kathryn-8 - Hello Poetry

Doubting myself is second nature Anxiety always makes me question Was I good enough? I'm struggling tonight Feelings of failure linger Everything I do is for you Please understand I'm trying my best Yes I know I'm tired That's why I'm crying I don't want to wake you But I want to hold you close How is it I need you more Than you need me

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Apr 8, 2021

Apr 8, 2021 at 9:31 PM UTC

kathryn-8

Tired ramblings

Doubting myself is second nature Anxiety always makes me question Was I good enough? I'm struggling tonight Feelings of failure linger Everything I do is for you Please understand I'm trying my best Yes I know I'm tired That's why I'm crying I don't want to wake you But I want to hold you close How is it I need you more Than you need me

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I'm tired I've cried so many tears Anger, sadness, desperation The truth is No matter how hard I cry Your still gone In life we always said You have such a big heart Ironically an enlarged heart Is what took your life I lay here at night Crying I miss you I don't feel whole You took my heart with you

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Jan 11, 2019

Jan 11, 2019 at 8:02 PM UTC

kathryn-8

Cardiomegaly

I'm tired I've cried so many tears Anger, sadness, desperation The truth is No matter how hard I cry Your still gone In life we always said You have such a big heart Ironically an enlarged heart Is what took your life I lay here at night Crying I miss you I don't feel whole You took my heart with you

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I'm not sure how to feel I'm haunted still Seeing you laying there So still so cold....dead I never expected to lose you My head is still in a daze I keep doing what I can what I think would make you proud I'm sober still even tho I tell you that day I could Have thrown it all away ..... what kind of thanks would that have been to you tho Everything you did to help me The time and effort put forward Just for me throw it all away I cried, I sobbed, I even laughed I stayed sober because of you I always wanted to make you proud And in that moment I know I did

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Jan 9, 2019

Jan 9, 2019 at 7:29 PM UTC

kathryn-8

one month

I'm not sure how to feel I'm haunted still Seeing you laying there So still so cold....dead I never expected to lose you My head is still in a daze I keep doing what I can what I think would make you proud I'm sober still even tho I tell you that day I could Have thrown it all away ..... what kind of thanks would that have been to you tho Everything you did to help me The time and effort put forward Just for me throw it all away I cried, I sobbed, I even laughed I stayed sober because of you I always wanted to make you proud And in that moment I know I did

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I sat and cried today Cried like I did when I learnt you were never coming home again My heart aches every single day I still wait for your calls For you to walk threw that door I wish it was all just a bad dream I'm haunted now Visions of you laying there Cold, pale and lifeless everything happened so fast I understand now how important family is I'm doing my best to be a better person a kinder person the type of person you were I seen how many people you brought happiness and love to we now stand together to face the world without you were not sure how we'll do it but I know you would want us to go forward with love and compassion in our hearts.

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Dec 31, 2018

Dec 31, 2018 at 7:46 PM UTC

kathryn-8

I cried today

I sat and cried today Cried like I did when I learnt you were never coming home again My heart aches every single day I still wait for your calls For you to walk threw that door I wish it was all just a bad dream I'm haunted now Visions of you laying there Cold, pale and lifeless everything happened so fast I understand now how important family is I'm doing my best to be a better person a kinder person the type of person you were I seen how many people you brought happiness and love to we now stand together to face the world without you were not sure how we'll do it but I know you would want us to go forward with love and compassion in our hearts.

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I did everything I could today To Keep a smile on my face I wanted so badly for the door to open To see you walk inside I know even if the door does open You won't be entering I miss you so much that words continue to fail me I lost a part of me that day Im haunted by visions Of you laying there Your eyes still open stuck forever in that stair The tube jammed down your throat from the attempts to give you air I held your hand and talked to you Told you I loved you so That still hasn't changed of anything I love you more This was the first Christmas without you I did my best to smile The tears did fall and will again Because I miss you so

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Dec 25, 2018

Dec 25, 2018 at 8:07 PM UTC

kathryn-8

first Christmas without you

I did everything I could today To Keep a smile on my face I wanted so badly for the door to open To see you walk inside I know even if the door does open You won't be entering I miss you so much that words continue to fail me I lost a part of me that day Im haunted by visions Of you laying there Your eyes still open stuck forever in that stair The tube jammed down your throat from the attempts to give you air I held your hand and talked to you Told you I loved you so That still hasn't changed of anything I love you more This was the first Christmas without you I did my best to smile The tears did fall and will again Because I miss you so

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I miss you more than I can ever explain I never expected you would be gone so fast it doesn't seem fair I wasn't ready to see you like that In life we always told you your heart was so big Unknown to us that's what would take you In sorry I've cried so much but you ment so much to me 7 days ago I seen you dead and I lost part of me

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Dec 18, 2018

Dec 18, 2018 at 10:05 PM UTC

kathryn-8

7Days

I miss you more than I can ever explain I never expected you would be gone so fast it doesn't seem fair I wasn't ready to see you like that In life we always told you your heart was so big Unknown to us that's what would take you In sorry I've cried so much but you ment so much to me 7 days ago I seen you dead and I lost part of me

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As we sat in that room Cold unforgiving No one said a word Tears fell from everyone's eyes The silence was deafening I still cry tears Yearning for just one more hug I can't explain the feeling So unexpected I hope you heard what I said to you As I held your hand I hurt so deep I miss you already ...... Numb

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Dec 10, 2018

Dec 10, 2018 at 9:18 PM UTC

kathryn-8

loss?

As we sat in that room Cold unforgiving No one said a word Tears fell from everyone's eyes The silence was deafening I still cry tears Yearning for just one more hug I can't explain the feeling So unexpected I hope you heard what I said to you As I held your hand I hurt so deep I miss you already ...... Numb

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Please sleep my baby It's 2am Your sweet smile The way you look at me I can't be angry with you Please sleep my baby I'm so tired There's nothing wrong Your clean warm and fed It's not time to play Please sleep my baby I swear the sun will rise soon How can you have so much energy Are you laughing at me? God I love you, but Please sleep my baby

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Nov 14, 2018

Nov 14, 2018 at 9:46 PM UTC

kathryn-8

I'm so tired.... Please sleep

Please sleep my baby It's 2am Your sweet smile The way you look at me I can't be angry with you Please sleep my baby I'm so tired There's nothing wrong Your clean warm and fed It's not time to play Please sleep my baby I swear the sun will rise soon How can you have so much energy Are you laughing at me? God I love you, but Please sleep my baby

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It's crazy You came into my life So quickly things changed My life found purpose Every moment of pain Id experience again and again If I had know you were waiting I felt your movement before anyone Loved you before I laid eyes on you It's crazy I never would have thought I'd feel this way Sleepless nights are worth it Something I would never say before Your my everything I cry as I rock you to sleep This love I have for this tiny human It's crazy

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Oct 15, 2018

Oct 15, 2018 at 7:19 PM UTC

kathryn-8

It's crazy

It's crazy You came into my life So quickly things changed My life found purpose Every moment of pain Id experience again and again If I had know you were waiting I felt your movement before anyone Loved you before I laid eyes on you It's crazy I never would have thought I'd feel this way Sleepless nights are worth it Something I would never say before Your my everything I cry as I rock you to sleep This love I have for this tiny human It's crazy

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A young women took her life Just down the street A child in the school yard Found her hanging from a tree... 2 brothers got into another fight one stabbed the other over drugs Blood stained the doors He banged on for help... 6 shots broke the silence of the night Some how he's still alive Laid on the road I'm so familiar with With bullets in his head.... This place I grew up is changing maybe I'm more aware Violence all around Where does it end... children arrested for selling drugs *** trafficking Police raids In the last year I've seen it all... I refuse to give up hope This world I've brought my child into it can be a beautiful place Love can overcome hate... ........... .

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Oct 11, 2018

Oct 11, 2018 at 9:30 PM UTC

kathryn-8

Untitled

A young women took her life Just down the street A child in the school yard Found her hanging from a tree... 2 brothers got into another fight one stabbed the other over drugs Blood stained the doors He banged on for help... 6 shots broke the silence of the night Some how he's still alive Laid on the road I'm so familiar with With bullets in his head.... This place I grew up is changing maybe I'm more aware Violence all around Where does it end... children arrested for selling drugs *** trafficking Police raids In the last year I've seen it all... I refuse to give up hope This world I've brought my child into it can be a beautiful place Love can overcome hate... ........... .

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