#restlessmind
If I add up all the hours I’ve slept— I’ve only
slept two days… thought it was Tuesday,
:trying to choose a Friday; if I had it my
way, I’d rest more on a Sunday; but some
day stays someday; destination: realizing—
prime and pride,
A man’s pride stays prime while he feels
he still has time; slept through hours of
his life… sigh—
Closed my eyes, already time to rise;
so I write out the day in 24-hour lines.
…the insomniac writer.
Mar 27
Mar 27, 2026 at 5:11 PM UTC
There is a mad place inside some certain
Cold lane where windows creak with
Each gentle whisper.
Surely some revelation is at hand,
Surely someone is to come.
But this mad place, oh this mad place.
It beats and it beats, night and day
And doesn’t stop to sit to mourn or
Feel, this mad place, oh but
Surely some revelation is at hand,
Surely one might someday let it out.
In times of despair, one thinks of
Old age, one thinks of holding hands
And one thinks of committing a sin,
But this mad place, it never stops
To dream, da dum, da dum, indeed,
It beats and it beats!
One day, maybe, it will find a way
To figure it out, one day, or perhaps,
I shall grow a wing, or least
find a way to live with it,
But seldom, will it stop?
When will it stop? When
Will it make sense to stop?
Surely there must be something,
Some shade under a tree
Or some fine stone to sit on.
Oh but this mad place,
this mad place, this restless bird,
When would it drop the shiny pebble from its hands?
Yes, there are times when it lets out a sigh,
Mostly out of desperation. But
When the night passes, it makes up lies
It doesn’t look back to see what it said.
Does it even means what it says?
Does it even bother to say what it means?
This mad place, this uncaged cage,
What does it seem to wait for?
Who is to come? What is to come?
This mad place, this mad place,
When the words fly like out of season
Birds, when it squeaks like winter winds,
Maybe it will think to stop, or ask,
Surely someone is to come.
Surely some revelation is at hand!
Mar 22, 2025
Mar 22, 2025 at 6:14 AM UTC
The streets stretch empty,
silent but for my footsteps—
rhythmic, restless,
kicking pebbles that go nowhere,
like me.
Smoke curls from my lips,
a ghostly whisper dissolving
before it can answer
the questions I never say aloud.
The night doesn’t scare me—
I’ve made peace with shadows,
with streetlights flickering like old dreams.
But the darkness inside?
That’s a beast with my name on its tongue.
I walk faster,
as if the wind might strip me clean,
as if somewhere ahead,
there’s a version of me
who knows how to stop running.
But for now,
I take another drag,
watch the ember burn,
and keep moving.
Feb 28, 2025
Feb 28, 2025 at 1:37 AM UTC