#sensuality
I think I’m going to marry you
I’ve lived it already in my head
the way the night hums when you touch me
how forever sounds like your kiss
on my collarbone
There’s a ring on my finger in a dream somewhere
crisp gold, devastatingly beautiful under candlelight
Your vows taste like wine and illustrious Sin
I’m not sure if it’s the future or a flashback
you, in a suit that fits like a secret
me, in something white that falls off one shoulder
In my mind we already have a life
a house that smells like cinnamon and rain
your jacket over my chair
a photo of us, slightly out of focus
the kind people think is accidental,
but I framed it that way on purpose
You kiss me and my body is an altar
-holy, breathless
every motion a promise I never asked you to make
etched into my skin, an everasking reminder
I know where our children will play,
the names we’ll argue about
how you’ll trace my spine in the dark
like you’re counting blessings
Let my body be your bible
It’s dangerous, isn’t it
how easily I build eternity out of a moment
You look at me and I swear I hear music
some swelling string section of fate
the whole universe leaning forward
to see if we’ll make it this time
I think I’m going to marry you
In some other world, I already have
The lights go down
the audience fades
and it’s just us
bare, endless, rehearsing forever
until the curtain finally falls
Oct 30, 2025
Oct 30, 2025 at 12:53 AM UTC
I used to trace constellations in parking lots
pretending the streetlights were galaxies
trying to tell me something greater lived beyond the curtain, too far past closing
Maybe they were right
For years, I mistook my own kindness for weakness
hope, for another cruel trick of desire
Every sign felt like static
a song half-tuned on the radio
I kept trying to translate the universe
but it was speaking in a language
I hadn’t lived enough to understand
And then there was you
Your name
the very same one I used to write
on the subject line of unrequited love letters, forever doomed to a box underneath my bed
None of them were for you
But now
That name will be the last on my lips
Hope is supposed to be a dangerous thing
It feels like the stars have been
collecting our fragments for years
assembling something I could never see
from the ground
Every wrong turn
every empty midnight drive
every almost
was a brushstroke
in a painting too wide for me to recognize
until now
You were written in the negative space
I just needed to learn
how to look for what was missing
Now I see it
how the colors bleed into one another
how every heartbreak was a necessary hue
I didn’t manifest you
I remembered you
I called you by every other name
until you answered
And when you did,
the sky finally exhaled
The stars, the ones I begged for meaning
they whispered
“See? It was always going to be this way.”
Oct 30, 2025
Oct 30, 2025 at 12:51 AM UTC
He says, show me
and I do
unraveling in the blue light
a ghost draped in satin
half-girl, half-performance
But I don’t think he wants to see me
Not the girl who flinches at her own reflection
not the one who writes love like an elegy
He wants the illusion
the one who knows where to place her hands
and how to make her voice sound like velvet
He says, bare
I wish he meant his soul
Instead I offer skin
pretend it’s enough
pretend I don’t crave the slow confession of his heart
stripped down to its bones
I touch myself to the thought of him
miles away
a mirage stitched into my pulse
Every moan feels like prayer and punishment
Every breath, a plea for reality
He glitters in my mind,
clear as a million gemstones
every one of them sharp
They cut me open
and spell his name in the wounds
Sometimes I think I’m both the stage and the act
He gets the sequined girl who knows her lines
the one who keeps the lights burning
so he doesn’t see the cracks
But I know the truth
underneath the costume
I’m just a girl asking
would you still want my chest
if my heart was cut out of it?
Would you love me
if there was no show to see?
When the call ends
the applause never comes
Just the soft hum of distance
and me
still performing
alone in the dark
wondering if I’ve ever been real
to anyone at all
Oct 30, 2025
Oct 30, 2025 at 12:49 AM UTC
I’ve spent my whole life rehearsing how to be wanted
Tilt the chin, part the lips
laugh like I don’t mean it
Men say “She’s magnetic,”
but it feels more like being caught in a storm
that only ever moves one way
I tell myself this is power
to be chosen
to be stared at until I dissolve into light
But under the sequins and the bathroom lighting
I know it’s hunger
I know it’s loneliness in lingerie
I’ve searched for love in the filthiest places
bare skin and bad perfume
hands that hold me like a secret they’ll forget by morning
Letting depraved creatures corrupt me
just to remember I’m alive
Just to trick my body into thinking
I’ve been adored
And after, the quiet always finds me
I lie there
feeling like the most beautiful girl in the world
and the ugliest one God ever made
My mascara smudged like fading bruises
my heart, persistence that doesn’t learn
I touch myself sometimes like it’s penance
like maybe I can turn want into worth
But my stomach twists when I finish
It’s not pleasure, it’s punishment
a small, private crucifixion
What’s a girl gotta do
to be seen and still feel clean
to be touched and not scar
to want love and not rot from it
I tell myself I don’t care anymore
but I still scan every room for him
the one who’ll look at me
like I’m not made of glass or sin
The one who won’t flinch at the truth of me
or worse-
make it poetic
Because I’ve been both the wound and the warning
I’ve been the show and the silence after
And I’m still here
painted in red
whispering into the mirror
Tell me I’m worth it
Tell me I’m wanted
Tell me this isn’t all there is
Oct 30, 2025
Oct 30, 2025 at 12:43 AM UTC
You
I keep circling your name like a wound I can’t stop touching
You appear in dreams half-lit by guilt
hands in your pockets
eyes like the edge of a mirror
You ask me what’s wrong
and I say nothing
but my whole body is confessing
I don’t know what to do to make you like me better
Every version of myself keeps dying
just to resurrect into something you might hold longer
You make me rewrite my skin
make me crave the ache of your attention
the way it burns like a prayer unanswered
And then there’s him
He texts at midnight
asks what I’m wearing
and I show him
Not because I want to
but because it’s easier than saying
I want you instead
He gives me everything you withhold
fills the silence with want
with words that drip like honey into the cracks you made
He touches me through the screen
and I let him,
pretending it’s you behind the static
He says my name
and it trembles like it means something
You say my name and it sounds like a warning
I don’t know which of you is real anymore
He arrives when he wants me
you arrive when I’m dreaming
You haunt the places my hands go
when the wanting starts to hurt
He feeds the hunger
but you are the hunger
You say you hate sharing
But disappear when I want you
But I can feel it
the way your silence claims me
the way your jealousy crawls under my skin
and sets up camp in my ribs
You don’t want me
but you don’t want me all to yourself either
And I
I want you to own me
To lock my heart behind your teeth
to brand your name across my pulse
to fill me until there’s no space left for confusion
I want your love, your anger, your exhaustion
all of it- even the parts that hurt to hold
But when he touches me
my body hums the song you taught it
Every tremor whispers your name
It’s cruel,
how you can be everywhere
except here
So I conjure you
Every night
in candlelight or in the glow of my phone screen,
I call your spirit to me
Come to me
Sometimes it works
Sometimes I think I feel your hand around my hips,
your breathing in time with my heartbeat
And sometimes
it’s him instead
real, warm, wanting
And I let him
because the spell of you never breaks
and I need something
to believe in
while I wait for you
to love me
Oct 30, 2025
Oct 30, 2025 at 12:41 AM UTC
does it make you want me more
when you see me talk to him?
he says something soft
his hand slides up my leg bare,
the kind of touch that means nothing
but looks like everything
i wore this underwear for you
purple lace
fragile as a secret i’ll never tell out loud
his fingers trace it
and i think about yours
the way they tremble when you want something
but won’t admit it
how bad do you ache
watching
knowing it’s his hands who touched them first
but it’s your name
that hums under my breath
when no one’s listening
i press farther into the man i don’t want
heart to heart
skin to skin
only so i can feel your jealousy crawl up my spine
that heat
that holy ache
you’ve never looked at me like this before
your silence is gasoline
your stare a match
and i’m burning alive
burning
burning
burning
how long will you stand there
jaw set, heart shaking in your chest
before you come closer
before you let me ruin you
the way i’ve already ruined myself
how much longer do i have to let
this man’s mouth live rent free on mine
when all i want is to taste the sin of you
it’s not love, not yet
it’s something worse
something holy
something that feels
like being worshiped
and punished
Oct 30, 2025
Oct 30, 2025 at 12:38 AM UTC
I run my fingers
between my legs
searching for pleasure
something that
usually
I don’t feel in my day-to-day
just a little, I beg
make me feel
something
Aug 11, 2025
Aug 11, 2025 at 9:42 AM UTC
Black widow crawling up black vines,
expedition to your collarbones.
Crown of thorns pressed
against barbed wire
but neither of us bleeds.
Widows web resting
inbetween the lilies
adorning your hips.
If you glance southward,
a stabbed jester is crying,
bleeding out onto the meadow
surrounded by red wildflowers,
while the sun is shining bright
and the birds vanish into the clouds.
He's been like that for a while, I
doubt he'll ever stop. Or die.
"But don't worry!" he says,
"It's okay, it didn't hurt".
Black widow crawling up white flesh,
along the moths and butterflies,
across the imps and critters
landing just below the
tribal sigils planted
atop the hill.
Black widow is
squirming and writhing,
the two of you dancing in
splendid synchronicity. Flamenco,
with that reddened, swollen shell of yours
which I so deeply revere for its elegance.
In this tender moment,
the stars are immortal and
the moon faintly shrouds
the city in bone-white rays
of tragic incandescence.
Black widow retreats to its web and
the moths and butterflies have
gone to sleep now.
Rest easy, sweet
Hedone
Jul 27, 2025
Jul 27, 2025 at 4:36 PM UTC
Focused but with ease I sit
in a spring-cushioned
armchair coated in
soft leather, dyed
a rich bordeaux.
Cigarette in one hand,
Negroni in the other,
Joint prêt sur la table.
The Ouroboros woman lay
across from me on the
méridienne.
Our eyes not breaking sight,
we're opposite anchors.
Pegs pulling
piano wire.
As the smooth tapestry
of her milky skin is caressed
by one wondrous instrument affixed
upon her slender forearm,
with extensions most
sensual, the other
one implores
herself in
glorious
fervour.
Joie de vivre,
as close as you
can get, at least.
A tenebrous passion.
As thunderous as brief.
Adieux mon cœur,
ma jolie,
Élise.
Jul 27, 2025
Jul 27, 2025 at 9:58 AM UTC
#
*It’s tender,
being the closest of friends..
but oh, isn’t it such a dangerous thing?
To hold you with care,
in the space we made,
while promising
I won’t touch a single thing.
But sweet love... to be this close
to someone like you..
need I say
what your voice can bring?
Warmth, truth,
supportive hands that tend--
it’s a dream come true
for those who bleed.
But when a deep need is quietly met,
can the heart resist
going full send?
And still—when a need
is met without hands,
without lips,
without sleep lost
in shared breath...
how long before restraint slips?
This depth.. untouched,
unspoken, unseen..
it burns through the walls
between you and me.
Yes, even with agreements
so lovingly made...
there’s always the risk
in a love so brave;
that we will both
come
undone.*
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Jul 9, 2025
Jul 9, 2025 at 6:31 PM UTC
I’m a bit of a sensualist.
First, let me emphasise emotional resonance,
there has to be an emotional base,
not just an appreciation of hotness.
Then, there’s a sense of longing and mystery—
that male unknowableness.
Don’t forget the hard strength of those rough male edges,
you know, the feeling that he’s kind of sculpted from
a marble that you just want to run your hands over.
And this jet-black hair, the curves and the spiky bits,
casual, careless, not fussy or particular,
and his warm, firm, implacable hands.
Oh, God. Gimmie some.
“Sensuality's connected to desire, ya?” I asked the room (Sunny and Lisa are there, studying).
“It sure is,” Sunny said, flippantly, “and you just need that hot boyfriend of yours to spank it out of you.”
“No,” I winced, “that’s not true.”
“Ooo! I love this song” Lisa said, as ‘try’ by BETWEEN FRIENDS began to play on our Echos.
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*Songs for this:
this is what falling in love feels like by JVKE
golden hour by JVKE*
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Our cast
Sunny, (suitemate) 21, a (pre-med) molecular, cellular, and developmental biology major, is a cowgirl from Nebraska (seriously, she has a quarter horse and barrel races). She’s an outspoken fem-facing ladies-lady.
Lisa, (roommate) 21, my bff and a high society princess, who grew up in a 50th floor Central Park South high-rise. A (pre-med) molecular biophysics and biochemistry major.
Your author, a simple, multinational, upper-crust, trust-fund baby from Athens, Georgia who's also a molecular biophysics and biochemistry major (pre-med).
Mar 28, 2025
Mar 28, 2025 at 8:39 AM UTC
Rising from the
womb of the Earth
something is being
stirred inside me.
Could there be anything
more sensually satisfying
than a stew
laced with the
romance of
crushed roses?
Slowly, wrapping
around my tongue,
savouring each bite,
I feast with each nibble
peppered heat
spiced with the
woody caress
of cinnamon;
An invitation
to pause in
pleasure
Soft apricots
pulsing with
sweet nectar
explode with
the essence of
The Goddess
sending a wave
of warm bliss
into the cauldron
of my belly.
Satiated,
tasting the
last kiss of
Summers rich
harvest, I rest.
Oct 11, 2024
Oct 11, 2024 at 5:02 PM UTC
~
*Sun drips
on leaves
not the backyard variety
but the trembling kind
the kind
that weld night-time
intermissions to
the roof of the mouth
sonnet-filled
evaporation
reveals
the timely concealment of
a very, weary
inanimate object
at the brink
just enough hip
to be woman
just enough wild
to be frontier*
~
Jul 25, 2024
Jul 25, 2024 at 2:49 PM UTC
#
*Bewitching hour..
And the thought of you
taking my words in
has it dripping down the sides
as I stroke..
Building up for the fourth time tonight
in the thoughts of you being
open..
and naked..
and near
I pull you on top of me
and those beautiful hips of yours
begin to move..
Mouth to swollen *******
hands under your thighs
as I lift you up
And then slowly
ease you back down..
your beautiful luscious, clenching
down on to my shaft so tightly
As its liquid juices
come forth, in praise*
#
Jul 9, 2024
Jul 9, 2024 at 12:50 PM UTC
We are empty,
Half naked.
Our bodies meet the eye,
The room is quiet,
Sacred.
You slowly walk,
Our eyes talk,
Your lips,
They quiver.
Your voice,
Makes me shiver.
I am smaller,
My body polluted in sweat.
For one magical move ,
And I,
Am now undressed.
I think you may suspect the rest.
Dec 26, 2023
Dec 26, 2023 at 6:10 AM UTC
So we made love and flew up into the sky
Where the clouds caressed our shimmering bodies and the stars welcomed us home.
There we stayed, resting...
In silent ecstasy as the universe pulsated with the heartbeat of every soul
Not a sound was heard
As celestial bodies moved in silent ancient accord...
"It is time," We said... at long last
"To return to that place from long ago
Where all is not as it should be
Where confusion holds
And fear abides."
"We must return there,
To walk amongst those who would know the truth
And tell them of the beauty behind the veil."
Feb 19, 2023
Feb 19, 2023 at 12:25 PM UTC