#saddening
Do you feel it
Its the feeling
That you get
When there's nothing left
No distractions
No messages to check
No cigarettes
Real self is glaring back
Hi hey its me
Do you like what you see?
If not
change direction
Find what you need
The path can get rocky and dark
But every breath
Can be a fresh start
To begin again
Ego deleting
Humans - misleading,
Is there a way out of
Escaping
Waiting
Playing
I'm Breaking
The soul is aching
Knowing i cant keep replacing
Generations running from
the University of Feeling.
But, Dna remembers
The embers
from those cold Novembers
Flown away -
ash to dust
What's done is done
do everything with love,
And don't forget
the ones up above
As we are one.
Blessed be the
Music makers
The creators
The soul achers
Shedding their layers,
Bleed in
Bleed out
Returning the energy to origin
Breathe it in
Breathe it out
The Stagnant air
can get left there,
On the page that i wrote,
Because of the way that you spoke.
Its not the first bad note,
Here comes another ****
the ones that can let go of their pain
The ones that can cry out their rain
Transmuting,
Not always soothing
It stings
its saddening
Its beautifully shedding
From All that's been embedding
Ancestral healing
Will set you free
from the pain
Of your lineages chain.
I'm tired of walking in the rain.
Cycles will not repeat, again.
The wise one
Puts the stop here.
"If not you,
Then who?
If not now,
then When"
Waiting isnt wise,
Youll get left behind
A step essential to take,
To not have inherited infliction
stored in the skin
Remembered through the dna
Sometimes we just can't consciously trace.
But the unconscious
Stores all of our ancestors names
They live through us
We feel their pain
So it must
Take a chosen one
To finally pave
a new way.
Erase
The heartbreak
The envy
and the i wish it could bes.
Break the cycle
of holding
You must heal
all that's been shoved down
And replaced with a drug you found.
Choose you.
Choose now.
Write it
Yell it
Paint it
Feel it
And let it go.
Step into the clear air
You did it
You repaired
Breathe in the fresh air
Remember how you got here
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Jul 29, 2024
Jul 29, 2024 at 7:40 AM UTC
I fantasise of death everyday,
I pray to sleep and pass away eloquently.
I wish not to wake nor to cry,
I wish only for peace and the right to die.
I get tired of days as quick as they end,
I left my life along with some old friends.
I get a sinking feeling where my heart once lay,
I believe it's my soul telling me "It's okay".
"It's okay to hate life,
It's okay to want to die,
You just miss feeling the feeling of feeling alright".
"It's okay, but stay strong,
It's okay to move on,
But if you don't at least try then...".
Dec 21, 2018
Dec 21, 2018 at 6:06 AM UTC
If only dreams could continue forever
Endlessly glide through night
How merciless it is to be awakened
At morning's glowing light
In dreams there is never sorrow
Confusion, guilt, or heartache
Dreams are a subconscious movie
Our minds decide to make
Every twist and fork you encounter
On roads that lead to nowhere
Are just choices your mind invents
And are metaphors for somewhere
Dreams are flush with easy rhymes
You always find a friend
It's saddening that every dream
Eventually has to come to an end
May 27, 2018
May 27, 2018 at 8:05 PM UTC
Depression,
The only way you can feel lonely in a room full of people.
The only way you can sit with a smile on your face, but deep down the monsters are scraping at every part of you
The only way you get up every morning, but wish your body would morph to the bed and rot in one shape.
Depression,
A survival game that forces you to wake up every morning and tell yourself tomorrow will be better.
Mar 11, 2017
Mar 11, 2017 at 10:10 PM UTC
I want to lunge at it,
I want to tear it to shreds.
It drowns me with my own grief.
This false grief,
This false grief that fills my body with weight, that wasn’t there minute before.
I hate it.
I want to rip at the pages and re-wright them.
I want to change the damning end that sends the destructive words to my eyes.
I want to carve out his name,
I want to carve out the man’s name that shot the fatal wounds.
Yet
Yet, I see the bigger picture.
I see the ending gives justice to all that has happened.
I have given her the shock value that she has wished for,
And I love it.
-ALC
Jan 23, 2017
Jan 23, 2017 at 2:36 AM UTC
Keep me in mind when you're lonely at night.
When you can't sleep
Because the bed feels empty without me by your side
Keep me in mind when you wake up for the fifth time before your alarm goes off in the morning
When you can't sleep at night
Because the bed feels empty without me by your side
Keep me in mind.
Because I was the best **** thing you had until you let me slip away.
You let me slip away because you couldn't stand the idea of someone caring about you.
So when the next girl comes along and wants to care for and love you, keep me in mind.
Nov 23, 2015
Nov 23, 2015 at 9:55 PM UTC
Not keeping in touch?
Bin quiet a while,
Not hearing from you much,
Between us, not even a mile,
Making excuses and such,
Too busy, don't have time?
Sparing a minute or two,
Is that such a crime?
A simple text,
Not a big task,
Or a one minute call,
Is that too much to ask?
Slowly drifting away,
Disguised in a strangers mask?
That was unlike yesterday,
How did things fade that fast?
When did avoiding become normal,
Why the sudden distance,
Silent words, is that intentional?
Losing my persistence,
Trying to prevent eye contact?
Why the lack of presence.
Clearing suspicions into facts?
Then Ignoring my whole existence?
Rapidly falling into oblivion,
When did that become a norm?
A new way of communication?
Don't think that's a form,
Is there a way to break this charm?
Or will that just cause more harm?
When will you notice this difference, and decide to keep in touch again?
Even if you're aware of your absence,
Will it change you back? If not, what then..
~A.d | 2 Sep 2014
Feb 19, 2015
Feb 19, 2015 at 9:51 AM UTC
Why
When everything's okay
Why must you pull me back down
Why must you torture me with ugly thoughts
Why must you make me think about my past
About myself
About my future
Why won't you let me be normal
Everyone else looks so happy
Why won't you let me have that
Why must i suffer
Why
Jul 11, 2014
Jul 11, 2014 at 2:29 AM UTC
March 10, 2013
you smiled at me today
i remembered all the stories you wrote me
still hung in the closet where we painted the stars
and then i thought about how heavy my heart grew
when none of your stories were about me
but mine where of you
i hope they're in your sock drawer with my old tie die shirt
and tonight i'm dying all over for you
March 17, 2013
you find yourself in a room
pretending not to immensely alone
surrounded by people
who are pretending to not feel immensely alone
are you alone?
March 29, 2013
you aren't the people you surround yourself with
you are not the things you feel when you are alone
(repeat)
April 24, 2013
we are born empty
life spent fill ourselves with
knowledge and the more palpable
michelangelo
artist mind, with a poets heart
maybe the bubble of everything that he was
was too full with thoughts and wonder to fit any things or humans
he died alone, in a slum, with his golden nothings
and maybe thats all that loneliness is,
the overflowing thoughts in our heads
April 26, 2013
i've realized that i'm okay
the trees are blooming beautiful baby greens
the sun is shining so sweetly
the breeze whispering my name
May 1, 2013
everyday is drifting by
and i'm wrapped up
in this sickeningly sweet
numb half way happiness
May 17, 2013
you watched slurred words
haunched over the dance floor
everyone laughed, but you just starred with pursed lips
you were ashamed, and i hope you're sorry
for snapping me in two
May 19, 2013
i awoke next to a strange boy the other day,
light pounding on eyelids with the 6:30 sunrise
how is it possible to feel so alone with someones arms
wrapped so tightly around you.
i fell asleep next to him holding his face
mind and stomach churning
and i've kissed a lot of pretty strangers,
but none like the one i loved and knew so well
May 19, 2014
May 19, 2014 at 10:12 PM UTC