#selfdistruction
I smoke your lies
With guilty highs
You shape my hate
Into tiny sighs
You call me insane
Coloring the rain
Your love is constant
But so is the pain
You fell in love with
The ways that I hurt
Self destruction
So what am I worth?
You bring out the worst in me
But you're all that I have
Fighting us helplessly
How long will I last?
Mar 31, 2021
Mar 31, 2021 at 7:58 PM UTC
This isn't easy. I don't know how and what to feel. My mind is a fire and I'm burning love away. It's getting harder to feel. They don't know how it feels to be broken. I can't help it. I feel numb. I'll wait for the waves to leave. I think I'm breaking, I'm a mess in the making. I'm getting tired of the same old feeling in my chest. I'm not a liar, but I've got secrets I can't confess. Don't say you love me, because I don't understand those words. I'm holding on a tightrope. You know I'm not coming home.
Sep 1, 2020
Sep 1, 2020 at 8:26 PM UTC
To my Love:
Destroy
With all the strength you have,
These antique walls that constitute my body.
Excessive solidness,
Excessive height of limbs,
I hear no sound of prayers from your mouth.
Just tear my walls down.
Let me fall in pieces.
Let me slowly bleed on autumn morning.
Unveil me, disrupt me
Like a storm of raging thunders
Washing centuries away.
Undo me and I’ll be yours.
Dismantle me and I’ll be yours, and yours alone.
And once you’re finished come close to me
To build me up again,
To save me from a liturgy of pain
And make me a constellation yet to be
Shaped into the bulky form of galaxies.
Nov 30, 2015
Nov 30, 2015 at 5:12 PM UTC