#rightnow
i never liked myself.
barely picking
myself
off the shower floor.
now there’s a storm
and it’s within me—
a dull buzzing
of a radiator
and a quiet alarm
singing its apocalyptic peace.
Jan 28, 2024
Jan 28, 2024 at 11:36 AM UTC
Right now someone crying
Right now someone laughing
Right now someone sad
Right now someone happy
Right now someone dieing
Right now someone giving birth
Right now someone homeless
Right now someone working
Right now someone hungry
Right now someone eating
Right now someone sleeping
Right now someone a wake
Right now someone dealt
Right now someone on the phone
Right now someone driving
Right now someone losing time
Right now someone making memories
Right now someone lonely
Right now someone celebrate a birthday
Right now someone thinking
Right now someone talking
Right now someone...
Mar 29, 2021
Mar 29, 2021 at 3:20 PM UTC
right now,
i could be singing my soul out into the wind
and one little drop of rain
could shut my mouth and reduce me to ashes
right now,
my life is so very fragile.
it takes so much to make me happy,
and so little to tear me down completely.
Mar 3, 2020
Mar 3, 2020 at 2:21 PM UTC
Do you know what path you seek?
I know not what I want, not what I dream.
But still all I see is an open road –
taking me back, taking me home.
Trees are green and skies are blue,
I have a feeling I’m searching for you.
In this life or the next and the last,
all I can think of is your whispered laugh.
So deep in the forest where the birds all sing,
let’s make a house of branches and leaves.
Away from the city, away from the noise,
comforted only by each other’s voice.
What more could I ask?
What more could I need?
Love is far more important to me.
Leave all your worries, leave all your doubts.
Together right here, together right now.
Sep 14, 2018
Sep 14, 2018 at 9:19 PM UTC
Right Here
Right Now
I'm still here thinking
..Still here drinking
Trying to drown away my pain
With literally nothing left to gain
Right Here
Right Now
I'm still sitting here
Still sippin' my beer
Wondering when I get to hold you
Wondering when I get to be happy too..
Right Here
Right Now
I'm still here
Wondering when I can go there
My skin i'm still pinching
Wondering can I be the one lynching..
Because
Right Here
Right Now
I. Want. To. Die.
Oct 3, 2017
Oct 3, 2017 at 11:30 AM UTC
I would pretend not to care, because it kept you right here.
But now i know, that action is sad. Wearing a mask of ignorance, that blinds all i see. Deafen myself to the world around me. A shattered up heart, ripping apart, with every trail of light that passes the mark. Rip off the mask and now i can see, just how toxic the world, and you, are to me.
Dec 21, 2015
Dec 21, 2015 at 10:21 PM UTC
I am
listening to Save Feris.
I am
drinking wine from a Frappechino bottle.
Said wine,
is called Carnivor.
Heavy,
Biting,
Cheap.
I am
dressed in army pants
and my older brothers chopped up
childhood HD sweater.
Black leather boots, tight.
Pants bloused above.
I
did laundry today.
I cleaned the kitchen
and did the dishes.
I did the shopping
and
took out the trash....
It is winter
and it has finally snowed,
bitter cold.
Been mild so far.
Been,
tense
so far.
Healing
and
moving
Healing
and
moving
I dress for my battles.
I dress for chicago.
prepare for......
everthing.
Jan 7, 2015
Jan 7, 2015 at 6:51 PM UTC
I've said forever an infinite amount of times before
so I won't
So I'll simply say I would give all of my forever
for Right Now
with You
All of my
Right Nows
Because
Right Now
is when
I need You
And I can't seem
to see
past this
Right Now
I find it hard to believe
that there will ever
exist a
Right Now
where I won't want
You to Be
Living in
This Moment
And The Moment
tastes like a wine that is
Done aging and demands to
Be swallowed
Right Now
I'm drunk off of
Your eyelashes
Right Now
my blood is diluted
with
want of You
Right Now
I'm living in a
world of You
All
of my
Right Now
is saturated
in Your voice
echoing through
the memory caves
of my ear
Right Now
You
Are
tangibly absent
Right Now
my room is the
outerspace atmosphere
devoid of any signs of
You
Right Now
words on a
screen
act as a tube of oxygen
keeping my needy lungs
at bay
Right Now
the bags under
my eyes
build with need of
restful You
Right Now
You
Are
The Only Thing
that exists
And
Right Now
I
Am
Terrified.
Dec 11, 2014
Dec 11, 2014 at 2:58 AM UTC
The desert
Is dry,
My thirst
Unsatisfied,
May the dew
From the thighs,
Of the motherland
Amplify.
When my lips
Reach to sip
& my tongue
Is fortified,
I cannot stop
Until nature ****
And our beings
Emulsify.
To the just Lord
She crys,
With
Sweet agony
In her eyes,
My mouth
I open wide,
To reclaim
What is rightfully
My prize.
Our hands
Clasped
&
Unified,
We give
Praise
Towards
The sky,
Once her
Convulsions
Turn
Petrified,
And I listen
To her bosoms
Beat
A Morris code
Lullaby,
My heart
Is
now on
High,
So this old soul
No longer needs to be
Spry,
For the flesh
Has had iT’s fill
And I now
Am ready to die…
Nov 5, 2014
Nov 5, 2014 at 10:39 AM UTC
I want to share with you a part of my heart
That part which is secretly longing to be by your side
I feel like a love struck kid
Giddy headed and light
Cause I am seeing stars in bright day light
And when u smile my world sparkles a thousand times
All I can do is look at you
Hear not the words that are coming through
I see your lips moving and forming words
But all I thinking of is those beautiful curves
I see you, but I am looking through
Of dreamy times, you and I'll be together soon
I cannot wait what time shall bring.
Distant futures seem too far
Right now..right now with you is where I want to be!
Jul 30, 2014
Jul 30, 2014 at 1:55 AM UTC
sad,
that's what i am,
right now,
in one in the
morning,
listening to
the smiths,
and i realize,
that i will stay
like this,
always.
my head hurts,
along with my heart,
and not even you,
can make the pain
disappear.
Apr 11, 2014
Apr 11, 2014 at 5:08 PM UTC