#selfforgiveness
The Aufbau principle
Otherwise known as ‘Building up’
A euphemism for the stepping stones
That lead to another space
Where courage re-kindles
Leaving behind the parts I’ve outgrown
Is it truly possible to be on a journey
Without knowing the destination?
Testing each tributary
Meandering, this way and that
When still in the same boat
In the same county
Clasping the same compass?
It’s time to step-up, to be the navigator
Of my future…
The explorer
The healer
The nurturer
The visionary
The sorcerer…
Shame on me
Shame
Shame
Shame
Shame
Shame on me
But…
‘The only way out, is through
My self-curated rapid river
With twists, turns, riptides, dead-calms and eddies
‘Scouting’ for a route that’s real
‘Cartwheeling’
Towards resilience
‘Portaging’
Towards forgiveness
An equilibrium between striving and acceptance
Trusting that broken backs and blistered fingers
Will make success feel all the sweeter
So, stay with the process
Knowing, ‘nothing good ever comes easy’
Aufbau all the way, as Bohr might say
Building-up
Atom by atom
Scrap by scrap
To solve the mystery of real meaning
To find the ‘X’ upon my map
Apr 27
Apr 27, 2026 at 8:33 AM UTC
I’ve hurt others, yes.
But the harshest words
the sharpest judgments
have always been mine.
I say to myself
what I would never say to anyone else.
I hunt my mistakes,
hold my failures like evidence,
measure myself in ways
I would never measure another.
And still,
I wonder if I’ll ever forgive
the only person I’ve been too cruel to:
myself.
Feb 4
Feb 4, 2026 at 9:28 AM UTC
Come, dearest love, let us speak tenderly to one another.
Sit here, up close, where you can hear the trembling of my breath.
See for yourself, I’m defenceless too.
Come, let us create a new and lasting peace between us,
end this tug-of-war, this battle of wits and wills that has beaten us both,
and agree never to trample or harm each other again in any way.
Come, let us forgive every trespass, mistake, betrayal and abandonment,
every unfair expectation, ignorant presumption and misunderstanding,
every accusation, true and false.
Come, let us rediscover the deep love we’ve always had for one another,
the love we lost sight of without realising,
the friendship we drifted out of without ever meaning to.
And from now on let’s tell a brighter story about ourselves,
a story that holds a light to our gold, celebrates our goodness
and dismisses our failings with nonchalant, cheerful compassion.
Come, my dearest love, let us speak tenderly to one another.
Sit here, up close, where you can feel the soft warmth of my skin.
Rest in this closeness, and let’s be the best of friends once again.
Amen.
Oct 12, 2024
Oct 12, 2024 at 10:10 AM UTC
i just taken for granted the letter " r " inside the word L i t u r g y 🙏 🎵
that is why there is unwanted whisper here in my heart , ❣️❣️❣️
unavoidable jumbling regrets in my puzzled wondering mind ! 🤕🤕🤕
until the work done on behalf of the people became G u i L t y 🙏 🎼
Apr 26, 2023
Apr 26, 2023 at 9:29 AM UTC
if i could go back to that day…. i would
not to captive your smile or remember what you first said to me
by now you’re dead to me
if i could go back, i would hold the hands of time tight
memorize each tick
expose some more light
i would look you in the eyes with your hands ready to receive
and ignore your existence
possibly make you bleed
i can just imagine how free i would be
if i could go back i would’ve never given you the time of day
i gave it like a gift so freely and without dismay
i wish i could go back and ****** it from your hands
my heart, my time and everything in between which continued to stand
someday my heart won’t feel so heavy from regret
everyday it feels like a reset
metamorphosis amongst the pain
i’m keeping sunshine on my brain
i take everything in stride cause it’ll come full circle
someday that love i gave will come back
i find my peace in that
Aug 16, 2021
Aug 16, 2021 at 10:33 PM UTC
You acted in the best way you were capable of in that moment. Allow yourself to be at peace with this. Release doubt and welcome faith🥀.
-diksha dhiman
Oct 23, 2020
Oct 23, 2020 at 1:42 PM UTC
Back when I had lost all my friends and the last lover sat there behind the barred door, she would gather me up with so much warmth.
She knew I could not be without rhythm. So she played the harp for me. Caresses from hushed lullabies sitting against the windowsill.
She wept when she saw me naked. I pretended I did not see. She bathed me in flowers and silk.
Her touch sang mellow tunes on my discolored skin. And her eyes held my soul still, cuddled me as if I was once in her womb.
Tender, careful breathing into my lungs she did. I looked at her. She only smiled. The air sounded an apology.
Aug 18, 2020
Aug 18, 2020 at 9:39 AM UTC
They talk about a world without
Hope.
Without
Mercy.
But never before had I ever met such a
Pure soul
In the form of
You
Unbeknownst to me, you became the
Peace
I turned to seek.
This bitter misunderstanding that has lead me to the thinking I now have.
It has crumbled this positive outlook I use to forsee.
That is until you reached out to
Me.
Leading me away from all this misery with your
Beautiful
Heart.
Allowing me to pass into your veil of
Love.
Your mere presence stilling my mind.
Dissipating my sense of
Uselessness
Quick to
Forgive
And
LOVE
Patient enough to let me Grow.
Never before had I met such a pure soul.
Nor did I realize.
Forsaking appreciation and the comfort of your solitude.
Never before...
Until I lost
You.
Jul 9, 2020
Jul 9, 2020 at 9:06 PM UTC
I just thought that I have left your memories ashore and buried them deep under the sand.
But they were carried by the waves again
in the middle of the ocean.
Here where I am trying to find
and rebuild myself.
Waves of longing and regrets are crushing
my sail.
I’m now swimming, drowning in nostalgic pain.
I dived deep within your memories
and finally found my heart.
I held my precious heart, stayed afloat
and saw a glimpse of my own horizon.
Though self-forgiveness and peace
are yet far to be reached.
I still have my strength.
And I promise not to drown again.
Oct 21, 2019
Oct 21, 2019 at 9:35 AM UTC