay.”
what happened then remained occult
but hindsight left implied
the whys and whens and end result
was in the night - he’d died
a skipped heat beat, forgotten breath
then pale and stiff and cold
beneath the sheet, begotten death
the tale at last was told
unless, undressed he’d thought to rise
impressed by Death’s dark voice
duress he guessed might make him wise
if pressed with that stark choice
to Heaven’s bliss, to Hell to roast
or on Earth still to dwell
somnambulist or new born ghost?
the birthing morn would tell.
Oct 20, 2024
Oct 20, 2024 at 3:03 PM UTC
.
Silent
The Skies are silent
The Moon awakes me
The Night gently embraces me
You are no longer on the shore
Where with salt ourselves we smeared
Dreamed and to the Sea we used to croon
Oh, my Beloved,
Unfold
For me the stairs of the Moon
Plush toys I shall scatter
Down our dunes of sand
The memories are calling me
Wait for me
Saša Milivojev
Translated by Ljubica Yentl Tinska
www.sasamilivojev.com
Jun 25, 2022
Jun 25, 2022 at 7:21 PM UTC
Day-dreams and Night-dreams
Work as well as wet-dreams.
We need be alert,
Be awakened from our sleep-walking passivity.
Arise.
Pick-up ourselves,
And be woke with humanity;
Rub away the sleep in our eyes.
Jan 8, 2022
Jan 8, 2022 at 11:41 AM UTC
It's the same familiar road,
Dark and slightly paved,
Toward which my soul drifts at nighttime,
Pulled by nearly broken chains.
Sleepwalking to find some danger
Where, among the chaos, it can feel
A little less like a stranger;
Around the blind side of a curve.
While I sleep, it finds a way
To - despite my slumber - travel.
Lying down, and replaying how
Life and death, seemed to briefly
Stop their battle . . .
And rest so soundly,
Sprawled out, side-by-side,
Strewn 'cross the roadway's gravel.
- - - - - - - - - - - - - -
Each morning I awake
And to the same spot I've returned,
Lying next to my soul, in wait,
For a lucky car to make its turn.
I stand up, and spark a cigarette
-- click --
Just to watch the orange light burn.
I inhale the noxious gases,
As a car skids, and passes.
I start back home with a shrug,
And flick the ashes to the masses,
Burn some bibles, and break some glasses.
And as the rain soaks to my skin,
It corrodes the memory like acid.
Nov 29, 2019
Nov 29, 2019 at 7:13 PM UTC
the blue glow of the television screen
mimicked the moonlight through the car window
where sat, Kate and i, in silence, watching
after a day gone that began with my name and hers
continued on until her slumber
whilst a lunar halo around me kept me walking in the night
the Georgian oak canopy hangs around like aurora borealis
i’ve never noticed it before
Nov 13, 2019
Nov 13, 2019 at 4:27 PM UTC
Creeeeeaaaakk..
I always hated the sound that door made.
Whether you closed it fast or slow, the sound of the creak was always the same.
A signal, warning you not to proceed.
But you weren’t scared, you’ve done this many times before, to where you can’t remember,
and the hand holding yours, is a hand you’ve held before.
And the cement steps that led to the darkness,
felt warm and so welcoming.
It felt a little bit like coming home.
That’s all I remember.
It is here I woke up
The silence awoke me,
My feet were wet and cold,
my hand no longer recognized the hand that I hold.
As if it felt that moment I realized I’m in danger,
The hand would disappear, and I was left alone.
I was frozen.
I started to scream but nothing came out.
I shook from my fear and dashed towards the stairs, as if in danger.
I always expected something to pull me back.
The door felt so far.
Dec 11, 2018
Dec 11, 2018 at 11:43 PM UTC
#
Sometimes you have to remove the noise
and listen to the silence
*to awaken from the dream
you thought you were living*
#
Aug 6, 2018
Aug 6, 2018 at 2:51 PM UTC
☯
this pain is white noise
sleepwalking through this body-
in search of heaven.
Jul 31, 2018
Jul 31, 2018 at 12:54 AM UTC
The eyes look, but I see
The skin touches, but I feel
The nose sniffs, but I smell
The ears listen, but I hear
The tongue licks, but I taste.
So observation proves another.
A silent partner,
Silent until prompted
Waiting... and acting
When conscious eyes of experience aren't there to catelog being.
When all seems to flow naturally
I am not there to reflect
And no memory of my own can reveal
My lucidity.
An acting unconsciousness leaves awareness wanting.
Jun 26, 2018
Jun 26, 2018 at 9:49 PM UTC
The English Miss,
She was teaching tenses,
And suddenly my benchpartner,
He stood up and went out of the door!
"Such a daring darling!"
She exclaimed while looking at the door,
She made no attempts to prevent him,
"Was getting bored & walked away!"
I shook my head in negation,
Clicked my tongue crisply,
And I had her attention,
So I added jeeringly...
***"Miss English -,"
"- He did not get bored,"
"He wasn't even listening!"
"He was just sleepwalking!"***
May 19, 2017
May 19, 2017 at 3:10 AM UTC
Anyone else feel like they're
dreaming their lives away?
Anyone else sick of sleepwalking
through every day?
Nov 21, 2016
Nov 21, 2016 at 8:59 PM UTC
Lately I've been sleepwalying through everyday
My life is black and white and I am dreaming in grey
Red letter day but I'm as blue as the sea
I'm falling fast, somoney please save me.
Oct 16, 2016
Oct 16, 2016 at 7:34 PM UTC
What if every time you dream it was real?
Have you ever felt on the edge of sleep and awake?
That sleepwalking state.
Is there a realm in between where rules don't exist and anything is possible?
A world with no government or laws binding us.
A place in our minds that give us freedom that only our souls can describe.
Dreaming.
That's just a state of mind.
Mar 29, 2016
Mar 29, 2016 at 11:36 AM UTC
Getting up on mornings without you is not waking,
just loveless man sleepwalking.
Dec 4, 2015
Dec 4, 2015 at 1:29 AM UTC
At night rise, to the buzz of my son’s blood,
I wake and blow aboriginal dust from my lungs,
Get up and take a turn around the house.
The place has gotten cold.
This cock-eyed family – good God, they are helpless.
I tried to help by leaving things behind,
Like this prayer on the wall
About the timelessness of beauty.
And did you find the poem
About Freud and mountain climbing?
All they do is wail privately
And try to pass it off as singing.
My son sleeps like a chessmaster,
Shocked into resignation.
He dreams about me,
And his dreams are riddled with light
And longing for the past.
Such nocturnal naiveté.
But he knows the stars
And because, like the ancient Greeks,
He can follow them home,
He will leave this place before it leaves him.
This house gets smaller all the time.
Still, the furniture breathes quietly,
And the dancers in the tapestry sway
Though faded by the sun.
The dust from my breath settles down in layers.
Pale light silvers the living room mirror.
My steps leave footprints before each foot falls.
The footprints lead back to my door.
It is time to lie down.
Soon my son will wake up,
And shake off the ashes of sleep.
I don't live here any more.
My death will begin again.
Oct 6, 2015
Oct 6, 2015 at 9:26 PM UTC
I’m sleep walking through life.
Numb to my darkest thoughts haunting me in my dreams, revealing the demons that's entered in my life.
Does he know?
He is so perfect in my eyes, how can I ever let him in?
I wish I can share the thoughts that I trap in a glass bottle, and throw into the sea hoping my problems will be washed away.
Afraid that my thoughts are so toxic that I’ll poison him; tearing him away from me.
I realize that this is a battle I must fight on my own.
I can only hope he’ll wait for me to bloom into the rose that he ready see in me.
Jun 3, 2015
Jun 3, 2015 at 9:52 PM UTC
Oh my peaceful dreamer
how have I gotten here?
My legs will do the walking
when my dreams are all I fear.
Oh my restful darling
the sun is growing near,
all I ask is stay with me
and whisper in my ear.
Oh my sleeping sweetheart
the cliff I stand is sheer.
At the base I shall remain
when pain begins to sear.
Oh my peaceful dreamer
how have I gotten here?
I feel the darkness calling
so I must disappear.
Aug 30, 2013
Aug 30, 2013 at 2:39 PM UTC
people in love are more beautiful
than people who are not in love
you can see them becoming more awake
like for the first time something really matters
little lights shining in their eyes
when they hear the name of the person they adore most
the feeling that the time stops when you are with this human
but that wasn't the world I lived in
the princess in ******* you up
the queen of ******** you over
thats what they have always called me
and the only king I have ever had was a bottle of *****
every minute of the day we were talking
but whenever I was near you it always felt like sleepwalking
I didn't deserve a lover like you
you were like the gold I could never afford
you were like the clouds in the sky that I could never touch
life was a game and we were losing
or maybe I was just born different.
Apr 13, 2015
Apr 13, 2015 at 2:01 PM UTC
It's funny.
How your bed can be your best friend or your worst enemy
How it contains your worst nightmares and most splendid dreams
And how awful it is.
That people don't know how you feel
when you wake up and you still think the demons are real
Morning after morning I'm in fear when I wake
Trying to calm down fearing what it will take
and when I look back on what i did while I slept
I shake.
Because I cannot trust myself
While I am asleep.
Jan 18, 2015
Jan 18, 2015 at 9:43 PM UTC
The respite in soporific somnambulating,
Isn't the ****** of defenestration.
Apr 13, 2014
Apr 13, 2014 at 9:13 PM UTC