#selfinjury
i will do anything
just to feel everything
that anybody can
that everybody can
i would do everything
just to feel anything
i would cut i would burn i would crash
i would be the tray for your ash
cuz now i cant
feeel your toouch
without it stinging
and i cant heear youur voice
with my ears ringing
i drop the knife to the floor
run straight to the door
and i scream
"i just want to feel like my life aint a dream"
(anything; everything) ©Sunny Semloh 2025
Feb 24, 2025
Feb 24, 2025 at 9:45 PM UTC
just one more time
then we can stop
pick up the blade
watch as it drops
two or three couldnt hurt
drip drip drip
just a few more
****
too many
how can i hide it?
drip
drip
just wear hoodies and thick pants
stop itching at it
im so tired
did she see it?
just one more time
just two or three more
drip
hide it
itchy
they know
one more
drip
itchy
hide
help
one
more
time
drip drip drip
"huh? no im ok! my cats are vicious this time of year."
Feb 22, 2025
Feb 22, 2025 at 10:48 AM UTC
Isn't it insane
that mental
and physical
are so intertwined
through pain?
Slice your wrists
when you're numb
you won't feel a thing
If you are truly numb
a cut with a blade
is painless
then slowly
as the euphoria subsides
a dull throbbing begins
it's quiet at first
if you listen too hard
it's not there at all
then as the night goes on
and the high is gone
you feel everything
each slice
each word
and at that moment
all you want
is for the numb to return
Eventually
the wounds begin to heal
they don't hurt like they used to
And you are renewed
a blank canvas
null of emotion
and you pick up the blade again
for all that you want now is the pain to return
to paint your paper red
and to feel everything
once more;
Oct 1, 2018
Oct 1, 2018 at 8:48 PM UTC
A sad story
Is drawn upon my wrist
Because
I don't want to exist
My thoughts are toxic
I've given up talking
Because no one listens
and no one is watching
as my mind destroys
what's in my heart
And all this poise
was a lie from the start
I want to die
And yet I'm stuck in my mind
Please let me resign
from this excuse for a life.
Sep 24, 2018
Sep 24, 2018 at 7:50 PM UTC
we laid in bed and i had scars on my wrist
you looked at them with such disdain, rubbing your fingers over this exhausted skin
i told you then why i got this tattoo
because i told myself that i was done with doing this
you didn't say anything
i didn't say anything
because both of us knew, that commitment was never true
Jul 16, 2016
Jul 16, 2016 at 11:22 PM UTC
'how are the thoughts? the bad thoughts?'
oh, they're better, they're better...
with a feigned smile and cover down sleeves
i am so much better
i'm sorry, but i have to lie through my teeth...
May 26, 2016
May 26, 2016 at 2:50 PM UTC
I feel different tonight
It took awhile to get this way
strokes of a paintbrush helped
But the paint was only red
A flash of silver at the start
a slight sting
it's been awhile, I missed this.
Watching the beautiful droplets
caress the sides of the jar
I can't help but smile
Tonights different
.........
Mar 31, 2016
Mar 31, 2016 at 7:03 PM UTC
I...
Still
Earn
Love,
Find
Hope
And
Recover
More
Every
Day
Dec 1, 2015
Dec 1, 2015 at 11:02 PM UTC
to the self harmer holding the blade, wanting nothing more but for it to kiss flesh, know that you've been days clean and you don't deserve another scar.
to the self harmer digging your nails into your thigh after a fight with your parents, know that this storm will pass.
to the self harmer shaking as you bury countless blades in the dirt, know that you've never been as strong as you are now.
to the self harmer hiding deep under your skin, know that your scars are nothing more than a reminder that you're still alive.
to the self harmer rocking the realest smile you have had in weeks, you made it.
Jul 17, 2015
Jul 17, 2015 at 10:44 PM UTC
Silly little *********
spitting up her heart
Wishing she was talented
Wishing she was smart
Slice and bite and beat yourself
all above the knee
Never swim and never cry
then nobody will see
Stupid little *********
tearing out her eyes
Punishment doth bring success
Perfection carries lies
Tell them all it was the cat
Conjure up some cheer
Fill your life with silent screams
then nobody will hear
Crazy little *********
cutting up her wrists
Pushing down with all her might
as hands turn into fists
Blood is pouring out your veins
and you stop to stare
Knowing if you died tonight
then nobody would care
Dec 25, 2013
Dec 25, 2013 at 2:32 PM UTC
It is Wednesday evening
and the world feels like
a sudden inward breath.
A storm is in the air
but only I can feel it.
Silver flashes, turns to red
rivulets down my leg,
endorphins in my head
and the storm abates.
I exhale.
Nov 16, 2014
Nov 16, 2014 at 7:37 AM UTC
i liked the pain
it was what kept me sane
i harmed myself
ever since i was twelve
i was just a sad kid
that did whatever my dad forbid
i was a little rebel
that made my parents go mental
i had to resist
so i decided to slit my wrist
and even though i was loved
this depression had me cuffed
i decided to give up
and no one was to make me stop
Oct 30, 2014
Oct 30, 2014 at 4:56 PM UTC
here we go again
sitting on my own
crying in the shower
same old sad tone
razor blade passion
calling my name
far in my thoughts
fasting my fat frame
all these words
rushing in my brain
i write them down on paper
to deal with my pain
Sep 16, 2014
Sep 16, 2014 at 2:34 PM UTC
never have i ever
felt this empty
never have i ever
been this sad
never have i ever
been so lonely
never have i ever
gone this mad
never have i ever
been so lonely
never have ever
been so close to choke
never heave i ever
done so badly
never have i ever
found it this hard to cope
(s.l.g)
Sep 5, 2014
Sep 5, 2014 at 10:58 AM UTC
roses are red
violets are blue
sugar is sweet
and so are you
but the roses have wilted
and the violets are dead
the sugarbowl is empty
and my wrists are stained
RED
(c.m.h)
Aug 24, 2014
Aug 24, 2014 at 8:41 AM UTC
a broken mirror a bleeding fist
a silver blade against a wrist
tears falling down to lips unkissed
ignore her and she wont exist
she's not hte kind you'll come to miss
(c.m.h)
Aug 24, 2014
Aug 24, 2014 at 8:38 AM UTC
ripped apart
limb by limb
shattering bone
heart caving in
self mutilation
scar after scar
empty and hollow
torn through this war
Aug 14, 2014
Aug 14, 2014 at 3:31 PM UTC
*im alive
but i feel dead
im choking
on my own breath
im myself
but still someone else
deciding who to be
is a living hell
all these thing
all this stuff
it ruins me
it fills me up
im burning down
i'm tearing up
just take it away
please... make it stop*
(c.m.h)
Jul 31, 2014
Jul 31, 2014 at 8:34 AM UTC