#selfwork
I refuse to listen to the self-harming negative talk in my mind.
I keep refocusing my attention on how I want to talk to myself instead.
Jun 8, 2025
Jun 8, 2025 at 7:42 AM UTC
The worst part of it all is that I can’t even recognize the depth of my own flaws. I beg for forgiveness, but the same destructive habits rise up once again. Why can’t I change? I try over and over, sifting through the past, searching for the root of what needs to be fixed. But every time I think I’ve grasped it, it slips away, sinking back into the soil, just out of reach. The more I struggle, the further it moves from me. What am I doing wrong? I can’t seem to understand. The guilt tears at me, a gut-wrenching pain swelling in my chest as I hear how I’ve hurt you. Each day brings a new argument, one that never seems to resolve. I can handle the fights, as long as I get to keep you, but it doesn’t change anything; you just seem to drift farther away. I want to meet you in the middle, to make the effort, to bridge the gap, but it feels like the distance between us only grows. Every misstep, every harsh word, every mistake adds to the void. I just want to fix it, to end the pain, and to grow beyond this darkness inside of me.
Mar 14, 2025
Mar 14, 2025 at 8:19 AM UTC
The universe, she needs me.
For transference she is seeking.
Pouring feelings down my throat,
so they can find releasing.
And Im permanently wired
to the frequency shes speaking
Collecting dust from comets,
to carve out my own meaning.
I make light codes out of lessons.
I upload them when I'm dreaming.
Slowly taking all the pain,
and I turn it into healing.
And for every cleanse completed,
she leaves me with a teaching.
And the world's a little wiser,
a little more appealing.
• • •
Then I get another download,
and the cycle keeps repeating.
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▪︎ mica light ▪︎
Sep 21, 2023
Sep 21, 2023 at 12:09 AM UTC
My thoughts become knots my fingers bleed to untangle.
I throw them on the ground in front of people hoping they’ll find enough value in me to try to help remedy. Hoping they won’t mind the blood already smeared on them and would ***** themselves for me.
Willing to take off their shoes and walk over the hot coals of my insecurities and become baptized by my knowing they would suffer for my company.
At what point do I decide to stop burning? My insides are cooked to a well done keeping aflame this self hatred.
Jun 24, 2023
Jun 24, 2023 at 8:42 PM UTC
Two eyes in the mirror, looking back at me,
Forcing me to peer beyond what the eyes refuses to see.
Begging me to acknowledge what I’ve tried so hard to hide,
So it’s times to be brave and address the little girl inside.
It’s okay to be afraid, I know what you’re going through,
You don’t have to feel alone, I’ll take this journey with you.
I’m sorry for all the neglected cries you have tried to express,
I’m sorry for all the times I’ve ignored you, thinking that I know what’s best.
Forgive me for all the times when I’ve avoided you,
It’s just that acknowledging you is something I’ve tried hard not to do.
Forgive me for all the times I’ve refused to hold your hand,
I’m sorry for all the times I’ve left you sinking in quick sand.
You deserve to be loved and yet I just left you alone,
Please forgive me for abandoning you to survive on your own.
Forgive me for not showing you how to demand what you are worth,
I should have taught you about your value, you’ve been a queen since birth.
Dec 11, 2020
Dec 11, 2020 at 10:14 PM UTC
Simplicity holds my smile.
The present
ever worth my while.
Try give the globe
An optimistic spin
Because Hurt’s origin
is within.
Aug 31, 2020
Aug 31, 2020 at 10:09 AM UTC
I fold, I bend, I stretch
But I don’t break.
I chip, I crack, I flake
But I don’t crumble.
I press, I squash, I scrunch
But I don’t split.
I am STRENGTH!
Jun 17, 2020
Jun 17, 2020 at 1:46 PM UTC
Yearning for burning
A kind of returning
Unlearning learning
To fix my own kerning
Churning adjourning
My rebirth I'm earning
Oct 16, 2017
Oct 16, 2017 at 1:40 PM UTC